rebirth double

Facing Li Xiao's suspicious eyes, I almost stuttered.

Feeling the comfort of the cold sweat running down my back, I lied and said: "You also know that I don't have much money, so I rented the house to him. He is an all-rounder, he can do everything from washing clothes to cooking to cleaning. No matter what, I don’t suffer, so I let him stay.”

After I said this sentence, I thought about it carefully. In fact, I was not lying, but the truth.

Li Xiao frowned: "That's right, a master like you who throws stinky socks around should also find someone like this to live with. But why does your tone seem to be inferior to him?"

I froze again: "Then what, he is a bit of a clean freak, and I don't pay much attention to these things. Besides, didn't my grandson come to live at my house for a few days last summer? You also know that my grandson is the same kind of person as I am. Not many, and I don’t like noisy things, but some don’t like it.”

Li Xiao burst out laughing, and said, "I live with you, and you say you don't like to be noisy? I said how does he suffer every day?"

How do you feel?That girl Tang Yuchuan didn't take it at all, one day I was happily squatting in front of the computer and playing games to grab someone's head, when a big pillow over there greeted my beautiful head, saying that I was too noisy.

Well, I simply put on the earphones and turned on the voice, and in a group I heard me yelling like a thief, like a prison escapee: "Fuck him, fuck him, surround him from behind, hurry up .”

Later, just as I was about to pick up the weapon that exploded after spending a few tubes of blood, I saw Tang Yuchuan walking over in five steps at a time and unplugging my computer cable.I threw the earphones on the table at that time, pointing at him and swearing at him.Unexpectedly, Tang Yuchuan grew up on what he ate, and his arms are astonishingly strong. He grabbed my wrist and twisted it like that... My handsome face was stuck on the computer desk.His broad body pressed down from my back, his lips touched my ears, and he said word by word: "I said I would go to bed at ten o'clock, and if you don't take my words to heart, I will put you in bed." You press it on the computer desk to do it - you, I promise to do it until you see this computer in the future, you will tremble all over, if you don't believe me, try it, huh?"

As Tang Yuchuan said, those big hands deliberately rubbed between my buttocks slowly, and when he reached the place where Lao Tzu's little chrysanthemum was, his fingertips pushed hard again.I suddenly remembered the first time I met Tang Yuchuan, my face changed.Since then, I have honestly turned off the computer at 09:30.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help shivering, and smiled at Li Xiao: "Then, let's bear it, otherwise, what else can I do."

Li Xiao didn't care, put my shoulders on my shoulders and we walked out of the school gate, we hailed a taxi and went straight to the shopping mall after we got out of the school gate.

While sitting in the car, Li Xiao said: "Silent, I just called Xiao Qi and the fourth child to talk about having dinner together at night. Our brothers only see each other once a year, so tonight we will be sure." If you don't get drunk, you won't go home."

I was excited and nodded quickly: "Okay, I won't return if I'm not drunk!"

When I'm with Li Xiao, I always feel extremely comfortable. I can say anything and dare to do anything.First, I accompanied Li Xiao to buy some casual clothes, and then followed him to an international business hotel that he had opened in advance, waiting for him to take a shower and change clothes.

After such a trip, it was time for dinner. Xiao Qi and the fourth child also went to the business hotel to chat with Li Xiao, and by the way, discussed where to go to kill Li Xiao at night.But Li Xiao said that he would go to the small restaurant in front of the high school where our parents often go to eat small dishes and drink beer.Li Xiao's words brought back our memories, and the three of us felt sour when we heard it, and hurriedly called our grandson, which made our grandson in the military academy very anxious.

I remember that during the summer vacation last year, Li Xiao originally asked me to go to the capital with my grandson to find him, and it happened that the three of us could still get together.But that girl Tang Yuchuan refused to go no matter what.And when Li Xiao finished his work and came to me, his grandson's school had already started, so we couldn't get together by accident.This year, my grandson didn't come to see me during the summer vacation when he said something happened at home, so Li Xiao hasn't seen us for almost two years.

The few of us ordered a lot of dishes in the small restaurant and ordered a lot of wine.I thought it was time for Tang Yuchuan to go home after class, so I called him.

"Hello, Tang Yuchuan."

"Well, I have another 5 minutes before the school gate."

I coughed lightly, and quickly said: "I won't go back to eat today, a few old classmates finally got together and wanted to have dinner together at night, so don't wait for me, go back first."

"Silence, you've been skipping class since ten o'clock in the morning, and now it's five fifty in the evening, haven't you talked enough?"

I looked at the cold dishes that were already on the table, and said, "In the afternoon, there were not all people here, and two of them just arrived."

Tang Yuchuan on the other side of the phone didn't speak. I fed him twice before I heard Tang Yuchuan say coldly: "Whatever you want." As soon as I was about to say something, Tang Yuchuan immediately disconnected the phone, and I didn't say much. Sit down and eat whatever you want.

While drinking, our brothers reviewed a lot of mindless things we did in middle and high school.In fact, when I was in junior high school, every time my grandson and I got into trouble, it was Li Xiao who helped us fight in the end.Li Xiao is a very emotional person. Although he will not go to high school after finishing high school, he said that he has been studying by himself.Although Li Xiao doesn't like to study, it doesn't mean that he is not good at studying.Both his and his grandson's grades are much better than mine, and Li Xiao's family and his grandson's family background are also very good.And the most important thing is that since they left, I feel that the world has lost its color.

Just when I was lost, I suddenly felt a heavy weight on my shoulders. It was Li Xiao who was sitting next to me and suddenly hugged my shoulders, then patted me twice, and said seriously: "Silence, Remember what I said to you the day I graduated from high school?"

I looked at Li Xiao's handsome facial features, and saw my lost look reflected in his pool-like eyes, my heart was shocked, and I nodded abruptly.

Li Xiao smiled slightly and said: "Just remember, I said that after I leave my brother and have my own territory and career, I will bring you there to hang out with me, and I will never let you be alone. Silence, These words will always be counted at any time, if you are a buddy, remember it for me."

That was the year my grandma and grandpa passed away, and I was a sophomore in high school that year.

I will never forget that day.

At that time, when I was kneeling in the mourning hall and feeling cold, it was my grandson and Li Xiao who knelt with me in mourning and mourning.We didn't say anything, and they didn't even say anything to comfort me. They just knelt with me and accompanied me to cremation and burial.When I held flowers and looked at the tombstone, Li Xiao said to me: "Silence, you will always have my buddy Li Xiao by your side." My eyes were red at that time.

I didn’t cry when my grandma and grandpa died. In fact, their health was not very good. The doctor told me to sit and prepare for it a few years ago. My grandpa is a veteran and has been rated as disabled, so he retired The wages and subsidies are also low, and the two elderly people have lived frugally all their lives, so there is no need to worry about money when the two elderly people are sick and hospitalized.It's just that they always think that if there is no me, my mother can marry a good person at that time, so they always sigh when they look at me.

Although they treat me very well and take care of my food and clothes, but in terms of family relationship, they don't pick up their grandchildren from school like other families, or anything else.But I don't complain at all, I know I owe it to my mother, if it wasn't for me, my mother wouldn't choose me to swallow my anger at my grandpa's house before I was seven years old.

When we were in the Xia family, my mother and I thought that we could live in peace, but in the end my grandpa kicked my mother out. I didn’t have a registered permanent residence, so I took my mother’s surname, Shen .

My mother's health is not good, she is a woman of duty, the kind who won't say it no matter how uncomfortable she feels.I was still young at the time, so I didn't see anything wrong with my mother when she came out of that house, and I thought it was a good thing that I finally didn't have to look at other people's faces to live, but my mother thought she was his most trusted person. The man was abandoned.

After I returned to city B, I was old enough to go to school, but my mother committed suicide by jumping off a building shortly after I started school. She left me a letter asking me not to blame my dad, saying that our family was too different from theirs. , my mother said she loves my dad and doesn't want me to hate my dad.

I was only seven years old at the time, so I didn't understand what those words meant.Although I went to high school and grew up, I still don't quite understand what love is, and why my mother loves so much that she commits suicide for a man who has betrayed her.I think I am different from my mother, my mother is a weak woman, the kind of character that smashes teeth and swallows blood, but I am not, I can't, and I don't want to be angry, and I don't think I will do it for anyone give up life.

I haven't told Tang Yuchuan about these things, and he hasn't asked me either.In fact, after thinking about it, we have been dating for more than three years, and I have never asked Tang Yuchuanzai carefully what kind of business the family does.

In fact, Tang Yuchuan didn't know how cowardly the silent person beside him was. He didn't know that it wasn't because he didn't want to ask, but because he didn't dare to ask.From Tang Yuchuan's usual expenses and personality, I can guess that Tang Yuchuan's family is not ordinary rich.Firstly, I have nothing and I am not outstanding anywhere, and secondly, I am still a man.I am always afraid that if I mention it, this relationship will change and disappear.

Tang Yuchuan didn't know what I learned through him in those three years, so I always felt very sad when I was approaching graduation, but I didn't know how to speak, but I sincerely hope that Tang Yuchuan can stay in city b, or Said let me go with him.I thought that graduation would be a turning point or a fork in our lives, but I didn't really wait for graduation until I died.And now I realize that what I thought was actually nonsense and asking for trouble.

What future?What's next?

He, Tang Yuchuan, never looked at the silence in front of him at all. In his heart, there will always be only the silence in the distance, not me.

When I realized that I was just a stand-in, I accidentally found the letter my mother left me back then.I suddenly understood the meaning of her words, and I suddenly understood why she gave up her life.

I think it was a kind of despair that was close to destruction.

It’s so desperate, it’s like walking in the dark when you suddenly see a beam of light, there is a life-saving straw, you hold on to it desperately, and it also desperately pulls you towards the light, just when you feel that you are about to see When the light comes, it throws you into an even more hopeless abyss.That kind of helplessness and desolation will never be felt by others.But when my mother left, to be honest, I think she didn't think about how sad my grandma, grandpa and I would be, so my mother is still different from me, family?love?I have neither of these.The only thing left at that time was friendship.

After discovering that Tang Yuchuan was silent with the other, I couldn't stand the loneliness and despair.Li Xiao, who was still in Shenzhen at that time, heard his grandson say something about me and Tang Yuchuan, then rushed back to City B and had a big drink with me.He asked me what was going on, and I felt extremely uncomfortable at the time, and it could even be said to have reached a limit.So I told Li Xiao everything, I didn't get hysterical, I didn't cry, I just said with a stiff face.Li Xiao was very angry, and even said that he would hack Tang Yuchuan to death.

I told Li Xiao not to go, because then I would feel more like an abandoned clown, that was my last dignity, and I couldn't lose it.

Li Xiao said the same thing to me at that time, he said: "Silence, do you still remember what I told you when I graduated from high school? After the matter is settled, I will take you to do it together, you are so smart, you will definitely be able to do it."

After I got drunk, I realized everything. After a few days of confusion, I cheered up again. I felt that I was different from my mother. I would not die for someone who hurt me, or who was not afraid of me. To cry, to despair.I want to live, live seriously, live hard.

It’s just that the sky didn’t go as planned. After Li Xiao left, I saw the four air tickets when I went home. I wanted to relax and start a new life, but I died instead.

It's just that the saying is right, if God closes a door for you, he will definitely open a window for you.God, the old man did what he said, but this window belongs to Xu Cheng, not mine.

Of course, this is a story.