rebirth double

Tang Yuchuan's voice trembled a little, I struggled to get up, but Tang Yuchuan held my hand, pulled me closer to his arms again, and touched my wound with his hand.

"Silence, why do you have stitched wounds here?"

I gritted my teeth in pain: "No... don't worry about it, get out of here."

Tang Yuchuan ignored me, picked me up and ran to the hospital.The doctor said that my incision was torn. I really don't know what kind of luck I had. A simple appendicitis operation was sewed up and down twice, and it was hard not to leave a scar.

After leaving the operating room, I called Li Xiao, and he said that he was fine, it was just a skin trauma, and it took half a month for the swelling to subside due to a big bump on his head.

I was afraid that he would lie to me and insisted on letting him send me a photo on WeChat. Li Xiao had no choice but to post it. He was similar to Tang Yuchuan. A small piece of gauze wrapped it, and I felt a little relieved.Tang Yuchuan saw that I didn't go out on the phone, so he just sat in front of the bed, lowered his head and didn't speak.

We were relatively speechless for a while, and I was so embarrassed that I wanted to pretend to be asleep.

I don't know how long there was silence before Tang Yuchuan sniffed.

"sorry."

Tang Yuchuan's sudden apology made me not know what to say. He raised his eyes and looked at me, which were filled with bloodshot eyes filled with guilt. I choked when I saw him like this and didn't know what to say.

Tang Yuchuan has never been like this, he never likes to swear, but he said a lot just now, he usually doesn't get angry at every turn, even if he's in conflict, he's the kind of person who hides a knife in his smile, playing tricks on me on the bed to force me to admit my mistakes Lord, at other times he has always been quite accommodating to my violent temper.

But this time I don't know what's wrong, as soon as Li Xiao appeared, something was wrong with him, I don't know if he was jealous or something else.

But what Li Xiao said is right, love is mutual respect, and judging from what happened this week, Tang Yuchuan doesn't respect me, and he looks so angry that he almost wants to tear me apart. I confessed my love and kissed me, but this kind of extreme behavior is too difficult for people to accept.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Tang Yuchuan said again: "Mr. Fan Cheng called me just now and scolded me. He said that your injury was serious and you had an appendix operation. I... I'm sorry, I was mad at the time." That's why I treat you like that, keep silent, I really don't know, I..."

I thought about Fan Chengjun's words, it should be the doctor who is doing nothing, I sighed and said: "Tang Yuchuan, since Li Xiao just appeared, your nose is not your nose and your face is not your face. Since you said your brother came, you started to turn off the phone, I was wondering, am I so shameless? I admit that I was sorry for Li Xiao kissing me, but you shouldn’t have treated me like that. I had a fever that night, and you kept turning off your phone, if it wasn’t for Li Xiao When I rushed over, I might have died at home. As a result, you didn’t call me, not even a word of concern. Li Xiao went home because he wanted to send me something for the hospital. Li Xiao just felt that You don't respect me. And you hurt me and kept turning off the phone, because of this, that's why I said I want to break up with you. "

"sorry."

Tang Yuchuan just said these three words and fell silent again. I suddenly remembered what the doctor said that day, and looked at him in confusion.

"Tang Yuchuan, you like me, right?"

When I asked this question, I was frightened by myself. After a year of dating and cohabitation, I almost played a hundred and eight moves in bed, and asking such a question at this time is really speechless. .

But what made me feel even more chilled was Tang Yuchuan's expression at this time. His normally dark eyes seemed to be looking at me, looking at me... as if he was not looking at me, but looking at me. Is to look elsewhere.I can't say it well, he seemed to be confused by the sentence I asked, he sat there stiffly and looked at me without saying a word.

His silence left me with nowhere to stand. I trembled and pulled the corners of my mouth, trying to pretend to be indifferent and said: "What is this? Could it be that we are just friends?"

Tang Yuchuan opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything. My heart seemed to be torn in two, and he leaned back and closed his eyes pretending to be generous: "I think, let's be separated for a while. calm down."

Afterwards Tang Yuchuan took care of me for a week, he didn't talk much at first, let alone now.Several times he was in a daze, or he didn't know what he was looking at the window.

Fang Xing and Xing Yun came to see me during the few days in the hospital, and my mentor also came to see me, which made me quite embarrassed, and I stayed there for a week before returning home.

I looked at Tang Yuchuan who was standing by the door looking at me, thought for a while and said, "You, you better not stay here, let's calm down."

Tang Yuchuan just looked at me like this and didn't speak. I felt a little uncomfortable being looked at by his bewildered eyes, so I simply turned my head away. Tang Yuchuan was silent, sighed and said, "Okay then."

As Tang Yuchuan spoke, he took out the trolley case in the closet, walked out the door, turned around and said, "The key..."

I thought: "Put it on the shoe cabinet."

Tang Yuchuan nodded, and then told me: "Don't eat spicy food, and don't eat those junk foods. You must eat breakfast, and eat in the cafeteria for lunch. Don't eat bread or anything, which is not nutritious. If you really don't want to cook, go out and eat some at night." Congee, the porridge restaurant in the east is not bad.”

I just nodded with a sore heart, Tang Yuchuan pushed the door open and left. When the door was closed with a "click", my heart seemed to be trampled hard.I think it's over for us, because Tang Yuchuan didn't say what I wanted to hear in the end, I want to hear him say, silence, I like you.

He didn't know that I was actually very insecure. I knew that Tang Yuchuan had a good family background, studied well, was good at everything, and had everything.But I have nothing, this is a helpless sense of inferiority.

Tang Yuchuan has given me the feeling of family over the past year, making me feel that I am not alone in this world. I don’t know why he never said he likes me, but I feel that I am loved, but Tang Yuchuan's silence that day made me confused.

I like him, I know this very well, otherwise I am a good straight man, why would I be willing to lie under him and let Tang Yuchuan act like a woman-fuck.

I gave him everything I could, including my self-esteem. I was just uneasy and wanted a sense of security.But I think Tang Yuchuan doesn't seem to understand this, because he has everything and lacks everything.But I lack, I want to be loved and cared about, I think the people I care about, the people I like also care about me, like me, and respect me.

Tang Yuchuan, do I want too much?

……

When Tang Yuchuan first lived in my house, we borrowed Tang Yuchuan's classmate's motorcycle to go to school, but when the weather was bad, it was a bit wind-proof.Later, I wanted to make a subway, but Tang Yuchuan bought a car worth 10,000+ without saying a word, and then took me to school all day long.I also told him because of this, but he just said to me confidently, "This is for us to complete our studies better."

I was rolled my eyes by his righteous words, but I always get off at the alley which is still some distance from the school. After all, Tang Yuchuan and I also feel that it is always bad to be seen.

Now that Tang Yuchuan is gone, I can only take the subway, which makes me feel a little headache. I think it is more rational to move back to the dormitory.