rebirth double

That was a shame I will never forget.

The first time I saw Tang Yuchuan and Shen Mo was in a swimming pool in the capital.Mo Mo almost fell into the water because of a small accident, but at that time Tang Yuchuan yelled Brother Mo Mo and stopped him in time. Unfortunately, I was thrown into the water because of Tang Yuchuan catching the man. And I don't know how to water.Heh, maybe Tang Yuchuan didn't even know that I was actually a landlubber, so he just dragged her brother Mo Mo away, and I was completely castrated.If it wasn't for my grandson and the lifeguards who followed me up from the deep water, I guess I would have drowned at that time.

When I woke up from the hospital at that time, although I was very angry, I was more panicked.It’s just that at that time, I still held a sliver of hope in my heart, and I was still willing to listen to Tang Yuchuan’s explanation. After all, I never knew that there was another silent existence before that, and I was completely dumbfounded at the time .

I will never forget that day, my heart was almost at breaking point.I desperately hugged my body and held the phone tightly, and called Tang Yuchuan over and over again, but he kept turning off the phone, and kept...

The busy tone all night seemed to drag me into a bottomless abyss, until my mobile phone ran out of the last bit of battery, until my humble hope was wiped out bit by bit, and I couldn't wait for Tang Yuchuan's explain.

I couldn't sit still, so I flew back to city b early the next morning. At that time, I didn't know where the silence was. I couldn't find Tang Yuchuan, so I remembered that I was in a private hospital in city b. Fan Shengjun is a doctor here.

Fan Shengjun was very surprised when he saw me, so I just said to him: "I want to talk to you about Tang Yuchuan."

Fan Shengjun didn't refuse me, and he didn't have any surgery that day, so I followed him into a coffee shop after work in the afternoon.

Fan Chengjun still smiled heartlessly, he looked at me and asked: "So silent kid, what do you want to ask me?"

I didn't know how to speak, but I was eager to know the answer, so I simply asked: "Doctor, have you seen Silence? A person who looks very similar to me."

Fan Chengjun took a sip of his coffee, squinted his eyes and looked at me and said, "Well, the relationship between the Shen family and the Tang family is quite good, why? Tang Yuchuan told you?"

I just felt pain in my heart, clenched my fists and could only shake my head: "I... I saw them in the capital yesterday."

"Oh?" Fan Chengjun raised his eyebrows and asked me like a curious cat: "Then why didn't you ask him face to face, why did you come to me instead?"

I remembered the busy tone all night, and I felt like I was slapped hard on the face, and it hurt hot.

I took a deep breath: "He left silently, I... I didn't catch up."

How can I put it, it's just that I didn't catch up, huh.

Fan Chengjun smiled: "I see you are quite clever, you wouldn't go to his house to block him?"

I froze slightly: "His home is in Shenzhen, Shenzhen is so big, where should I stop him?"

Fan Chengjun seemed surprised. After blinking dryly at me, he sighed and said, "Well, you can ask whatever you want, but I don't know much."

My hand was stirring the coffee in the cup, my face reflected on the coffee was disturbed out of shape, my heart was beating desperately, panicked.

"He... What is his relationship with that silence?"

Fan Chengjun frowned, as if he couldn't draw a conclusion.But my eyes were looking at him without blinking, no one knew my uneasiness at this moment.

Fan Shengjun said: "I think Tang Yuchuan has feelings for Shen Mo, since he was a child, this is for sure. It's just how Mo Mo thinks of Tang Yuchuan... I think he regards Tang Yuchuan as his younger brother, after all, Mo Mo When I met Tang Yuchuan for the first time, Tang Yuchuan was only ten years old, just a kid."

What kind of state should a heart be when it is so severely attacked that it cannot breathe?

I can't describe how I feel right now.

I suddenly thought of the face that looked very similar to mine and had the same name.

The whole body seemed to be exhausted, and the sliver of hope that was desperately ignited was completely extinguished in an instant.

"So...that's why Tang Yuchuan approached me from the very beginning...he has been lying to me, he...he used me as someone else's substitute...for three years."

My nose was sore for a while, and my voice was trembling badly.I'm not asking Fan Chengjun this sentence, but I'm stating an indisputable fact to myself, the piece of happiness that was pieced together was shattered all of a sudden, I couldn't believe it for a while, and couldn't accept it.

Fan Chengjun's hand suddenly touched my shoulder, and patted it lightly: "Are you in love? We meet and we part! Young people, don't be so depressed, who hasn't met one or two scumbags, right?"

I looked at Fan Chengjun's sympathetic gaze, and my heart was pierced. He didn't know what Tang Yuchuan meant to me. He was not just a love, he had become my relative, the person I depended on, and my whole world.

Mr. Fan Cheng didn't know, or... Tang Yuchuan didn't know either.

I tried my best to hold back the soreness in my heart, and asked blankly: "Doctor, you, can you help me get in touch with Tang Yuchuan, I want to have a good talk with him. Well, even if it is a breakup, there should be an explanation."

"Tang Yuchuan's phone is turned off?"

I bit my lip and nodded silently, Fan Chengjun took out his mobile phone: "Well, since you said that he was still with Shen Mo yesterday, then I'll call Shen Mo and ask."

I suddenly felt my body go limp, and thinking that Tang Yuchuan might spend the whole night with that silent person, I felt chills all over my body.

I looked at Fan Chengjun's cell phone next to my ear, as if looking at another gallows.

Since we were sitting very close together, I could even hear some of Fan Shengjun's voice waiting to be answered on his cell phone. Finally, the call was connected.

"Hello? Brother Shengjun?"

It was the sound of silence.

Fan Chengjun glanced at me, I suddenly remembered something and shook my head, Fan Chengjun understood and nodded towards me.

"Silence, where are you now?"

Shen Mo said: "Well, I just arrived in city b, here are some things for me, I'm going to come back and pack it up before going back."

Fan Shengjun said, "Hey? Didn't you say you were going to England some time ago?"

Silently said: "I'm not going, I can't go. Brother Shengjun, I'll explain to you in a few days."

Fan Chengjun said: "Oh, so. Did Yu Chuan come to City B too? I haven't seen him for a long time."

My breath stopped.

I heard Shen Mo say: "Well, he's in the apartment with me, what's the matter with brother Sheng Jun?"

Fan Chengjun smiled: "Oh, it's nothing, isn't it just a matter of concern for you?"

"Oh, hehe, I'm fine."

Fan Chengjun said again: "That's it, I will go back in a few days, and I will contact you then."

"okay."

Fan Chengjun hung up the phone, took out a piece of paper and wrote me an address.

"This is the address of Shen Mo's apartment, and Tang Yuchuan is also there. Uh... If you have any anger, just go to Tang Yuchuan, don't hurt the innocent."

I smiled dryly: "Well, I won't trouble Silence. Thank you, doctor."

I walked out of the cafe with the address in my hand. The August sun hit the ground and made me dizzy. Sweat oozes from my scalp bit by bit, running down my cheeks and sinking into my collar. I stood at the bottom of the building and looked up. The space seemed to be distorted in an instant.

I leaned against a street lamp, tremblingly took out my mobile phone and tried to call Tang Yuchuan, but just like last night, I still couldn't get through.

I had no choice but to take the elevator. The moment of weightlessness when the elevator ascended made me feel dizzy for a while.I looked at the embarrassing face reflected in the elevator, and simply closed my eyes. I don't know why I came here. Maybe I wanted to hear what Tang Yuchuan had to say, or maybe I didn't give up until the south wall Just waiting for his final head-on blow.

I don't know, my mind went blank.

The elevator stopped, and I moved step by step to the door.I stretched out my hand to ring the doorbell, obviously it was such a simple action, but my hand refused to press it, picked it up and put it down, picked it up and put it down again.

I took a deep breath and slowly closed my eyes.

I rang the doorbell.

"coming!"

I heard footsteps, someone came and opened the door, there was silence.

"you……"

Silence looked at me and my expression changed instantly. I clenched my fist tightly and tried to be polite: "Hi, I want to find Tang Yuchuan, is he there?"

After the silence, he took a small step back: "Xiao Chuan went to the supermarket to buy something, and he will come up in a while. Yes, why don't you come in first and sit for a while."

I nodded stiffly and entered the door, and the silence was a little awkward: "Well, you sit down first, and I'll pour you a glass of juice."

Silently speaking, he went into the kitchen. I didn't want to sit here at all. When I thought that Tang Yuchuan might be here too, or might spend the night here without knowing it, I felt sick for a while.

The dishes on the dinner table were still smoking. I glanced over them from the corner of my eye, but froze in place.

There are four dishes and one soup on the table.

Shrimp fried corn, broccoli fried fungus, steamed eggplant, cold kelp shreds, and a preserved egg and lean meat porridge.

It suddenly occurred to me that when I first met Tang Yuchuan, the first meal he cooked for me was exactly the same, so that Tang Yuchuan would cook these dishes or other similar dishes from time to time, and while putting them in my bowl, he said: " Eat more vegetables to have a balanced nutrition, not fish and meat all day long."

How ironic.

Shen Mo came out of the kitchen with a glass of juice, and said softly, "Well, have you eaten yet? Do you want to eat together later?"

I seemed to hear the heart-breaking business, and I looked at the silence dumbfounding.

"These are what you like to eat silently, but they are not what I like to eat."

Silence was a little stunned, and at this moment the doorbell rang, and I wiped my face: "I'll open it."

My hand slowly touched the doorknob, and with a "click", I opened the door.

Tang Yuchuan smiled and said, "It's really hot outside today!"

"Xiao Chuan..."

Before I could speak, Shen Mo standing behind me spoke first, as if to remind Tang Yuchuan that he was not the one who opened the door.

The thing in Tang Yuchuan's hand fell to the ground, and I saw Tang Yuchuan's pale face instantly.

I looked at him and asked, "Tang Yuchuan, are he and I really... so similar?"

I slowly approached, but Tang Yuchuan stepped back step by step with a pale face.

"Stir-fried corn with shrimps? Fried fungus with broccoli? Steamed eggplant? Cold seaweed shreds? Preserved egg and lean meat porridge? These are all his favorites, Tang Yuchuan, you really know how to spoil people."

Tang Yuchuan's silence made me completely lose my mind. I picked up Tang Yuchuan's collar, my eyes widened, and my breathing completely changed.

"Answer me? You fucking talk! What do you think of me? You talk to me!"

I grabbed Tang Yuchuan and walked towards the stairs. Tang Yuchuan was dragged to the stairwell without saying a word, and Shen Mo grabbed my arm.

"Can't we have a good talk? Let go first!"

"Say you-mother-force!"

So far, what else is there to say?

I was so mad that I pushed Shen Mo to the ground. Tang Yuchuan yanked off my arm and turned around to help Shen Mo on the ground.

"Brother Mo Mo, are you okay?"

"Tang Yuchuan!"

My eyesight was cracking, Tang Yuchuan bit his lip, helped Shen Mo stand up, lowered his head and said, "Xiao Mo, can we talk about it when we go back? This matter has nothing to do with Brother Mo Mo."

"Why has nothing to do with him? If it wasn't for him, would you be willing to approach me? Tang Yuchuan, I-fuck you-mother!"

I was about to swing my fist at Tang Yuchuan, but Tang Yuchuan turned sideways subconsciously. He stretched out his left arm to cover the silence that was close at hand. His right arm took advantage of the trend and stood on the stairs. I lost my center of gravity all of a sudden, and staggered straight and rolled down the stairs behind me.

"Little Mo!"

I subconsciously covered my face, and I didn't know how many steps I rolled down before I stopped. I just felt as if my head hit something suddenly, and then something blocked my sight.

It hurts, my whole body hurts.

"Xiao Mo, how are you? Xiao Mo, Xiao Mo!"

After a while of dizziness, I seemed to be memorized by someone.There was a burst of soreness in my eyes, and someone's breathing seemed to come from my ears.When I opened my eyes, all I saw was scarlet, and my palms were covered with blood.Then, I saw that Tang Yuchuan's white T-shirt was also stained red with blood.

I seem to have been carried away by Tang Yuchuan for a long time, so long that all the things that I have been with Tang Yuchuan for three years flashed through my head quickly.

The sunshine of Yaoyang pierced my back, and I suddenly remembered what Tang Yuchuan once said to me. At that time, I asked him, "Tang Yuchuan, do I have the right to fight with you if I am silent?"

Tang Yuchuan said, "You have."

Tang Yuchuan also said, "Silence, even if we really have differences and misunderstandings in the future, you can't just walk away. Do you know... I'd rather you quarrel with me."

Yes, I made a fuss, then what?

Tang Yuchuan, who are you talking about?

To you, I am just his substitute, what right do I have to make trouble?

Maybe I have the right to make trouble in front of others, but in front of Shen Mo, I am just a substitute who is only worthy of being fucked by you, without even my dignity, how can I have the right to make trouble with you?

I used my last strength to hug Tang Yuchuan's neck, Tang Yuchuan's body was stiff, he lifted my body up, and then looked back at me: "Xiao Mo, hold on, Don't scare me... I didn't mean it, I really didn't mean it, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

What else is there to explain, Tang Yuchuan, we are completely finished.

Tang Yuchuan pushed me into a taxi, I was groggy, and my eyes were sometimes clear and sometimes blurred.

"Master, go to the nearest hospital, hurry up!"

Tang Yuchuan pulled me into his arms, and tightly held my blood-stained hand. I couldn't see his face, and I didn't have the energy to look at it anymore.

"Xiao Mo, Xiao Mo..."

I think I was stunned, and I felt dizzy when I moved my head lightly.

"Xiao Mo, Xiao Mo, how are you? You answer me! Don't scare me...Xiao Mo...Master, hurry up!"

Within a few minutes, the car stopped suddenly. Tang Yuchuan carried me on his back and rushed into the outpatient building. I heard Tang Yuchuan shouting for a doctor, and then put me on a stretcher. I saw a doctor and several nurses running over and pushed me inside.

I heard the doctor say to Tang Yuchuan: "Go and register him quickly, we will push him into the emergency room!"

Tang Yuchuan let go of my hand suddenly, and I subconsciously reached out to grab it but couldn't catch anything.I tilted my head and saw Tang Yuchuan's back turned to my leaving back, and he lowered his arms weakly. I just watched Tang Yuchuan's figure blur little by little until it disappeared completely.

I seem to have never been so awake as I am at this moment.

I didn't care about the blood on my head and sat up suddenly. The doctors and nurses were taken aback by me. I covered the wound with my hands and jumped off the emergency stretcher.

"Hey? Where are you going, sir? Sir!"

I ran out desperately. I didn't want to see Tang Yuchuan again, and I didn't want to wait for him to explain. His actions have replaced all explanations. The matter is already so clear, how can I explain it?

A word of sorry?

That is tantamount to a slap in the face given to me in public, why should I bear it!

And it wasn't until much, much later when I thought about it that I realized...

That glance was the last time I saw Tang Yuchuan.