rebirth double

I vaguely felt a pair of hands gently stroking my head, just like my mother did when I was a child, I couldn't help but groaned, and then I heard someone say "I will always be by your side, and I will never leave you behind You are alone."

Who is it?

But I think this is not important, I need such a commitment, whether it is a man, a woman, a lover or a friend.And that person will not lie to me, betray me, or hurt me, and I will treat him wholeheartedly, supporting and accompanying me all the time. I don't want to be alone, I want someone to accompany me.

A figure in front of me became clearer and clearer. He turned around slowly. I couldn't see his appearance clearly. I only saw that pair of lips parted slightly, and there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, as if he was saying something to me. What, I couldn't hear what he was saying, so I walked over carefully to try to listen carefully.

I heard him say, "Silence, this white shirt suits you well."

White shirt?But I don't like white shirts.

I wanted to speak, but I couldn't make a sound. The man seemed very happy. He stretched out his hand, gently pinched a strand of my hair and fiddled with it. Then he leaned over and smelled it, and then said: " Silence, black hair suits you."

black hair?But both Li Xiao and I think I look good with brown hair.

The man took my hand and walked forward slowly. He was smiling at me, but when I looked at it, I felt more and more strange.

"Silent, what do you think of the pair of leather shoes in the window? They must fit you well."

leather shoes?But I don't like leather shoes, I like casual shoes, ah, sneakers are fine too.

My head shook, and there was a buzzing sound. I was a little confused, and slowly raised my head and asked, "Are you talking to me?"

The man didn't seem to hear me, he let go of my hand lightly, and entered the store.

I stood at the door in a daze, at a loss. The road around me was wide, crowded with people, and I felt inexplicable panic. I quickly stretched out my hand to open the door and get to that person.

But no matter how hard I tried, the door just wouldn't open.I was so tired that I had to sit on the steps and wait for the man to come out, this place is so strange, I only know him, um... what's his name?

I don't know how long I sat there, the man finally walked out of the store carrying a bag, I hurriedly stood up and wanted to hold his hand, but the man handed out the things in his hand with a smile on his face and said, "Silence , I know you like this brand of shoes, I gave them to you."

I stared blankly at the man's outstretched hand, not knowing why.Then I saw a pair of hands taking the thing over, and said, "Thank you, Xiao Chuan."

They walked side by side, as if no one noticed my existence, I suddenly remembered the man's name, he is the one I love the most, he is the one who said that he will always be with me and will not leave me alone Man, his name is Tang Yuchuan.

Don't, don't go, Tang Yuchuan, you said you would stay with me.

I desperately pounced forward to hug his waist, but everything in front of me seemed to disappear in that desperate pounce. I lost my center of gravity and fell into a bottomless trap suddenly. abyss.

"No...don't, don't..."

"Xiao Mo? Xiao Mo, Xiao Mo!"

"what!"

I opened my eyes suddenly, and cold sweat slid down my forehead to my temples.I sat up suddenly, but was hugged gently by someone. I panted heavily, until my breathing calmed down completely, and I didn't really realize that the person hugging me was Tang Yuchuan.

Oh, please forgive me.

"Let go."

Tang Yuchuan let go of his arms silently, and I wiped off my sweat with my sleeves.

"Xiao Mo, are you having a nightmare?"

"It has nothing to do with you." I reached out and fumbled for the bedside lamp to slowly turn on, and casually undid the first button of my jacket.

Tang Yuchuan brought over the wooden plate that was placed aside: "Xiao Mo, you didn't eat anything tonight, I made you something to eat, can you sleep after eating?"

I shook my head: "I'm not hungry. Also, I have to knock on the door when I come in."

Tang Yuchuan sat by the bed and was silent for a while, then said: "Xiao Mo, what do you like to eat? I will make it for you tomorrow. In fact, I don't want you to eat spicy food because your body always gets angry. Eating too much is really bad. As for what colors you like and what you hate, I remember them all. How could you not remember? It's just... just what you said just now, I really don't want to justify anything, I admit that I started It was my mistake to approach you only with a purpose. But if it weren’t for this, I wouldn’t have met you. In fact, for this alone, I’m still very grateful to God, and thank him...Let me once again I see you. However, if you really like spicy food, I will make it for you, but you can’t eat too much. If you tell me, I will definitely remember it, okay?”

I smiled: "You don't need to remember such boring things."

"Your business is not boring, Xiao Mo, I know that I have done a lot of mistakes before, I just need a chance."

I slowly stood up and looked at him quietly: "Tang Yuchuan, why do you want a chance and I will give it to you, tell me, why do you?"

Tang Yuchuan just sat on the side of the bed holding the wooden tray and didn't speak.I looked at the huge floor-to-ceiling windows opposite, and the big piece of moonlight falling on the floor, and sighed: "You go out, I want to take a shower."

"how should I do."

"What?" Tang Yuchuan muttered something that I didn't hear clearly, I watched Tang Yuchuan's chest rise and fall, he raised his head, and looked at me slowly: "Xiao Mo, what am I going to do? You are willing to give me a chance, can you tell me?"

I clenched my fists, turned around and stared at my own shadow on the floor-to-ceiling window: "It's too late, I don't need it anymore."

Tang Yuchuan stood up slowly and walked behind me. His arms were reflected in the huge floor-to-ceiling windows. He raised them slowly and put them down silently.

"I like you, I like you, I really like you, why don't you believe me..."

How can I believe it?

Tang Yuchuan, do you know how firmly I believed in these four words of yours, but after Qian Fan died, how could I still dare to believe it.

I slowly turned around and leaned against the cold floor-to-ceiling windows. The moonlight hit Tang Yuchuan's body, but his face was still hidden in the darkness.

It is obviously the same person, the same voice, the same taste, but the feeling is so strange.

"It doesn't matter if you believe it or not, Tang Yuchuan, I can't like you anymore, I don't like you anymore, I don't want you anymore."

Tang Yuchuan held my hand: "Don't give up on me! Silence, don't give up on me, give me a chance, maybe you can do it without me, but I can't do it without you."

In fact, no one can leave without anyone, just like when I left Tang Yuchuan, I felt that the sky was going to fall, but it turned out that I was still alive and well.

"Wang Wang Wang!"

I suddenly heard the sound of the big claws of the meal ticket scratching the door. This sound eased my heavy heart, and I hurried over and turned on the light in the bedroom.As soon as the door opened, the meal ticket jumped on me so suddenly that I almost lost my footing.

"Son!" I hugged the meal ticket and rubbed his big head, the big tail of the meal ticket wagging like a rattle.

"Son, you miss me, dad misses you too, come on, kiss each other, okay?"

Tang Yuchuan came over, grabbed the dog's leash with one hand, and said, "Meal ticket, we're leaving, your father is going to rest."

I hugged the meal ticket: "No, I want to sleep with my son, I have big bed phobia."

Tang Yuchuan glanced at me: "Then I'll sleep with you."

I shook my head in fright: "I only want my son, not you."

I opened the door and raised my chin to drive him out. Tang Yuchuan looked at me with reddened eyes: "Xiao Mo, I want to..."

"Get out! Don't make me say it a second time!"

Only then did Tang Yuchuan move his body a little bit. I pretended I didn't see anything, and closed the door vigorously.

The meal ticket just took a bath in the pet hall, and it smells good all over. I lifted the thin blanket on the bed and signaled him to go up and stay honest: "My son, I'll take a bath and we'll go to sleep, my dear."

I opened the bathroom door and took a shower. Tang Yuchuan still used the same shampoo and body wash as before.

After washing myself, I opened the cabinet to find a new bathrobe.Sure enough, Tang Yuchuan was still used to putting new towels or something at the bottom of the closet.

I found one and put it on. Tang Yuchuan's blue bathrobe was bigger than mine, and there was nothing else to wear here. I simply tied the straps a little tighter, but I didn't know what I was wearing. How to solve the underwear problem.

When everything was done, my stomach growled.I looked at the food that Tang Yuchuan came in on the small table, and those were not my favorite.I took a sip, and I couldn't finish it, so I threw it there, and wanted to sleep with my meal ticket in my arms.

I don't know what's going on, I'm obviously sleepy, but I just can't fall asleep because of tossing and turning.I think it's because this is Tang Yuchuan's room, or because it's full of Tang Yuchuan's smell.I was a little annoyed, I didn't know how long I was going to live here, I took out the phone in my pants and started to fiddle with it, the battery was less than [-]%.I thought that Tang Yuchuan always liked to put the mobile phone charger in the second drawer on the left side of the bedside table, so I tried to open the drawer.

Sure enough, Tang Yuchuan put the phone charger here.

When I reached for it, I found that there was still a bottle of medicine in the drawer. I took it out and looked at it, but found that the medicine bottle was full of foreign languages, and I didn't understand a single word.

When I had nothing to do, I scanned the QR code with my mobile phone, but the search result said that it was a medicine for mental illness, which made me feel a little strange. I thought it was vitamins or something.

I leaned against the bed and looked at my phone. As I watched, I felt my eyelids slowly drooping.In a daze, I curled up and shrank into the bed.

I was woken up alive by a burst of "crackling".

The sun shines through the window into the huge bedroom, making it hard to keep your eyes open.I rubbed my eyes, and saw the meal ticket eating by the bed.When I saw that the three dishes and one soup that Tang Yuchuanduan came in last night were being swallowed by the meal ticket, I got up with a grunt.

I wiped it, and the vegetable soup splashed on the bed!

"Boom boom boom——"

"Xiao Mo, what happened? What happened?"

I was taken aback by Tang Yuchuan's nervous voice, and I looked at the alarm clock by the bedside, it was five to seven.Strange, what is he doing up so early?

"It's okay! Go back to sleep!"

I yelled at the top of my lungs and put on my slippers, opened the French windows, and there was a miniature broom and dustpan on the balcony, which were used to shovel poo for meal tickets.

I was holding them, trying to clean up the mess on the ground, but the things for pets are a bit soft, and I can't sweep them away.I had no choice but to go to the bathroom and take out the wastebasket inside, and then throw the broken dishes into it.

It's just that I accidentally cut my hand. Looking at the blood oozing out, I glanced at the meal ticket and said, "Look at the trouble you caused, snack food."

I looked at the vegetable soup on the floor and thought I had to go downstairs to find a mop and wash the sheets by the way.

Hey, my son will really find me a job.

I opened the door with the trash can in hand, but as soon as I opened the door, I saw Tang Yuchuan standing straight at the door like a sculpture.I was so frightened that I shuddered: "You...why are you still here?"

"What was the sound just now?"

Hearing Tang Yuchuan's question, I looked at the meal ticket at my feet: "It's nothing, it's just that the meal ticket knocked over the dishes you brought in yesterday, and the bed sheets are also dirty, I was thinking about finding a mop Woolen cloth."

Tang Yuchuan took the trash can from me with one hand: "Let me do it, you don't know where to put it."

I quickly waved my hand: "No need, isn't there a laundry room on the west side?"

Tang Yuchuan turned around suddenly: "How do you know that the laundry room is on the west side?"

I swallowed, wishing I could slap myself twice: "Well, Xu, Xu Cheng told me yesterday!"

Tang Yuchuan frowned, and I lowered my head with a guilty conscience. Just when I thought this matter was going to be done in such a perfunctory manner, Tang Yuchuan grabbed my wrist violently, and my scalp went numb from fright.

"You're bleeding..."

"Ah?" I thought Tang Yuchuan had noticed something, but when I heard him say that, I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief: "Just rub it for a while, it's okay."

"Why don't you get in the way?" Tang Yuchuan yelled at me angrily, took my hand and entered the room.I pulled my hand back abruptly, Tang Yuchuan bit his lip and began to rummage through the boxes.After I saw Tang Yuchuan dig out the home medical kit, I quickly hugged it in my arms: "I can do it myself, you can go out."

"You scratched your right hand, which is inconvenient."

I lowered my tone: "I said, I can do it myself."

I took out iodophor and poured it on the wound, my left hand was always a little awkward.Tang Yuchuan said suddenly: "Xiao Mo, are you just so against me?"

I think Tang Yuchuan asked knowingly: "I was threatened by you, what do you think?"

Tang Yuchuan suddenly looked at me fiercely: "Do you think I want to use this method? You have been avoiding me all the time, and you don't even want to hear me speak, that's all I can do!"

My eyelids twitched, why?Is it my fault?

"go out!"

I yelled loudly, and Tang Yuchuan froze for a moment, then stood up abruptly and walked out.I went straight to the bathroom and took out my underwear and clothes, put them on and went downstairs.

Just when my hand was holding the door, someone grabbed my wrist and pressed it directly against the wall.

I almost bit my tongue and glared at Tang Yuchuan.But Tang Yuchuan's scarlet eyes made me a little stunned. Tang Yuchuan was so gloomy that he thought he was a beast driven into a desperate situation.

"Silence, you can't go...you can't go! I won't go in, I won't go into your room again, can't you, don't go!"

I was about to be driven crazy by him, I threw off Tang Yuchuan's restraint with one hand: "Tang Yuchuan, why don't you just put me in a cage? If you let me be stared at you for 24 hours, it's better to kill me Stab me to death! I'm going out to relax, anyway, you have my weakness in your hands, I promise you to come back for lunch at noon, is this okay?"

"No, no, I just want to watch you and stay with you. If you don't want to eat at home, we can go out. I can accompany you wherever you want, but you can't leave my sight. I can't see you. .”

"You!" I raised my fist to hit him, but seeing Tang Yuchuan's eyes were purple and blue, I couldn't land this punch.

My eyelids twitched: "You go out."

Tang Yuchuan was indifferent and didn't look at me.I gave up on myself and went to the one in front of the computer, and asked again: "Tang Yuchuan, are you going to get out?"

Tang Yuchuan still didn't make a sound, just sat on his own bed with his body hugged.

No matter how I look at him, I don’t like it, so I deliberately found a homosexual porn and tuned it directly to the sex part, and turned it to the loudest. I know that the people in this house are still awake, and I just want to make it difficult for them!Better get me out!

Tang Yuchuan raised his head abruptly, and looked at me in disbelief: "Xiao Mo, what are you doing!"

I shrugged: "Watch a movie."

Tang Yuchuan rushed over with a few strides, and unplugged the computer's power cord with one hand.

Tang Yuchuan looked at me and said quietly: "If you want it, I'll give it to you." Tang Yuchuan was silent, and then said: "Only use your hands."

I laughed: "You said you wouldn't touch me."

Tang Yuchuan froze for a moment, and I asked him, "Are you really willing to do anything?"

Tang Yuchuan looked at me and nodded.

I sneered, put my hand into my pants and started to move it myself.I really haven't solved my physical problems for a long time, and I will really go crazy if I continue like this.Besides, I just wanted to be indifferent to Tang Yuchuan, but he died of this idea as soon as possible.

While I was solving it myself, I screamed loudly, which was shocking enough to my ears.

Sure enough, Tang Yuchuan's face became more and more ugly. I didn't let it out after directing and acting for a while, but Tang Yuchuan stood up abruptly: "I, I'm going out first."

I took a long breath and pointed to the bedside: "Aren't you willing to do anything? Then I want you to sit here now and look at me."

Tang Yuchuan just stood there looking at me, but bit his lips tightly.

After a long sigh, I finally let it out.I haven't vented for a long time, and I feel like I'm going to be paralyzed. Is this really old?

I looked at the liquid on my lower abdomen, stretched out my fingertips and rubbed it up, and said, "Aren't you willing to do anything? Come on, lick it clean."

"Xiao...Mo?"

Tang Yuchuan's voice trembled violently. I knew Tang Yuchuan's stubborn self-esteem was intentional.

I smiled and said, "I don't want to? Ah, forget it."

Tang Yuchuan sniffed: "If I do it, are you willing to give me another chance?"

I didn't expect Tang Yuchuan to agree, I tore off his clothes and wiped his hands clean.Tang Yuchuan just looked at me empty-handedly without saying a word.

My intentional children and grandchildren rubbed against my feet in disgust, and stretched towards Tang Yuchuan: "If you kneel on the ground and lick it clean for me, I will give you a chance."

Tang Yuchuan just looked at me like this, his eyes turned scarlet.Tang Yuchuan's body swayed, and he knelt down in front of me, holding my right foot with both hands.My body froze a bit. I didn't expect Tang Yuchuan to do this even though he knew that I was trying to scare him off on purpose.

Tang Yuchuan bent down slowly, I couldn't see his expression clearly.Tang Yuchuan's warm tongue rolled over my feet.I clutched the bed sheet tightly, I don't know why Tang Yuchuan could abandon all his self-esteem to do this, I really don't know.

Tang Yuchuan was always on top, always had been.But Tang Yuchuan seemed to have changed after I woke up, crying like a woman at every turn, talking nonsense like asking me to give him a chance over and over again, always looking for me.

Suddenly something cool fell on my feet, and Tang Yuchuan's shoulders couldn't stop trembling slightly.I gritted my teeth and pretended not to see it, and shifted my gaze out of the window.

Tang Yuchuan suddenly kissed my feet and said, "Xiao Mo, give me a chance, okay, let's..."

I stepped on Tang Yuchuan's shoulder and laughed loudly: "Haha, I lied to you, idiot!"

"Xiaomo..."

The defeat on Tang Yuchuan's face was so obvious, I pointed at him and said sharply: "Tang Yuchuan, let me tell you, even if you let me go for free, I won't even look down on you if I keep silent!"

Yes, I just want Tang Yuchuan to feel the same way, to let him know what it feels like to give all his trust, self-esteem, and bloody heart to the person he loves the most, and then be deceived, betrayed, and laughed at!

But to my surprise, Tang Yuchuan hugged my leg just like that, and his face was deeply buried between my knees.

"Xiao Mo... At that time, when you called me in the hospital when you were drowning, was it like this? After meeting Brother Mo Mo and me in the apartment, was this how you lived? Is it just this uncomfortable self-torture?"

"Enough, shut up for me!"

I don't want to recall anything about those memories.

"I know I was wrong, Xiao Mo... I really know I was wrong, don't torture me like this...don't torture yourself like this. I know you are very kind, and you are bluffing on the surface, but when you really encounter something, you will I'll just hide and be sad alone. Xiao Mo, I beg you, don't do this. You are too strange to be like this, I'm afraid..."

I struggled hard, and Tang Yuchuan sat on the ground stared at by my kick.

I felt very uncomfortable, and hurriedly said: "Go and buy me some clothes and daily necessities, I can't wear this one every day."

Tang Yuchuan wiped his face: "We, can't we go together? Go to the supermarket together like before, buy your favorite snacks, we..."

I shook my head: "No, either I go out and you stay here, or I am here and you go out, just these two, you choose!"

Tang Yuchuan took a breath, turned around after a moment of silence, and walked to the door of the room as if he had lost his soul.As if possessed by a demon, Tang Yuchuan turned his head abruptly.

"I'll be back soon, you...you are not allowed to go."