rebirth double

Tang Yuchuan suddenly felt cold all over his body. He thought that that person would go on with his elder brother forever. They are both equally good people and know each other best. Nothing can separate them, as long as they want to be together.But the current situation was beyond Tang Yuchuan's expectation.

At this moment, he didn't secretly rejoice, and he didn't want to take advantage of it, he just felt so empty in his heart.People who like each other should be together, he can have a relationship with Shen Mo, why doesn't that person insist?

So what if, what if it were silence instead?

Will he give up on himself too?

Or, he has given up on himself...

Tang Yuchuan was thinking about what to do, he couldn't just watch Silence go.In fact, Tang Yuchuan has been living like a year for the past few days, and his chaotic thoughts made everything go wrong, so that his grades fell out of the top [-], setting a record low.

During the half month that Shen Mo was not around, Tang Yuchuan felt as if he had been cursed, and when Mo Mo asked if he liked it or not, he felt even more as if he had been punched to the ground, and he couldn't even crawl. I can't even get up.

How can he go silent at this time?Let him get away in such a mess and leave?How could this work, at least... At least he couldn't leave until he thought about everything.

Tang Yuchuan went back to the guest room to pack his things, pulled the trolley case and left the hotel. He first went to a small restaurant and asked for a bottle of wine, then poured it down. He felt that he needed to vent, and he needed to numb himself with alcohol. Let yourself have a good night's sleep.But it was as if he had been poisoned, his thoughts were not suppressed and he did not say anything, but the thing that was destined to be longed for was plundering the city with greed, causing him to be defeated in the end.

It was already raining heavily at this time, and the ears on the road could not hear the whistle.Tang Yu thinks that is not bad, at least they have a home to go back to, and they have a purpose in their hearts, unlike him, they have nowhere to go back.

Tang Yuchuan felt uncomfortable all over. He wanted to sleep in his arms, eat the not-so-tasty food cooked by Shen Mo, and listen to him blah blah blah blah.

But now all of this is gone, this emptiness makes Tang Yuchuan confused, he wants to go home, to the home where there is silence.

He just walked all the way to Shen Mo's house. The effect of alcohol made him subconsciously go for the key, but after he took it out, he realized that he was no longer qualified to go in.

Tang Yuchuan gritted his teeth, let go of all his pride and knocked on the door, but there was no response.

"Silence...are you there, silence..."

One stroke, two strokes, Tang Yuchuan couldn't hold it anymore after countless strokes.

"Xiaomo...I miss you..."

Tang Yuchuan staggered and supported the door, knocking again and again, his slightly trembling voice echoed in the somewhat dilapidated corridor, but there was no response.

Tang Yuchuan couldn't hold it anymore, so he just sat on the ground, his back leaning against the anti-theft door, it was icy cold.He felt cold, and the rain on his body slowly dripped on the ground and slowly fainted. Tang Yuchuan hugged himself tightly, curled up in front of the door, as if he had been abandoned by the whole world.This feeling brought Tang Yuchuan back to the time when his parents died. Tang Yuchuan looked at the front in a daze, his eyes were empty and frightening.

When the whole world was plunged into darkness, a beam of white light shone like this, piercing Tang Yuchuan's eyes with pain.

"you you……"

Tang Yuchuan's eyes were red the moment he saw Shen Mo, perhaps it was Tang Yuchuan's drenched appearance that frightened Shen Mo, Mo Mo hurried up and looked at him worriedly, so many days of depression and longing at this moment Outburst, Tang Yuchuan slowly stood up and hugged Shen Mo in his arms.

This person was too warm, he couldn't bear to let go, and he didn't want to let go either.

"Silence, I miss you..."

So what if he admits defeat, anyway, he is already embarrassed enough.

Shen Mo seemed to sigh, Tang Yuchuan felt his shoulders sink, it was Shen Mo leaning on him.

"I miss you as well."

It was just four words, but Tang Yuchuan felt incomparably warm, as if an infinite force surged over him, letting him know that he could continue on.

The silence came back, Tang Yuchuan had this feeling, and it was very strong.

He kissed his lips frantically, and the two began to linger desperately outside the door.

want him!want him!want him!

He began to say over and over again: "Silence, I miss you, I miss you...I miss you..."

Opening the door, entering the door, and then on the bed, he looked at the crystal in his eyes, and said firmly as if swearing: "Silence, silence, I will make you want-immortal-desire-death, and you will never die in the future." won't hurt you again."

He pressed down his body fiercely, and pushed in so vigorously, he was eager to possess him, and he needed silence to make him feel at ease.

When the love was strong, he suddenly remembered the question Shen Mo asked him when he was in the hospital.Looking at Shen Mu's flushed face and his confused expression, Tang Yuchuan really wanted to respond, but when the words came to his lips, he couldn't utter a single word.

Does he like this little beast?

If...if he doesn't like it, then why is he so flustered?

What about silence?Will Shen Mo leave him like Brother Mo Mo left his brother?Will it disappear after leaving?Silence, what do you think of him?

Tang Yuchuan may be able to understand some of Shen Mo's feelings, and he couldn't help but ask him uneasy like that day: "Silence, you like me, do you like mine?"

Silence's legs tightly wrapped around his waist: "I like it, I like it... Ah, again, try harder!"

Shen Mo wants him, Shen Mo will not leave him, Mo Mo's words are like the sun, just like him, when he is with Mo Mo, it seems that some difficulties are nothing.Mo Mo is obviously not as tall as him, not as strong as him, not as good as him, but it seems that he will hold up the sky when it falls.But Mo Mo said when he likes him, and when he is possessed by him.Tang Yuchuan could feel that Mo Mo was relying on him, and would hold him desperately, and ask him for a kiss clumsily and cutely.

He wanted to protect such silence, just as silence protected him and gave him strength invisibly.

But do you like this feeling?

Tang Yuchuan has never talked about silent love, he doesn't know the definition of liking.There are formulas for all homework, but there is no formula for love, so he can't find the answer.

"Tang Yuchuan..."

Mo Mo's voice pulled Tang Yuchuan back from the Chaos Clock, Mo Mo sat up straight, Tang Yuchuan couldn't control himself anymore, and began to have sex face to face with Mo Mo.

In the end, Tang Yuchuan fell into a state of mind-chaos-emotion-fascination, as if he was tireless, yelling over and over again: "Silence, silence, silence..."

Just calling his name makes me feel warm.

……

Tang Yuchuan moved back again, and after that day, Shen Mo never asked him about whether he liked it or not, and Tang Yuchuan didn't answer either.

While looking through the calendar, Tang Yuchuan noticed that the person's birthday was approaching. He thought that the person might still be in city B and hadn't returned, so he made a phone call.

Ever since Xu Cheng told about the man and his elder brother, Tang Yuchuan had cut off contact with his silent brother. He was just trying to get through, but this time the call got through.Tang Yuchuan said that he would celebrate his birthday, and the man agreed.In fact, Tang Yuchuan just wanted to see that person and ask what happened between him and his elder brother. Xu Cheng said that his elder brother drank heavily all day long, and his body would collapse if he continued like this.

After dinner, Tang Yuchuan said to Shen Mo: "Shen Mo, I'm going back to my hometown tomorrow, and I have something to do at home."

"Ming, tomorrow?"

Mo Mo's mouth biting the apple stopped suddenly, and he asked, "Do you have to go?"

Tang Yuchuan looked at Shen Mo's disappointed look, and felt a little strange in his heart. He suddenly wanted to change his words, but he couldn't take back what he had said.

He gritted his teeth and nodded, sighed silently, and said, "I wanted to celebrate your birthday with you, but now it's gone. Hey, but if you have something to do at home, there's nothing you can do about it."

Tang Yuchuan stared at him suddenly: "Tomorrow is your birthday?"

Mo Mo nodded, Tang Yuchuan even felt that this was a bit too weird, Mo Mo's birthday is tomorrow, Mo Mo's birthday is the day after tomorrow.Tang Yuchuan suddenly felt a little regretful. In fact, he could go the day after tomorrow, but he wanted to have a good chat with that person, so he planned to go one day earlier. He didn't expect that Mo Mo's birthday would be tomorrow.

Shen Mo casually asked again: "Is your hometown far away? Where is it?"

Tang Yuchuan's throat choked, and he said something nonsense: "It's not very far, it's in Shenzhen."

He couldn't change what he said, and Tang Yuchuan went out the next morning.Before leaving, he said happy birthday to Shen Mo.

Tang Yuchuan ran from Chengdong to the west of the city. Shen Mo was helping a relative of his university professor's family with psychological counseling, and he was free after five o'clock in the afternoon.Tang Yuchuan went to the place to order a cake, and then went to pick out a gift. After all the trouble, it was evening.

Just when Tang Yuchuan was about to go back, in fact Tang Yuchuan didn't tell the man that he would come early, he wanted to surprise him.It's just that fate is not as good as people's calculations. When he got to the door and called someone, the person found out that he was staying at the house of the professor's little niece today, because the child's situation was very complicated, and he had to watch it, probably the next day I can rush back in the afternoon.

Tang Yuchuan simply didn't tell that person that he had arrived ahead of time. He felt that it was his fault for not asking that person's schedule clearly.

Tang Yuchuan went downstairs and went to the hotel. He suddenly felt that he was very funny. He missed Silence's birthday for nothing, and he was still staying here like an idiot.It's just that Tang Yuchuan didn't feel melancholy for too long, and Shen Mo's phone call came. He chatted with Mo Mo for a while, Mo Mo said that he would have class the next day, so he didn't ask his classmates out for dinner. If I wanted to go, I bought a small piece of cake and put a candle in it, so it was my birthday.

Looking at the cake card in his hand, Tang Yuchuan felt very uncomfortable.He began to plan in his heart what gift he should buy for Shen Mo.

How about buying a mobile phone for couples?

Tang Yuchuan was lying on the bed in the hotel thinking about it, thinking of the silent and joyful little eyes, he was in a good mood.

The next day at around five o'clock in the afternoon, Tang Yuchuan received a call from someone saying that he would be back home soon, and that he would cook for Tang Yuchuan himself to celebrate his birthday at home and not go out and waste money.

Strictly speaking, this was the first time he had met that person alone without the knowledge of his elder brother.Hearing the man's suggestion, Tang Yuchuan felt that this was not a bad idea. After all, there were too many people in the restaurant, so it was not appropriate to ask about the eldest brother.

Tang Yuchuan went to the apartment with the cake, but when he reached the stairs, he found that the door was open, and there were voices of people arguing fiercely inside.

Tang Yuchuan was anxious, and hurried over, a sofa cushion was thrown over, Tang Yuchuan subconsciously dodged, but saw his always gentle and generous elder brother seemed crazy, he grabbed the man's neck Collar, slapped him with a slap, and roared, "Silence, I want you to repeat what you just said!"

"elder brother!"

Tang Yuchuan rushed in as soon as he put the cake on the table, but Tang Xia suddenly turned his head, his eyes were too sharp, and he nailed Tang Yuchuan in place.

This is, his eldest brother?

Tang Yuchuan couldn't even believe that his elder brother would have such an expression.

Tang Xia's eyes stared at Tang Yuchuan like a hawk: "This is a matter between me and Shen Mo, even if you are my younger brother, you are not qualified to intervene!"

Tang Yuchuan's face turned pale in surprise at this tone of swearing-in sovereignty, but he still took a step forward: "Then I'll tell you clearly, I won't allow you to do anything to Brother Mo Mo!"

What happened to lay down such a heavy hand?

The man pushed Tang Xia, wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth, and smiled at Tang Yuchuan: "Well, Xiaochuan... the matter between me and your brother can't be explained clearly in one or two sentences. Well, this year's I'm afraid I won't be able to pass my birthday, so you can go back, okay?"

"Can……"

Tang Yuchuan looked at the corners of his swollen mouth, hesitating in his heart, but Tang Xia narrowed his eyes and said, "Tang Yuchuan, don't think I don't know your thoughts about silence. But I advise you to give up, otherwise Don't blame me for falling out with you!"

Mo Mo froze, and looked at Tang Xia in disbelief: "Tang Xia, what nonsense are you talking about!"

But Tang Xia snorted coldly: "I understand my brother the most. Silence, neither me nor Tang Yuchuan, you have never really understood."

Tang Xia glanced coldly at the silence that was frozen aside, and slowly approached Tang Yuchuan.Something seemed to be brewing in those black eyes, and Tang Yuchuan looked at his elder brother with an ominous premonition in his heart, those eyes seemed to be full of irony, even pity, and sarcasm.

Tang Yuchuan had never seen his elder brother do this before, so he couldn't help taking a step back.

I heard Tang Xia say with a half-smile: "By the way, speaking of it, I heard something from Fan Chengjun recently... Heh, it's about a child. Third brother, guess who it is?"

"elder brother……"

Tang Yuchuan's voice and even his whole body began to tremble.

The irony and threat in Tang Xia's eyes made Tang Yuchuan almost unable to hold on.

"Xiao Chuan, tell me... if I tell that child what you think about him, will he hate you? Tell me, will that child hate you to the bone? Or... leave forever..."

"Don't tell him!"

Almost subconsciously, Tang Yuchuan just yelled out.But Tang Xia snorted coldly: "Xiao Chuan, as a big brother, I still want to advise you, people's hearts are very precious, if you don't like him, just let him go, maybe you can get together and get back together."

"Don't let it go, I will never let it go!"

Tang Xia looked at Tang Yuchuan's panic, and twitched the corners of her mouth: "Speaking of which, that child is really pitiful. You just use him as a tool to vent your desires, right? If you hang on to him like this, you won't be afraid that he will hate him to death in the end. You? You obviously don't like him, besides, there is nothing exactly the same in this world..."

"Who said I don't like him!"

"Oh? So you really like him?"

Facing his elder brother's rhetorical question, the voice in Tang Yuchuan's heart that had been shut down suddenly broke through the cage, as if the prehistoric monster that had been lurking in his body for a long time finally tore open his flesh and roared out. He rushed towards his trembling body, and he couldn't resist.

So, is this what you like?

He will want to take care of him carefully, he will be particularly afraid of losing, he will be so confused that he will be at a loss, and he will have trouble sleeping and eating if he can't see him. Even if he is silent occasionally, he will make himself uneasy.

It turns out that he actually likes to be silent.

So, then why is he here?

Why do you have to embarrass yourself so much for another person?Why is he looking for a substitute?Doesn't make any sense at all, does it?

Missed Silence's birthday and left him alone, what was he doing?

Why did he deny it when Shen Mo asked him if he liked it?

Thinking about it is also afraid, dare not admit it, now thinking about it, I don’t know when I fell in love with it, right?That kind of restlessness, that kind of constant anger at silence like paranoia, that abnormal possessive desire...

He suddenly looked at that person, and it wasn't until this moment that he realized that Mo Mo was actually completely different from the person in front of him. He had already seen it, starting from the white shirt, Mo Mo and brother Mo Mo It's different, I know this, but I still don't want to let go, that's why I lost my soul when we parted.

Haha, how could he feel that they resembled each other, they obviously didn't resemble each other at all.

What appeared in Tang Yuchuan's mind was the disappointed expression on Shen Mo's face before he left.After dating for more than a year, he missed Shen Mo's birthday twice, and he didn't even say a word of liking to Mo Mo.

Tang Yuchuan only felt guilty, he wanted to make up for Shen Mo, and hoped to see Shen Mo smiling at him all the time, rascally, sunny, and free.

He turned around stiffly, and said in a trembling voice: "Brother, Brother Mo Mo... I remembered something very important, I'm going first"

It is indeed very important, more important than anything else, but he has been hurting him all the time, deliberately ignoring it.

Until this person told him not to mind his business, until his brother said that he was using silence to vent his desires, until his brother seemed to threaten him, saying that he would tell all this to silence, and said that silence would hate him, would Get out of his present.

Tang Yuchuan was frightened and panicked.

Tang Xia picked up the cake on the table in stride, put it in the hands of Tang Yuchuan, who seemed a little absent-minded, and said to him: "Xiaochuan, it's always good to confess to that child, but everyone has different personalities. , don't be self-defeating. Speaking of which, this is your first real love, right?"

Tang Yuchuan took the cake and sat in the car. He began to seriously think about what would happen if Shen Mo knew everything, but after much deliberation, he felt that with Shen Mo's temper, Mo Mo would tear him apart. This is really a headache thing.

But in front of Tang Yuchuan's eyes, there suddenly appeared the image of that day in the hospital, with a wounded expression on his face, saying that he wanted them to be quiet.

Thinking of the end, Tang Yuchuan simply shook his head, he doesn't want to think about these issues now, he just wants to go back and see Shen Mo, he wants to tell him that he has figured it out, tell him that he likes him, Mo Mo will be very happy.

Tang Yuchuan started the engine, but his eyes fell on the cake on the co-pilot.

He felt that this cake should have belonged to Silence.

In the future, it will only belong to silence.

He will never use him as a stand-in again. In fact, maybe he has regarded that small old house as his and Shen Mo's home since a long time ago, and Mo Mo is his family and is irreplaceable. The one and only.