This is a nurturing essay

When he was found by Zhongyuan, the leader Zai was in the bar.

Lupine Bar.

Here gathered his too much unwillingness and yearning.Countless memories of losing friends and the last muzzle, full of laughter and laughter but not his own experience, and the real but strange Oda Tsukuru.

I thought I wouldn't care.

The leader thinks.

He is very clear that Oda Sakunosuke in his own world, this lonely existence who understands "Osamu Dazai", will only regard him as an enemy.

——This is exactly what he created with his own hands.

Look, Sakunosuke Oda.Although I know that all "I"s will be your friends, it doesn't mean I will too.

Behold, all "Osamu Dazai" lost "Oda Saku".Just like a big game, no "I" can complete this ending, so I have to do this-after all, I have almost completed other endings.

It's just looking for an empty target - the leader Zai has always told himself so in his heart.

What else can I do?The world is just a grand but illusory dream. The protagonist in the dream sees the reality outside, but cannot touch it and struggles unintentionally.

So be it.

Get a different ending, embrace a real death, and achieve a perfect ending.

But when he finally went to say goodbye to Oda Sakunosuke, he realized that he didn't care as much as he thought.

Just like when he saw his elder brother, he lost his self-control and turned into a ten-year-old "Xiaozhi"...

Oda has a greater influence on him.

The feeling of being read and understood at the last moment, as if being embraced tenderly, but being left behind, pushed away, entrusted to live, left alone in the world.

He has suffered countless times.

Now he tasted something different, the treatment that belonged to him alone.

muzzle.

——Don't do that to me, Odasaku.

It's not that he is sad, but countless "Osamu Dazai" are sad.

What about himself?

He also has some dissatisfaction.

Odasaku, do you know that I have protected the whole world for you.Although you don't know, and even though it's all my self-righteousness, I've done so much for you, so you should treat me better, right?

This completely unreasonable thought lingered in his heart.

"If you want it, you have to say it." Lu Yu once said, "If you don't say it, how does he know that you like crabs?"

But he didn't even know what he wanted.

...but people always have to grow.Those who didn't think clearly in the past will wake up one day.

Sure enough, he still wanted "Oda Work".

Just like a big brother.In the past, Lu Yu was Lu Xiuzhi's sixth brother.The leader Zai has the memory of Lu Xiuzhi, and he can even say that he is Lu Xiuzhi.

However, it is different.

I want you to look at me—

Not thousands of Dazai Osamu, just me.

But the elder brother received it, he held him back, and he became Lu Xiuping.

It is different for Xiuzhi and Xiuping.

"Brother Liuliu" and "elder brother" are also different.

Similarly, the laughing trio in other worlds and Lu Xiuping leaving the world alone without friends are two different things.

"My child, you really didn't get anything..."

So, now he came looking for it.

So far so good.

The red-haired man was sitting next to him, and he didn't recognize that Mr. Lu from the flower-growing country was the leader of the previous generation.

They were chatting about literature, and the leader Zai pretended to be Lu Yu's identity to share his experience of writing while traveling.

Even if he didn't actually write a single word other than reports and papers, he can still pretend that the author's pretending is not revealing.

"It turns out that Mr. Oda has already started writing." The leader Zai sighed in his heart. He didn't expect that the pigeons would sometimes fail, "Have you ever voted for a publishing house?"

"Not yet, it's all scattered things." Oda Sakunosuke shook his head, "It's a record of what I saw and heard in my life... It's actually very boring, probably no one will read it."

Writing is not an easy task. Only when you really pick up the pen can you know the difficulties.

Oda Sakunosuke wanted to pick up the pen countless times, and put it down countless times.But in the end he bit the bullet and started writing——

Because of poverty.

The number of orphans he raised has reached the terrifying number of thirty...

No matter how high Wu Zhen's salary is, he can't fill this bottomless pit.

"If you don't mind, can you show me?" The leader Zai tapped his fingers on the table lightly, his eyelashes cast thick shadows, and his thin lips curled up, "I think Mr. Oda is a very interesting person, then The stories you write will definitely be very interesting."

"Yes, yes, but I didn't bring the manuscript with me." Oda Sakunosuke took a sip of whiskey, "I prefer to write by hand."

"Many writers have this habit." The leader Jae nodded with a regretful expression, "It seems that I can't see Mr. Oda's masterpiece."

"It's really just something I wrote casually." Oda Sakunosuke hesitated, "I have a few photos of the manuscript in my mobile phone, if you don't mind..."

The leader Jae stretched out his hand with a smile.

Of course you don't mind, Modo Modo!

"This story really deserves to be Oda Saku - can I call you that? It feels very appropriate."

After reading the text in several photos slowly, the leader raised his head and said.

"Of course." Oda Sakunosuke didn't know what he thought of, his expression changed slightly, and he nodded silently.

"This story is very interesting. However, as a novel, I feel that there is still a lot of room for improvement." The leader Jae zoomed in on the picture and began to talk, "For example, here, is this transition a bit blunt?"

"Indeed." Oda Sakunosuke was stunned, "I have such a feeling. Then how can I improve it?"

"How about writing a little mental activity?"

They started discussing these photos, not even caring that someone sat next to them and listened silently.

The content of the photo was not much, and the discussion was soon over, and Oda Sakunosuke still felt a little unfinished.

It was the first time he discussed writing with someone like this, which was very novel.Moreover, the other party has a unique vision, hits the nail on the head, and has writing experience and whimsical ideas, which opened up a lot of new ideas for Oda Sakunosuke.

"I'm so glad to meet Odasaku." After the topic was over, the young man who claimed to be surnamed Lu breathed out a little contentedly, and stood up, "Although I'm very happy, I should go now, someone is looking for me .”

Beside him, the man who appeared in the middle of their discussion snorted coldly.

He was wearing a hat, and the dim light couldn't dull his orange hair.When the two were communicating, he silently ordered a glass of red wine and listened while drinking.

Until now, there was no sound.

The leader Zai's smile didn't change, as if he didn't hear the cold snort.

Oda Sakunosuke looked at him, then at the man wearing the hat, and nodded: "Okay, if there is a chance, we will continue to communicate in the future."

"Why wait for an opportunity?" The leader tilted his head, "We can create opportunities, for example, tell me your mobile phone number."

Oda Sakunosuke was asked for contact information for the first time, and he was still a man, so he was inevitably a little stunned.But looking at the smiling eyes of the other party, he couldn't help agreeing: "Okay."

After successfully starting the first step of making friends, the leader Zai was in a very light mood.He looked back at the man wearing the hat beside him: "Let's go out and talk."

The man in the hat - Nakahara Zhong didn't say anything, just put down his wine glass, left the chair and walked to him.

"Then, I'm leaving, Odasaku?" The leader took a few steps and looked at the red-haired man seriously.

"Goodbye, Mr. Lu." Oda Sakunosuke raised his head and looked back, with a strange emotion in his blue eyes.

"That..." After the leader Zaizhen turned and left, Oda Sakunosuke stopped him.

"Huh?" The leader turned his head, still smiling gently.

"Nothing." Oda Sakunosuke seemed to hesitate, "Nice to meet you."

Ah, he recognized me.

The smile on the leader Zai's face widened a bit.

"Me too. By the way, Odasaku, do you think murderers can be redeemed?"

Oda Sakunosuke was stunned.

The leader Zai didn't speak anymore, he laughed lowly, turned around, and walked away lightly.

Zhongyuan Zhong also followed silently.

"What about you, Zhongye? Do you think that a murderer can be redeemed?" After walking a certain distance, the leader, Zai, spoke.

"This question is meaningless to me." Nakahara said calmly, "Whether murder or violence is my means. I don't need any so-called redemption. I only know that the road under my feet is It is enough not to betray my heart."

"Well, time is really amazing, the little dwarf has grown to the point where he can say such literary words." The leader Zai was amazed.

"It hasn't changed as much as you, Mr. Lu." Zhong Yuanzhong also pressed his hat, "Now it's time to explain, you bastard leader?"

The feeling of Osamu Dazai is too unique.Even if he is no longer deep, no longer dark, removes the bandages, and looks gentle, but once he sees this guy Nakahara, he will know that this is Osamu Dazai.

Nothing false.

No one else in the world has such a nasty mackerel smell! !

"Now you are the leader." The leader who is not the leader smiled lightly, "Besides, I didn't explain the reason to the little man, did I?"

"It's really easy to say." Zhong Yuanzhong also narrowed his eyes, "At that time, you sent me away, and turned into a corpse; I had to be the leader, dealing with your mess, and I was so busy every day; now I suddenly know You are feigning death, and you ran out to show your head again..."

He showed a ferocious smile: "Didn't explain the reason to me? Then I'll hit you until you open your mouth—"

He has long wanted to do this!

"Tsk, the little dwarf is the leader, so why does he still only know how to use violence?" The leader Zai nimbly avoided Zhongyuan Zhongya's attack, "Besides, I'm not feigning death."

Nakahara Chuya brushed the leader Zai's hair with his fist, then stopped in place: "What do you mean?"

"It means that I am no longer a person of this world." The leader Zai explained calmly, "I live under surveillance, and this time I ran out secretly. Soon, someone will come to arrest me and go back."

Zhong Yuanzhong didn't expect him to say that.

"Extraordinary powers?! Like Lan Tang? No, you are disqualified from the world..."

The leader Zai suddenly showed a smile: "You're kidding, do you really believe it? But, Chuya, it's a bit annoying to see you again, but I'm also very happy."

Zhong Yuanzhong was also angry and forgot, he opened his eyes wide, and there was only one thought left in his mind.

The mackerel was crazy! ! !