This is a nurturing essay

Japan - Aomori.

After the Lantern Festival, Lu Yu and Osamu Dazai returned here together.

Now they are walking in a residential area in Aomori city.There are ordinary apartment buildings inside, neither poor nor hard nor high-end nor luxurious.

Lu Yu and Osamu Dazai walked into a building and came to the door of an apartment on the third floor.

This is Sayuri's home.

"It's here, Xiao Zhi. Go." Lu Yu slightly staggered his body, and put himself at a distance from the door, where he would not be caught at a glance.

Dazai nodded silently.

He purposely wore a kimono that he hadn't worn for a long time, with gold patterns on a black background, and a thick cloak of the same color. Some long brown and black curly hair fell down, very much like Shuji Tsushima, who has the demeanor of a nobleman.

Well, Shuji Tsushima has never been a "noble son".And Osamu Dazai... he is Shuji Tsushima.

The boy held out his hand and rang the doorbell.

"Ding-dong-"

They waited quietly, no one said a word.

After about 1 minutes.

"Crack." The door opened.

Osamu Dazai raised his face.

It was Sayuri who opened the door.

"Excuse me...Master Xiuzhi?!"

The skinny, not even middle-aged woman in home clothes saw Osamu Dazai.Her hair was loosely pulled up, and her face was slightly tired but not haggard. The moment she saw Osamu Dazai, she overflowed with joy that could not be disguised.

Lu Yu in the corner raised his mouth when he saw this scene.

"...Long time no see, Sayuri." The boy raised a cute smile that was often used in Tsushima's house, with a sense of mask.

"Why is Master Xiuzhi here?" Said Baihe squatted down at the door with a little helplessness, "How could the master agree with you to go out?"

"I'm here to find you, Sayuri." Osamu Dazai stretched out his hand and touched the side of Sayuri's face.He tilted his head slightly, with pure doubts on his face, "Sayuri, you are happy to see me."

"Of course, Master Xiuzhi." The woman covered her warm little hand, with motherly kindness in her eyes, "Although I don't know what happened, I saw Master Xiuzhi again... Besides, you have grown taller, You also have flesh on your body, ah, you also lost a tooth!"

Sayuri shouted happily as if she had discovered a new continent.

Osamu Dazai said helplessly: "There is no need to say this, Sayuri."

"Master Xiuzhi, you've grown up." The woman gently combed Dazai Osamu's hair.

"In that case..." Osamu Dazai withdrew his little hand, and seriously asked the question in his heart, "Why did you leave me? Not even a farewell."

"Ah..." Sayuri's expression became sad and guilty, she covered her face, "I'm sorry, Master Xiuzhi, I...Xiaoqing is sick, and my husband happened to be in a car accident, I want to come back to take care of them... "

Xiaoqing is Sayuri's biological child, a boy.

"So," Osamu Dazai repeated, "why didn't you even say goodbye?"

"When I left, I didn't know how serious the situation was. I called Mr. Butler and wanted to ask for a long vacation and told you clearly... But because the time of leave was too long, Mr. Butler fired me and said that I couldn't let I talked to the young master casually, and asked the master for instructions, but the master hung up the phone..."

"I have no choice but to write a letter. It seems that the young master has not received my letter..."

"It's okay, Sayuri. It's not your fault." Osamu Dazai finally showed a real smile, "Because I'm no longer at Tsushima's house. My brother is taking me and traveling everywhere."

"What?" Sayuri was stunned.

She finally saw the young man standing beside him with a smile.It's not any young master of the Tsushima family, that family can't raise such a free, easy and gentle person.

"Ah, I'm sorry!" Said Baihe stood up and bowed, "You were actually asked to stay at the door all this time, please go inside and talk about it."

"No need, Sayuri." Osamu Dazai shook his head, "We're leaving now. Give me your contact information, and next time you contact me, you don't need to go through someone else."

"Ah, okay!" Sayuri hurriedly groped her body, and Osamu Dazai, who had been prepared for a long time, handed over a pen and a small notebook, interrupting her movements.

Sayuri smiled embarrassedly, took the pen and paper, and wrote down the contact information.

"By the way, neither my brother nor I have the surname Tsushima. However, you can still call me Shuji." Dazai Osamu took back the pen and paper with the contact information written on it, and blinked, "It's a privilege for Sayuri~"

They left.

Lu Yu walked down the street holding Dazai Osamu's hand.

"How is it, Xiaozhi?"

"I expected it a long time ago." Osamu Dazai looked uninterested, "It's like you have already found out about Sayuri, but you still want to bring me here. It's the same as asking for the contact information you already know... "

"Really?" Lu Yu smiled, "I see you are very happy, Master Xiuzhi~"

"Hey, you can't make Sayuri worry." Dazai Osamu also smiled, "Look, Sayuri is such a person. She is the only person in the entire Tsushima family who cares about me... But it is clear that I left the family with a stranger , but still didn't have the courage to do anything, just stood there wishing me peace."

"Probably because you look so healthy and I'm such a talented person, so don't worry. After all, I took you to see her." Lu Yu teased.

"Probably." Dazai Osamu was noncommittal, "But Sayuri is really like this, she is passive and weak..."

"It's enough for her to love you." Lu Yu interrupted him, "I used to think that she just liked you more; now it seems that she really does love you, although this love hinders the relationship between the two of you. Identity is not obvious."

"Well. From this point of view, I once had a 'mother' too." Osamu Dazai smiled, "Even if she loves her children and family more."

"Although what you said is probably right," Lu Yu pondered, "but it can't be reflected in this matter. She left you and chose her family just because they need her more than you in Jindao's house."

"Is that so?" Osamu Dazai was stunned, "It's very complicated, love."

"Yes. After all, you are also her 'son'."

Sayuri... is actually Osamu Dazai's wet nurse.

Mrs. Tsushima did not personally nurse any of the children. Saiduri's child, Xiaoqing, was the same age as Osamu Dazai. Because the family lacked money, she became a wet nurse for Osamu Dazai.

What Osamu Dazai said is actually quite right, Sayuri is indeed a weak person.If you really want to say goodbye to him, there are actually many ways.Sayuri always has colleagues she knows; no matter how bad it is, she can find other servants of the Tsushima family to pass on a message.She chose to send the letter in the end, probably because she was afraid to face Osamu Dazai.

However, her love is not fake either.

Anyway, even in that cold Tsushima family, there was someone who loved Osamu Dazai... which is really, really good.

"Okay, brother Liuliu, let's go, the kimono is so annoying, I don't want to wear it anymore."

"Hi~"

"I want crab meat!"

"Hi~"

"Go on and travel."

"Obey, Master Xiuzhi~"

"Don't secretly transfer money to Xiao Baihe."

"Ah ha ha……"

"...idiot."