The life of a migrant worker

Of course Saigo Hokichi deserved to die, but no matter what retribution I received, I deserved it.

From the very beginning of easily depriving others of their lives, I already knew that my contempt and blasphemy towards life would be punished sooner or later.

It is true that the crime of killing ghosts is unforgivable, so can people be forgiven for killing people?

What everyone in the ghost killing team hates is not the man-eating ghosts, but the loss for no reason.

There is no reason, no warmth, and the cold and infinite embrace of death takes away their loved ones lightly, while the chief culprit who caused all these tragedies lives in this world as if nothing had happened, laughing and cursing, wantonly depriving others of their love. hope to fulfill their own happiness.

No one's conscience will allow such a reasoning.

I remember a little girl, she was a very beautiful child.Blue eyes like amazonites, white complexion, looking at you timidly, slender and tender like lilac buds after the rain hits plantains.

When I saw her, even her shabby sackcloth clothes, like a chick with all its tail feathers ripped off, could not conceal her pearly features.Her father felt that this was a rare commodity to live in, so that she could grow up to such a stable age among the seven children, but now he lost money in the casino, so he had to take his only remaining daughter as compensation.

I heard from others that the child's mother died of frequent childbirth and overwork, and that the other children were either sold by this drunk to pay off debts, or they couldn't bear the beatings of their father after years of alcoholism and ran away.

In this day and age, as long as the two attributes of alcoholic and gambler appear in a person at the same time, then the probability of him being a scum is almost [-]%.The children born in this kind of family are extremely pitiful. Maybe they will go on other paths when they grow up healthy, but most of them will never get rid of the rut of low-level people throughout their lives.

The thug in the casino chatted with me, perhaps seeing the pity in my heart, and clicked his tongue lightly: "What can he do if he wants to do this by himself? In fact, we don't welcome such guests here. It always depends on money to get oil and water.”

What will happen next to the girl's fate?

If this sentence is asked, it must be called nonsense when you take off your pants and fart.

The gambling house will never be a charity that subsidizes children's schooling and eating. If you are lucky, you may be bought back by a rich person to be a helper, but with this appearance, it is more likely to be sold to a place like Huajie.

So I whispered: "It's so pitiful, she is still so young, how much can she sell for?"

"It's better than not getting any money back at all," the man who looked like a casino owner turned his face and said to me seriously, "You don't have to worry, young master, people like them will always have their own way of life Method!"

I am tall, and I always wear men's kimonos for convenience when I go out.

Although after the Meiji and Taisho reforms, Japan began to advocate meat eating, but there are still many places where meat cannot be eaten.So among the Chinese people whose average male height is 1.6 meters, it is not surprising that I have a full height of 1.7 meters.

Because most ordinary people in this period are inferior to me, even if I am not broad, they will naturally help me to make excuses, only if I am thin, and think that I am pale, sullen and handsome That's all.

Under the eyes of the casino boss looking at the idiot, I finally showed useless and ridiculous kindness and settled all the debts for that gambler.The boss waved his hand annoyingly to let the crowd disperse, pointed at me to the gambler and told him that from now on his creditor is me.

"This kind of person is not slippery, I'm afraid he will still come to gamble." I went back to the hotel where I lived, and the hotel owner advised me solemnly after hearing about this, "If you feel sorry for Yurika, you should take him with you as soon as possible." Let that child leave here. Although that person is now submissive in front of you because he feels that your identity is unusual, he will relapse and run over to sell his daughter after a while."

"...Say something inappropriate, and even feel that someone has the bottom line and has nothing to fear!"

The innkeeper is a nice guy, but I'm in the middle of nowhere and I'm afraid it wouldn't be a good idea to take a child with me.

I just shook my head slightly towards him, and left a sum of money so that if he saw that girl was hungry, please give her food.

I stayed in the hotel for another two weeks, and the drunkard couldn't help but pay off his debts as usual after he gambled badly. In the end, even the casino owner couldn't see my behavior, and after another bad debt was settled, He finally reluctantly asked me if I needed any special service.

"We can break his legs."

I said no, it happened that I had spent all the money on my body, and I was leaving this town tomorrow.

So the casino boss sighed at me even more reluctantly.

Thinking about it carefully, even smashing the gambler's leg is not enough to make people feel at ease. The little girl's neighbors are all good people with a little kindness, but after all, it is not good to put their hands in other people's housework.As long as this man has a mouth, no one can prevent him from agreeing to sell Yurika, so I chose to let him disappear.

It was more than a year later when I saw that little girl again. At that time, I made a large group of friends, and when I had a little money, I got together at night to drink day and night.Drink from this izakaya to that tavern, and drink from Huajie to the residential building outside Yoshihara.

Mostly loafing bums with shady jobs, but I don't mind, I have nothing to do, as long as it fills my waking hours.

This group of guys is really easy to talk hard and show off. They didn't listen to advice at all during the transition, drank on an empty stomach and then vomited.Taking advantage of them throwing up in the dark and rolling into a ball drunk, I just opened the wooden door to let someone serve something to fill their stomachs. The middle-aged proprietress responded, and a little girl came in after a while With food and sober tea on the plate.

Let me tell you, I was really taken aback when I saw her.

In fact, I don't really remember the appearance of the people I helped, but this girl is so well-behaved that it is impressive.

She may be living a good life now, without the timid look she used to have, wearing a pink Komon kimono, she finally has the appearance that a young girl should have.

Yurika also recognized it at a glance, her hands trembled in surprise, the tea bowl was about to fall off the tea tray, so she quickly put the things on the table in an aggressive manner, and several utensils for holding them collided with each other, almost All fell to the ground.

So I said first that it's okay, and she was relieved like a sigh of relief.

It turned out that after I left, Yurika's father also disappeared shortly after. Everyone said that he was finally disposed of and thrown into the stinky ditch because he owed money to someone he couldn't offend.It was inappropriate to have an innkeeper take care of the little girl, so I asked my cousin, who is now the proprietress of this izakaya, to help her in the store.

The proprietress lost her husband in her early years and had no children, so it was logical to take Yurika in as her adopted daughter.

Although the business in the izakaya shop is not very good because it is located in a residential area near Flower Street, but the proprietress is very nice. It's a world of difference.

I propped up my hands and took a sip of the warm tea, sincerely happy for her luck.

——Although Yurika did not achieve happiness because of my actions, she did meet someone who gave her happiness with my help.

Although I have a withdrawn and eccentric personality, when I see other people being happy, I feel joy in my heart as if I have also got the same happiness.

I have been cheated all the time, cheated by nonsense gamblers, wallets stolen by skilled thieves, I know I am cheated and I am willing to be cheated.I think that people who deceive me will eventually be satisfied after getting what they want from me, so they will always help others, but in exchange for more greed and whatever they ask for.

Yuka was the first and only person I helped to feel truly happy.

So I am determined to protect Yuka and do my best to protect the hard-won peace in her life.

Since then, I have often come to drink in the shop of the proprietress, bring people to take care of the business, and drive away crazy drunks for her.

I drank day after day with my halfhearted friends, and through them I met tons of other people.

Until one day, I raised my wine glass to everyone and drank it all, and then looked at Yurika from the window downstairs, who was bowing to see off the guests. In my drunkenness, I heard someone asking me: "Mr. Mochizuki, You seem to care about that kid?"

Since then, I have stopped drinking excessively and kept my mouth shut.All praise me, and they feel that there is no virtue in the world more admirable to a murderer than taciturnity.

I have a lot of strokes in my name, and every time I write it, I feel like I'm wasting my life.Anyway, after everyone has a surname, all kinds of surnames always emerge one after another, so I just took my name apart and told them that my name is Mochizuki.

Then those people shouted 'Watching the moon', 'Watching the moon' and ordered me to help them kill.

I lay in bed and slept, feeling like I was being torn in half like my name.

On the one hand, I am the unforgivable murderer Mochizuki, and on the other hand, I am the swordsman of the Demon Slayer Squad.

But even if Purgatory Kyojuro represents the light and throws an olive branch to me, even if Ms. Butterfly Kanae saves me from the river, which has been full of crimes, it does not mean that I wash away the past and get a new life.Putting down the butcher's knife is just a lie woven by Buddhism to persuade people to be good. If you do something wrong, you should be punished. This is the truth that children should understand.

I am an unfortunate person destined not to be happy, so I would rather all the suffering befall me, so that the path of others will be bright.But the facts gave me a slap in the face, telling me that what I brought was only pain and disaster, and that I couldn't save anyone after all.

Thinking of the previous period, my internal organs seemed to be twisted together, and I felt nauseated for my own self-assertion. I jumped up from the bed suddenly, and ran to the courtyard wearing only my undergarment.

I stared at the bright moon in the sky, and couldn't help thinking in my heart, Yurika... Did she really feel happy for a moment?