If you're smart, don't run around [Network]

He held his head, and the contradictions in his heart gathered little by little. He obviously liked girls, and he still remembered the first time he kissed a girl.

But what does it feel like?Ye Siwei couldn't figure it out no matter how he thought about it, he only remembered that he seemed to have told Song Shi that it was sweet, and how Song Shi reacted at that time, Ye Siwei thought for a while, as if he lowered his head, he could only see a whirl on top of his head, There is also a long hair standing on the side.

He covered his face and groaned, and slapped himself twice, what a beast, he was a beast, how could he do such a thing.

And got scared off the next morning.In fact, he didn't want to run away at first, but when he saw Song Shi's peaceful sleeping face, for some reason, he wanted to kiss him in a strange way, but at that time his whole body was shaken, and he quickly put on his clothes and ran away.

After thinking about it for a long time, he finally plucked up the courage and planned to apologize to him.

Ye Siwei knocked on the door three times, but there was no movement inside the door.I don't know if Shen Anyu can have a good talk with Song Shi and enlighten him.

This child is an introverted child who hides everything in his heart. Now he doesn't know if he can bear it.

After knocking three times, he didn't dare to knock again, he was afraid that Song Shi would hate him again.But he can't do nothing.So I had to drag out a blanket and sleep in the corridor.

After the lights are turned off, the lights in the corridor are not turned off, but the lights are very dim, just like the kerosene lamps in the last century.

Ye Siwei didn't think about anything now, sitting at the door with his knees hugged, he suddenly remembered that it was the same way when he harassed Song Shi doing his homework before, Song Shi wouldn't let him be by, and kept him locked out of the door.At first, he had no choice but to knock on the door, knocking it loudly, but Song Shi still ignored him, so he had to squat at the door and act as the door god himself, and then go out to play with Song Shi after he finished writing.It was a wonderful time, each other was the same as in each other's childhood memories.

Ye Siwei thought in a daze, then leaned his head against the door and fell asleep, until Shen Anyu kicked him awake.

Ye Siwei never thought that Song Shi would have a fever, and he didn't know if he left something in his body last night, and he might not be able to clean it up if he said it himself.

The two rushed Song Shi to the hospital in a panic.And it was really embarrassing to be told the truth by that poisonous doctor.After persuading Shen Anyu to go back, Ye Siwei sat by the bed.

People who are sick are fragile, and Ye Siwei felt sour when he saw Song Shi who was sick.He doesn't know what kind of feelings he has for Song Shi, but after so many years, any feelings have been carved into his bones. He protects him, from the first sight of meeting to the university, his joy is indescribable .

Song Shi didn't know if he fell asleep, but he was quiet, his head sank in the pillow, and he looked small.His face was originally quite round, and he often wore glasses, which made him look very cute.But now her face is much thinner and her lips are pale.

Seeing Ye Siwei's heart ache, he raised his hand to his forehead, it was still hot, he was startled, and looked down again.

Looking at the pale lips, she still couldn't help sticking them up, slowly moistening them.

When he looked up, he found that Song Shi had already woken up, maybe he hadn't fallen asleep, and was looking at him with a confused look.

Ye Siwei stood up in a panic, at a loss for what to do.After a while, he said, "How are you doing now, are you feeling better?"

Song Shi glanced at him lightly, then turned his head in another direction.

Ye Siwei scratched his head, not knowing what the situation was now, nor what to do next.

In the silent ward there were only the sound of two people's breathing, Ye Siwei sat down with his head bowed, not daring to ask any more questions.

"You said you were serious." He said when he heard Song.

"Seriously, what serious?" Ye Siwei was puzzled, maybe he said something big.

"Ashi, I'm sorry." Ye Siwei sat beside his bed, holding his hand.

"I didn't expect to be like this when I was drunk. I...I...I used to be drunk before..."

He couldn't continue, and Song Shi didn't make a sound. Ye Si was in a hurry, and went around to shake Song Shi's hand, "Forgive me, Ah Shi, we are still good friends."

Song Shi looked at the hand held by him, at Ye Siwei who was still unconscious, and knew that he was hopeless. "Get out of here."

"I won't leave, and I won't leave even if you don't forgive me."

Song Shi got angry, and he didn't care about the water hanging from his hand, so he pushed him.

Ye Siwei was still holding his hand, the two of them tugged and slammed, the needle's eye passed through the back of Song Shi's hand, and the skin was torn and blood flowed out.Ye Siwei was dumbfounded, and then hurriedly rang the bell to find a nurse.

When he came in with the nurse, Song Shi fell asleep again, only the arm was still exposed.When the nurse sister saw how injured he was, she immediately scolded Ye Siwei and kicked him out.

Ye Siwei didn't give up, the corridor outside was pitch black in the middle of the night, there was no place for people to stay, and besides, he had to watch Song Shi to prevent him from doing anything.

So he sneaked back again, and then nestled into the accompanying bed.

Nothing to say all night.The next day Song Shi's complexion was still not good. When Shen Anyu called, they had already arrived at the dormitory. Song Shi felt that Ye Siwei must have felt guilty because of this incident, so he had to pay attention to this and that like an old lady. It made him dizzy again.

"Ye Siwei, can you stop bothering me!"

Ye Siwei knew that he was in a bad mood, and was very considerate of him, so he ran back and forth with a silly smile to serve him.

"I'm not a woman. I got pregnant after being penetrated once. What are you doing like this?"

Ye Siwei opened his eyes wide, "I didn't regard you as a woman."

"That's good, we have nothing to do with each other, you still go to your girlfriend, don't worry about me here."

Ye Siwei paused for a while, Song Shi thought he was silent, and then heard his low voice, "Who do you want me to go to?"

Find someone who is more important than you, and there are thousands of others who are better than you, and that is not you.

After Shen Anyu bought the porridge, Song Shi lost his temper and stopped eating. It's really no big deal, didn't he just have a fever?Besides, the fever is gone now.In the end he ate the noodles, while Ye Siwei drank the millet porridge.

Then came the long Cold War, perhaps one-sided in Song Dynasty.

Song Shi knew that Ye Siwei was not gay, and they could no longer be brothers after this happened, so they had to break up.

Ye Siwei moved out of the dormitory, and when Song Shi came back that day, seeing his empty bed, he felt more uncomfortable than anyone else.

The one who loves him is himself, and the one who drives him away is also himself.

Later Song Shi heard them talking and knew that Ye Siwei had moved to live with his mother.

He said he wanted to untie him, but Song Shi didn't know what he could do to untie him.But every time Shen Anyu mentioned Ye Siwei, he would always prick up his ears to listen. This has been a habit for some time.Paying attention to him all the time, looking up at him silently, has become a habit, and I can't change it anymore.

Time flies and it's the long vacation. Gu Ziyuan is always unhappy when he sees Song Shi, so he proposes to follow him to the mountain to practice.Abandon the mundane world, Zen Mind will give you the answer.

Song Shi left a message for Shen Anyu, and then left.

And he didn't know that Ye Siwei was on his way.

Eat vegetarian food every day, do morning and evening classes, and in the evening, brush a few pens at the desk, and follow the brothers on the mountain to pick wild fruits.Far away from the city and the hustle and bustle, this kind of life is surprisingly calm and peaceful.Song Shi was about to fall in love with this mountain.

It was only when Ye Siwei arrived that he realized that the road in the mountain had been blocked, and if he wanted to go up the mountain, he had to climb up the cliff over there.

It sounds like a terrible thing, but fortunately, there are stepping places set up by the masters on the side, and it is not difficult to climb.

It's just too high.

Ye Siwei didn't know if he was sure, but fortunately he was wearing a pair of sneakers.

To climb the ladder, one has to hold on to the iron chain at all times. He really doesn't know why this Taoist temple is built on such a steep mountain. Whoever comes, the birds don't come.

After a whole day's wasted effort, Ye Siwei finally climbed to the mountain and looked at the small Taoist temple so close to him, he almost cried.

Song Shi finished his calligraphy homework and had nothing else to do, so he climbed to the big tree in front of the Taoist temple to watch the sunset. I almost fell down in fright.

And when he took a closer look and found that this person was Ye Siwei, his pupils dilated a circle.

And Ye Siwei just looked at him and smiled, as silly as usual.

After climbing the mountain for so long, his sneakers were worn out, his feet got blisters, and his hands were calloused.

But he didn't care, watching Song Shi busily looking for medicine to wipe his feet.

But how could Song Shi come to wipe his feet, he quickly snatched the towel away.Putting his skinned foot in the water was excruciatingly painful, he didn't say a word, Song Shi looked at him and sighed, not understanding what this man was going to do.

Ye Siwei was silent for a long time, and finally said pitifully, "Ah Shi, don't drive me away, I'm afraid I'll be useless if I climb up again."

Song Shi gave him a hard look, "You can't go down even if the mountain is closed."

Ye Siwei was relieved, and washed his feet happily.

Song Shi watched from the side, his feet looked like that, and he was still smiling so happily, really.

Ye Siwei was very obedient, Song Shi went to evening class, so he obediently sat in the side room and waited.

When he came back, what he saw was a little leaf nestling on his bed.

"Leaf, leaf, go back to your own room and sleep."

Ye Siwei rubbed his eyes, "What kind of house am I?"

"next door."

Ye Siwei agreed, then walked out, and suddenly came back halfway.

"Ashi, can I sleep with you?"

Song Shi gave him a cold look, but Ye Siwei didn't speak, but just looked at him straight.

"It's okay if you want to sleep, just speak clearly first."

Ye Siwei nodded quickly.

"What are you doing here? I don't think you came here to find someone to abuse you when you have nothing to do."

Ye Siwei raised a hand, "Ah Shi, actually, I think I have a very different feeling for you. I think it's because I like you."

Song Shi's heart trembled, "No, you're just guilty."

"No." Ye Siwei scratched his hair, "I talked to my mother in detail, and she told me to follow my own heart. I have made so many girlfriends, but I never let a girl go. In my heart, but you are different. I care about what you eat, what you drink, what books you read, and where you go every day. I watch you grow from a small vegetable sprout to this big. When you ignore me, every time you see Your face, I am very sad, I really can't bear the thought of us being strangers from now on, or never seeing each other again. Ah Shi, you touch your chest and tell me, can you bear it?"

Ye Siwei grabbed his hand and placed it on his chest, "Can you bear it?"

"I don't know." Song Shi shook off his hand, and a cluster of small flames suddenly appeared in his already desperate mood. Although they were weak, they couldn't be blown out.

"Ashi, shall we try?" Ye Siwei hugged him into his arms, "I will love you with all my heart, you trust me."

Song Shi didn't speak, but he didn't push him away either.

Long Jiu still scratched his back, "I'll think about giving you a chance."

Gradually tightening his hands, Song Shi did not speak, this is the person he has loved for more than ten years, and now it is his turn to love himself.