drowning

Xu Yanxin dreamed that she was staying in nothingness, everything was white and there was no boundary.Walking aimlessly, no one answered his call.He doesn't know how long he has been walking, because there is no time here, but he is still walking, which seems to be the purpose of his life.Until a drop of rain fell from the sky, and it hit his face coolly. He reached out to touch it, but it was a drop of red blood.Then came the downpour, and the whole world turned red.With his clothes, with his white heart.He woke up suddenly, and subconsciously touched his chest.

He had a needle hanging in his hand and a bunch of hanging bottles attached to it.Seeing him awake, Jiang Yu asked, "Do you want to sleep a little longer?"

He shook his head, propped himself up, and Jiang Yu adjusted the bed for him.He was dizzy and his limbs were weak, but he still remembered going home and couldn't help asking, "Is there anyone calling me?"

"Well, I had a few calls just now." Jiang Yu handed him the phone, and when he turned it on, it was all Xu Zhao's missed calls.He called Xu Zhao, put on a cheerful tone, and said, "Mom, did you call me just now? I'm in a taxi, on my way to grandpa's house."

Xu Zhao asked: "Who allowed you to go? You still have classes on weekends."

"Mom, you forgot, the day after tomorrow is grandma's birthday."

Xu Zhao was silent for two seconds, and said, "Then buy some supplements for me, don't run around, don't take the opportunity to take them to the supermarket to help you buy snacks, do you hear me? I have something to do on the weekend, so I won't come."

He agreed.

"Then call me when you arrive."

Xu Yanxin hung up the phone before letting out a sigh of relief and saying sorry to grandma from the bottom of her heart.After Jiang Yu listened, he didn't comment, but just asked: "Aren't you afraid that your mother will call your grandparents?" He lowered his eyes and said, "My mother rarely calls them." The two were silent for a while. In a few seconds, Jiang Yu broke off the chopsticks for him and signaled him to buy a lunch box.Xu Yanxin was flattered and said thank you, but Jiang Yu suddenly asked, "Why did you come to save me?"

Xu Yanxin said strangely: "Aren't we friends?"

Jiang Yu said: "Let's not talk about friends or not, I don't need your help at all. And you...you came to the second floor, are you really not afraid of death?"

"I didn't think about it so much at the time, so I just cared about fearing that something would happen to you." After all, Jiang Yu looked at him with foggy eyes, he didn't know what Jiang Yu was thinking, and Jiang Yu just helped him in silence Tucking the corner of the quilt, and putting his protruding hands and feet back into the quilt, this action did not match the feeling Jiang Yu gave him, like a lonely and fierce wolf pinching his limbs, not biting his throat, but He licked his cheek, as if to show his goodwill, but he was frightened by his own thoughts.

However, when he got close, Xu Yanxin smelled a strong smell of smoke, he sniffed, frowned slightly, Jiang Yu gave him a sideways look, and opened the window as if feeling a sense.Leaning against the dark night outside the window, Jiang Yu seemed to be thinking, but also seemed to be in a daze.Jiangyu is bitter.He suddenly thought so.

He yelled for Jiang Yu to bring him a schoolbag, and Jiang Yu went back to the past, frowned in disgust and brought him the heavy bag.Like a Doraemon out of his pocket, he pulled out a lead brush, and with a few strokes on the paper, he outlined the figure of Jiangyu, and handed it to him as if offering a treasure.

Jiang Yu stared at him for a long time, then pondered: "You like painting me so much?"

He stared at his painting and said with a smile: "You have better proportions than the real-life models I have seen before. Do you know the mermaid line? Also called the external oblique muscle, the V-shaped muscle line formed on both sides of the abdomen, Darwin In "Painting Theory", it is proposed that 'mermaid line is a symbol of human body beauty and sexiness', and only people who have been exercising for a long time will have lines. Your mermaid line is very good."

"I've never undressed in front of you."

Xu Yanxin said: "You like to chat about T-shirts and wipe sweat after playing. Everyone has seen it. Many girls cover their eyes and leave a gap to watch."

"Are you peeking too?"

"Me? Of course I look at it openly."

He looked down at his painting, the boy in the painting was indescribably romantic and lonely.

When he paints others, it is difficult to immediately grasp the characteristics of the characters.But I don't know if it's because Jiang Yu's figure is too good, so everything is art, together with his wrist bones and frowning eyebrows when he smokes, the wind brings a burst of depression.According to Jiang Yu's temper, he was determined to laugh at him, but this time Jiang Yu just glanced at his hand holding the drawing paper, which was still pierced with a needle. If it is swollen, it needs to be swollen. He slowly took out the drawing paper and pen in Xu Yanxin's hand, put his belongings back into the schoolbag, and said to Xu Yanxin's eyes: "It's okay, forget about the pain."

Xu Yanxin lay back on the pillow.Jiang Yu took a closer look and found that although Xu Yanxin was usually in a hurry and smiled like a sunflower, her closed eyes and silent appearance were so quiet that it was hard to touch. The young man's pale face was pillowed on the soft white pillow, showing A sense of alienation from the rest of the world.The eyelashes are also very long, just like girls.

When Xu Yanxin was sent to the hospital, he yelled at everyone in a hurry.He had never seen so much blood, it kept bleeding, turning his bloody face pale, Xu Yanxin pressed the wound with the gauze he just bought, leaned on his shoulder, and opened his lips weakly several times , but he only cared about opening the corners of Xu Yanxin's gradually closing eyes, and telling the taxi driver to hurry up.It wasn't until he was taken in the corridor by the nurse to wash the blood from his palms that he figured out what Xu Yanxin said.

"Don't be afraid, I'm fine."

He seemed drained of energy, unable to speak a word, like a traveler who was about to die of thirst after traveling thousands of miles, but found an oasis at the origin after traveling all over the desert.Xu Yanxin opened his eyes again, looking at his shoulder with round eyes, and asked softly, "Is your shoulder okay?"

Jiang Yu said: "It's okay, just go back and raise her. You should take care of yourself first."

Xu Yanxin said: "You've been hurt for a hundred days, don't fight with others. But it's fine, it scared me to death. I shouldn't have jumped on you when I jumped. If you didn't fall well, your shoulders will be hurt. There is a possibility of a comminuted fracture, which will leave sequelae, I think your experience is not reliable, it is very likely that you will be paralyzed from the fall..."

He spoke softer and softer, and finally moved his lips a few times, then quietly closed his eyes.

Jiang Yu chuckled, turned off the light in the ward for him, and went to smoke a cigarette outside the hospital.It was early in the morning when he received Maohou's call. He leaned against the wall and heard Maohou say that he had just come out of the police station. Imagining how miserable he was crying, he scolded him for a while before asking: "How much do you want to pay?"

"At least [-] to [-] yuan. The fire burned the store black. No matter how crowded I am, I only have [-] yuan. Where can I find another [-] yuan for him? If I sell me, I won't have that much money."

Jiang Yu thought for a while, and replied: "I have three or four thousand in my hand, and I can get five thousand in a few days."

"Where did you get the money? Did you go to work in the bar again? Little bastard, the money comes in quickly there, but if someone reports you as a student working there, do you still have to take the exam? What do your teachers and classmates think?" You, even if they don’t know, won’t your shadow affect your studies? You feel like you’re making a lot of money now, but when you go to college and work, is there any way to make money?”

Jiang Yu said: "I didn't go to the bar, the school scholarship. I didn't get it before."

The hairy monkey continued to ask. He was irritated, rubbed the center of his brows, and said, "I'll give you the money in a few days. The signal here is not good, so I hung up." He put the phone back in his pocket and looked down at his phone. shoe.The soles of the Nikes he bought two years ago are already crisp, but he still wears them.It's not that he doesn't know that the hairy monkey is right, but how can the far water save the near fire?He typed a line in the text message box, then deleted it all, and typed two lines again politely.He shook his thumb and pressed send.

He raised his head, the moon is curved today, accompanied by a few stars.

Like every night he's waking up.

He stared at the dawn as usual, but only felt that the rising sun in the distance burned his eyes.It may be an egg yolk accidentally dropped by God's cooking, and it fainted on its own, scalding the whole night so sizzling.

He rubbed his eyes and went to the entrance of the hospital to buy a finger pie, two eggs, tenderloin, and bacon. After eating a refreshment on the side of the road, he lit a cigarette and returned to the hospital. Halfway through, he seemed to remember something. I folded it back and took a takeaway, hung it on my wrist, and squinted under the sun to drill into the hospital.

It was a morning to remember.

If he were asked to write "The Most Unforgettable Thing" ten years ago, he would not be talked to by the Chinese teacher because he wrote about his parents' disputes and neighbors' persuasion. The sea of ​​Uyang Uyang in the attic.He used to float on the surface of the silent sea, but now the sea evaporates and he is pushed onto the land.

And there's a fool on land.

The author says:

Seeking starfish~