drowning

The wind at the top of the tower made his soul weightless, floating in the sky, examining himself and Xu Yanxin's face without any emotion. Xu Yanxin was carrying a hand-woven satchel, clutching the rusty railing, and stepped on the stone steps to look at the merchants who closed their stalls below. With the sparse crowd, Jiang Yu, who has always been unsmiling, quietly watched Xu Yanxin's side face calmly.

He has a face that is ready to be slaughtered, as if anyone can take advantage of him, even Jiangyu, who never grabs it, begins to absorb the warmth from him.

The wind at the top of the tower was very strong, blowing Xu Yanxin backwards and forwards, and his thick black hair was blown to the back of his forehead. Fortunately, Jiang Yu locked him in his arms like he was on a bus.

"Sooner or later it will be blown to Siberia."

Xu Yanxin snorted, clutching her satchel tightly, and the wind chime inside made a tinkling sound.People under the tower clean up and make garbage, like an endless circle.Jiang Yu was far less out of touch than he was, he was distracted by those two shoulders, and the person in his arms was still pointing at the light in the distance and turning his head to tell him how beautiful it was, the soft hair brushed his neck Between, itchy.

He had no choice but to hold Xu Yanxin's back and warn him not to move around. The person who was rejected snorted twice, sulking on the railing, with butterfly bones on top of a thin cotton T-shirt, as if he really wanted to A butterfly fluttering its wings, but Jiang Yu knows that his temper is very short, as long as he shows a few words, he will get into his arms regardless of the past, just like the hamster he raised when he was a child, even angry The back is all soft.

Xu Yanxin was not angry, but suddenly remembered the composition questions in the weekly test paper last week. The composition questions were like this, standing on a high place can see the scenery of the city, but standing on a low place can only see the garbage on the ground.In the silent examination room, he tapped the test paper twice with a water pen, and chose the perspective of "standing at a low level" without hesitation. He suddenly became curious about Jiang Yu, so he asked about this matter. Unexpectedly, Jiang Yu said: " I didn't take the test paper last time." Xu Yanxin opened her eyes wide, and regardless of Jiang Yu's willingness to let him turn his head, she turned to confront him.Jiang Yu turned his eyes away, and held his waist with his hands to prevent him from moving.

"There is something at home."

Xu Yanxin froze for a moment, then remembered that it should be the week of the speech.He subconsciously grabbed Jiang Yu's clothes and said sorry to him, he didn't mean to mention it.Jiang Yu looked down at his fingers, which were fragile and slender. He was pulling back and forth by the corner of his shirt. His strength was not so weak. He rescued his clothes from Xu Yanxin's hand and said it was all right. eyes, and asked: "If you were to think about it now, how would you write it?"

"You must have chosen 'stand low'."

Xu Yanxin froze for a moment, only to hear Jiang Yu continue: "Compared to the grand narrative structure and the glamorous beauty, you will choose the devastated reality, but I won't. I'm used to seeing too much rubbish. It will all be integrated.”

"No, I think you are very good." Xu Yanxin held his wrist and stared at him seriously, "If I were you, I would definitely not be able to do as well as you."

"Only you can say that."

"That's because they didn't see the shining point in you, just like Van Gogh was recognized for his value long after his death. If you are willing to let them get closer, everyone will definitely admire you, at least Xia Song and Fang Keshi must be, they are all envious of you playing basketball so well," Xu Yanxin continued to say while wrestling her fingers and tilting her head, "I heard from Fang Keshi that there are many girls in our class who have a crush on you."

No one has ever praised him like this, telling him seriously, you are doing a good job.

The tone is like teasing a child, a bit offensive, but sincere.

Jiang Yu was confused by such sincerity, and could only say: "I think you are too stupid." Xu Yanxin didn't pretend to be angry as he expected, but lowered her head thoughtfully .

"There is only a thin line between kindness and innocence. Innocent people are easy to hurt, but they are not worthy of sympathy. Innocence is always related to stupidity," Xu Yanxin recalled Xu Zhao's convincing expression, lowered his eyes, and said, "I don't think I'm kind, I just want to make up for my guilt. When I see those shabby people begging for a little food and money, I feel very sad and even feel evil. In so many So much money spent on unnecessary things and so much attention from family members."

Xu Yanxin said in a low voice: "I'm very hypocritical. I spent a little money to free myself from the condemnation of my conscience."

Jiang Yu looked down at him, looked at his lost face, his soul fell to the ground along with his loss.

Xu Yanxin made him ill, there was no cause, no cure, and the spontaneous empathy was a train that would never turn back. Who knew where it would lead, whether it was death or something else.

He didn't dare to think too much, as if he touched a box containing secret treasures, what kind of monster would he release?

"Innocence is a state of ignorance, but kindness is a kind of ability. The two are not similar. People who abandon the beauty of high places and kiss the earth are not self-satisfied bastards anyway." Jiang Yu said heavily watch him.

Jiang Yu was softened by the night, together with his hard heart, Xu Yanxin couldn't help thinking.

He blinked twice, as if suddenly enlightened, and fell into a new predicament - he couldn't help laughing: "Do you have a dream?"

"That stuff is so ethereal, I just want to live."

Xu Yanxin sighed softly, and couldn't help but said: "If you don't know what direction to work hard, you can try to be a lawyer. I think you are very suitable to be a lawyer."

Jiang Yu raised his eyebrows and said, "Because you are mean?"

"You will make the client feel trustworthy," he caught a glimpse of a smile on the corner of Jiang Yu's mouth, so he straightened his face and said, "I'm serious."

"Understood, what about you? Be a mathematician like your grandfather?" Xu Yanxin shook her head and remained silent.

"Then let me give you a suggestion, be a lawyer, you can help a lot of people." Xu Yanxin smiled and said, "You copied me, I thought you would say to be a cartoonist or something." Jiang Yu rubbed His head said: "I originally wanted to say that, but if you really go that way, you will probably be scolded to death by your parents, right? So I will give you a compromise answer, although there is a mistake , people who are both black and white will ask you to settle accounts, but at least you have walked this road by yourself, you have neither enemies nor companions, isn't it not bad?"

Xu Yanxin let out a chuckle, and asked back, "Why aren't you my companion?"

"I'm too lazy to care about you."

Xu Yanxin twisted his waist, then squinted to look at the beautiful scenery in the distance.

After all, Qingshui County was just a county seat, and it couldn't compare to the scenery of S City, but it was the first time when he looked at it from afar, he felt so calm.He has a little fear of heights, but it's not serious. He gets dizzy just standing on a high place. He's afraid to stretch his hands out of the railings, and he doesn't dare to stick too close to the railings, but today is a special case.As someone who was born at a high place, he never told others that he is afraid of heights. He is afraid of physical heights and social status, but he never dares to complain, and he always feels guilty.

"You know what? I'm actually afraid of heights."

Jiang Yu paused, then said, "Then the day after tomorrow, when you go to the playground, you can only ride the carousel."

Xu Yanxin widened her eyes and asked, "You just want to talk about this?"

"...Don't be afraid?"

"I thought you were going to call me a coward or something."

Jiang Yu smiled and said, "Sorry, I didn't fall into the hole you dug, and I don't know how to be sarcastic occasionally." The two looked at each other and smiled, remembering the confrontation when they first met.After being corrected by Xu Yanxin, it was Jiang Yu who released his malice on his own.

"Then how about going to the video store to rent a disc and go back to watch a movie?"

Xu Yanxin paused, and said pleasantly, "Really? Can we watch Harry Potter?" Jiang Yu said, barely.Xu Yanxin squinted at him, and asked him what is reluctance, Jiang Yu raised his eyebrows and said, it is not easy to cater to your elementary school students.The two of you said one sentence to another and went downstairs.Xu Yanxin's slightly curly hair was blown into a mess, like a chicken coop. Xu Yanxin, who was burdened by idols, trotted to the public toilet to soak up his hair, leaning against the wall, looking at the moths under the street lamp .Xu Yanxin came back and saw Jiang Yu calm and composed, with a cool expression on his face, and couldn't help but ask, "Why didn't your hair become messy?"

"Because it's harder."

Xu Yanxin couldn't help standing on tiptoe to touch it, but Jiang Yu dodged it by grabbing his wrist.

He just wanted to say stingy, but he didn't expect Jiang Yu to say leisurely: "Don't touch hard things."

Xu Yanxin asked confusedly: "What do you mean?"

Jiang Yu clicked his tongue, feeling that his car was driving into the river and no one was paying attention, so he sighed and said, "I guess you thought it was a massage when you watched action movies on the bed." Xu Yanxin was stunned for three seconds before finally Recalling what Jiang Yu meant, his face was flushed, and he trotted over and bumped Jiang Yu's waist. He didn't know where to put his hands and feet, so he could only stammer, "You, how could you do this!" Jiang Yu calmly Ask him back: "Haven't you seen that kind?"

"Where, what kind?"

"It's the kind of one man and one woman..."

"Damn, of course not!" Xu Yanxin's hands and feet were numb, and he held his face and said, "I, we are not yet eighteen, no, we can't watch that kind of stuff." Jiang Yu chuckled, bent down to look at him, and asked: " You haven't seen Titanic? Who was singing the theme song in the car?"

"I..." Xu Yanxin's face was burned, and she whispered, "You did it on purpose, why do you keep teasing me?"

Xu Yanxin walked forward angrily, ignoring his calls.But after walking a few steps, he remembered that it was the first time he had come to this place. Where did he know the video store and the hotel? Looking back at him, waiting for him to wave the white flag.

It was rare for him to be stubborn, and he refused to bow his head. He held his satchel, hummed a little song, and walked eastward. Unexpectedly, after walking for more than ten minutes, Jiang Yu didn't stop.He couldn't help thinking, Jiang Yu really wanted to save face, he never bowed his head even once, his feet were sore from walking, when he was crossing the road, he stood on his feet and turned left and right, as if he had blisters, the soreness was swollen .

Jiang Yu walked to his side and glanced at him: "Tired?"

He poked his neck back: "No."

Jiang Yu glanced at the countdown traffic lights opposite, sighed, and knelt down in front of him.Xu Yanxin stared blankly at the broad back, Jiang Yu saw that the countdown was getting shorter and shorter, and urged him: "Come up quickly."

Xu Yanxin felt that he must have been bewitched to hear the gentleness in Jiang Yu's urging tone. He almost didn't think about it, and grabbed the tall tree like a koala. The moment he remembered him, he seemed to have returned to the time when he was very young, when he asked Shen Feng to recite it.At that time, he had no worries. He only thought about eating candy and watching cats every day.

Many passers-by couldn't help but look at them, Jiang Yu didn't care, but Xu Yanxin was thin-skinned and put her head in the hollow of his shoulder, fearing that his back would be uncomfortable, so she held the satchel in her hand, and the wind chime inside followed Jiang Yu's footsteps Make a crisp sound.

Jiang Yu didn't speak from the beginning to the end, but his steps were steady, which made him almost fall asleep in a daze. After walking for some time, Jiang Yu said, "Who told you to wear leather shoes when you go out?"

Xu Yanxin didn't hear clearly, but just wrapped his arms around his neck.

"Fell asleep?"

"Jiangyu..."

Jiang Yu felt that his tone was like that of a child giving a small report to the teacher in the kindergarten.Silly, yet flattering.

"Ok?"

"I got blisters on my feet."

Jiang Yu sounds funny.

Xu Yanxin muttered a few words, but Jiang Yu didn't hear clearly.

It wasn't until he pushed the elevator and saw Xu Yanxin rubbing his collar lips in the elevator's mirror that he suddenly realized that those two soft whispers said, Jiang Yu, I finished eating the candy you gave me .

The author says:

What Xinxin will pick up when she goes to the beach in summer: starfish~ (hint)