My ancestors wouldn't let me be gay

The old place Yuan Kai mentioned was a small Internet cafe far away from Jidi Street. The two had been playing games in this Internet cafe since they were young. When they came, the boss asked, "Why haven't you been here for so long? Are you in your third year of high school?"

Yuan Kai stepped aside to turn on two machines: "That's right, I'm here for a duel today."

Sheng Mingkai followed him without speaking, and went to the game console in silence, immersed in the fighting of the game for the whole game, so that Mu Qi's face was temporarily forgotten in his mind.

It was not until early morning that Sheng Mingcastan came out with Yuan Kai.

On one road, Yuan Kai walked in front, and Sheng Ming followed behind with his schoolbag on his back, until Yuan Kai couldn't bear the silence and stiff atmosphere between the two, stopped and asked, "What the hell are you thinking? You're absent-minded. "

Sheng Mingcastan passed by him, and continued to walk forward: "It's nothing."

"Brother Cheng, I have worshiped you since I was a child. When I was a child, someone bullied me, and you beat me away. When you grow up, you practice sports and I also practice sports with you. Now you are angry with Mu Qi, why are you turning towards me?" Did I spill it?" Yuan Kai stepped forward, grabbed his arm, and asked.

"Kaizi, I didn't mean to vent my anger on you. I'm... In short, my mind is in a mess right now, and I can't sort out the situation." Sheng Mingjiao said.

Yuan Kai grew up wearing a pair of trousers with him, knew him well, and said, "Aren't you fucking confused? Who hasn't, and I'm also confused. My score is not enough for the junior college next door. What can I say?" Yet?"

After finishing speaking, Yuan Kai was so wronged that he shed tears. He wiped away a handful of tears, gritted his teeth and cried, "You have already passed the exam. Why are you confused? You can go to the junior college next door. Why are you confused?" ah?"

Sheng Mingjiao looked at him in a daze, and had to say, sometimes Tiezi is Tiezi, a single word awakens the dreamer, even when Sheng Mingcasti doesn't know what his emotional state is now, Yuan Kai has already seen him clearly It's clear.

Yes, it is confusion.

All along, his goal has been to work part-time after graduating from the college entrance examination. He has never thought about going to university, but Musaki's expectation for him is to take the college entrance examination, get on the list, be admitted, and go to college.

He is currently drifting against the current, he wants to stay in Zhanning, take care of his grandma until she dies, and then live the rest of his life as an ordinary person.

But Makisaki's expectation for him should be to go to college, then achieve higher achievements, and become a partner who can stand shoulder to shoulder with Makisaki.

Yes, mate.

This is the biggest ambiguity between Shengming Castanopsis and Makizaki.

Mu Qi wants to be with him for a long time, he just wants to go to the college entrance examination with Mu Qi.

This love is something that he has never thought about in his life plan, and accepting its existence is already the biggest compromise. Now tell him that Makizaki not only wants him to be in the third year of high school, but also wants his whole life.

He was a little embarrassed.

Makisaki's love is too warm, how dare he, a coward, continue to carry on.

"What the hell are you talking about? I brought you here to play games today, not just for playing games. I also have something on my mind, okay?" Yuan Kai seemed to want to tell Sheng Mingjiao all the grievances these days.

In this way, he will not be alone in the life of facing the college entrance examination and frustration.

"What's on your mind, tell me." Sheng Mingjiao followed his words, put his arms on his shoulders, and walked idly.

It was one o'clock in the morning, and the streets were deserted.

Yuan Kai finally dared to cry boldly: "I confessed my love to the squad leader on horseback, and you know that I confessed it?"

I really didn't expect this, Sheng Mingcaster let out a "fuck" and said, "You are so fucking brave."

"Brave ass, didn't I end up full of mouth ulcers with all my passion? Look at the blisters on my mouth, it's from the day the squad leader refused." Yuan Kai opened his mouth and showed Sheng Mingcaster the ulcers.

Sheng Mingcastan took a look: "Wow, there are really bubbles."

"It's shiny, and it's quite shiny."

"Stop gloating, wait until you have someone you like, and watch how I laugh at you." Yuan Kai shook his shoulder and dropped his arm.

Sheng Mingkao put his shoulders again and said, "Tell me, what did the squad leader tell you, as for making you so anxious?"

Yuan Kai sobbed, and said: "Sometimes I think Luo Yan is quite realistic. She told me that at our age, we can't see the future, and we don't have a rich past. After the college entrance examination, everyone Lao Yanfei I stayed here, and she said that if she couldn't get into a good school, she would go to Beijing for a break."

"Well, what does this have to do with your confession? Isn't it half a year before you graduate from the college entrance examination?"

"What do you know? Either don't start a relationship, or don't end it easily. I want to live with Luo Yan in the future. If she goes to Beijing, we will have no future, do you understand?"

Either don't start a relationship, or start it and don't end it easily.

Sheng Mingjiao was still thinking about this sentence until he returned to Jidi Street. Yuan Kai was able to become his iron man for many years because he had the same growth experience as himself.

They all grew up in this area, studied, may work in the future, marry wives and have children, all in this area.

In other words, Yuan Kai's confusion is the confusion of Sheng Mingkao.

It's just that Yuan Kai's love has not started yet.

His love affair has already begun.

Sheng Mingkao stopped the hand that was about to push the door, his eyes fell on the two plane trees at the door, a figure was leaning on the trunk, waiting for him.

Sheng Mingkao didn't know when Makizaki came and how long he waited for him.

Mu Qi did not speak, silence seemed to have become his shield, Jing Jing walked over, gave him two knowledge points to be memorized tomorrow, and then silently wanted to leave.

The moment Makizaki turned around, Sheng Mingkao grabbed Makizaki's wrist without knowing where the courage came from.

"let's talk."

Makizaki looked back at him.

"I'm afraid, I'm confused, I'll let you down, do you know that?" Sheng Mingkao asked softly.

Makisaki paused, held his wrist with his backhand, and nodded: "I know, you don't want to go to college, you think our relationship will only end after the college entrance examination. After the college entrance examination, you will return to the bridge, and I will return."

Sheng Mingjiao looked at the cinnabar mole on his wrist, the moonlight fell on it, as if imprinted on Sheng Mingcasti's heart.

"So, you know everything, but you don't say anything, force me to follow your footsteps, push someone who refuses to go, are you tired?" When Sheng Mingkao said these words, he didn't have any confidence .

He even turned his voice to the minimum at the end, he was afraid that Mu Qi would suddenly give up on him and criticize him, but what was even more afraid was that Mu Qi kept dragging him away.

Those who are pushed away cannot go far.

Once one day, the thrust behind him disappears, and this person will stay on an unfamiliar road. At that time, he will not be able to return to the origin, let alone reach the distance he wants.

Mu Qi sighed, carrying his troubles and difficulties these days, he didn't have to push Sheng Ming away, he was also willing to stay in Zhanning.

But are they like that the future?

"Shengming Castanopsis." It was the first time that Makizaki called him by his full name.

Sheng Mingjiao's heart trembled following these three words.

Mu Qi's eyes were calm, he held Sheng Ming's wrist, and said: "I don't know what we will be like in the future, but I know what we are like now, we are always remembering the past and planning for the future in the present, so Everything we do seems to be for the non-existent past and future, but shouldn’t the most important thing we should do is to live in the present?”

Sheng Mingkao's fingers gripped his wrist tightly, and he was hit again by Makizaki's seemingly gentle but cruel words.

Mu Qi took a deep breath, and his tone contained forbearance and concessions, which seemed to be a decision he made after thinking for a long time: "I promise you, we will break up after the college entrance examination, so that you don't have to feel burdened with my future, but you You have to promise me that you will do your best to study before the college entrance examination, whether it is physical education or culture, is that okay?"

The young man looked at him with the most sincere and devout eyes, but any normal person would nod in agreement if he didn't make a fool of himself.

"it is good."

"This is the last knowledge point of geography. You memorize it well, and I will check it tomorrow." Mu Qi smiled slightly, and with a little reluctance, he let go of the smile and left.

After Mu Qi walked a few steps, Sheng Ming Castan rushed up, hugged him from behind, buried his head on Mu Qi's broad back, and said, "I'm sorry."

Mu Qi's back was stiff, and then he relaxed, patted Sheng Ming's hand, broke away from his embrace, and said: "It's my business to like you, and it's wrong for me to force you to be with me, but I want to fall in love with you It's true, and it's true that I don't want to be separated from you, if my liking brings you trouble and burden, then we can separate after the college entrance examination."

Seeing the pain on Makizaki's face, Sheng Mingkai felt that he didn't like Makizaki so much, and always felt that he would easily miss Makizaki's most sincere feelings now.

But he can't respond to more emotion, that contains the acting element.

Makizaki doesn't need him to act, and he is not a qualified actor.

"Go back to sleep and get up early tomorrow."

''Yeah" From that day on, Sheng Mingkao's life flew by like a wheel, going back and forth between home and school every day, and his two-day front-line life was so fast that he couldn't believe it.

By the time he realized that time had flown by, the first snow had already begun to fall.

The house was heated, so he told his grandma to stay in the house. The road was slippery in snowy weather, and if the elderly fell, big things would happen.

"Grandma, wait until I come back from school to move the things in the yard. Don't move them by yourself. I have the last subject today, and I will come back after the exam." Sheng Mingkao shouted into the room.

"Understood, let's go." Sheng Chen Xiuzhi leaned on a cane and came out to watch Sheng Mingkao.

Sheng Mingcaster put on the scarf, kissed grandma on the face before leaving.

As the exam ended, the bell rang for the last time, and Sheng Mingcasti put down the pen in his hand.

While waiting for the teacher to close the paper, he turned his head and looked out the window. The first snow had already fallen in a thin layer, covering the trees, the ground, and the window.

He reached out and dug a spoonful of snow, and put it in the palm of his hand, waiting for the snow water to paddle away.

After the snow melted, the test papers were collected.

After the papers were collected, he opened the notebook where he wrote lyrics every day.

- The first snow melts in the palm of the hand, the test paper is full of answers - if you are right or wrong, let time judge - time is the best answer After writing a few lyrics in a hurry, he hurried to the first class with his schoolbag.

Mu Qi returned to class [-] two months earlier, and sometimes the people in class [-] still feel like a dream, and they have been in the same class as Mu Qi. "Sheng Ming Castanopsis."

"Hey."

Sheng Mingkao waited a long time for Makizaki when he came to Class [-], and the students in Class [-] were not surprised at all.

Some bold female classmates even dared to call his name, and after getting his response, they put their arms around their companions' arms, bowed their heads and walked away shyly smiling.

In this intoxicating youth, there must be two boys who have amazed your youth.

And these two boys happen to have a good relationship.

"How was the exam?" Makizaki asked with his schoolbag on one shoulder.

"It's okay, I've written everything I can write." Sheng Mingkao replied.

Makizaki nodded, and followed him to go downstairs.

It's been like this for the past few months. Since the two of them talked that day, Mu Qi's attitude has always maintained a distance of neither far nor close, and occasionally restrained hard, and when he couldn't help it, he would kiss Sheng Mingkao while he was asleep.

Sheng Mingjiao always closes his eyes tightly and pretends to be asleep, only the trembling eyelashes betray him.

"You didn't come by bike today, why don't you take my car?" asked Sheng Mingkao.

Just as Mu Qi was about to answer, he heard Chen Senwen running down the stairs in a hurry. Seeing Empress Sheng Ming, he stopped him and said while running, "Hurry up, the street office is calling. Your grandma fell at home. Sheng Ming: "!" "