My ancestors wouldn't let me be gay

Makizaki, who had almost failed, returned to his home, watched a steady SUV downstairs drive out of the community, with a dejected expression on his face, and stood by the window in a daze for a while.

After coming over for a while, Luo Yan, who had finally had a rest, received a call from a strange person.

"Hey."

"it's me."

"who are you?"

Luo Yan receives not ten, but eight calls from strangers every day, either to ask whether Sheng Mingcastle has joined the group recently, or to ask her studio if she plans to sign a new contract and recommend herself.

Besides, after six years, it's not surprising that Manager Luo couldn't hear Makisaki's voice.

"Makizaki." The other party said.

Luo Yan's heart suddenly rose, and then she laughed dryly twice, and said, "Hey, it's you, brother Qi, I'm sorry, I didn't hear your voice just now..." Mu Qi was silent for a while, Probably unfamiliar, and then said: "It's okay."

"Then, why did you call me?" Even though she had already guessed half of Luo Yan, she still asked.

No way, the other party is not only her old classmate, but also the young owner of Shanmu Films.

"Squad leader." The other party called first.

Luo Yan shuddered, and sat up in Yuan Kai's arms. Yuan Kai opened his eyes in a daze, saw that she was on the phone again, and said dissatisfiedly: "Take a day off, don't work."

Luo Yan said to him in a breathy voice, "It's Brother Qi."

Yuan Kai was still sleeping, but the next second, he stood up like a carp, and asked in surprise, "What? Who?"

Luo Yan turned on the handset and said, "It's Brother Qi."

Yuan Kai's drowsiness disappeared immediately, and he tentatively called into the microphone: "Brother Qi?"

"it's me."

After Yuan Kai confirmed that it was him, he changed his previous cautiousness and began to curse: "Fuck, it's really your grandson. After disappearing for six years, he finally found out that he appeared. Do you know how hard Brother Cheng is going... If you couldn't stick to one end at the beginning, don't provoke him. He's living a life of a human, a ghost, and it's all due to you, don't you know?"

Makizaki's breathing was a little short, and he asked, "What happened to him in the past six years?"

"What's wrong? How dare you ask what's wrong?"

"Do you know that his voice is like that? And now he looks like a ghost, don't you see?" Yuan Kai said.

Sheng Mingcastle's voice, Mu Qi suddenly remembered that Sheng Mingcastle's voice was low, but his voice was hoarse, as if he scratched his throat every time he said a word.

"Is his voice because of me?" Makisaki asked.

"Nonsense, although it has nothing to do with you directly, you cannot escape indirect responsibility." Yuan Kai said.

Luo Yan heard this quietly, asked Yuan Kai to be quiet, and asked, "Brother Qi, is it because of Brother Kao that you contacted me?"

Makisaki said in a low voice, "Yes."

"Is it because of "Begging"?"

"Say, yell.

Luo Yan knew what was going on.She said, "Brother Cheng, I don't want to act."

Makizaki asked, "Did he say why?"

Luo Yan can't say, because you are the producer, so he doesn't want to act, so he said euphemistically: "He is still waiting for other scripts, there may be better ones..." Mu Qi said: " impossible."

Luo Yan: ".." Then I heard Mu Qi swear: "What I give him is the best."

Luo Yan was dumbfounded, she believed that Makizaki had guessed the real reason why Castan Sheng Ming didn't want to act.

People on both sides guessed the riddles they had known for a long time like dumb people. Luo Yan poked Yuan Kai's stomach. Yuan Kai received his wife's call for help and said to the mobile phone: "You can solve your own affairs by yourself. Don't bother me and my wife." off day."

As Sheng Mingcaster's brother, Yuan Kai has always been clear about it, so he hung up the phone decisively.

Luo Yan looked at his blacked-out screen and asked, "Isn't that good? Brother Qi is the young owner of Shanmu Pictures."

"Whatever he does, disturbing my rest with you is the original sin." Yuan Kai said, taking Luo Yan into his arms.

Luo Yan sighed and ventilated to Sheng Ming: "Brother Qi called me just now and asked why you didn't act."

Three minutes later, Sheng Mingcheng replied to her: "Don't pay attention to him."

After Sheng Mingjiao resigned from the role of "Beggar", the studio and his private mailbox received several scripts one after another. Sheng Mingcasti went through it once, and no matter the character design, plot, character contrast, or challenge, it was not as good as "Beggar". , I have to say that "Beggar" is the script with the best conception among the scripts he has read this year.

What's more, after he finished his Chinese opera class, he learned that "Beggarry" was written by He Qiu, the chief screenwriter of the Central Drama Stage, and his heart itched even more.The script, director, and production team are all the best, but the producer is the only one who doesn't like it.

Sheng Mingcastan was in a dilemma.

But he still wanted to wait, in case, in the meantime, there was a better notebook.

Day after day, Sheng Ming was idle at home, besides going to class, he just walked the cat, or went to the teacher's house to grab a meal. Xiang Zhenshan was very dissatisfied with him for giving up the opportunity to express himself better because he was a man, and nagged a few times. God, Sheng Mingcastle didn't know how to explain the situation to him. In short, Xiang Zhenshan believed that he was cowardly, so he was cowardly.

In the past few days, I have avoided my teacher's wife's dinner calls, saying that I am busy.

Xiang Zhenshan said dissatisfiedly over there: "What are you busy with? No job, no wife and children, what are you busy with?"

Sheng Mingcaster rubbed the neck of the rice cake, and when the rice cake was comfortable, he snored, and Sheng Mingcastle replied: "Who said that, I'm busy taking care of the children."

Startled, Xiang Zhenshan snatched his wife's phone and asked, "Are you messing with a girl's belly?"

Castanopsis Shengming: "..."

To be honest, there is no such function at the moment.

However, the teacher reminded him that he should go to a psychiatrist for diazepam.

Also, by the way, take a look at his unspeakable secret—the impotence.

It has been unfeasible for six consecutive years, and Sheng Mingcheng has gone from unbelievable to unacceptable at first, and now he is accustomed to it.

If a person has to accept one thing, it will be very fast.

For example, accepting death, accepting that one does not move.

Sheng Mingchen changed his clothes and was ready to go out.

Guoba is now familiar with the family, he will not stick to his feet when he wants to go out, and he refuses to leave.

Before going out, Sheng Mingkao yelled: "Cauba, shall I go?"

Guoba wagged his tail at him.

"Little heartless, why don't you come see off Dad?" Sheng Mingkao said.

"Meow?" "Understood, I will be back soon."

Sheng Mingkao closed the door and glanced at the opposite door that was quiet. In the past few days, Makizaki didn't bother him again.

Putting on the mask, Sheng Mingkao directly went down to the first floor and drove away.

It is inconvenient for him to go to a psychological clinic, and it is not convenient for a psychiatrist to go to his house. No matter who is photographed, it will cause great waves of joy.So the two parties made an appointment at the hotel.

When Sheng Mingkao pushed open the hotel door, the psychiatrist was already inside.

He nodded, and the psychiatrist smiled kindly at him.

The doctor he made an appointment with is a well-known doctor in the industry.

He lay down on the recliner, and the psychiatrist waited for him to relax and asked about his condition: "Did you sleep well recently?" "No, the sleeping pills are gone."

"Well, how did you fall asleep on the days when there were no sleeping pills?"

"I have a cat and play with it until the early hours of the morning," said Sheng Mingkao.

"Oh, it's good to have a small pet, do you feel needed?" the psychiatrist asked.

Sheng Mingkao thought for a while, now he closed his eyes, and heard the meowing sound of the little milk cat, and said with a slight smile: "Yes, especially when it is hungry, it will grab my trouser leg and ask me to feed it. ...." Sheng Mingkao told the psychiatrist for a while about his experience in raising cats, and at the end, he even wanted to go back now and bring out the crispy rice for him to see.

After patiently listening to his description, the psychiatrist came to his conclusion and asked, "Apart from cats, is there anything else that makes you happier?"

This time, Sheng Mingkao was a little silent. Once he was silent, the psychiatrist would naturally not interrupt his silence. Silence is also the process of the visitor digging himself, until Sheng Mingkao spoke again and confirmed: "Almost none."

"Almost?" asked the psychiatrist.

"Yes."

"There are still some."

silence.

The psychiatrist asked him in a different way: "Is there anyone who can strongly affect your mood recently?"

Sheng Mingkao's silence this time was longer than last time. After a long time, he said, "Yes."

"Then how did you feel when you got along with him? You can briefly describe it."

Sheng Mingcheng said: "It's like a ship that has been drifting for a long time and suddenly sees a reef. I don't know whether the next trip will hit the reef and capsize, or there are islands behind the reef, which can be docked."

"Well, that's still quite contradictory." The psychiatrist said.

The visitor he came into contact with has always been in this contradictory state, whether it is darkness or light, whether it is approaching or moving away, whether it is capsizing or docking, all kinds of choices have been tearing this young and promising visitor.

"Has there been any progress on that?" the psychiatrist asked.

Sheng Mingjiao recalled the state of the recent period, he hesitated and said: "In the morning... when I exerted the most force, it was only half erect."

The psychiatrist played soothing light music for him and asked, "Then at other times, did you respond?"

"hardly."

A man has 8 erections a day, four of which are during sleep at night, the rest in the morning and during the day.

But Shengming Castanopsis doesn't feel that he has this organ in his body except in the morning.

The psychiatrist said: "It doesn't matter, and you should pay attention to let nature take its course, don't think too hard about it, and do wonderful things naturally."

Sheng Mingkao smiled wryly in his heart, what a wonderful thing, he can't even lift it up now, how wonderful things are just fantasy.

"This time An Ning, I will prescribe a small amount for you. You have been taking the medicine for six years, and it is not good to become dependent. You have to try to fall asleep on your own without the assistance of drugs." The psychiatrist said.

After the diagnosis was over, Sheng Mingcheng got up from the recliner, put on his shoes, nodded and said, "Yes."

Carrying two boxes of medicine out of the hotel, the transparent bag asked Sheng Mingcheng to put the medicine back into the inner pocket of his coat.

Back home, Sheng Ming cast himself on the bed, Guoba sensed that he was in a bad mood, Miao Miao Miao climbed up the stairs with difficulty, went to his bed and rubbed his head.

Sheng Mingcastan grabbed it to his chest, held it down with his palm, and let it lick his palm.

Thinking of the sentence I described: "It's like a ship that has been drifting for a long time, and suddenly sees a reef. I don't know whether the next trip will hit the reef and capsize, or there are islands behind the reef, which can be docked."

I fell asleep in a daze.