After going on a blind date with my brother

After Lin Wan said those two sentences, all the grievances in his heart poured out at that moment, like a waterfall that couldn't stop, and the tears fell straight to the ground with a small splash, making a slight sound.

Lin Wan took a deep breath, gritted her teeth, raised the back of her hand to cover her eyes, stubbornly prevented Wen Yimu from seeing her crying, turned around and was about to go out the door.

Wen Yimu stepped forward to pull her, but just as his fingers touched her hand, he was thrown away.

Lin Wan seemed to be determined, and she was about to walk out of this door without looking back. After all, she was still a 17-year-old girl. When she got angry, she didn't think about the consequences at all, and only cared about her emotions at this moment.

She was really wronged, the grievances that had been suppressed for so many days broke out at this moment, and Wen Yimu's first questioning became the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Obviously...it was obviously Wen Yimu who made her feel wronged first, and she just had a meal with her tablemate.

We haven't seen each other for so many days, and the first sentence is not concerned about her falling, but questioning why she was hugged by others.

Is this what Wen Yimu likes?I just care about whether she studies hard and is loyal, and doesn't care whether she is happy or not.

What does she think of herself?

Every time Lin Wan took a step, she felt confused. This was her first time in love, and she had never been wronged like this.

Originally, she really wanted to miss Wen Yimu, but after she questioned him first, when she saw Wen Yimu, she just wanted to run away.

Wen Yimu asked, are you so afraid of her?Lin Wan was really scared right now, she couldn't tell what she was afraid of, maybe she just didn't know how to face it.

It should be the most natural to get along with the people you like.

But it's just a mere start of school, as if everything has changed.Wen Yimu didn't care about her anymore, he was cruel to her, and didn't want to see her anymore.

……

It was only a few short steps from the sofa to the door, and Lin Wan was floating when he walked there, unable to step on the ground, it was only a few seconds, but his mind was turning back and forth, as if a century had passed, Every millisecond is stretched infinitely.

Lin Wan didn't know what she wanted, maybe she wanted Wen Yimu to beg her, but she was very clear that this was not in line with Wen Yimu's character, even if she just walked away, she would not let go of her arrogance. .

But...but how Lin Wan wished that Wen Yimu would break the precept once for her, so that she would no longer be so calm, but because of her, she would feel happy, angry, sad, and happy, so that she could see that Wen Yimu cared about her.

Really care from the bottom of my heart.

The world in front of my eyes seemed to be a bit blurred, and I couldn't see the road ahead, but no matter how long the road was, it was only a few seconds after all.

It took only a blink of an eye for Lin Wan's hand to screw the doorknob.

She felt that Wen Yimu was looking at her from behind and stretched out his hand to pull her, but Lin Wan threw it away reflexively.

So Wen Yimu just stood there and watched, and didn't take any more actions, maybe because he was afraid that he would lose face if he was rejected again.

Lin Wan laughed at herself thinking that she could do nothing for Wen Yimu's sake, but Wen Yimu might not be able to do this to herself.

With a soft click, Lin Wan turned the doorknob resolutely, and a second before rushing out, she turned her head and glanced at Wen Yimu.

Tears filled the eyes, and the world in front of him was blurred. In a trance, Lin Wan vaguely saw a woman standing quietly not far away. There was a bit of indescribable sadness on her beautiful face, like a lilac in the rain. pity.

But Wen Yimu did not catch up.

The moment Lin Wan stepped out the door, her heart ached, her eyes darkened, and she almost couldn't breathe.

She ran to the bathroom in a little embarrassment, facing herself in the mirror with red eyes like rabbits, burst into sobs, big and big tears flowed down her cheeks wantonly, inhaling and exhaling continuously, her eyes were all black.

Why, why should she be tortured like this.

Why is it as painful as it is sweet? When she is happy, she can't wait to go to heaven, but at this moment she wants to go to hell.

I would rather bear the punishment of endless torture than taste this heart-piercing pain.

Lin Wan's nails were embedded in her flesh, she couldn't feel any pain, no matter how painful her body was, it couldn't compare to her heartache.

The tears didn't seem to dry up, and she kept crying until she really had no strength left, and there were still tears in the corners of her eyes.

Lin Wan washed his face with clean water, and stared at himself in the mirror for a while.

The girl in front of her was messy in makeup, her eyes were terribly red, her face was stained with tears, her eyes were empty and indifferent, her lips were tightly pursed, as if she had suffered endless pain, her whole body was like a walking dead.

Facing the mirror, she twitched the corners of her lips stiffly, and the girl in the mirror also raised the corners of her lips. She looked beautiful but lifeless, like a ghost.

Lin Wan felt as if she had lost the ability to laugh, and she suddenly understood why Gu Qiuqiu hugged her and cried so badly before.

It's obviously not a big deal, but it's just unspeakable grievances and unspeakable sadness, like being poisoned to the bone, and there is no cure.

The only antidote is Wen Yimu, but... Lin Wan saw her sad but alienated face, even though she was reluctant to part with her, she still had a distance like a white plum in the snow.

Lin Wan couldn't hold her in her arms and possess them completely, which made Lin Wan feel extremely painful.

She squatted on the floor of the empty bathroom and calmed down for a while, then called Lin Sui with a choked voice: "Brother, come and pick me up."

Lin Sui didn't ask anything, just said yes, let her wait a while.

Her brother, who has always been cynical, laughs and scolds, is always angry with each other, but when she is really sad, she can become her most trusted support.

Lin Wan was suddenly very thankful that she had an older brother.

Lin Sui soon appeared in the shopping mall, with a look of knowing, he didn't ask anything along the way, he just invited Lin Wan to eat ice cream, and then brought the teary-eyed girl home.

Lin Wan didn't say a word in the passenger seat, but still couldn't hold back, and called him sobbingly: "Brother."

Lin Sui stared at the road ahead without squinting: "Speak."

Lin Wan's tone was somewhat frustrated, and she said softly, "Am I really bad?"

Lin Sui was expressionless: "Yes."

Facing his behavior of making things worse, Lin Wan had already been mentally prepared, and continued on his own: "I really hope to see her, but she just wants me to study hard. I went out to have dinner with others, and I fell down. , she doesn't care about my fall, but cares about others helping me..."

Lin Wan paused for a while, feeling a little absent-minded: "Even if I left, she only kept me there for a while, and didn't come up to chase me."

She raised her eyes to look at Lin Sui, and asked softly but seriously: "Brother, is it true that all of you adults are deceitful, and you are not serious about dating?"

The girl's fox eyes drooped, she was indescribably mournful, she didn't like being treated like a child, and she didn't like Wen Yimu treating her like this.

"Don't talk nonsense." Lin Sui wrote lightly, "Maybe people don't even know what you have thought so much."

"But..." Lin Wan licked his lips, but hesitated to speak.

"No but." Lin Sui said impatiently and firmly, "What do you think, just tell her clearly, don't guess."

This is the biggest lesson he has learned from Gu Qiuqiu.

There are many things where you want to die or live, and the other party looks confused, but in fact, they don't know what you are thinking at all.Even if you think you are acting obvious, in fact, the joys and sorrows of human beings are not connected.

Your grievances, your frustration, you have to say it clearly so that others can know.

"Oh." Lin Wan responded symbolically, but could not accept Lin Sui's words.

After all, she is still young, she has read too many sticky novels and TV series, and always hopes for the kind of unswerving love, even if you are entangled with love and resentment between life and death, you can finally HE.

It is too unromantic to bow your head first and explain something carefully, and it sounds a bit aggrieved.

It's always a bit awkward, as if revealing one's inner thoughts seems too fussy.

In order to change the subject, Lin Wan asked Lin Sui, "How are you and Qiuqiu?"

In fact, she is not curious about other people's emotions at this moment, she is just asking casually.

Lin Sui smiled without answering, and said slowly for a long time: "It will be fine if you explain clearly."

Even if some small scheming was used in the process, such as deliberately creating a serious injury, the little girl was finally coaxed away, and the cause and effect were communicated clearly. Even if people are still awkward, at least There is reassurance in my heart.

Then it doesn't matter how you make yourself angry.

Maybe it was because he was old and couldn't accept this kind of trouble from a young man. Lin Sui glanced at his absent-minded sister, only feeling a little novel and funny.

It was like seeing myself when I was younger.

The so-called joys and sorrows of human beings are not connected, he only thinks about what to eat at night.

Lin Wan was also keenly aware that Lin Sui didn't understand her, so she simply stopped talking, closed her eyes and began to rest her mind, vaguely, all she could see was Wen Yimu's appearance.

She is like a snow lotus in Tianshan, she has stepped down from the mortal world, she is working hard, she is kissing passionately, she is gentle and scheming...

Before she knew it, Lin Wan didn't know that she and Wen Yimu had so many memories, so many that her mind was so full that she couldn't hold anything else.

Anything seems to have something to do with her.

But... Lin Wan hesitated for a long time, and quietly turned on the phone to take a look. Wen Yimu hadn't sent her a message yet.

She smiled wryly, and knew that it was the result. It seemed that she had always initiated it. To Wen Yimu, she seemed to be dispensable.

Lin Wan took a deep breath, canceled Wen Yimu's pinning, and stared at the advertisement at the top of the phone screen for a while, feeling inexplicably relaxed.

There is an empty space in my heart, I don't know what to put.

Back home in the evening, Lin Wan'an quietly wrote her homework for a while, trying her best to make herself forget about her emotional affairs, and wrote dully for a long time, but finally couldn't sit still.

Some want to drink, and when they get drunk, they don't have to think about what they have or what they don't have.

Half an hour later, Lin Wan wore a short black skirt and a pair of ponytails, and sat at a booth in a nearby bar.

Nearby is the feasting dance floor, the music is deafening, there is no lack of laughter between men and women, and there is even a bit of profligacy, the kind that makes people blush when they hear it.

Lin Wan held a glass of mint green cocktail without changing his face, and drank it expressionlessly, he didn't feel any taste in the mouth of the wine.

Like water.

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