hold a cigarette

18 Limo

Jin Shengyang is a villain who crosses rivers and demolishes bridges.

half a month.

I counted the numbers on the calendar and confirmed that he hadn't said a word to me other than business for half a month.

What's wrong with this man?

Since his father, who is not as good as a beast, died, and we had sex happily, Jin Shengyang has almost cut off private contact with me.

At the beginning, not only did he not find fault with me at work, but he also helped me solve difficult problems personally. I thought that his iron tree had blossomed and fell in love with me, but I didn't expect that after that, Really, apart from work, I don't give me an extra look.

What is he smoking?

When I saw me smoking on the roof, I left. The bar couldn't wait for anyone. I went downstairs to his house and called him, but he didn't answer at all.

This fucking is the legendary Ba Diao Wuqing, right?I really didn't expect that one day I would be teased like this.

"As I said," said the annoying and talkative bartender in the bar, "you couldn't catch her."

For half a month, I came to the bar every night after get off work, and the bartender saw that I had become an acquaintance.

"I reckon it's because of you. People haven't been here for a long time." The bartender looked at me with a look of boredom, "Enough is enough to advise you, otherwise you will be caught in the police as a perverted stalker."

I'm too lazy to talk to him, he's just an outsider who doesn't know a shit.

The business in the bar has been mediocre recently, and the woman who sings is always absent from work these days. Every day, I sit where Jin Shengyang used to sit and wait for him, rain or shine, but he just doesn't come.

At first I would send him a message, asking him why he didn’t come here recently, but then I stopped sending. I sent ten messages and the person didn’t reply me a word.

I got home half drunk and fell asleep. In my dream, Jin Shengyang was wearing a cheongsam and looking at me arrogantly with his legs crossed, which woke me up angrily.

Feeling unhappy in my heart, I opened my eyes and saw the shirt hanging on the wall, with his lipstick still on it.

You ungrateful dog man, I helped him get rid of him, and he really paid me back.

The more I thought about it, the more unhappy I became, so I took the cigarette and went to the balcony to smoke.

I really can't understand Jin Shengyang, but I also understand that all the plots of life can be explained by "human nature".

I thought about many reasons why he stopped contacting me, but the most plausible one is that he is just like me, just for fun and to take advantage of each other.

I'm also boring, stupid and stupid, obviously I started it first, but now he has braked but I can't stop, stepping on the accelerator and running straight to the cliff.

Something is wrong.

Feeling upset, dizzy and brain swollen, I plan not to go to work tomorrow, anyway, I am not busy recently, take a leave, sleep at home for a day, when I sleep well, Jin Shengyang will be a shit in my world.

I smoked three cigarettes in one breath, which made my throat dry and my mouth bitter.

My mind is full of Jin Shengyang's uncontrollable expression when he looks at me.

He seems to be like this all the time, even when he gets into fights and fucks me.

With a heavy heart, I will never let go.

That person is dead, so what is he afraid of?

I couldn't figure it out, so I told myself not to think about it.

When the cigarette box was empty, I looked at the time, wondering if I should go out to buy cigarettes in the middle of the night.

Lying on the balcony and looking out, I decided that if a plane flew overhead within 5 minutes, I would buy another pack of cigarettes.

People are just bored, that's why they make such bets with themselves when they don't sleep at night.

While waiting, I vaguely saw a familiar car parked at the gate of the community. The night was so dark that I couldn't fully identify whether that car was a car I knew or not.

Suddenly my heart beat faster, and I, a person who has never had any hope or expectation in life, began to vaguely hope for something to happen.

Not waiting for 5 minutes, I turned around and walked out.

It took me about 3 minutes to get from my house to the gate of the community, but when I ran out, the car had already left.

In the second half of the night in summer, the wind is slightly cool, which makes my pores open.

I stood there looking at the empty street and thought maybe I was hallucinating.

They all came out, so I went to buy cigarettes.

Only then did I realize that I ran out with my slippers on, without my cell phone and keys, let alone buying cigarettes, I couldn’t even go home.

I sat down on the side of the road dumbfoundingly. I am a person who has always been here and will be at peace. Fate has guided me to this step, so I will use the next time to enjoy the night view.

Sitting there with the wind blowing, only the 24-hour convenience store at the diagonal rear is still lit on the whole street.

The dim street lamps and the slightly swaying leaves in the wind make me feel that I am not alone.

I didn't notice the footsteps behind me until the man spoke, and I turned around, startled.

Jin Shengyang was standing right behind me, wearing the clothes he wore at the company during the day, but his shirt was obviously dirty and his face was scratched.

He said, "What are you doing?"

I turned around and stared at him for an indeterminate amount of time, then suddenly smiled.

"None of your business?" I said.

He looked down at me with a cigarette in his mouth. After a while, he turned and walked away. After walking about ten meters away, he came back to me.

I reached out to him, and he handed the cigarette into my palm.

"Who said what I want are cigarettes?" I said with a smile, "What I want is you to hold my hand."