no Guanyin

After the Lantern Festival, life is extremely busy, for You Yingxi.

What about Jiang Wanzi?

It should be, too.

Seeing Avalokitesvara that night seemed like a fulfillment of the prophecy, so it was already close? I haven't seen Jiang Wanzi for more than half a month.

Will at first? Miss it.You Yingxi didn’t even think of this word? You laughed, it’s been too long, so long that she even forgot the last meeting? At what time far away did you miss someone.

During the day when she doesn't have a mobile phone at school, she will open WeChat as soon as she gets her mobile phone to see if there is any news. If not, she will click into Jiang Wanzi's circle of friends to see if there is any update.

Jiang Wanzi rarely sent messages.You Yingxi always took the initiative? Post it, she will? Share a picture she is painting, yes? Make complaints about how unpalatable the food in the cafeteria is today, yes? I like her very much, will I lie on the floor with my belly open for her to touch, because she will go to the villa opposite to visit Yanyan on weekends, in fact, Jiang Wanzi has someone to take care of her, but she still doesn't? Don't worry.

The production team must be very busy, Jiang Wanzi's reply will be sent around a couple of hours later.

A few simple words, or a sentence, if you look at it at first glance, you will feel how cold she is.

Would You Yingxi have such thoughts, never once.

The night they spent together in Huayan Temple, the candy stall, resting by the river, putting lights... Those clips will always be played back in You Yingxi's mind, Jiang Wanzi looked at her eyes no matter how she interpreted it. The method moves closer to the cold word.

Gu Xuxi and his party? They have already returned to Yanjing, and they asked for an address before leaving. Gu Xuxi said that there are two cakes in Yanjing that are really delicious, and they want to send them to You Yingxi to try.This person really likes to eat, and one cannot help but suspect that she will marry a cook in the future.

They still keep in touch on WeChat, and Gu Xuxi once warned her: My sister told you? You? You have to listen and think about it? You have to like her.

With this tone, You Yingxi laughed: Aren't you good friends?

Gu Xuxi: My sister also considers you now? A friend.Ah Wan won't get hurt, so I have nothing to say to her.This time I'm here to confirm if she's in a relationship. By the way, I advise her to be a person and not to attack minors.After confirming, I will leave, and I will leave after success.but it's you? no? the same? ah, you? if you get stuck in...

She paused for a while. You Yingxi: What?

Gu Xuxi: According to past experience, you? At first you will be? very happy, but? Ah Wan, she has never really loved someone, won't she? Will? Always like you?, but? You? Probably liked her all the time, which is the source of pain.

She used three nevers, and You Yingxi knew that this was a rhetorical technique of repetition and emphasis.

You Yingxi returned to the desktop and looked at the screen saver. The photo was taken by Jiang Wanzi at that time, and her expression was particularly "vivid".She thought, Gu Xuxi must have never liked anyone, no? Why? Let her think about it.

She doesn't know? She doesn't know when and when she fell in love with Jiang Wanzi, it happened a long time ago, she can't think about it.

Even if time goes back to the past unconsciously, she thinks, she will still like Jiang Wanzi.Rewind [-] times, from all things honeysuckle retreat to spring weather? Rain, rivers, rivers, lakes and seas dry up, sun, moon, and stars fall. As long as the pointer of fate turns to meet, she will still like her.

It was clear from the beginning that he was the weak side.

Age, experience, personality, emotional experience... nothing can compare.

Therefore, she is the one who sends the most WeChat messages.

You Yingxi’s age is right there, she’s destined to be a person who can’t hold back, but she’s also not impulsive, she still suppresses herself in many cases, just send a message in a few days, lest the other party get bored .

Living in such a family, since You Yinan's death, You Yingxi has never felt that she was needed by anyone. She has no sense of security, and her sense of existence is all earned by her own efforts.

Even so?, I often feel lucky that her family is fairly well-to-do, so rich that her parents can easily raise her, otherwise Yu Shurong must always talk about such words as being burdensome.

Having a dog isn't a burden, so neither is having her.

I don’t really miss much time. The life of the second year of high school is fast-forwarding, and there is not a single day that is enough.

Students in No. [-] Middle School are more relaxed during their first year of high school. There are also many extracurricular activities, such as orientation, student union elections, sports meetings, research, community culture festivals, reading months, flea markets... like Min Younian. There are quite a few clubs, and when I was promoted to the second year of high school, I almost retreated? Many, and some of them just broke up, like a mountain bike club, which had few people. The previous president? I don't have time to take care of this hobby.

Everyone is locked in a cage and exhausted. High school graduates think that they are liberated. In fact, universities are also cages. After college graduates, the cage of society is even bigger, covering all kinds of people.Some people try to break through the barriers like a trapped beast, and some people, after fighting, know it is futile, so they give up and spend their lives in a daze.

When You Yingxi went out to sketch, he saw all kinds of beings. Many faces and facial features were the same, but even the smiles had so many differences.When she was sketching, she would observe, and sometimes wonder if anyone was observing her.

There will be one right now.

Sitting diagonally across from You Yingxi, Bian Chuan, having a couple of dinners? He glanced at her, not sneaking around, as if wondering why she was alone.

get out of class ends at 01:30 noon, class starts at [-]:[-] pm, and there is a break for more than an hour in between.

When Min Younian and Tao Huanhuan met, they would share a bed with the friendly boarding students for an afternoon nap. In order to get more sleep, the two of them always ate very quickly, and sometimes they even ate while walking.

Leave You Yingxi alone.She's used to it too, she doesn't have time to take a nap.It's been like this since the first year of high school? She would? Pick a table by the window. If there are many people and there is no seat by the window, she will? Go to the side next to the wall. In short, as long as it is a corner.

The halo of the school belle means that when you are walking on the road, other people will take a few more glances and discuss a few more words. In fact, when buying food, the boys in front will ask her to call first, and she doesn't want to, saying He said thank you and stayed where he was.

Wearing earphones and even an mp3, this is not good to bring into school, check it several times to make sure? Only if there is no entertainment function, let it go.The No. [-] Middle School was very strict, so Song Keqi and the others looked down on No. [-] Middle School, saying that those who passed the No. [-] Middle School on big-character posters every year were all nerds.

There are songs and materials for English listening comprehension.

There will be a monthly exam soon.

You Yingxi is also under a lot of pressure. After all, there is such a mother in the family who will go crazy if she fails the exam.Want to hold a parent-teacher meeting? It gives me a headache just thinking about it, and I also envy Min Younian, who was scolded by her mother for being careless by pinching her ears. She can get into her mother's arms by being coquettish. The next sentence is her mother smiling and asking Would you like to have sweet and sour pork ribs tonight? Yes.

It was the first year of high school at that time, and there were people outside the classroom, and it was almost gone after a while.

Yu Shurong came out later, and she was still chatting with the head teacher about something.You Yingxi stood in the corridor, on the left was Yu Shurong who only cared about her studies, and on the right was Min Younian who stomped her foot and said no? Would you like sweet and sour pork ribs? The auntie with a big perm coaxed her to say oh, mom Don't you make sweet and sour pork ribs? Is it the best?

——No matter how delicious it is, you will get tired of eating it every day.

——What do you want to eat every year?

——Miso soup, I want to eat Korean food.

--ah?Why don't you just go out and eat? Hurry up, call you? Dad.

She is in the middle, and there are actually only five or six steps away from each other.

But? At that moment, she felt that Yu Shurong was far away from her, and Min Younian's life was also far away from her.You Yingxi turned around, facing the setting sun, remembering her name? Her parents gave it to her, but You Yinuan.Because I was born in the evening, the sun sets and the sunset glows west.

Her sister is also far away from her, separated by yin and yang.

Envious of not being able to come to other people's happiness, you can only grasp what you already have, whether it is good or not? You Yingxi dare not let it go, for fear that it will be worse than before.At least for now she's alive.

There is also that person who makes me happy whenever I think about it.

So when Bian Chuan asked her, "Are you going to be a painter in the future?" You Yingxi was taken aback for a while, and picked up a fish ball with little meat or flour: "Probably."

Bian Chuan almost sprayed: "Shouldn't it? You? Didn't think about it? No? Did you go to the studio every day? You're a sophomore in high school."

You Yingxi was eating fish balls, the taste was like chewing wax, she looked good, and she opened her mouth after swallowing: "Then what about you?"

She and Bian Chuan just got acquainted recently.Bian Chuan is a typical liberal arts boy. He looks gentle and wears a pair of black-rimmed glasses. He likes history very much. He usually does problems or reads books.That's it? No? For those who socialize, there are girls in the class who confess, and they are ridiculed internally as picking watermelons in the cabbage field. There are too few boys, so there is no other way to pick.

Bian Chuan snorted and ate the noodles, the mirror was foggy, he took it off and put it aside casually, his eyebrows and eyes were not bad: "Enter the entertainment circle."

You Yingxi opened her eyes wide: "Huh?"

Bian Chuan laughed.

You Yingxi realized that his exclamation was a bit offensive, and apologized: "No? That's what I mean? I mean you? It looks like you're doing research, professor or something."

"Again? I'm a celebrity. I just have a female celebrity I really like. I want to get closer to her. I don't have any extraneous thoughts. I just want to know what the circle is like. " Bian Chuan thought for a while, "Reporter, or photographer, these two are what I'm thinking about at the moment. Can the assistant do it? I don't know how to take care of people."

Seeing You Yingxi still didn't seem to understand, he took a bite of the poached egg soaked in the noodle soup: "Research, professor, that's the idea of ​​adults, I have my own ideas. Why? Why should I listen to them? Is the future going well? Is it going well? Be happy, it’s me who suffers and not? It’s them.”

You Yingxi lowered her eyes: "You? Parents care about you so much. If you? Are not? doing well, they may? be unhappy too."

This Bian Chuan didn't think about it, and it was too strange. How could anyone at their age still know it? Think about it from the standpoint of a parent.

"Anyway, I have to make a choice myself, otherwise what is the difference from being 17 years old?"

The first monthly exam in the second year of high school came to an end in the rainy spring, and after another week, the results came out.

You Yingxi was still first, and Bian Chuan slipped to fifth, with a difference of quite a few points.Because Bian Chuan didn't prepare well for the exam, he skipped school and went to a neighboring city to watch the premiere of a female star's movie.

On this day, You Yingxi went home for dinner after school, a rare time to relax, the earphones were not listening to English, but a song she had been listening to recently, and her thoughts were shrouded in the twilight when she raised her eyes The horizon is the resonant lyrics in the moving melody.

How can you capture your tenderness

Getting closer

But never? Contact (Note 1)

It's a pity that the good mood came to an abrupt end. You Yingxi received a document from the teacher who led the team on the way, which was an announcement of the award.In the competition she participated in in Yu City last time, she won the silver medal.

As for this competition, You Yinuan participated several times when he was still alive, and all of them were gold medals.

When you got home, You Yingxi opened the door, and Aunt Liu was the first person she saw.

Aunt Liu was wearing an apron, standing by the door a bit blocking her? Meaning to let in? She lowered her voice: "Xixi, the meal is not ready yet, why don't you go to the studio first? Let Uncle Li take you on the way. Why don't you go and eat something else to fill your belly."

She turned to look over to the sofa.

The light was on at home, and there was a figure on the ground, serious, silent, and motionless, like a cold statue.

You Yingxi understood, she didn't leave, this is a net, where is she going?

Sooner or later you have to face it.

Aunt Liu has lingering fears about what happened last time. This child is so distressing. Why is this so? The glamorous family is not as good as their ordinary family?She looked at the girl's delicate eyebrows, those eyes were so clean that there was no trace of impurity, so she also understood the stubbornness in her eyes.

She heard the girl say to her: "Auntie, I'm fine, she'll be crazy for a while? It'll be fine, as long as there is a vent."

"Just please? One thing, please? Stay in the room. No matter what sounds you hear, don't come out as long as I don't shout."

The author has something to say: Note 1: Faye Wong's "Ambiguous"

I listened to this song a lot when I was writing this volume.