Cannon fodder meets cannon fodder

This was the last time Yu Chengze saw Ming Qifan after two years, it was very bad and unpleasant last time.

It was midnight when Ming Qifan left, and Yu Chengze sent Sensen back to his room to sleep, but he sat on the floor in the living room with Guigui in his arms and couldn't fall asleep. He looked at Xiaoxue who was snoring in the nest, and looked at the Items that appeared in pairs, he wanted to break them up, and if he didn't take them away, he would have to throw them away.

Just looking at Xiaoxue, Yu Chengze was a little worried, this little guy can't be thrown away too, just thinking about it, his cell phone rang cheerfully in the middle of the night, Yu Chengze's heart tightened, and he paused for a few seconds before reaching for the cell phone, the call came It was shown that he was from New York, USA. The expression on his face collapsed like in slow motion, and he answered the phone without hesitation. It was Mu Wanting.

Mu Wanting's voice was a little blunt. She never knew how to communicate with her children. The first son, Yu Chengze, was like this, and the second daughter, Mu Sensen, was also like that. It's just that her language was a little blunt, but her content was rarely caring.

Mu Wanting has always cared about Yu Chengze. He is a big star. For many things, Mu Wanting only needs to pay attention to the domestic entertainment news to know about her son's current situation. This time, Yu Chengze was "forced out of the closet" when she broke the news. You know, she was concerned but didn't dare to call to greet her lightly. After the matter was completely settled and Yu Chengze's road in the country was blocked, she tried to call her son to care, and gave a "way out" ".

Mu Wanting asked Yu Chengze if he would like to go abroad. She has not yet finalized the models for her own brand "Lotus" next spring's main magazine photos. She said on the phone that Yu Chengze has no way out in China. Why don't you come to her and pay for the advertising fee? It is also enough for Yu Chengze to support himself.

In fact, what he said was really blunt, like giving alms, Yu Chengze was careful and sensitive to understand that Mu Wanting was comforting him.Yu Chengze stuck his cell phone to his ear, looking at the heavy snowfall outside the window, his heart softened suddenly, thinking about whether it would be cold for Ming Qifan to walk in the heavy snow in single clothes, but he replied to the cell phone: "Okay."

After a pause, he blinked, tears slid down his side cheeks, and he whispered, "Thank you mom."

When he was young, he knew that Mu Wanting divorced and went abroad for her dream. She was very ambitious and yearned for a top fashion designer. At that time, the current situation in China was there, and she wanted to learn the best. Stuff going out is definitely the most correct choice.

But Yu Chengze couldn't understand it, and he couldn't understand it. He just thought that Mu Wanting was his mother, so he should be the most important existence of his mother. He didn't understand and didn't want to understand why Mu Wanting couldn't see it because of that. , Can't touch the dream and abandon him.

Growing up slowly, seeing things and meeting more people, I can understand Mu Wanting's original choice intellectually, but I still hate emotionally, but after going through so many things in the past few days, Yu Chengze suddenly thought , What's there to hate? It's ridiculous that he hated for so many years.

Mu Wanting over there was completely stunned. For more than ten years, from the time she left her son to go abroad to the time they met again, Yu Chengze had never called the word "Mom". Just now when she said "Mom" so suddenly, Mu Wanting thought she was not You must have heard it wrong, but after thinking about it carefully, your heart tightened, and your tone was obviously anxious but deliberately softened: "Xiaozawa, what happened?"

Mu Wanting could hear the imperceptible crying in Yu Chengze's voice just now. If it were someone else, she might not be able to hear it, but if it was her own son, she carefully crushed every word I went through it in my mind, every time it was a mother's thoughts, this time I was stunned to hear my son crying with this carefulness.

Yu Chengze stuck his phone to his ear, and looked at the heavy snow outside the window. How could he be ashamed to tell his mother what he was sad like a child, but there seemed to be a big hole in his heart, the happiness he thought he could get They all slipped away from the hole, leaving an empty space. He deliberately ignored the huge hole, but tears kept coming out of his eyes as if he had his own will.

Yu Chengze closed his eyes, his voice was crying: "I'm broken in love."

Mu Wanting didn't respond for a while on the phone. She thought her son was sad because of the cyber attacks these days, his star road was destroyed, and he was forced to withdraw from the circle. The pressure was too great to bear, did he not think of those things? Not crushing Yu Chengze, Yu Chengze finally cried in the middle of the night because of "broken love".

Mu Wanting paused for a few seconds, and then replied tactfully: "It's okay, I can meet better ones. I have many foreign boys here, and each one is prettier than the other with blond hair and blue eyes."

Yu Chengze opened his mouth, tears flowed into his mouth, there was a salty smell, and the snot was about to slide down, he sniffed, Mu Wanting listened on the phone, imagining his "old son" who was nearly 30 years old In the middle of the night, I was crying because of a broken relationship. As a mother, I also felt uncomfortable. I wanted to fly back to China to chop up the boy who dumped his son, but Yu Chengze got up and replied calmly: "I'm fine, I'm here Just go book your flight and see you in America, Mom."

After finishing speaking, Yu Chengze hung up the phone. He walked into the bathroom, felt the darkness without turning on the light, turned on the faucet and washed his face, raised his face and wiped it with a towel. This side was just dried, and there were tears on his face It was another piece, Yu Chengze threw the towel, wiped his eyes, finally sat on the bathroom tile, buried his face in his hands, at first he just cried softly, but in the end his voice was not suppressed, and he burst into tears like a child.

This kind of crying is not very touching, like a child who loses something and starts to cry unhappily. The crying is unreasonable. It doesn't look like a celebrity who debuted for eight years, nor like an uncle with rich social experience. It looked pitiful and ridiculous.

Sensen was howled by his brother in the middle of the night, the little girl jumped off the bed swiftly and left the room, the bathroom door was still open, Sensen stood outside and saw Yu Chengze sitting on the bathroom floor crying without any image, she also Sitting on the ground, holding his knees and watching his brother cry, Yu Chengze cried too exaggeratedly, the little girl didn't know how to comfort her, and it was too fickle to turn her head back to sleep, and finally sat there watching her brother cry, watching her and taking out The phone turned on the record button.

While Yu Chengze was crying, he looked up and saw Sensen sitting outside, feeling ashamed and self-defeating at the same time thinking, just this once, after crying, he will not cry anymore, standing up is still a good man.

After crying, he never thought about Ming Qifan again.

Two days later, when Christmas came, Yu Chengze looked at Guigui who was still playing with Xiaoxue in the room, and then he and Sensen left the apartment with a trolley case.

The flight ticket to the United States is at [-] o'clock in the evening. It is only three o'clock now. Yu Chengze's left hand is still not healed. Qi Chao drives him and Sensen to the airport. On the way to the airport, he passes the largest venue in the room. The huge billboard at the venue has not been removed. Next, it advertises Yu Chengze's Christmas concert, the first stop of the tour, but he, the protagonist, is about to leave now.

With a move in Yu Chengze's heart, Qi Chao stopped the car behind the venue and took his sister for a walk around the venue. Since he was still on the cusp of the storm recently, he covered half of his face with a scarf, and the woolen hat on his head was also The eyebrows were lowered, and only a pair of eyes were exposed on the whole face.

After making sure that no one would recognize him, he led Sensen into the venue. In addition to a few staff members, there were also tourists like Yu Chengze in the venue, so no one paid attention to Yu Chengze.

Yu Chengze led Sensen to a small theater in the venue. It was originally reserved for him to meet fans. He just went to have a look, but he saw about twenty young people, mostly girls and boys. Looking at Yu Chengze's CD and the banner of support, some staff were there to persuade them to leave, but they were unwilling to leave, as if they were expecting something, even though the expectation was hopeless.

Yu Chengze looked at Sensen, knelt down and apologized for the delay, walked over, took off his scarf and hat, the staff and fans looked at Yu Chengze who fell from the sky in dumbfounded.

The staff member is also one of Yu Chengze's fans, and opened a small theater. Yu Chengze is used to being a star, and he is never embarrassed in front of others. He didn't mention the things of the past few days, and turned on the small stage. First, he said that he was very happy that there are still people who like him , Some of the fans below are really brain-dead fans, saying that Yu Chengze likes murder and arson, and some say that homosexuality is not murder and arson, and the attacks on the Internet are too much.

Yu Chengze didn't want to expand on this topic, so he changed the topic. The more than 20 fans here all bought tickets for the concert, and they didn't refund the tickets when the concert was cancelled. This concert should have existed.

Most of his songs are love songs, and Yu Chengze really likes this one. When he was young, most of his songs were sad songs, because he couldn't find a boyfriend. Later, there were more songs of other themes, but they are still the most classic love songs. After all, love is always easy in this world. Let people resonate.

Yu Chengze sang a few bitter love songs, most of them were bitter love songs, the most classic ones were those songs, and the fans shouted these songs too, in the end Yu Chengze couldn't stand it anymore.

He took the microphone and walked to the edge of the small theater, sat down on the edge with his legs slumped, shook his head and said, "Today is Christmas, let me sing "Merry Chris" for everyone."

After he finished speaking, he started singing. His voice was nice, warm and clear. He lowered his voice and sang the bass or the treble very clearly. Now singing Christmas carols feels even more warm.

After singing the Christmas song, Yu Chengze was about to leave. Qi Chao was still waiting outside. Fans were reluctant to let him go. Yu Chengze thought about it and said, I will sing you a song at the end. It has not been released yet, but the lyrics are only written. Half of it is a very warm song, not bitter.

Of course the fans were willing, they were willing to sing whatever Yu Chengze sang, Yu Chengze dropped the microphone, and began to sing softly, and the fans below also fell silent unanimously.

"That year was full of turmoil

That year I walked in a small shop on Long Street

That year I was alone singing a love song that no one loved me

That year I had a joke with some boy

That year you lowered your eyes, the tenderness between your brows sank my mind

That year I left behind my old illness

That year I never sang bitter love songs

that year is over

That year I sang the song of loving you

......"

Yu Chengze sang the part of the lyrics and ended here, and then turned to humming softly. Finally found a lover.

A girl asked if this song was written by Yu Chengze to the man he said "I love him very much" in the video.

Yu Chengze replied yes, the fans screamed and wished Yu Chengze and his "dear boy" happiness, Yu Chengze smiled and thanked, the fans asked the name of the song again, Yu Chengze looked at these fans and told them this song The name is "That Year", and then he really left this time regardless of his retention.

He took Sensen's hand into the car, and went to the airport in silence. Qi Chao insisted on staying here until he and Sensen got on the plane before leaving. During this time, Xia Ran called Yu Chengze and arrived at the airport before Yu Chengze left.

Xia Ran calmed down a lot. He was also the person who started the relationship between Yu Chengze and Ming Qifan. He bid farewell to Yu Chengze: "Brother, I wish you find true happiness."

Yu Chengze also wished Xia Ran, it was seven o'clock, the plane was not late, he boarded the plane and started his trip to the United States.

At the same time, the Ming family——

Ming Qifan was lying on the bed, and Ming's mother was distressed to feed her son porridge. Ming Qifan had been burning for two days, hovering between 39 degrees and 38 degrees. , he seemed to have lost some soul, his mobile phone was at hand, and he quickly looked at the message when it came in, as if he was waiting for something.

Ming Yufan couldn't stand his younger brother's mental state, and when Ming's mother left the room, he ran in and taught his younger brother: "If you regret it and really like this person, go chase him back, and put on a dead face every day, what are you doing?" .”

Ming Qifan raised his head and looked at his brother, finally got out of bed and began to put on his clothes to go out. This time, he dressed himself thickly, not daring to be so sick again, Ming Yufan didn't stop him, Ming Qifan He took the car keys and went out, but was stopped by his mother for a while, Ming Yufan went over and said a few words, Qin Yan gave way.

Driving all the way to the apartment, Ming Qifan went up without hesitation, he was thinking about how to apologize, anyway, whether it was acting like a baby, playing a rascal, or crying bitterly, in any case he would chase people back, he thought, I can't Without this person, I really like Aze.

He was young, and he only felt that everyone should give way to his love. He only felt that everything he did was because of love. What's the point of talking, after all, he loves this person so much.

When he got to the door, Ming Qifan had the key, but he still knocked on the door, but no one came to open it, so he took the key and opened the door. Once the door was opened, Guigui ran over and wagged his tail at him, and Ming Qifan rubbed Guigui. Gui, changed into slippers and entered the room, the room was very quiet, Ming Qifan didn't call for anyone, he went to the room to look for Yu Chengze one by one, and found no one in the room after searching the second floor, Ming Qifan sat back on the sofa and waited, After waiting for nine o'clock in the evening, Qi Chao arrived.

Qi Chao didn't want to pay attention to Ming Qifan, Ming Qifan frowned as he packed up his precious things, and finally said politely to him: "Young Master Ming, you can also take Xiaoxue home."

Ming Qifan frowned: "Where are you going to take Guigui?"

"Aze has gone abroad, I will take care of Guigui from now on."

Qi Chao replied, Ming Qifan felt flustered, he took a few breaths: "When will Aze come back? I have something to tell him."

Qi Chao looked at Ming Qifan, and slowly showed a mocking smile: "Aze is not coming back, his mother has applied for a green card for him over there, and he plans to settle there in a few years."

"He won't—" Qi Chao looked at Ming Qifan's expression, and repeated slowly, "He won't come back."

Ming Qifan looked at Qi Chao, he didn't say a word, thinking that this person must be lying to him, Yu Chengze should just go abroad for a few days to relax and play, and he will come back after a few days, he said to Qi Chao: "I'll take care of you, No need for you."

Qi Chao frowned: "I said, Aze will not come back."

Ming Qifan ignored Qi Chao, shouted directly to Guigui, hugged Xiaoxue into his arms, and prepared to leave with the two little guys, Qi Chao went to stop Guigui, but Ming Qifan shouted, and Guigui went away He followed Ming Qifan away, and ignored Qi Chao at all. In the end, Qi Chao wanted to follow Ming Qifan. The fat dog would only live better if he followed Ming Qifan.

Ming Qifan was unsteady all the way, he was alone when he left, and brought two pets with him when he returned, Qin Yan and Ming Jianguo who entered the house to watch were amazed, there were no pet supplies at home, Ming Qifan brought Xiao Xuegui back It doesn't matter at home, she won't come out after entering the room, or Qin Yan asked the nanny to go out and buy pet supplies.

It snowed again in the middle of the night. Ming Yufan hadn't been sleeping well recently. He woke up halfway through his sleep. He went downstairs and continued to drink hot milk for himself. Feeling cold, Ming Qifan's room has a balcony, only to see Ming Qifan sitting on the balcony in unlined clothes, huddled up and drenched in the snow.

Ming Yufan quickly ran over to pick up Ming Qifan: "Did your brain burn out these days?"

Ming Qifan didn't move, Ming Yufan tugged at his wrist, and felt the body temperature rise again, thinking that Ming Qifan was really preparing to kill himself from illness.

Ming Qifan looked at his elder brother in this wind and snow, and said a few words, Ming Qifan couldn't hear clearly, leaned over, Ming Qifan's voice was hoarse: "You asked Aze to come to see me, just say I'm coming soon If he is sick and dead, he will definitely come."

Ming Yufan took a deep breath, a breath of cold air filled with ice and snow, his heart and lungs were so cold from the cold, he thought to himself that he really gave up and gave up, he would risk his life to chase someone, and if he stopped Ming Qifan, it would be all right Freezing his rhythm to death, he replied aloud: "Go back to bed, take medicine and sleep, and let the doctor come and have a look. As for me, I promise to bring Yu Chengze to you, okay?"

Ming Qifan closed his eyes, and said "um", he moved, but he couldn't use his strength, he couldn't feel his legs and feet, Ming Yufan finally carried him back to the bed.

This night was another sleepless night, and Ming Qifan fell into a coma in the middle of it. He slept for a full day, and when he woke up, the fever had subsided. Ming Yufan was by his side. His voice was hoarse, and he asked questions : "Where is Aze?"

Ming Yufan looked at him, with a embarrassed expression on his face, and a comforting tone: "He should be in the United States now, don't worry, I will tie him up in front of you as soon as he comes back."

"Don't tie me up." Ming Qifan refused, "I'll go find him myself."

Ming Yufan sighed: "Come on then, I wish you to get her back, I don't care if you are in love in the future, whoever you like, your liking is really scary."

Ming Qifan closed his eyes: "Thirsty, some water."

Ming Yufan handed it over, and Ming Qifan fell into a deep sleep again.

Since Ming Qifan recovered from his illness, he has been counting the days until Yu Chengze came back, hired someone to squat at Qi Chao and Yu Chengze's house, but he never found anyone again, checked Qi Chao's phone number, and there was no news from Yu Chengze. Months passed, Ming Yufan told him that Yu Chengze might really not come back, Ming Qifan pretended not to hear, he was bored at home every day, not answering notifications, not taking movies, concentrating on being an otaku, Nero almost cried like a dog He didn't touch him, so he waited intently for Yu Chengze to come back.

Two months passed, and when early spring came, Ming Yufan forced Ming Qifan to go out to relax. After getting out of the car, a gust of wind blew over, and Ming Qifan's legs hurt so badly that he couldn't stand anymore. Ming Yufan I took him to the hospital. After the examination, it was the sequelae of being exposed to snow two months ago. His legs were frozen. The current disease is arthritis. We can only pay attention to keeping warm, but it cannot be cured.

Three months later, Ming Yufan felt that Ming Qifan was a real wimp, but when he came home that day, he saw that Ming Qifan had washed his face and changed his clothes, and Nero was introducing the content to him with the script, and the two had agreed Just get ready to go out.

Ming Yufan stared dumbfounded: "You are... alright?"

Ming Qifan turned back to look at him, his eyes were steady and his tone was calm: "I've been fine all this time."

Ming Yufan: "Have you forgotten Yu Chengze?"

Ming Qifan didn't answer this time, he had already left the door, Nero was driving, he took out his mobile phone and checked Weibo habitually, a girl posted a video on Weibo with keywords including Yu Chengze, Ming Qifan He clicked on it expressionlessly, buffered for a few seconds, and the video lasted for half an hour. It was a video of Yu Chengze singing for the twenty or so fans in the small theater last Christmas.

Ming Qifan watched and listened with a calm expression. He heard fans wishing Yu Chengze and his dear boy happiness. He heard Yu Chengze sing a Christmas song. Finally, Yu Chengze said that I have a new song that is not a song of bitter love. The lyrics are only written After reading it again, the fans asked if it was written for him who said "I love him very much", Yu Chengze said yes, and then he sang——

That year was full of smoke

That year I walked in a small shop on Long Street

That year I was alone singing a love song that no one loved me

That year I had a joke with some boy

That year you lowered your eyes, the tenderness between your brows sank my mind

That year I left behind my old illness

That year I never sang bitter love songs

that year is over

That year I sang the song of loving you

……

Ming Qifan listened, looked out the car window, the scenery quickly reversed, and finally turned into that person's face.

His smiling face, his angry face, his provocative face, his gentle face, his lonely face...

The video on the phone came to an end, Yu Chengze said that the name of the song was "That Year", and the video was completely over.

That year was full of turmoil, I walked in a small shop on the long street, singing a love song that no one loved me alone.

That year, I had a romantic chat with a boy from another family.

That year you lowered your eyes, the tenderness between your brows settled my thoughts, I will never sing bitter love songs again, the old things are over.

That year, I sang the song of loving you.