The Philosopher's Dandy Dream

There are few ancient palaces, and the palace flowers are lonely and red.The first emperor has been there for so many years, even though there are no white-haired maids, the huge courtyard is still indescribably empty.

Seeing the pain in the eyes of the memorial, Liu Shenyan couldn't figure out how he was tossing about, but he was still inside the palace gate in the middle of the night.Blow out the candles and walk in the courtyard.Looking up at the Big Dipper, the tail of the spoon has shifted a few degrees.

Unknowingly, a voice came from behind.

"Master, why do you say you are a monarch?" Qin Fu couldn't sleep even when it was night.

"Aren't you already a person?" This kind of question is almost meaningless. After talking about it, apart from complaining, it is nothing but lamentation.

"But... Gu, I feel too tired."

"Tired? I'm afraid it's hard to find something in this world that isn't tiring..." Relying on your parents can give you a try... However, Liu Shenyan didn't say such words. They are all people who can't rely on their parents now.

Whether you are tired or not, maybe you are asking for it yourself?Qin Fu followed Liu Shenyan and looked at the galaxy, maybe he wouldn't work so hard if he didn't want to be in power?

Qin Fu didn't understand why he persisted for so long...

"Does Master have any wishes?" Qin Fu felt inexplicably lonely looking at Master standing under the moon.

desire?What a distant term this is?In this life, except for Xu Qing, no one seems to have asked me this question, because my wealth seems to be that most things are within easy reach... But what is available may not be what I want... Liu Shenyan subconsciously Aloud, "Wish? Is it okay to walk all over the green hills before you are old?"

"Traveling all over the green mountains?" Qin Fu was taken aback, this seemed to be something he had never thought about.

"That's right, in the world, fame and fortune are always flashy... It's fleeting... Although a young man should have some courage, but..." Liu Shenyan was quite interested when talking about walking around the green hills, but he felt that it was out of place when he said it. "Hehehe, why am I telling you this?"

"Master continues talking, I just want to hear..." Qin Fu found a step and sat down, "Master, sit down and talk."

"Hehe..." Seeing Qin Fu sitting on the stone steps, Liu Shenyan sat down beside him, "To the north of this You Dynasty, there is an endless vastness. It is said that there is an oasis inside, and there are young orchids, drinking There are endless fine wines. In the south, there are shallow streams and continuous mountains. Maybe you can lie on your side and listen to the pines. In the south, although it is bitter cold, there are unearthly mounds. In the wilderness, there are infinite possibilities. As for the east, that is the land with lush water and grass..."

As he was talking, Liu Shenyan couldn't say anything. In those places, he had checked countless classics, and imagined that he could find a place to live in seclusion. Now, he is still inside the palace walls...but it is too late to live in seclusion. After suffering, I am even more happy like the situation a few years ago, covered by Liu Xiao, five people and six people in the capital, comfortable and happy.

Qin Fu heard Liu Shenyan's yearning, and couldn't help but outline the things that he had never thought of. He knew that there were such magnificent scenery in his own country, and he also knew that if he wanted to visit, it would be a great effort. , will also make the trip... But Qin Fu also knows that the master's heart is not the longing he can think of to go for a while and then return... It may be a kind of desire to find a place of meditation that is unfettered and unattainable. The Flower in the Mirror and the Moon in the Water...

The autumn wind is a little cold.

"Master, do you want to go to such a place?"

"Yes..." Liu Shenyan put the fox fur that he brought out with him on Qin Fu's body, "but it never happened."

"Why?" Qin Fu stroked the fur on the fox fur, and it was very smooth.

"Timid." Liu Shenyan gave an answer.What you don’t get is never yours, even if you can touch it so easily, it’s still yours... Being a coward is actually not as hard to say as you imagine... It’s hard to judge a person who is selfish to the extreme Whether it is noble or not...Any yearning that becomes an obsession will become a kind of poison... Maybe the purpose of living is to compromise.

"Huh?" Qin Fu couldn't understand the two words given by Liu Shenyan. In his eyes, the master had never been timid, not only not timid, but even brave, or like a tree, worthy of his respect...

"I can't let go of fame and wealth, I can't let go..." Liu Shenyan seemed to be swayed for a while, as if he was not afraid of living a life without clothes and food, but he hated the days of being bullied, maybe he can also bear it Living a life of being bullied, he will gradually be enslaved, until servility becomes an instinct, or he will die directly... But why didn't he die?Do you want to live if you can't find a reason to die?Then die if you can't find a reason to live?It turns out that after being muddled for so many years, I still haven't figured it out...

Hearing Liu Shenyan's reluctance, Qin Fu couldn't help adding, "Lord Liu"

"Maybe." In this life, Liu Xiao is indeed a word that he will feel warm when he thinks of it. Liu Shenyan stood up, "Do you have any wishes from the Holy Spirit?"

"I used to want the country to be prosperous and the people safe, and the weather to be smooth, but now I only want to win the fight against the queen mother and secure the throne. It seems that I am lonely, and I still lack some ambition." Qin Fu followed, and the two walked along the long corridor in the depths of the palace together. , the lanterns on the side of the eaves exude a mysterious light, making the shadows long.

"Why?" Walking in the deep palace, Liu Shenyan felt the fragility of the owner of the palace.There is no strong man who is invulnerable, only a prisoner who has exhausted thousands of sails.

"I am a prince who was born alone. Since I was a child, the master taught me how to govern the world, so I always took it for granted. It was only when Luoyao's schemes were intertwined with each other that she woke up like a dream. She felt that she was not like this material. Now , even Youyao Gu is more than willing but not strong enough...Master, tell me, how can the world be stabilized by an emperor like me?"

"The blood of the heavenly family is the testament of the world." Some things have an end from the beginning, and no one can escape.

"But... I'm tired... Master... I can't sleep at night... It's really... I'm so lonely..." Qin Fu's intermittent voice pierced Liu Shenyan's ears, are you relieved?The monarch in front of me doesn't seem to need it,

"Some things are the burdens of destiny... In the world, there are three kinds of blessings. One is the innate blessing, such as the saint was born in the emperor's family, and he is extremely prominent in the eyes of all people. The second is the external blessing. That is to say, the status and power, the Holy Majesty does not know how to get it easily, and the third is the degree of spirituality, that is, spiritual detachment and freedom... These, the first two levels are easy for the Holy Majesty, but the last level is not easy for the Holy Majesty. need……"

"Why?" Why doesn't the highest level itself need to participate?

"It's not a good thing for the emperor to see through the world of mortals... If you don't want to be strong, you can only save yourself, but the monarch... wants to save the common people..." Liu Shenyan rubbed Qin Fu's head. His father was just a secretary of the household department. The blessings that I have cultivated in several lifetimes.

"Cangsheng? What does Cangsheng have to do with me, master..." Qin Fu looked at Liu Shenyan, "They are too far away from me, too far away..." All around him are court ladies and eunuchs. What is Cangsheng?Qin Fu doesn't understand, and doesn't need to understand.

"Is it far? We are all common people..." Liu Shenyan smiled and walked forward a few steps with Qin Fu in his arms.

"But, Gu, it seems that I can't even save myself..."

Liu Shenyan didn't want to think about what would happen if the queen mother seized power, because it seemed that few people in the world would mourn if a teenage monarch was replaced. For most of the courtiers, if Qin Fu passed away, the queen mother's son would inherit Datong is a matter of course... Seniors and children are orderly, brothers end up with younger brothers, this is the rule for thousands of years... "Then find a way out for yourself!"

"Master, why don't you tell Gu that the sky will always be bright?"

"Huh?" This sentence seemed to come from his own mouth. Liu Shenyan turned his mind a few times, but he still couldn't find the source. Guyan, the master told her that the sky will always be bright, everything will pass, the surroundings will not be always dark, and there will always be light in the world..."

Always find the light?Yes, some people can always see the light from the darkness, and even find the light, but Liu Shenyan stopped, "The Holy One is not You Yao..."

Looking at Qin Fu's dull face, Liu Shenyan paused, "You Yao is a child of light who can find light in the dark, but the Holy One is a person who wants to fight against the night, maybe after defeating this night, it is the next night to welcome the Holy One." , will never find dawn..."

"Then how?" How to find the light?

"Unless... Your Majesty is no longer His Majesty, but just a boy next door... Then you won't be involved in the troubles of the secular world..."

"Really?" Qin Fu thought for a while that he was like that young man in the village, playing the reed flute and passing by all the tile-roofed houses, "That...seems not bad..."

The hem of Liu Shenyan's clothes was raised against the wind, and then fell to the ground, "But, the Holy One can only be the Holy One..."

"Give way to Luoyao?" Qin Fu suddenly felt a little disgusted that he was the Holy One.

"Your Majesty was joking, Luoyao will decisively give you a knife..." Liu Shenyan couldn't help laughing, laughing that he and Qin Fu were serious about something they both knew.

"Didn't she get the world she wanted?" Qin Fu didn't want to interrupt the topic, he wanted to know, is there countless people like him who have seen clearly his fate?

"She can't feel at ease when the Holy Majesty is alive, because there will always be hope to help the Holy Majesty clean up the country... The Holy Majesty lives in a room with thin blood... If the Empress Dowager loses, she will kill the roots and leave the Majesty alone... Victory..." Speaking of this, Liu Shenyan felt a kind of ease, a kind of ease that can be faced with calmly, without having to hide it, if fate is really like this, then letting go and facing the bleakness, it has never been a kind of happiness .Confused hotbed of happiness, clear painful journey, seeing the inscription clearly, maybe the journey will be smoother.Winning or losing may become unimportant, because everything is under control...

"So, Gu can only live forever?" Qin Fu was a little unwilling, as if he didn't even have the right to choose?

"Yes..." Liu Shenyan replied, unwilling?Not having a choice is also a choice.

How much of Liu Shenyan's "schadenfreude" was concealed by the rustling of fallen leaves?Maybe people are more willing to watch others fall into the same vortex of suffering as themselves?Liu Shenyan couldn't restrain the inexplicable joy... Having gained insight into suffering, suffering is no longer suffering, it is just a way to torture the heart, and still be in the midst of suffering, laughing, that's all.

"Isn't this a very sad life? Carrying the honor and disgrace of blood, being forced to move forward..."

"Don't force me, the Holy Majesty may not be able to find a way..."

If there is no one to help you choose a path, will there be a path to follow?Probably, all people who are on the road will occasionally feel that the other road is better.

"So, should I be grateful?"

"Your Majesty, the past two years... have really worked hard..."

Qin Fu's eyes are full of hostility, "But no one will see Gu's hard work... Gu's allies feel that Gu's walking is too slow, not decisive enough, and not shrewd enough. It's almost time, I have to be careful, Gu is thinking about it every day, how to be like an adult, how to be able to shock Chao Gang, how to take one step, see three steps..."

Liu Shenyan could only sigh for a long time, "Your Majesty has worked very hard..."

"But master, why is Gu facing a dead end..." In an instant, Qin Fu seemed to be discouraged, as if he could not find his way back.

"Perhaps..." Liu Shenyan looked into the distance, the corridor could hardly find the end, Qin Fu's question...

"Maybe what?" Qin Fu wanted to know where he was going wrong.

"Born at the wrong time... the late emperor left too early..."

"..."

The answer is always easy sometimes, but it doesn't work.