[Korean Entertainment] Miss, don't lie

"Xiao Xiao, I'm going to make my debut!" Quan Zhilong's hand holding the phone trembled slightly, the trainee career he had persisted for so long was finally coming to an end, and soon he would be able to stand on the stage and sing his own songs.Thinking of this, unspeakable joy almost rushed out.After sharing the news with his family for the first time, Quan Zhilong immediately called Xiao Xiaoxiao.

"Zhilong, Xiao Xiao...Xiao Xiao is not here, I will ask her to call you when she comes back." Xiao's mother's gentle voice came through the phone, her voice was very sweet, and Xiao Xiaoxiao's voice was also very sweet. Perfectly inherited this.

Actually, a bit gossip, Quan Zhilong has always been unable to understand why Xiao Xiaoxiao's father would choose to divorce a virtuous and beautiful wife like Mother Xiao and stay with a woman with heavy makeup.

"Ah, hello Aunt Xiao, it's okay, I'll just call when I have time."

"Uh, Zhilong, you don't need to call, she...Xiao Xiao, she may not be here often recently, so let her call you when she comes back." Xiao's mother paused, "By the way, Zhilong, Did you just say that you are going to debut? Then congratulations, and I will work hard in the future."

"Well, thank you, auntie." Quan Zhilong hung up the phone, and didn't talk to Xiao Xiaoxiao on the day he knew that he was about to debut. Quan Zhilong felt a little lost in his heart, but he was very busy soon The itinerary quickly covered up his little loss.

It was three days later that I received Xiao Xiaoxiao's call, and it was from Xiao's mother's mobile phone.

"Oppa, I heard that you are going to make your debut?" Xiao Xiaoxiao's usually energetic and melodious voice sounded very deep and hoarse as if he was suppressing something.

"It's about to debut." Quan Zhilong, who was complaining about Xiao Xiaoxiao taking so long to call, was a little worried after hearing Xiao Xiaoxiao's strange voice, "Xiao Xiao, your voice is strange, are you sick?" ?”

"En?...Em, that, strange? Oh, I probably have a cold." Xiao Xiaoxiao replied hesitantly when he heard Quan Zhilong's question.

"Have a cold so bad? Why are you hesitating? You're not lying to me again, are you?"

"I really have a cold, otherwise what could it be, cough cough! My throat is inflamed, so my voice is so low. Have you ever seen me hesitate to lie, cough! I... I just don't feel well... It's just uncomfortable."

"Then take good care of yourself. I saw the photos you sent me and found that you have lost a lot of weight. Fortunately, your face is still chubby. It must be very comfortable to pinch in the future."

"If you want to pinch yourself, you are the face of a bun!" Xiao Xiaoxiao said angrily, but because of his deep voice, he seemed non-threatening.

"I will debut in Japan in August, during YG's [-]th anniversary Japan station." After chatting for a few more words, Quan Zhilong changed the topic back to the issue of debut.

"Congratulations, you have taken another step towards your ideal, and I will work hard!" Quan Zhilong listened to Xiao Xiaoxiao's words, and he didn't know if it was his own illusion. He felt that Xiao Xiaoxiao's voice seemed weaker than before. some.

"Well, didn't you already have a holiday in August? I got the ticket, will you come to see it?" Quan Zhilong was silent for a while, and struggled for a long time before speaking.

"August?" Xiao Xiaoxiao paused, "Is it possible that if I go, oppa will perform exceptionally?"

"Anyway...Anyway, I really hope to see you that day." Quan Zhilong felt a little embarrassed after saying this.

"Well, I will definitely go. Our Zhilong oppa's debut performance is a must-see. Oppa send the ticket to my house, and I will let my mother take me there."

"It's a deal, if I don't come, I will really be angry." Quan Zhilong said solemnly.

"...Well, oppa, don't worry, now you just need to prepare for your debut."

After hanging up the phone, my mother was sitting next to Xiao Xiaoxiao, her eyes were flushed, "Xiao Xiao, you will definitely not be able to go when the time comes."

"...Well, I think so." Xiao Xiaoxiao handed the mobile phone to her mother, slowly lay back on the hospital bed, stared at the ceiling and said as if talking to herself, "Forget me to lie to him again If Zhilong Oppa knows that I have such a serious illness, it will affect his mood no matter what. Therefore, it is better not to tell him.”

The feeling of dizziness and nausea surged up again, Xiao Xiaoxiao closed her eyes and rested, she is now in the hospital, which is not surprising, because it has been half a year since she was found to have kidney failure.

Some time ago, she went to school intermittently, but the complications caused by kidney failure have become more serious in the past one or two months, and now she spends most of the time in the hospital bed.

Xiao Xiaoxiao's type is acute renal failure, because the condition is serious, and the doctor said that if the kidney is not replaced, the dialysis treatment will not last for a year.

Everyone looked at her with sympathy, but Xiao Xiaoxiao felt that she was not that miserable. She always felt that happy people in the world are the same, but unfortunate people have their own differences. misfortune.Although she is unfortunate, there are people farther away who have a more difficult and painful life than her.

Therefore, Xiao Xiaoxiao has been actively cooperating with the treatment. The doctor once told her that although kidney sources have always been in short supply, their hospital will have kidneys like hers every year.Xiao Xiaoxiao persevered and firmly believed, with infinite hope for the future, waiting for the kidney source that could bring a turning point to her life.

It's June now, Xiao Xiaoxiao turned his eyes to the window, the sun was shining brightly outside, and a piece of vibrant green in the garden of the hospital came into view directly.

It would be great if I could go to see Quan Zhilong's debut performance in person, Xiao Xiaoxiao thought so.

"Xiao Xiao, it's time for dialysis." The angel-like female nurse in a white nurse uniform opened the door of the ward and said to Xiao Xiaoxiao.

"Well, let's go." Xiao Xiaoxiao picked up her coat and put it on her body, looked at the wheelchair not far away, and after moving her legs, she found that her whole leg was still extremely stiff. The audible voice sighed, looked at her mother, and smiled at her, "Mom, push the wheelchair over for me."

Two months is probably only a short distance of one step or so in the long journey of life.

Quan Zhilong called Xiao Xiaoxiao several times before his debut to confirm whether she would really go, Xiao Xiaoxiao answered affirmatively every time without hesitation.

Although Xiao Xiaoxiao's answer at the beginning was just to perfunctory Quan Zhilong, but later, at the beginning of August, Xiao Xiaoxiao really made up his mind to go to Japan to see Quan Zhilong even if he had to sit in a wheelchair show.After all, looking at his weakened body day by day and thinking of the bamboo horse he hadn't seen for so many years, Xiao Xiaoxiao felt inexplicably heartbroken that he would never see Quan Zhilong again.

The heartache at that time, Xiao Xiaoxiao thought it was just palpitation and chest tightness caused by kidney failure.

YG’s [-]th anniversary concert is coming as scheduled, the gorgeous stage, the perfect lighting, the fans shouting loudly in the audience, all these are what Quan Zhilong yearns for wholeheartedly. Gathering with his members, he thinks that he will be with BigBang soon He officially debuted as a member, and he simulated and practiced the moves he was about to take on stage over and over again. The nervousness and excitement instantly filled Quan Zhilong's mind. This wonderful feeling was like an electric current flowing through his body. all over the body.

After the tense and happy first stage, Quan Zhilong began to look for Xiao Xiaoxiao in the backstage, frontcourt and various places.

The fans dispersed in groups, the venue gradually became empty, and then only a few groups of people left, walking around the venue sporadically.Quan Zhilong's eyes searched around, and the expectation and enthusiasm gradually became like this venue that had begun to become deserted due to the gradually dispersing crowd.

Obviously said that he would come, Quan Zhilong stared blankly at the field where only the staff were left, and clenched his hands tightly into fists: Xiao Xiaoxiao, you liar!Quan Zhilong roared in his heart.

"Zhilong, the company is about to hold a celebration banquet, what are you still doing here?" The voice of a staff member beside him brought Quan Zhilong back to his senses.

"Oh, yes, I'll be right over." Quan Zhilong replied perfunctorily.

Back at the hotel that night, even though it was already very late, Quan Zhilong couldn't help but secretly dialed Xiao Xiaoxiao's phone while everyone was resting.

It was raining right outside the window, and the indifferent "beeps" sounded like drops of cold raindrops hitting Quan Zhilong's heart. It turned out that she actually didn't watch her debut performance as she imagined. Importantly, Quan Zhilong felt that this feeling of loss was more difficult for him to accept than being rejected by the person he liked back then.

In the days that followed, after his debut, Quan Zhilong was much more busy preparing for the album and a series of performing arts activities than when he was a trainee, because he was a newcomer who had to be respectful and careful wherever he went, so this period of time was simply It can be said that Quan Zhilong was very busy.

"oppa?" Xiao Xiaoxiao dialed Quan Zhilong's number carefully, she was a little worried that Quan Zhilong would get angry.That day, she didn't deliberately not go to the show. She had already persuaded her mother and even booked the air ticket to Japan, but she was not as good as God.

Maybe it was a trick of fate. On that day, her condition suddenly worsened, and she passed out. After three days in the intensive care unit, Xiao Xiaoxiao, who was transferred to the general ward, regained her senses. It has been several days since Long's debut.

"..." Quan Zhilong didn't speak, it seemed that he really cared about that matter, listening to Quan Zhilong's slight breathing on the phone, Xiao Xiaoxiao took the lead to break the silence "oppa, I have something urgent Just missed your show."

"Urgent matter? Anyway, you just didn't put my business first!"

"I'm really busy. Although it's a pity that I didn't see Oppa's debut performance, there will always be a chance to see your other performances in the future." Before Xiao Xiaoxiao finished speaking, Quan Zhilong interrupted." Your debut performance is only once in your life, where else do you go to find an opportunity! Anyway, you are just fooling me, do you think it is so fun to lie to me?!"

"Me! I...I didn't lie to you!" Feeling that Quan Zhilong seemed to be getting angrier as he spoke, Xiao Xiaoxiao stuttered a little.

"Don't you feel uneasy when you say this? Xiao Xiaoxiao, you lied to me from the first time you saw me, lied to me that you were nuna and let me call you by your side all day long, isn't it fun? "Quan Zhilong said every word and every word very harshly, which made Xiao Xiaoxiao unable to answer for a while, "You said you didn't lie to me, so why didn't you complete the things you promised so well? Xiao Xiaoxiao , you are a complete liar!"

"Oppa, is this how oppa sees me?" Xiao Xiaoxiao felt that her breathing was tense, and her eyes suddenly became sore and unbearable. The person who had been thinking about him all the time actually said this about herself, Xiao Xiaoxiao said that she would not show up In what mood.

"..." Quan Zhilong was silent. Although he felt that what he said was a bit too much, he was young and energetic and did not want to bow his head to Xiao Xiaoxiao at all. After all, in his opinion, this matter was Xiao Xiaoxiao's fault alone.

"Don't speak is the default?" Xiao Xiaoxiao's tone suddenly calmed down. After a while, it was like the calm before the storm. Xiao Xiaoxiao's voice full of grievances and anger came again, "Quan Zhilong, I don't want to talk to you anymore. You spoke!!!"

After finishing speaking, Xiao Xiaoxiao hung up the phone with a "snap", and tears began to flow down one by one like broken beads.

Obviously it was for his sake, afraid that he would hide his illness because he was worried about her, but in the end she got such a result, Xiao Xiaoxiao felt wronged and angry at Quan Zhilong yelling at herself.

Quan Zhilong hung up the phone in a daze after listening to the "beep" sound coming from the phone. In his memory, this was the first time Xiao Xiaoxiao hung up his own phone. She was obviously the wrong person, wasn't she?Why do I have a feeling that I am wrong.Quan Zhilong scratched his hair, fell on the bed and thought whether his words were really too much.

After some twists and turns, although Quan Zhilong realized that he was a little too much, but after the quarrel just now, he should apologize to her in a few days, otherwise he would be very embarrassing.

It was such a decision that made Quan Zhilong and Xiao Xiaoxiao completely cut off contact at this time. Until many years later, when Quan Zhilong thought of this matter, he still regretted his naive decision when he was young.