Follow the shadow

Originally, Su Yun would be punished for dying in the illusion, but that day when he left the mansion, he passed out on the side of the road, and the high fever that persisted all night scared the two accompanying people terribly.

In the past few years, as Su Yun grew older, the Yin Qi attached to him became more and more serious, and his personality became more and more withdrawn. Occasionally, he would lose his mind and hurt others.Now he is like a gun that can be ignited at any time, hurting others and himself.

What Xu Yang was most afraid of was that Su Yun, who had lost his mind, would go on a killing spree, and there would be no room for maneuver if his soul dispersed.

Fortunately, Su Yun's fever finally subsided at dawn the next day, and Xu Yang turned into a rabbit and curled up in his bed. He felt the other person's body move slightly, and when he looked up, he saw Su Yun looking at him thoughtfully. he.

"Are you awake?" Rabbit wasn't sure what Su Yun was thinking right now, so he asked a question tentatively and then stopped talking.

Su Yun lay with her back to the light, her long eyelashes half-covered her pupils, unable to see her emotions at this time.After a long time, he stretched out his hand to caress the rabbit's forehead and asked, "Does it still hurt?"

The wound there had already healed, and the rabbit rubbed its head against his hand, misting its obsidian eyes.He moaned and said, "If you let me kiss you, I will forgive you."

"..." This kind of condition is not too much for an ordinary little elf, but it is difficult for a wolf in sheep's clothing.

Su Yun neither refused nor agreed.He did not hide his morbidity after recovering from a serious illness, and even restrained his previous arrogance.Su Yun like this is rare, and one can't help but want to embrace her and take care of her carefully.

Xu Yang didn't know what he was thinking, he just watched the other party close his eyes resolutely to prevent his thoughts from flowing out.

Su Yun thought, if one day he went completely crazy, what would Xu Yang do?

This question lingered in his mind, and he blurted it out several times, but in the end he still didn't ask it.

After a thunderstorm outside the window, heavy rain fell heavily.Su Yun walked to the window with bare feet, feeling at a loss.He is like a blind man who knows nothing about the world but is forcibly pulled forward, and beside him is the abyss.

The rabbit silently returned to its original body, walked over and said, "It's cold on the ground, put on your shoes."

Su Yun stared out of the window in a daze, the old tree struggling frantically in the rain kept beating the air with its branches, silently making its final struggle like a drowning person.

"If you tell me about my previous life, I will satisfy you." Su Yun felt that she was not sober, she clearly wanted to avoid this person who pestered her all the time, but there was a longing deep in her heart, I hope that this person can really fulfill what he said for a lifetime.

He tried his best to grasp the tail of his previous life and explored the memories spanning thousands of years, as if it was just to increase his weight in the other party's heart... Is this really the case?This kind of question is difficult for Su Yun himself to answer.

He longs for a happy family, but in reality there is only Xu Yang who insists on breaking in and Ning Sheng who looks up to him.He longed to have an ordinary life, but it turned out that it was just a dream.

He thought, maybe he really had to become that person before he could keep what he had now.

In a daze, Xu Yang hugged his waist from behind, and he trembled slightly, allowing Xu Yang to carry him to a chair and sit down.

Cushions were placed on the chair in advance. This kind of meticulous care almost made him lose his survival instinct, and he almost drowned in the tenderness of the other party.

Xu Yang didn't look at him, took the slippers and put them on the ground, knelt down on one knee skillfully, letting him step on his knees with his bare feet.

Xu Yang looked at the person in front of him, saw the pain and struggle in the other person's eyes, and fell silently again.

Su Yun was born with fair skin, and few people noticed that there were two irreparable black marks on the wrists of those feet.That's because the imprint that goes deep into the soul after wearing shackles for a long time can't be removed forever.

Xu Yang looked down for a moment, grabbed his ankle and put on slippers for him.

When Xu Yang raised his head, he saw the man lowered his head slightly, looking down at him, his indifferent eyes had the aloofness of an eagle.Even if he didn't know anything about the past, what he carried was never light.

"In your previous life, you were the last emperor of the Jing Dynasty, Emperor Jingning." Xu Yang gently held his hand, "Have you heard the story of Lolita?"

"What?" Su Yun didn't understand why Xu Yang changed the subject suddenly.

"Lolita, the name of the heroine of a story. In her most beautiful years, she met a man who loved him deeply. In order to get close to her, the man first married her mother, and then indirectly murdered her after being discovered. The heroine's mother died." Xu Yang's voice was not loud, as if it would be covered by the sound of rain at any time, but it was always higher than the sound of rain.

Su Yun looked directly at him, those dark pupils were always looking at her seriously, gentle and deep.Let Su Yun unconsciously imagine whether the infatuated person in the story is also like him, looking up at his beloved like a god.

"The heroine has no ability to live, and she doesn't know how to love. She chooses to use physical transactions in exchange for what she needs. The hero doesn't want to do this, but falls into the temptation of the heroine again and again. Afterwards, they quarrel. Compromises are needed, men compromise for love, and go round and round until one day she leaves that man." Xu Yang paused, "Many years later, that unlucky man received a letter from the heroine, saying that she was pregnant and wanted to marry him. He borrowed a sum of money. He looked for it and saw that the woman he loved was pregnant with someone else's child. She was poor and desolate, with a bloated body, but he still felt that the person in front of him was beautiful. He said that he could raise the hostess for a lifetime, as long as the other party was willing Walk with him, but the hostess refused. Ajun, I don't need you to hurt yourself in exchange for something from me, and I don't have to say nothing, I just want to protect you in a way I think is feasible."

Su Yun looked down at the man kneeling at his feet, and somehow had an illusion, as if this man had looked up to him for thousands of years.

Sometimes he also thinks that he has already passed the age of being entangled with his past, and his resistance to those around him has gradually been replaced by compromise.It's just that he doesn't know anything, what courage does he have to sell his few feelings?

"Then tell me how I died?" Xu Yang's hand trembling, his face turned pale.Xu Yang lowered his head and remained silent for a long time, as if he would never speak again.

Many years later, when Su Yun recalled this memory alone, he could still clearly remember the look in Xu Yang's eyes when he raised his head. It was desperate and painful, like a mouse brought up by someone inadvertently from the ditch. Chasing light like moths to a flame.Su Yun is that little light, so even if Su Yun is not a god, he is still willing to regard him as a god.

"You were killed by me..." Xu Yang lowered his head and didn't look at him, clearly knowing that he was unforgivable but still wanted to pay back.

The founding monarch of the Jing Dynasty divided the world into Kyushu. During the reign of Emperor Jingning, King Qi Xiang, a descendant of Liangzhou, raised troops and proclaimed himself emperor, and went all the way north to approach the capital.The folks all call him the Son of Man, and he has the reincarnation of the ten ancient witches to assist him. Within three months, he took over the nest of Emperor Jingning.

After Emperor Jingning was captured alive, he was imprisoned in the deep palace. Each person drew a tube of blood to sacrifice to heaven, as a sign of sincerity in atonement. The person who came to draw blood was Xu Yang.

"I was in the Ministry of Rites back then, and I was a few years younger than you, but I tried to marry you in vain. It's ridiculous that I was young and ignorant, and I stalked you, but I was incompetent and ignorant. The seat of a witch, all emotions and six desires have been wiped out, and after weighing the pros and cons, you are directly helping the evil spirits... It's ridiculous, I still don't understand how I became a witch, and because of this, you have another secret in your body." Once the words start, it is not difficult to continue.

"Ajun, I don't ask you to give me anything. But I'm sure that no one in this world, except me, doesn't want to reveal the secrets of the past from you. They will enter your life in various identities, seek your pity and thus Get close to you, and extract everything they want from you." Xu Yang smiled wryly and straightened up, "Speaking of which, I didn't come to you without desires, but I owe you too much and dare not ask for it."

Back then, Erlang was young and frivolous, and he swore that he liked it.Afterwards, there were many mistakes and mundane affairs, and she finally failed her sweetheart.

It can be seen that love at first sight between people is the product of dopamine secretion after all, and it is sometimes impossible to stay together for a lifetime until the end of life.

Su Yun shook her head thoughtfully, subconsciously said, "...he doesn't blame you."

"But you're dead."

Su Yun stared blankly at Xu Yang, for a moment he really forgot who he really was.He had never felt such strong remorse from Xu Yang.

People are timid, especially when they make mistakes, they will explain in every possible way and refuse to look directly at the facts.But Xu Yang looked at him with paranoid and sincere eyes, even if he was asked to choose to give up his life at this time, he would not hesitate.

"I killed you with my own hands, and watched your body freeze and become cold in my arms, but it was not until hundreds of years later that I felt a tinge of distress, but by then it was too late."

The rain outside the window stopped, like a child crying willfully, finally fell asleep in exhaustion.

The two were silent for a long time, but Su Yun finally broke it, "Then why did you decide to tell me now?"

"Because..." Xu Yang rubbed his eyes wearily, turned back into a rabbit and curled up in his arms, and said, "Because I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to catch you, and you will be gone..." Decades of time, except for him They are nothing but one-sided entanglements.

Su Yun remained silent. In his memory, there were many memory fragments that should not belong to him.Sometimes it's just a glimpse of him somewhere hurriedly passing by.Sometimes it's a conversation that goes on and on.These memories always give him an endless sense of familiarity, but they are often far away from him.

He could sense the emotions of the people inside, but he was always standing in the perspective of a bystander, with no waves in his heart.But after Xu Yang mentioned it that day, what he thought of again was directly integrated into Emperor Jingning.

In a dream one day, he was sitting alone by the window with a cold body, looking out of the window through the gap in the sash, a hose of unknown material was tied to his thin wrist, and the blood flowed quickly.

It was the first time that Su Yun felt a certain emotion in that body, but he couldn't explain it clearly at the moment.

He looked at the ginkgo leaves falling all over the ground outside the window, the golden color that heralded a good harvest should be warm, but at this moment it only gave him a silent coldness.

It seems that this harvest day has nothing to do with him. He can neither feel the joy in it nor worry about the cold winter that will follow.

He withdrew his dizzy gaze, looked at Xu Yang who was standing by with a blank face, and smiled simply.That was the last time he showed a sincere smile as Emperor Jingning. If Xu Yang still loved him, he might say something else, but it's a pity...

His eyes were slightly closed, as if he had fallen into a dream that no one knew about. In the dream, there were mountains and rivers, the people lived and worked in peace and contentment, the people he cared about were safe and sound, and the children and grandchildren of his beloved were full.And he, alone, seems to be sitting on the world...

Su Yun didn't know what happened afterwards.His soul was temporarily trapped between memory and reality, and during the long wait for him to wake up, he finally understood his emotions at that time, which was the only bit of conscience left by a distorted, half-lived emperor.And in the conscience, there is an unspeakable reluctance to the lover.

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When Ning Sheng first brought Su Yun home, life was not easy, probably due to the fact that he was killed by Xu Yang in his previous life, Su Yun saw that Xu Yang was like a hedgehog with blown hair, and hid quickly until he could not see him The place.

Until she discovered Su Yun's weakness of liking rabbits,

After all, he is still a child, Su Yun especially likes those fluffy and harmless little animals, if they are willing to obediently take them in Su Yun's arms, Su Yun will feel very happy.

Due to her incompetence and incompetence, this matter was finally leaked to Xu Yang. Soon Su Yun found out that the small animals he raised were not allowed to be hugged by him, and in the nest of the two female rabbits, there was an extra baby rabbit for no reason...

Later, the relationship between the two gradually improved.Ning Sheng felt that she was really a virgin in a green grassland.

A certain bird particularly likes the last two paragraphs, and this is the first time Shou Shou resonates with his previous life.

By the way, the Kyushu in the text is the Kyushu in the Shangshu.

The ten witches are the ten witches in the Shan Hai Jing, who are proficient in medical skills, not the ancestors of the twelve witches.As for what the Twelve Witch Ancestors are, a certain bird can only say that the name is awesome, but it doesn’t quite fit the divine design of ancient Chinese gods