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Brother died.

I stared blankly at the two cold corpses on the bed, one was an elder brother and the other was a sister-in-law.Covered with a white cloth, it is to be pushed into the cremation furnace.

Fortunately, Luo Xiao was young, so my brother didn't take her with him because he thought it was inconvenient to travel this time.

The entire Yan family was lifeless, I was dressed in black, and I remembered that the last time I was dressed this way was when my parents had a car accident.

Everyone's expressions were solemn, and there was even a slight cry.

I don't know what there is to cry about. The way some people cry just makes me feel fake, and I find it disgusting, not comforting, at all.

This is a play for adults, I understand.

The death of such an important person in the Yan family, everyone with a certain status will attend. This is a funeral and a social gathering, so as to find out the details of the Yan family.

And all I know is that the elder brother who always teases me and practice martial arts with me will never wake up again, leaving me alone in this world just like my parents.

I was meant to be alone, wasn't I?

Qinghan never came again, the adults were too busy to talk to me.If she comes, she will definitely accompany me, watch me practicing sword and shooting, and then cheer for me, and put a few candies in my mouth, full of sweetness.

Whenever I think of her, I always feel happy, in such an atmosphere.Raised an inappropriate smile.

Qinghan is really nice, she will play with me, make me laugh, give me sweets, wipe my sweat when I am tired from training, and hug me without thinking I am dirty.

I like her. When I was injured during training, I would deliberately show it to her. Seeing her distressed and nervous appearance, I knew that I was important to her.

At night, when I am awakened by a nightmare, she will hug me, comfort me in a low voice, kiss my forehead lightly, kiss away the cold sweat on my forehead, hug me who is constantly trembling, and give me comfort with her warm body temperature. With the best of care.

When she comes to Yan's house, I always try my best to coax her to stay and play some tricks. I know she can see it, but she never exposes me.Smiling and agreeing, smiling and agreeing to my blushing request to sleep with her.

I like the feeling of being pampered, pampered and cared for.Qinghan never despised me for being small, communicated with me on an equal footing, asked for my opinion, and respected my thoughts whether they were right or wrong.

I like every bit of time spent with her, and I don't want to let go of signing her at all.I can relax and show all kinds of emotions in front of her.

Wronged or angry, she would rub my hair and hold me in her arms.

Her embrace is my warmest shelter.

Black clothes, black news, black unknown.

Death is like darkness, and it follows like a shadow. Since I have been shrouded in shadows, I might as well become a part of the shadows together.

From the first time I put on black clothes, I have been obsessed with this color.Such a dim color, I hide in it, no one can find me.

It can be regarded as an escape, and it can be regarded as helpless.I was just a kid, and I hated the hot, probing eyes of grown-ups looking at me.

As a result, he became obsessed with black and lived in a dark tone.

Others only think that I have a weird personality, and the farther away from me the better, but Qinghan doesn't mind the darkness of my room at all, lying on the bed, chatting with me.

But I know that she doesn't like black, but she likes to accommodate me and accommodate my various weird hobbies.

After the funeral, I went about my business, sleeping when I should, eating when I should, and losing someone in my life doesn't mean I have to lose my otherwise normal life.

What a devil.

People who pass me say this about me. They think the voice is low enough that I can't hear it, but the truth is that I hear it, but I don't bother to respond.

I don't know what kind of psychology they have to judge me.But after all, I really don't care about other people's feelings.Their evaluations are reasonable.My heart is only in Qinghan, from the first time I saw her, it will not change in the future.

After the funeral, I thought everything was back to normal. After all, underworld, everyone has their own destiny, and my brother is no exception, even though he is the eldest son of the Yan family.Moreover, if I die one day, I won't feel anything strange.

But after that, my grandfather called me over.Sincerity, sigh and solemnity coexist, beating my heart without haste.

In other words, the Yan family can only leave it to me.

I agreed, and I could only agree.For the Yan family, for the responsibility that comes with birth.

Responsibility is something that I value very much.

As a result, my originally relatively loose training suddenly became tense, and the difficulty also increased a little bit.I don't mind these things, I really don't mind, I enjoy the special treatment of being the heir of the Yan family to seek a job in his position, so I naturally have to take action to convince a group of subordinates.But since then, Qinghan never came again.

I couldn't hold back, and ran to ask my grandfather why Qinghan didn't come.

Grandpa told me that she had something to do and couldn't come.

Grandpa is lying to me, I know it.When he spoke, his tone was a little stiff and unnatural. Something must have happened that I don't know.

I'm going to find her!

This idea has been circling in my mind for a long time.Finally took action, but was discovered by grandpa and failed.

It turned out that my grandfather had been watching me closely.

I was so chilled by this thought, I couldn't sleep all night, without her company, the long night was long, I could only keep my eyes open to get through it.If Qinghan stops looking for me, I will be really alone.She also promised that she would accompany me forever!She still has the sword I gave her!

I just feel that something is wrong, why grandpa wants to monitor me, why Qinghan doesn't come here anymore, why the whole Yan family seems to be dumb, and keeps silent about Luo's family.Why does my grandfather give me the feeling that I am about to get angry when I mention Qinghan?

It's all hiding from me, something must have happened.why did not you tell me?

I ran to beg my grandpa to let me see her, but my grandpa didn't agree, and he didn't let go at all.Even after I knelt at the door for a day and a night, my knees were purple and black, he didn't let go, but his eyes were bloodshot, and he forced me to go back to the room.

Why don't you let me go see her?

This is the first time that I acted like a child I couldn't ask for, playing my temper willfully.

I struggled, yelled, and acted like I always disdain, those peers* are not satisfied and make trouble everywhere.

I can't care so much, I just want to see her.

But how can I survive this struggle!Being forcibly locked in the room, I just feel like a knife is piercing my heart, what happened!What happened!

I started to go on a hunger strike. After my grandfather learned about it, he ordered the servants to force-feed me. I didn't expect my grandfather to be so resolute, but without Qinghan, I was already a walking dead.

In the face of live target shooting and torture. Interrogation. Extortion. Confessions, these bloody incidents are what I have to go through.I know how cruel and inhumane it is to do this, but this is the training that the Yan family must pass.

At least Qinghan, when I come back with blood stains, she will not be afraid to avoid it like others, but will take off the smelly clothes for me and wash away the dark red seal for me.

For the rubbing on my body, she will carefully apply medicine to me, and when I frown in pain, she will kiss me and say to me softly, bear with it, it will be fine soon, good boy.

Well, be good.I will listen to Qinghan's words, obediently, by her side, and guard her.Don't let her worry about me and feel sad for me.

I am obedient now, but she is not by my side.She would praise me, reward me with a kiss that would be printed on my face, and I could slip into her arms.Let her hold me, I can rub my head against her, and she will touch my head, and that hand will touch the top of my head, which makes me feel good.

Family, glory, is responsibility to me.But I live for myself, it is impossible to separate me from Qinghan.

The Yan family has Luo Xiao, so it doesn't matter if I die alone.It's just that the main department has once again fallen into a vicious circle of scarcity.

While there was no one in the room, I pulled out the infusion tube in my hand and slashed the needle into the carotid artery. I didn't want to die, but I wanted to take a gamble.

When I woke up, my grandpa was sitting by my bed. With a slight sigh and eyes full of helplessness, I realized that my grandpa was old.

I remained silent and looked at my grandpa with red eyes. I was still getting the infusion, but I couldn't help pulling up the sheet. My neck was still hurting. I knew there must be a long and deep scar there.If I don't strike hard, grandpa won't know how determined I am.I want my grandpa to know that Qinghan is my life.For her, my rationality, pride, and self-esteem can all go to hell!

"When you have the ability to take over the Yan family, I won't stop you from seeing her." Grandpa sighed and compromised a bit.

I had no choice but to acquiesce.In this way, almost under house arrest, this agreement was reached.

After 11 years of hard work, I finally took over the position of Patriarch. The first thing I did when I took office was to find out where she lived.

I can see her now.Being tightly entwined by this thought, at this moment, I just want to see her, the one who has been my spiritual pillar for more than ten years, the God in my heart.

I didn't bring anything, only Jiang Li.I know that Chengying is still with her.

"Tell your master that Yan Shuangfei came to find her." When I said this, I felt that my throat was so tense that I was thirsty, and my voice was as rough as scratching on frosted glass.And my hands were already shaking with excitement, my God, I could finally see her.

She is in the house in front of me, maybe she is reading a book, maybe she is playing with flowers and plants... She is so close to me, it won't take long for me to see her.

The doorman looked at me who came alone, with puzzled eyes and vigilance. He obviously hesitated in front of me, but then picked up the radio to announce.

Very well, the name of the new head of the Yan family is still spreading very quickly.I am very satisfied.

I craned my neck to watch, searching for signs of her.Imagining what kind of expression she will have when she hears the news of my coming, will she be very happy, will she rush into my arms excitedly?

I am very happy that she came here by running, and I think she is also eager to see me.I couldn't help but bring back a smile, the sun was very good, it seemed that God forgave my despicable and infinite imagination.

There was a blur in front of her eyes, she walked towards me, bit by bit, getting closer and closer to me.I suddenly felt very nervous. When we meet again, what should I say and do? Should I hug her, tell her what I miss, and tell her that I miss her so much that I'm going crazy thinking about her for more than ten years?

She was right in front of me, so real and unbelievable, like a dream, just like the encounter scenes I had imagined countless times.

Her lips trembled, and it took her a long time to utter a word, are you here?

Yes, here I am.

It seems like a long-lost old friend, a simple greeting when we meet, there is no need to say more when it is full of affection.But we're definitely not just old friends.

But that sentence, it took me so much effort to say it, when she was right in front of me, I was so excited and nervous that I almost lost my voice.

I'm already about the same height as her, and she has a bit more mature charm, and those decisive and capable people who have been struggling in the mall.

Everything is so familiar, so strange, okay, okay, I will always be by her side in the days to come.

It's not that I haven't seen her before. At various family gatherings, I have seen her vague shadow, hidden behind the crowd. I will misidentify many people, but I will not misidentify her.

But I abide by the agreement and don't go to her. Even if I go out to perform tasks a few times, I resist the impulse and don't go to her.

Sometimes I really admire my determination.

It's okay, there will be a long time to come.I told myself, wait a little longer, wait a little longer, and she and I won't have to suffer the pain of parting.

I'm really proud, and I think that she is thinking of me, and she is thinking of me as much as I am.

Memories and bits and pieces of her are my homework every night before I go to sleep. The memories are repeated and the details are constantly enriched.I am accompanied by her in the illusion, wandering along the banks of time.

She suddenly buried her head in my neck, her trembling hands gripping my coat tightly.I put my arms around her, and the tactile sensation felt real in my brain.Happiness is in my hands, right now.For some reason, the sun made me want to cry a little bit.

How hypocritical, I laughed to myself.

Her warm body leaned against me, and the fragrance she exuded penetrated into my heart one by one, and my mind swayed.

I have a desire.

She already has a husband, I told myself, I cannot give her happiness.But so what, I love her, everything about her, all her preferences and habits have been engraved in my bones, I can't erase it, and I don't want to erase it.I want to grow old with her.

The body's reaction was far faster than the brain's, and the unstoppable commotion gave me the illusion of wanting to possess her quickly.

I know exactly what I want.It's a complete joke that I don't understand those things in this filthy environment.Even, it's not that they don't understand, but that they are familiar with it.I have participated in more than one of these black underground transactions?

Entering the room, I looked around.It's very good, very clean, and there is no trace of a man. There is no trace of that man's life, and it seems that he doesn't live here permanently.

She looked a little embarrassed, looking at me with flickering eyes, her reddish face didn't know what was on her mind.Such her is undoubtedly a huge temptation in my eyes.

I walked forward and pecked lightly on her cheek. I didn't dare to go too far, so I could only test her bottom line a little bit.

"Shuang'er..." She called in a low voice, but it aroused the unsettled waves in my heart. This call seemed to bring me back to my childhood.I'm still the Shuang'er who wants her to accompany me day and night.

In fact, I belonged to her.I want to give my heart to her willingly.

I wrapped my arms around her soft waist without overstepping, but the gradually faster heartbeat and slow and rapid breathing reminded me that at this moment I was completely different from me in the past.

Wanting her, wanting to be one with her.Years of hard work have yielded a positive result, and my feelings for her are by no means as simple as family affection!

I touched her tentatively, but she didn't arouse her resistance. Instead, she obediently leaned into my arms.

It was a surprise!I hold my heart beating wildly and chaotically.He hated himself for possessing her eagerly like a man.The movements are gradually bold, and her subtle panting is the best encouragement to me.

She didn't object, she let me move with a tacit attitude and let me do whatever I wanted, just like when she was a child, she tolerated me endlessly and tolerated all the mistakes I made.

I believe that she will love me, even if the current performance is just coaxing me, but I believe that one day I can make her fall in love with me.

I hugged her and followed her guidance to the bed. She knew what I was going to do, but she didn't refuse. Does that mean I still have a chance to take her back from others?

From now on, she belongs only to me.I feel happy just thinking about it.I couldn't help but giggle.

I don't know why, in front of her, I can't hide my emotions, and I feel a little bit stuck in myself.

What are you thinking, she asked.The smooth and white shoulders were exposed, and the sunlight outside the house was just right, lightly projecting on her body, and the half-faded clothes seduced people to commit crimes.

I kissed lightly, careful not to make her uncomfortable.

After so many years of abstinence, I want to release, but I also want to give her the most complete feeling.I use my best patience to be considerate to her and tell her how much I love her.

Her brows were slightly wrinkled, entangled with complex emotions, and her deep eyes reflected unusual meanings. She raised her head, leaned her chin on my shoulder, hugged me, and breathed warm breath into her ears.

Her soft body plunged into my arms, swaying with my rhythm, the light fragrance, the touch, so soft that I fell into it and couldn't bear to let go.I want to hug her for the rest of my life, and I want her to live happily ever after.

Her misty eyes couldn't hide the complexity, she looked at me and murmured.

do not leave me.

I hugged her tightly.

How can I be willing to leave you.

It should be me begging you, don't leave me, if you let me experience parting again, I will really go crazy.

Qinghan, this time, let me pamper you.