The burden of true and false idols

Xiao Fu was very concerned about Director Wei's play, and he had already started training before signing the contract.In the play, he will play a swimmer with extremely poor talent but longing for the sea. Although the character is a mediocre person who is born weak and repeatedly beaten, Xiao Fu still spends a lot of time on fitness in order to get closer to the character image.

Although the protagonist is weak, he still has beautiful muscles due to long-term exercise, and behaves like an elf underwater, with a unique aesthetic feeling.

Xiao Fu understands that he will probably use a stand-in to complete difficult movements later on, but he hopes to stay as close to the script as possible, so he often soaks in the swimming pool when there is no notice.

He has been in this state for more than a month, and because of schedule conflicts, he has no chance to meet Xu Wang.But Xu Wang obviously felt his passion, and talked about this movie every time he called, Xiao Fu must be looking forward to this performance.

After lifting weights in the gym, Xiao Fu panted heavily while calling Xu Wang: "Just wait and see, brother, I will definitely impress you."

Xu Wang smiled lightly on the other end: "What? What will you become then?"

Xiao Fu was particularly proud: "It's so handsome, cool and cute."

"Isn't it the same as usual? There's something worthy of my admiration."

Xu Wang's tone was very natural, and Xiao Fu couldn't be more amused, he said with a smile: "Hey, you are quite good at it."

Xu Wang said, "I'm just telling the truth."

Xiao Fu laughed hard: "Okay. Accept your compliment. Hey brother, I'm dead, I can't breathe, I have to rest."

"Don't rush to hang up."

Xiao Fu asked: "What's the matter? Is there something wrong?"

Xu Wang lowered his voice: "I like to hear your panting."

Xiao Fu blushed, quietly checked to see if there was anyone around, and gasped several times in a low voice and exaggeratedly.

Before Xu Wang could speak, Xiao Fu immediately hung up the phone.There was a triumphant smile on his face, how did you say that?To deal with hooligans, you have to be more hooligan than him.

Contestant Xiao Fu managed to make Xu Huang stiff for tens of seconds with his sand sculpting hooliganism, and it took a few minutes before he recovered, and sent him a WeChat message:

Shall we meet tonight?

Xiao Fu covered his face.He couldn't help thinking about the conversation that happened just now.See you at night, don't you mean that?Not so good.

The phone vibrated, almost shaking Xiao Fu's head full of mental waste. He gripped the phone tightly in a panic, and saw Xu Wang sent another message:

I miss you.Let's date quietly.

Xiao Fu's mouth bulged, and he couldn't help but let out a "huh."

His heart is so dirty.Xu Wang is such an amiable and respectable actor, and he is such a gentleman and polite when he is in love!As long as his mind is full of clouds and rain, can't he think about the sun!

...Sorry, the sun can't even think about it!

To fall in love with someone like Xu Wang, one should be gentle!romantic!Think about moonlight.

That's right, Xiao Fu is satisfied, that's what Xu Wang said about meeting at night, because there is only moonlight at night.

He poked the keyboard and replied: Good!Look at the stars and the moon.

Xu Wang replied in seconds: Look at you under the moon.

Xiao Fu held the phone firmly, he couldn't help but want to take a screenshot of the dog abuse.After finally restraining his flaming complacency and the urge to show affection, he put down his phone and prepared to go to the bathroom to take a shower, change clothes and leave.

In the dense water vapor, Xiao Fu brushed his hair back, and only then belatedly remembered that the word Xu Hua used was "dating".

Just now, he also seemed to be in love with Xu Wang.

Thinking of what he swore to tell Xu Wang that night before, Xiao Fu felt so guilty.

They hadn't seen each other for a month, but they were as close as hell.The two are so sticky when they get along, and their words and demeanor are too much, how can they say they are in love?This is clearly talking about love!

Xiao Fu felt like a scumbag at the moment.

He touched his heart, where he repeated over and over again that he liked Xu Wang very much.

I really, really like it.Now when he looks at Xu Wang, he thinks that everything is good, everything is charming, and everything makes his heart beat.

If a gun was aimed at Xu Wang, he felt that he could rush to take that gun without hesitation, and he would definitely protect Xu Wang.

But he still doesn't understand what love is.He is still not sure whether his feelings for Xu Wang have a shelf life, and he has no way of guessing the length of the shelf life.

In fact, many people don't look forward and backward like him when they fall in love, and think hard.

People enjoy the joy of love and are fascinated by the eyes of their lovers. They dance, laugh and love each other as if they were in a gorgeous banquet. Intoxicated.

As for Xiao Fu, he was still looking at the wall clock on the wall from time to time while he was advancing and retreating step by step.

He is afraid that when midnight comes, the pendulum clock strikes, the concert will stop abruptly, and the lovers will reject each other. They will take off their gloves and step into the night, leaving only their backs.

Xiao Fu thought, he didn't want to look at Xu Wang's back.He also couldn't imagine his indifference and face changing, it must be ugly.

However, love is such a thing that people often indulge in it unconsciously.Love swayed, swayed from the tip of the heart, and it couldn't be stopped.It is regrettable that the complex is broken, but it is also natural.

No love is destined to be perfect from the beginning.

The weather is getting colder, and the little girls who are most afraid of the cold are looking forward to the first snow.

When Xiao Fu came out of the gym, he couldn't help shivering.

I made an appointment with Xu Wang at six o'clock in the evening, and it's only one o'clock now.He got in the car, and for a moment he regretted not asking where Xu Wang was, otherwise he would still be able to visit the class now.

After tapping twice on the screen with his finger, he threw the phone on the co-pilot again.Forget it, boys shouldn't be so clingy when they're in love, he decided to go to the company's practice room to practice dancing.During this period of time, he was busy filming, so he hardly stayed in the practice room.

Just after sweating profusely in the gym, and then spreading hot sweat in the practice room, Xiao Fu felt that he was particularly energetic and fit.He leaned close to the mirror and lifted up his clothes to take a look. His abdominal muscles were still thin. With a click of his tongue, he started dancing again.

I don't know how many somersaults, Xiao Fu still adjusted his expression little by little in front of the mirror as before.

When they debuted as a group, they were known for dancing.The choreography at that time was extremely difficult, and carp straightening and backflips were commonplace.Everyone has to practice for a long time to reach a satisfactory level.

Xiao Fu is a bit talented in creation, but he is the slowest in dancing.Teammates can memorize the movements quickly, but he always has to practice for a long time.

So he is always the one who stays the latest in the practice room and the one who sweats the most.

In the past, he was tortured countless times, and the somersaults that sent him to the hospital several times were no longer difficult for him.

His practice is really useful.His expression was perfect.Even in various variety shows, the host often cue him to perform somersaults.

Back and forth amazed the audience.

No one turns somersaults so beautifully like him, and no one still has such a confident and determined smile when doing somersaults like him.

In the end, he, who was the weakest dancer, was mistaken for the dancer because of his outstanding somersaults.

Xiao Fu looked at himself in the mirror and told himself: He can do it.In dancing, he has defeated himself.Now, he loves movies, and he can get the same status as Xu Wang, he must be worthy of Xu Wang.

After practicing until five o'clock, Xiao Fu packed up his things, changed his clothes and prepared to meet Xu Wang.

Just after taking a shower, he received a call from his agent.

Xiao Fu fell into an ice cellar.As if he didn't believe it, he asked again: "Brother, what did you say?"

The agent sighed, and said, "I know you won't be able to accept it for a while, after all, it's the first time you've encountered such a thing. Xiao Fu, treat it with a normal mind. Brother. I know you are uncomfortable, but you have to accept it. Not to mention that he brought money into the production, and he is the male lead that the producer insists on, not to mention that he is really not bad."

Xiao Fu licked his dry lips, he was a little flustered and at a loss.

"Director Wei is a hot-tempered person. We don't have any friendship with him. He can use whoever he wants, and he hasn't signed a contract. I was too impatient at the time, when I thought of the big director's play, I responded in a panic."

There was no sound on the phone for a long time.

The manager asked: "Xiao Fu, Xiao Fu, are you listening?"

Xiao Fu reluctantly responded: "I understand, brother. Don't blame yourself."

The agent hurriedly comforted him: "It's okay. If you miss this time, it doesn't mean you have no chance. This time, Wei Chong owes us a favor. Besides, he prepared this movie in a hurry. Although the book is good, he didn't work hard to pay attention to it." Grinding, not necessarily how good the finished product will be. Don't worry too much about it, you are young, and there will be more opportunities in the future..."

His manager didn't just bring him an artist, and after talking about it for a long time now, Xiao Fu already knew that he was blaming himself.After he didn't know how to hang up the phone, Xiao Fu stared at the tip of his shoe.

I also thought that when the movie came out, Xu Wang would be handsome, and I would get an award for him to watch.

Suddenly realizing that it was almost six o'clock, he hurriedly turned on his phone again. Xu Wang sent him several WeChat messages, the last one said: I am on the street behind your company.

Xiao Fu replied quickly: I will come down right away.

He put on a mask and ran out.

As soon as he got into Xu Wang's car, he was kissed on the forehead.Xu Wang smiled nicely, and handed him another cup of coffee: "Is it cold?"

Xiao Fu shook his head, the aroma of the coffee dissipated, and he asked, "Did you go to buy coffee?"

Xu Wang raised his chin: "I bought it while you were waiting, there is a Starbucks opposite."

Xiao Fu was stunned, and took a small sip, it was his favorite latte.

Xu Wang started the car and asked him softly, "How about Japanese food for dinner?"

"Okay." Xiao Fu was still a little confused at the moment, and said again, "Brother, I'll sleep for a while, I was exhausted from dancing just now."

Xu Wang glanced at him and realized that something was wrong with him.He didn't say anything, and played soft classical music.

Xiao Fu was also a little sluggish during the meal, but Xu Wang kept talking to tease him, telling him some interesting things.

When he was almost finished eating, Xiao Fu stared at the table, reached out to hold Xu Wang's hand, and said, "I was kicked. Director Wei's play has changed."

Xu Wang was surprised and was about to say something when Xiao Fu spoke again.

"I don't think I missed the chance to become famous. I just feel that what I said before was to prove myself to you, but now I can't. I feel so uncomfortable."

Xu Wang's eyes sank little by little, he opened his palm and interlocked with Xiao Fu's fingers.

"But you have been proving yourself to me. Xiaosha, if a person has to choose an opportunity to prove himself, he may never be able to prove himself. The best opportunity to prove himself is always right now."

Xiao Fu nodded: "I know this too. But," he raised his head, his eyes were watery, "What I want to prove is acting, and I need a screen."

Xu Wang smiled: "It is not only the screen of a great director that is called a screen. Any movie, as long as you dig out that character, you can show your brilliance. Xiao Fu, I don't want you to demand perfection. I hope you learn to do your best. Doing my best is what I want to see."

Xiao Fu looked at him and asked, "If I make a bad movie, will the audience notice me? Will you appreciate me?"

Xu Wang looked at the leftovers on the table, and asked back: "The cups and plates are messed up in front of you, isn't it more delicious for people to relive the food?"

He said affirmatively: "If I watch a bad movie, I will forget all about the plot, but if there is an actor who is amazing and interprets the original mediocre characters to the extreme, I will not forget them for years."

Xiao Fu thought about it for a long time before he said sullenly: "You are right. But I am still not happy."

Xu Wang smiled and stroked his hair: "But for actors who can choose, choosing a script is also very important. Rejecting bad films is also a skill. Don't be too depressed, you can still receive good films. "

Xiao Fu looked at him for a long time, Xu Wang's eyes were gentle and full of strength.

There was no one else in the private room except them, Xiao Fu moved his butt a little bit, stuffed himself into Xu Wang's arms, put his arms around his waist, and whispered: "I was wrong about my brother. I was supposed to be on a date, but I messed up the atmosphere .”

Xu Wang was a little sad: "I really miss you."

Xiao Fu felt even more guilty.He did something bad again.

"Just kiss me." Xu Wang couldn't help laughing again, he was just pretending!

Xiao Fu kissed his ring finger.He glanced up at him, full of complacency: "Do you like it? Your signature move."

Xu Huang's eyes dimmed.Grabbing Xiao Fu's back with his right hand, he pulled him closer, and kissed him deeply.

It took several minutes for Xu Wang to let go of him, and said softly, "This will be my signature move from now on. Don't learn it wrong again."

Xiao Fu snorted lightly: "Don't learn! I want to go my own way!"

Xu Wang asked: "What way?"

Xiao Fu got up, took out the card from his wallet, and said to him: "I will take care of you. If you are handsome, I will go to pay the bill and show the temperament of a gold master."

Xu Wang couldn't help laughing.Reaching out and pinching the back of his neck, he said, "Let's go to the movies later."

Xiao Fu blushed, knowing the meaning of watching movies in male and female literature, and after a long time, he uttered a sentence to refuse or not: "I want to go to the movies even if I shoot movies all day long?"

Xu Wang looked into his eyes, full of tenderness: "I want to sit in the cinema and watch a movie with you."

"...Okay." The spineless Xiao Fu finally gave in.

The two went to a private cinema where they could order old movies.The viewing hall is comparable in size to an ordinary movie theater, but almost one viewing hall will not serve more than three people at the same time.

The two chose the movie "My Own Idaho". Xiao Fu held the bucket of popcorn, pretended that the theater was full of people, and walked straight to the last row.

Although his face was a little red, he understood.They are all men, so what is infrared light?

Walking all the way to the last row, he stopped and whispered to the back: "Do you want to sit inside or outside?"

No one paid attention to him for a long time.

Xiao Fu looked back in bewilderment, and found that Xu Wang was standing in the seventh row with the best viewing position, looking directly at him.

Xiao Fu's face suddenly burned hotly.

ah!Xiao Fu, your heart is so dirty!We agreed to look at the stars and the moon!Well said elegant!

Xiao Fu trotted over despondently, his ears were red.He couldn't help but glared at Xu Wang.

Xu Wang asked innocently: "What's the matter? Do you want to sit in the back? It's hard to see from there."

Xiao Fu yelled inwardly: Who the hell knew that you really came to watch a movie!

Xu Wang stroked his hair again, and said apologetically: "It's my fault, I'll accompany you back and sit in the back."

Xiao Fu said coldly, "No need."

He strode to the middle, sat down, and ate two popcorns angrily.

The lights in the auditorium went out at once, and the screen began to play.

Just as Xiao Fu swallowed the sweet popcorn, his chin was suddenly held, his head was turned away, and Xu Wang's lips immediately pressed against his.

Every breath is filled with the fragrance of Xu Wang's body, the citrus note is fresh and charming, and Xiao Fu is instantly swept away.

Between the breaths, it became hotter and hotter, and it seemed that the increase in body temperature also accelerated the volatilization of the perfume.I don't know when he sprayed it, but the tone has gradually picked up.

That's definitely an aggressive smell.It was cold and pungent, like a jug of strong wine drunk in a world of ice and snow, poured into the throat, as if a fire was lit, and the bones of the whole body began to burn.

Xiao Fu's waist went limp, he couldn't help but let out a "woo", Xu Wang's hand stretched out, and hugged him tightly.

Hiding under that raging fire is the ultimate tenderness.It is the embers that remain when the firewood is burned out.There lies the breath of grass and trees, and the memory of a tree is buried.

Green grass grows there, trees are tall and green, clouds float in the blue sky, and wild sparrows flutter in the forest wind.A butterfly with the most beautiful blue wings was kissing a shy little flower.

Xu Zhuang gently pecked Xiao Fu's lips carefully.

"I know what you're thinking." Xu Zhuan said softly, "I'm the same as you."

Xiao Fu buried his head in his arms, and said bitterly: "You stole my popcorn, I haven't had time to savor it."

Xu Huang smiled and fed him another one.

The film is beautiful, and the color palette is especially attractive, like a painting.Xiao Fu had never seen this movie before, so he quickly got into the plot and watched it seriously.

This movie is not long.Seeing Rui Fan bowing his head and chuckling while holding the yellow flower at the end, Xiao Fu felt as if a needle had been pricked in his heart.

The slanting light fell on Keanu's face, and the warm sunlight fell on his expensive and crisp black suit.His gaze seemed to be puzzled and regretful, and it fell far above the noisy scene over there.

Xiao Fu turned his head, wanting to say something to Xu Wang, but saw him looking at him, as if staring at him for a long time.

I forgot what I wanted to say.Xiao Fu looked at Xu Wang's eyes full of love, and his voice was a little dry: "Why don't you watch movies?"

"I want to see you. You are so beautiful." Xu Wang's tone was very sincere, and his words were extremely simple.

Xiao Fu's heart moved slightly, he leaned over and kissed the tip of Xu Wang's nose lightly.

Xu Wang said: "I watched this movie when I was in high school. Since then, I have always had a dream."

"What dream?"

"I dreamed that I was standing on a deep turquoise seashore. The scenery in front of me was like this movie, with high saturation like an oil painting. I knew there was a tall, white house on the left. The attic there was opened. A small window."

"I know there's a man standing behind that window. I long for him to look at me, but he never does, like I can only look at the sea. He'll never look at me, and I can never turn my head Go see him."

Xiao Fu looked into his eyes and said softly, "This dream sounds a bit sad."

Xu Wang clenched his hand and looked at the screen: "Sometimes dreams may be meaningless, maybe they are the inner projection of our views on certain things. That dream should be my feelings towards Rui Fan at that time. "

"I just gradually understand that the emotion that I want but can never get is really uncomfortable."

Xu Wang abandoned the signature action he had mentioned earlier, took Xiao Fu's hand again, and kissed his ring finger reverently.

"I love you. I hope to have you, my Xiaofu."

Xiao Fu's eyes were almost wet.He leaned his head on Xu Wang's shoulder and repeated over and over again: "I see."

Xu Wang hugged him, and the subtitles began to scroll on the screen. In the dark, his eyes glistened.

he will wait.Wait for Xiao Fu and promise to love him forever.He knew that day would come soon, and he felt immensely blessed.

After returning home, after taking a shower and sitting on the bed, Xiao Fu found that Xu Wang had sent him a large file.

He accepted it, but before reading it, he first asked Xu Wang: What is this?

Xu Wang replied: The script.I'm going to make a movie.

Xiao Fu was suddenly excited, opened the file on the computer, and typed on the mobile phone: You took the picture yourself?

-Um.I finished writing this script when I was in college, and it was only today that I suddenly wanted to shoot it.

Xiao Fu has already read a few pages in a hurry, and couldn't help but marvel: the photo must be beautiful!

Xu Wang replied to him: Can I invite you to shoot my movie?

Xiao Fu's heart trembled violently, and his hands trembled a little: let me act?

After a full 10 minutes, Xu Wang replied:

I wouldn't have made this movie without you.It was the only solace in my untold nightmares, the refuge I sought so desperately in my struggle and pain.It hurts to uncover the wound, but the wound craves air.

Xiao Fu, I only want you to act.