My BE is all over the world

Dazai Osamu's question came too suddenly, Kazama Yu didn't even think that he would ask this question.After all, Osamu Dazai had never thought about this before.

The system's warnings, together with the memories hidden in his heart, among those memories wrapped in countless secrets, there are tragic scenes of the death of countless agents.

He cannot be one of them.

Kazama Yu thought about it, but Dazai Osamu's gaze was too cold, so cold that it pierced into his heart, making his calm and accustomed emotions produce a feeling of fear.It's a bad feeling of being abandoned by someone you depend on.

Kazama Yu didn't speak, but Osamu Dazai waited for a long time.

Until the end, Osamu Dazai slowly withdrew his gaze, and let go of the palm that was tightly holding Kazama Yu's wrist, allowing Kazama Yu to be freed, and fled hastily from under his gaze.

Osamu Dazai shook his head casually, as if he wanted to shake something away.His smile didn't diminish, and his tone of voice never changed that gentleness: "I'm just testing you."

But your performance tells me...you really come to me for something, close to me.

Then all the things Kazama Yu does, all the actions, are all purposeful, and they are realized in order to obtain something.The little gestures, the outpourings of affection, all of them—all fake.

Osamu Dazai thought, within a day, everything he owned seemed to be just a joke.Friends cannot escape the fate of death, and people who care about come to him for pure calculation from the beginning.

In that warm night and lively scene, Sakunosuke Oda looked at the gentle smiles of the children, and he held the immature hands in his palms.

The image retained in the memory seems to be like transparent glass. From the face of Kazama Yu in the middle, mottled vertical and horizontal cracks spread out, and finally fell down piece by piece, completely shattered, and the fragments stabbed the ground. Dazai ruled himself.The self who reached out to pick up the pieces and put them back together.

Osamu Dazai got up and patted the corner of his clothes, with alienation and indifference, as polite as a stranger meeting for the first time.

He said, "Thanks for the kids thing."

He said: "Just leave the whereabouts of the children to me, and you don't need to worry too much."

He said: "Temporarily catch them for one night today, and I will take them away tomorrow. I won't cause you any trouble."

His words fell into Kazama Yu's ears word by word, bringing about the most unacceptable ending.

Kazama Yu looked at the figure of him turning his back and walking towards the room, and raised his hand to grab the corner of his clothes that was flying up, but in vain, the only thing he caught in his palm was the word miss.

Kazama Yu couldn't help shouting: "Dazai!"

Osamu Dazai followed the voice and looked back with a calm face. He didn't seem to realize something until he saw Kazama Yu's face. He closed his fist and tapped lightly on the other palm: "I almost forgot to say something."

He didn't even turn around, just raised his hand and waved it, without even looking at Kazama Yu: "Then let's do this. It's a pleasure to meet you, but unfortunately, I have no luck."

The extremely obvious words clearly divided the distance between the two.Osamu Dazai stood there in no hurry to leave, only one step away from Kazama Yu, but Kazama Yu felt that there was a world in between, and there was an irreparable crack.

Until the end, Kazama Yu glanced at Dazai Osamu's back, together with the system beside him, slowly lowered his gaze.

Kazama Yu said: "No, you can stay here for a few more days."

His words fell to the ground, Osamu Dazai, who heard everything clearly, clenched his palm tightly, and after a while, the corners of his mouth curled up with a self-deprecating smile.

He said no more, but went into the house and closed the door.

Kazama Yu was left here alone.

……

The suffocating atmosphere made Kazama Yu unbearable, and the chaotic and entangled thoughts made him not know what to say.He has never been exposed to this kind of scene, and the only emotion he has ever been exposed to is not so complicated.

He took a deep breath and ran out while dragging the system. The system was so shaken that it almost fell apart.

When the system just came to its senses and looked down, it was the ocean that filled its eyes, and then the oncoming waves engulfed them.

Kazama Yu flicked the tail that he transformed when he entered the sea. The wound on the leg hadn't healed, and what appeared on the tail was the lack of a small scale. The abrupt small piece looked very detrimental to the beauty of the mermaid.

[What are you doing, Little Feather. 】

The system asked him, Little Claw patted his head to wake him up.

Kazama Yu didn't pay attention to it, just blindly swung his painful tail and swam down hard, trying to dive to the deepest bottom and float in the deep sea to bury himself.

Maybe this is the way to escape everything?

He didn't dare to stay in the house anymore, he was afraid that the next day or at night, he would see Dazai Osamu's face that had abandoned the most genuine smile, and what he saw would be another hypocritical mask used to treat outsiders.

The system saw that Kazama Yu didn't stop for a long time, and the emotional and psychological monitoring system inside kept reporting bad test results.

[Little Feather, there are some things I still want to tell you. 】

The system shouted, and it fell into Kazama Yu's ears, and then he slowly stopped his thoughts of swimming deep down, letting the floating waves push him past.

--whats the matter?

【Regarding your current emotional state, I think you'd better not think about anything for the time being and take a good rest. 】

——Next time, turn off the emotional and psychological monitoring function you use on me.

Feng Jianyu squinted his eyes and made the answer, his cold eyes turned sideways, cold with a slight killing intent, but he was suppressed in an instant.

The system shook his head and chose to decline.

[The emotional and psychological monitoring function must be turned on. Thinking about the agent's body and mind is also one of the best precautions to avoid accidents.After all, traveling through the world will always bring various psychological problems, and the tasks will always be mixed with selfishness. 】

[I reported the general situation to my superiors, and they finally gave me a solution.If the sudden appearance this time leads to the failure of the mission, then the punishment will not fall on your head.Because this matter is not out of your own intention and selfishness, nor is it the normal development of things in the original world, but the interference of other agents. 】

As the system spoke, he spread his hands and sighed a little.

[Do you know what this solution means? 】

The system patted Kazama Yu on the head as if to appease him, but for Kazama Yu, this was not something worth distracting him from.

The system was puzzled by Kazama Yu's unrelenting mood, and gave the next words.

[This means that you can leave this world now. 】

The system's words rang out along with the sound of water flowing, and it fell into Kazama Yu's ears, causing him to instantly restrain his scattered thoughts and look over, his brows and eyes furrowed.

--What do you mean.

[I mean, we don't need to worry about the tasks of this world anymore.Your fear and fear are too high, if you want to leave, if you don't want to stay here, we can leave directly. 】

[So, what is your choice? 】

Kazama Yu fell silent.

Fear and fear are both for Osamu Dazai.But unlike other people's fear, a better word for his fear and dread is timidity.

Dazai Osamu's cold eyes were engraved in his mind and he thought about it repeatedly. The word "task" and the figure with his back to him are the best answers to Kazama Yu's existence.

Kazama Yu was afraid of seeing him, afraid of facing the answer of being abandoned, afraid of the disgust from Osamu Dazai's mouth and the parting ways that was told repeatedly once.

He was thinking about the proposal given by the system, and was silent for a long time. His half-open mouth was about to brew an answer, but it was sunk by the words someone had left in his ear.

"I hope you no longer live by following the orders and tasks of the system. You have to live and do things as a person with your own thoughts, emotions, sorrows and joys. Don't violate your heart, don't be afraid of gains and losses, and—— Easy to escape."

"Don't regret it until you escape the loss after leaving like me."

——…

Kazama Yu replied.

—I don't want to go.My heart tells me I don't want to go.

……

Osamu Dazai knew what Kazama Yu did last night. He watched the blue figure jumping headlong into the sea through the window through a layer of glass, and was swallowed by the waves, leaving only the beautiful blue tail. Turned around, and finally returned to calm.

When he got up this morning, he thought that Kazama Yu would come back and at least meet him before saying something, but he didn't.

Pushing open the door, all that could be seen was the emptiness of the room.

Saku Le, who followed beside him, tugged at the corner of Osamu Dazai's clothes gently, rubbed his eyes and asked in a low voice: "Brother Dazai, do you know where that big brother from yesterday went?"

Osamu Dazai was silent for a long time before he hugged the little girl in his arms.His movements were very proficient because he had hugged Kazama Yu before, and the little girl was very comfortable being hugged, so he didn't struggle too much.

Osamu Dazai didn't think about how to answer the little girl, and he was not ashamed to bully the little girl by saying "he doesn't want us anymore" to the little girl's innocent face and those eyes.

He just patted the little girl on the back, held another child with the other hand, and called the other children to sit and wait for him to make breakfast.

But he didn't expect that when he walked to the table and looked sideways, there was a table full of breakfast.There was no heat, Osamu Dazai stretched out his hand to stick it over, chose one and tried it lightly. The milk was not cold, but still had a little residual warmth.

Osamu Dazai immediately thought of who prepared the thing.

The child beside him tugged at the corner of Osamu Dazai's clothes: "Brother Dazai, is the breakfast brought by the big brother?"

Osamu Dazai raised his eyebrows, his gaze scanned the food on the table, and he sighed softly until he landed on his favorite crab meat bun.

He patted the child's head lightly, and replied: "Yes. He wants you all to eat well, stay healthy and not starve."

……

Not far away, the system that was floating in the air and saw all this through the window took a deep breath, and after successfully completing the observation task, it swung back to find Kazama Yu who was huddled downstairs.

—are they up?

Kazama Yu asked, and was relieved when he saw the system nodding his head.

Staggered the time to avoid meeting Dazai Osamu, the breakfast that Kazama Ha had brought over was always worried that it would be cold, but fortunately, Dazai Osamu and the others got up in time.

The system pasted it and rubbed Kazama Yu's face before opening his mouth slowly.

[If you want to leave, tell me, you can leave the world at any time. 】

He curled up in front of the unit door and was covered by the sun visor above to prevent people upstairs from discovering.Kazama Yu narrowed his eyes and looked at the rare rising sun today, before he made a firm and definite answer, which would not change.

——No, I won’t be leaving for now.

This is Kazama Yu's idea, it has never been bound by the system to do things for missions.