My BE is all over the world

The members of the Armed Detective Agency have a lot of curiosity about the existence of Osamu Dazai from the beginning to the end, and for the newly joined Atsushi Nakajima, his curiosity is the strongest.

Because Osamu Dazai is full of mysteries from head to toe.

Later, in occasional conversations and gatherings, I learned more strange things from other people's mouths.

Naomi Tanizaki patted Atsushi Nakajima on the shoulder and warned him carefully: "You have to remember, there are some things you can't do about Mr. Dazai."

Atsushi Nakajima was curious: "What can't be done... What are those things?"

Kunikida Doppo who was looking for information on the side listened casually and said: "Those are the taboos of that bastard Dazai that they summed up. Anyway, no matter whether it is a companion or an enemy, just don't touch it."

This made Atsushi Nakajima even more curious: "May I ask, what exactly is it?"

"It's very simple. Let me tell you."

……

The small worn-out doll hanging on the mobile phone has rough stitches.It seems that it has been quite a few years. The old doll has been well protected and has not been contaminated with dust. It can be vaguely seen that it is Dazai Osamu's doll.The small one was hung on Osamu Dazai's cell phone, and every time he took out the cell phone to make a call, it dangled on it.

Atsushi Nakajima knew that Osamu Dazai had changed many mobile phones, but only this most fragile doll was still on it.

The bracelet dangling slightly on the wrist, and the pendant dangling near the inside of the wrist, have beautiful blue crystals on them, but there seem to be some flaws, with cracked lines all over the place.

Knowing the answer told by others, Atsushi Nakajima couldn't help looking over at Osamu Dazai.The little doll hangs out of the pocket, and the beautiful bracelet pendant dangles with the pace of walking.

This time it was his and Dazai's mission.So he could follow behind Osamu Dazai, carefully sizing up the person in front of him, and watching everything around him.

Kunikida Doppo's words echoed in his ears.

"For that bandage wasting device, the suicidal maniac, unexpectedly he also has things that others can't touch that he cares about."

"For example, the rough doll hanging on the mobile phone, such as the blue crystal bracelet hanging on his wrist, are not allowed to be touched for him."

At that time, Atsushi Nakajima didn't understand what "not allowed to be touched" meant, so he couldn't help asking.The answer he got was Kunikida Doppo's action of cleaning up the files, and the involuntary seriousness on his face.

Kunikida Doppo pushed his glasses: "If you look closely at the crystal, you will find that there are many cracks on it. His bracelet was originally a necklace, but it was damaged by the captured object during a mission. The chains were snapped together."

"You're talking about the mission given to us by the military?" Yosano Akiko pondered, "No wonder when Dazai came back that time, everything was wrong."

"I shouldn't say it's wrong...it's even beyond ordinary horror." Tanizaki Junichiro shook his head.

Kunikida Doppo summed it up appropriately: "Anyway, the doll and the bracelet are his reverse scales. What happened to the person who destroyed his necklace back then...you don't want to know."

Nakajima Atsushi nodded cautiously, and when he was about to go out to find Osamu Dazai, Kunikida Doppo called him again.

"Your mission this time is to be with that guy, right?" Kunikida Doppo asked, and he gave a suggestion after getting a positive answer from Atsushi Nakajima, "I remember that your mission this time is to go to the beach, if If you see that guy jumping into the water and committing suicide, then don’t worry about him.”

"I can't die anyway."

……

Because it was not a very important or urgent task, Osamu Dazai strolled in the garden, looking like he was going out to play.

Atsushi Nakajima followed behind him, thinking about Kunikida Doppo's words, he didn't look at the road ahead, but what he encountered hit Dazai Osamu's chest.

Osamu Dazai turned around, put his hands in his pockets, lowered his head and looked at Atsushi Nakajima in front of him with a mocking smile: "Why, you are so anxious to throw yourself into your arms? But it's a pity, my arms are not exclusive."

Atsushi Nakajima covered his forehead and quickly denied Osamu Dazai's teasing.

Osamu Dazai smiled unabated, as if he knew what Atsushi Nakajima had been watching: "Don't think too much, I don't have a story about me."

Deceiving.

Atsushi Nakajima complained secretly in his heart, anyone may have no story, but Osamu Dazai cannot have a story.

But everyone has something they don't want to tell others, Nakajima Atsushi still nodded without asking further.

It was dusk when the mission was completed, and they were on their way back to the detective agency.The light yellow soft light fell down along the sun that was about to set, spreading over the sea, quiet and peaceful.

The waves hit shallowly and hit the surface of the sea, leaving a wet patch before slowly receding.

Atsushi Nakajima saw Osamu Dazai squatting down in front of him, and when he got up, he already had a few beautiful round pearls in his hand.

Osamu Dazai waved his hand and said "thank you" to the sea.

Facing Atsushi Uemakajima's curious gaze, Osamu Dazai explained: "This sea area dislikes me for always jumping in and polluting the sea water, so I sent this to get rid of me. It just so happens that the children at home like these pearls quite a bit, and I also like them." agreed to the deal."

Atsushi Nakajima: ...

Although what you said seems to be the truth, I don't want to believe it at all.

Seeing Atsushi Nakajima's obvious disbelief, Osamu Dazai hesitated, feeling a little helpless: "I'm telling the truth this time."

Is Osamu Dazai so serious?

Atsushi Nakajima remembered Kunikida Doppo's last instructions about Osamu Dazai's entry into the water, and couldn't help asking: "Then...Mr. Dazai, why do you always jump into this sea?"

"There are many sea areas, but you seem to be particularly fond of this one. Moreover, there are also many ways to find relief. You seem to like diving into the water the most."

Listening to his words, Osamu Dazai fixed his eyes on the huge rock not far away, until he reached there, he patted the rock lightly, and answered the irrelevant question: "This rock used to be my favorite place."

Atsushi Nakajima looked over.

"Because I always watch here, hoping to wait for another ocean firework." Dazai Osamu said, the sea breeze blowing past lifted his hair, bringing unspeakable sadness, "but then I realized , I may not be able to wait."

"Every time I enter the water, it is never to seek liberation. If I want to say it, the word "sacrifice for love" is better."

"Huh?" Atsushi Nakajima asked, "Mr. Dazai can die in love alone?"

Osamu Dazai shook his head: "Of course not. I've never been alone, and the people I like are always by my side."

His spirit is with me.

He is always there for me.

……

Osamu Dazai did not choose to live in the dormitory of the detective agency because there were many children in his family.Instead, he chose to rent a house outside.

The house he was interested in and wanted to rent was the house where Kazama Yu brought his children back then, but after inquiring, he found out that the large amount of treasure Kazama Yu brought had already bought this house in advance. And fill in the name of Osamu Dazai.

Since Kazama Yu's disappearance, Osamu Dazai has lived here again. He took the group of children alone, washed their whites, joined the Armed Detective Agency, and lived as Oda Sakunosuke hoped.

But there is no longer the company of the mermaid.

Osamu Dazai returned home, picked up the little pearls in his arms and distributed them to each of the children, and he put the most beautiful one in the box in the room himself.There are many beautiful little things in the box, and they are accumulated little by little.

This is a gift left to Kazama Ha, a consensus reached between Kaikai and Osamu Dazai.

They all knew and believed that Kazama Yu was not dead.

Holding the small and beautiful box in his arms, Osamu Dazai sat by the window, looked at the little lights downstairs, and looked at the moonlight falling on the ocean, as if he remembered running out at night and trying to escape The little mermaid that got into the sea.

The same scene, different people, and mood.

Osamu Dazai really has no story.

The ones he had were just old dreams of years.In the dream, it was the call of an old friend, and the countless splendid fireworks that the mermaid had shown him.

After waking up from the dream, he had nothing.He did think about dying, but what he thought of was Kazama Yu's words, "I remember the way home".

So Osamu Dazai gritted his teeth and persisted.

He couldn't let Kazama Yu who came back not see him.He couldn't let Kazama Yu lose his home.

Others always say that time can wash away many things, unforgettable love and hate, those past years, but for Osamu Dazai, time has never washed away anything.

Kazama Yu has always lived in his memory, and Oda Sakunosuke has never left.

Only Osamu Dazai is the one left behind by time.

He will go to pay homage to Oda Sakunosuke, go back to the beach to visit Kazama Hae who does not exist, and he will take the children to live well.

He has never revealed those things about love and hate, but the repression in his heart has never stopped.

Occasionally, I met someone from Port Mafia, who felt that he had changed a lot.It seems that compared to before... a lot of things are more indifferent.

But only Osamu Dazai knows that he has never changed.

His inner being is still infested by darkness, and everything is not indifferent, nor does he care about it.Instead, it was crushed in the heart, crumbling and rotten, just waiting for the moment of complete eruption.

will come.

Osamu Dazai recalled Atsushi Nakajima's question that he didn't answer, and just glanced lightly at the ocean outside the window, recalling that when he fell into the deep sea, he was held up by someone to welcome the light of dawn.

Kazama Yu's warm embrace, Kazama Yu's soft breath, everything about Kazama Yu is in the sea.including himself.

From then on he could never die in the ocean again.Because he is the "Son of the Sea God", no matter how many times he dies, he will be wrapped up in the sea and sent up, just like when Kazama Yu was still there.

You are the rare courage of cowards, the existence that wants to seize.

Every time I drown in the water, it is to kiss you.