What happened in the summer of 2020

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Before going to bed at night, I received a certain voice.

Click it, it is a simple sentence: Good night Shinan, I really want to be by your side now.

I hugged the quilt from his house and thought, I have a boyfriend now?

Although he talked about love, I got my first kiss, and I got to know his two exes, but is this considered love?

It's not the same as I imagined.

Maybe I'm an idealistic person.

I have read too many touching love novels, thinking that when love comes, every cell must be able to clearly feel it.

Instead of being like now, I have doubts in my heart every step of the way.

A certain person must be realism.

He doesn't live in a novel, he understands and adapts to the real world.

He has been through a lot of battles and bravely moved forward.

Will he not get hurt, or is he so eager for love?

I fantasize about love.

He practices love.

Can we last long?

Will I also leave him for marriage one day?

Thinking of the mysterious man on the small software, and thinking of what he said about marriage, I feel blood rushing to my head. Is it because I really don’t want to get married, or is it because I hide my illness from the doctor?

Obviously just started falling in love.

All I think about is responsibility.

I'm really a person who doesn't know how to be happy.

the next day.

After a night of sleep, the chaotic doubts temporarily settled down.

When I woke up in the morning, I felt a little different from before.I opened my eyes in the morning light and realized that this was my first morning not being single anymore.

Opened WeChat, and received a long message from someone late last night.

When I read those words, it was his voice that sounded in my head.

He said that if there is anything I can't figure out, he is willing to answer without reservation at any time.

But I don't want to ask anything for the time being, what I can clearly feel is the light excitement after having a new identity for the first time.

I pushed open the balcony door.

Take a sharp breath of cool air.

Looking at the leftover and independent nail households.Today, the household slept in late, and the clothes and bed sheets that could never be washed had not been dried on the clothesline.

The weather is fine. Shall I wash the sheets?

well?I suddenly discovered a problem - I covered a certain family's quilt yesterday, but I didn't even have that kind of campus dream.

That's a good sign, isn't it?

It may mean that I have let go of the sea subconsciously.

In order to bid farewell to the old dream more thoroughly, I washed the quilt thoroughly.

Take it to the roof of the apartment building to dry.

Looking down from the roof, under the big sun, everything is dry.

There is less greenery in my area, unlike a certain community that has so much greenery.There are only clumps of wild grass growing wildly in the ruins.I always look at them from a distance, and I think I should also go and have a look.

I happened to be going for a run, so I stopped by the ruins.

Only then did I discover that there are actually many traces of life in the ruins.

On several pieces of concrete floor are painted squares for children to play with.

On a lonely telephone pole, there are still newly posted advertisements. Who would come here to read the advertisements?

Hey!

A voice calls me.

I looked up, and it was my neighbor standing on the balcony.

He said: What are you doing there?

I said: social practice.

He said: Go for a run?

I said: I am planning to go.

So, when he came down, we went for a run in the park.

He said: You look good.

Yeah?I want to say without shame that it was because of a peach blossom.I want to tell him about my progress with a certain one.However, it's just a thought.

I was sweating profusely from running.

Neighbors said: Running outside is too tiring, I miss the air conditioner and treadmill.

I said: Don't you have a gym?

He said: It is under renovation, it will be ready soon, and the swimming pool will be ready for use.

I said: I can't swim, only dog ​​planing.

He said: Let me teach you, it is very cost-effective to apply for an annual card now.

Annual card, I said: I may not be able to live here for that long.

He said: why?

I kept quiet, thinking that there was only so much I could reveal.

As a result, the neighbor who seemed not so thoughtful actually guessed right. He said: Are you going to move in with that tall colleague?

I said: Why did you suddenly think of him?

He said: Didn't he ask you to help paint the wall?I think he has the idea to live with you.

oh?It turns out that normal people think so.I used to think that painting walls was simply painting walls.

In the evening, a certain person sent a WeChat message saying that he had arrived in a city in Jiangsu that is famous for eating ducks.

I said: I don't like duck, it's too greasy.

He said: You are implicating me again.

I said: What is the connotation?

He said: Because I am as handsome as a duck.Comes with a Shiba Inu expression with a little yellow duck on its head.

Hmph, stinky.

I never thought that one day, the person I want to fall in love with will be such a narcissistic guy.

I have been educated to be modest since I was a child, and my parents are also extremely low-key and don’t like to make noise. If I let them know that I have made a boyfriend like a certain one, they will probably——

Uh, I suddenly felt that they might like a certain one, because they educated me to be a nerd who can't eat, sleep and talk, and at the same time envied the neighbor's son who is lively and active.

Do people have different opinions?

But when I think back, when I first joined the company and learned of a certain person like this, I really felt for a long time that he had a good skin and an unpleasant personality.How did things develop into what they are today?

It seems that from the day of the mid-year meeting, he began to intentionally narrow the distance between me and him and create opportunities for us to get along.

What did he do before?

I think since I am still in the aftermath of his two ex-boyfriends, it is not too much for me to ask him what he thought of me back then, or am I always suspicious?After all, in my superficial cognition, I always feel that love after a long time is not as advanced as love at first sight.

I sent him a WeChat message and asked him: How did you feel about me when I first joined the company?

He immediately responded with a terrified Shiba sticking his leg into the Mouth of Truth.

This guy, if you want to ask anything, just ask!

Hmph, I said: I didn't like you then either.

He said: I didn't say I didn't like you.At that time, I was still in a stable relationship. If I admit that I like you, you will definitely feel that I am half-hearted. If I say that I have no feelings for you, you will also be unhappy. I am too difficult.

Emmm... It seems to be such a truth.

hateful!If I quarrel in the future, I will definitely not be able to quarrel with him, he is so reasonable!

He sent a rain-soaked emoji and said: You really didn't like me at first?

I……

At first, I thought he was a bit rude, and he spoke without consideration for other people's feelings. I also felt that he was arrogant and lacked social beatings.Did I have lemon essence on my body at that time——

and many more!

Just when I started to blame myself, I remembered something!

A certain said that when he was on a blind date, he would deliberately show a naughty side in order to dispel other people's goodwill towards him.

Could it be that he used this trick on me back then?

He has been deliberately distanced from me from the beginning?

Why?Could it be that the first time I made eye contact with him, I gave away the single Wangji's attributes?

He is too narcissistic!

My attributes are not so easy for people to see clearly!