What happened in the summer of 2020

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the next day.

Woke up by the phone's alarm.

I looked at the alarm clock, it was eight o'clock, and there was an item: change the avatar.

oh!When I remembered, I quickly changed my WeChat avatar back.

One of the beds next to me actually got up earlier than me.

I thought he was going to be depressed today.

As a result, he came out of the bathroom refreshed.

This unscientific!

He said: You look a little haggard.

I?

I glanced at the mirror and couldn't help but think of what happened in front of the mirror last night.

I said: are you okay?Don't be brave.

He rubbed his back and said: It hurts a bit, but it's okay, better than the first time.

While brushing my teeth, I fell into deep thought.

Did I really succeed that time before?

O my memory!

I made an appointment with a client in the morning, and I went out after a hasty breakfast with a certain one.

We have to admire a certain recovery ability.

The broken emotions of last night have completely disappeared, as if it was just a bitter trick.

Even the aunt of the big pancake egg, I am afraid that today I will not recognize a certain one as the big and tall one who was depressed last night.

And when I think about last night, I still have lingering fears. If the situation was not forced, I might not be able to be so stubborn.

But Cang Hai sent me another message, although it was just a formatted thank you for attending the wedding.

I don't know if a certain one has received it.

Anyway, when he was talking about business with clients, he didn't show the slightest bit of disturbance, and even behaved more gracefully than usual, which was simply promoting the company's image.

Even if the customer couldn't answer our quotation for a while because of the budget, he didn't show any discouragement on his face. Instead, he generously gave the customer a long-term trial plan.

At noon, I had a light meal in the customer cafeteria.

There are two spicy dishes, I don't think he touched a single chopstick.

When the client saw that he was eating less, he said that he was losing fat recently.

Straight male clients in Tianjin feel that weight loss is still far away from them.

A certain person chatted with them about fitness, but it didn't make people feel gay at all.

I think it may be because he speaks a little faster and looks confident.

In the afternoon, I visited another client.

The kind of contact in the early stage.

No entertainment was arranged for the evening.

On the car back to the hotel, a certain person said that he was a little tired and wanted to watch TV in the evening, so let's have dinner in the hotel.

I'm also a little tired.

It was drizzling again, and the temperature dropped slightly.

A certain one knew what was good or bad, pulled out a long sleeve and put it on.

We sat in the air-conditioned restaurant of the hotel and ordered hot noodle soup.

Raindrops fell on the restaurant window, and the scenery outside the window happened to be the university campus.

I received another message from Cang Hai: Are you free tonight?Didn't say a few words yesterday.

I replied to him: You just finished your wedding, so spend time with your sister-in-law. I'm already having dinner.

I found that I really couldn't hold my breath.

After last night, it is difficult for me to treat Cang Hai like I used to.

Of course it wasn't hostility, nor was it a grudge, it just felt a little complicated.

If he encounters an economic crisis at this time, I will still do my part, but if I have to sit down and chat face to face, I may not be able to handle such a relationship for a while.

One said: What's wrong with you?

I didn't know whether I should tell him or not, but when I hesitated, I actually showed my feet.

I have to confess.

A certain person said: If you want to see him, I don't mind. Didn't you take it easy last night?

Uh, I said: I was forced out last night, and now I don't know how to face him.

One said: He is still your good friend.Since you didn't give up your friendship with him because of your crush on him, there's no need to give up because of me.

In fact, I said: I once gave up on my own initiative because I fell in love with him secretly, but time resolved it.

One said: Since they have passed the test of time, they are even more worth cherishing, and there is no telling when we will meet again next time.

I stared at a certain person, trying to find a trace of his eccentricity.

But on his face, there was only the satisfied tiredness after eating the hot noodle soup.

To be on the safe side, I said: I'm still missing.

He put his arm on my shoulder and said: Then let's go back to the room and watch TV.

Not long after, Cang Hai sent another request for voice chat.

I thought he probably really wanted to talk to me, so I picked it up.

Turn down the volume of the TV.

After thinking about it, I went outside the room and found a chair at the end of the corridor to sit down.

First we chatted about last night's wedding.

The tone is a little cautious.

They knew each other well that they both had other topics they wanted to ask.

I watched the drizzle fluttering outside the window.

I said: Do you remember one time in the library, I forgot to bring my umbrella, and I happened to meet you at the door.

He said: I remember, it seemed that you were alienating me at that time, but I was still very happy to meet you.

I said: Did you realize that I was alienating you then?

He said: Of course.

Thinking about it now, I was very naive at the time.

I still remember that day I wore a green short-sleeved T-shirt and walked in the rain with him under an umbrella.

I finally asked the question I've thought about so many times.

I said: Then do you know the reason why I alienate you?

He smiled and said: I probably guessed that it was because I have established a relationship with that (his girlfriend)?

I said: Don't you find it strange?

He said: Brothers will also be jealous, this is normal, feelings are generally exclusive.

He turned out to be this way of thinking.

It does not stand at the level of either straight or curved.

Sure enough, the sea is still higher than me.

It seems that the trust in him was not blind, no matter how embarrassing the question, he can always give a safe answer.

I still have some doubts. If I don't ask this time, I may not have another chance in the future.

I said: So you really like boys?

He was silent for a few seconds, perhaps speculating about my relationship with a certain person.

But I think he should have seen it through.

He didn't answer directly, but said: I'm actually too rational, but I can't like someone wholeheartedly.I thought you just thought I was nice for a while, and after a while you would have new friends or even girlfriends.I'm actually not very good at dealing with emotions.

is that so?I said: I always thought you were very reasonable.

He said: Those are two different things. I just had more chances to take care of people and exercise since I was a child, and it seems to be precocious.In fact, deep in my heart, I also long to be taken care of, and I will have a good impression of mature men.Do you remember how I like to watch old movies?Actors in old movies tend to be mature and reliable types.

It turned out to be the case.

I said: I always thought I knew you well.

He said: Of course you know me, you just don't know this side of me, I hid it on purpose.The only ones who know about this now are you, a certain one, and my wife.

Oh, I say: it's weird to have the three of us juxtaposed.

He said: You are all important people in different stages of my life, but all because of my injuries.

I said: I'm fine, and I don't blame you, but why did you leave a certain place?

He said: I only have so much time with him.I decided to indulge for a few years before I turned 30, so I impulsively went to Shanghai to live with him.But after that, I have to return to real life.As I told him from the beginning, I only give myself so much time.

I said: I don't understand you a little bit.

He said: Hearing you say that, I am also a little uncomfortable.

I said: No matter how rational you are, your emotions will not be so easy to control, right?

He said: Actually, I was playing tricks on him.About time, I only mentioned it when I first started with him.Then when the time limit came, I left a message and left without giving him any chance to react.

this?I was silent.

It might not be a breakup, it's a widow.

Cang Hai said: I know, it's despicable to do so, as if deliberately trying to make him want more.

I said: Have you not contacted me again?

Cang Hai said: He came to Tianjin once to look for me, but I said nothing, and he never contacted me again, he is still very proud.

I said: But he was having a hard time attending your wedding last night.

Cang Hai said: I don't know what I did last night. I knew that I would never see each other again, but I hoped that he would hate me a little more. It's probably naive.Please say sorry to him for me.

The call was silent for a few seconds.

I can hear the sound of the sea getting heavier.

He said: I remember when I was in Shanghai, I was threatened once when I took a case, and he even went to learn Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. I was very moved.Although he is sometimes slippery, he actually has his own sense of propriety, and he will be very careful when he should be careful.During that time with him, I really relaxed and experienced what I always wanted.However, what I owe him will never be repaid.