ashamed

"Mr. Si, I think the proprietress sounds a little wrong."

"At least it sounds better than the charter woman."

"...The theory is enough to miss the point."

"Okay, go and help me get some clothes, good boy."

Ever since he knew that Tong Youming had no resistance to this touching title and even obeyed his words, Si Jun called him like this from time to time to look at his embarrassment that he couldn't hide.Although there are some playful elements in it, the sweetness contained in it still grows like spring grass.

Tong Youming sighed resignedly outside the bathroom, ran to Si Jun's closet in the master bedroom to find clean clothes, and when he held the other's underwear in his arms, he easily smelled the smell that often covered Si Jun's body. smell.He walked out and then stopped, and gently sniffed close to his nose.

Light soap locust and softener, and woody perfume in the corner of the cabinet.He didn't notice his over-focus at all, he seemed to discover for the first time that a person's smell can have such obsessive content, and falling asleep surrounded by this smell every day seems to have become a habit, he thought, maybe one day I get this smell on me too?

—Odors that belonged to another person.

He finally realized how ambiguous such thoughts were, and almost forgot what he was going to do just now, but it was still too late, and as soon as he turned around, he faced the sighing man who was standing at the door with only a towel around his body.

"What do I think you are doing..."

A burst of embarrassing shame immediately burned Tong Youming's face, "Yes, yes, sorry, you are about to catch a cold after putting on your clothes."

He handed the clothes up, but Si Jun's outstretched hands passed through his waist, followed the movement, took two steps back and fell on the bed.

At this time, Si Jun's body was covered with hot and moist water vapor after bathing, as if the pheromones had become more intense after being fumigated, and the kiss was filled with tenderness enough to overwhelm people, and the strong vibration from the atrium almost made him feel weightless. Illusion, he grasped the sheet under his body tightly with his fingers, when Si Jun's hand pushed his wet clothes above his chest, leaving red hickey marks on his light-colored skin, he clearly felt that the other party was pressing against him. The temperature and contours of the objects between the legs are very clear through the thin pants; and his intentional or unintentional waist rubbing during the kiss made Tong Youming scream "ah", and his face was so red that he wanted to pinch When the water came out, he stuttered.

"Si...Mr. Si, I...no..."

It is impossible for him to be ignorant of this, and there is no need to pretend to be stupid, but the moment the hint of sex hit his mind, he was stunned. Although he had some vague concepts, and he did not lack the courage to dedicate himself to the other party, he still didn't understand it. The specific way men do it, and it's not something that can be solved with lust and whim alone, he's not ready for it.

Si Jun seemed to read his thoughts through the air, "Are you afraid?"

He wanted to deny it, but finally nodded frankly. "I'm sorry..." The man's fingertips lightly pressed his eyelids, and he hurriedly added, "How about next time."

"Okay." Si Jun stroked his back reassuringly, "I'll wait."

In fact, after a long, long time, when they were able to tell this embarrassing but happy moment as a joke, they would all recite the line from the old movie: "You want to sleep with her, and she also wants to sleep with you. Knowing that someday you're going to have sex, but not knowing when you're going to have sex, that's the best time."

To say that the older a person is, the more he will reveal the paranoia and stubbornness that belong to a child. Because of aging and loneliness, the instinctive desire to depend on him is called an old child.

Comrade Si Jun is really a 51-year-old bear child in his bones, and the few potential childishness is all spread out to Tong Youming alone, and he has a "past and present life" for Tong Youming in his heart. Double feelings, the other party is too good-tempered and used to it without a bottom line all day long, it's also thanks to him that he can make a small temper with a shy old face.

"look."

Tong Youming sat on the sofa and folded his legs, patiently persuading the person behind him with gentle words: "Although I'm close, I'm usually too busy, and I haven't been home for almost half a year. I have given an ultimatum, no matter what the reason is, I have to go back..."

"..."

"Okay, don't do this, I just cut my nails..."

Si Jun sat cross-legged on the back of the sofa, holding Tong Youming in his arms, like a tall and big rogue koala, trying his best to keep his kind breeder back, "It's okay to wait two days later for the weekend. I send you."

His slender eyebrows furrowed and then released, he couldn't laugh or cry but didn't mean to blame him, "You want to go to my house?"

Si Jun didn't speak, and rubbed his slightly stubbled chin against Tong Youming's fair neck back and forth.

It really wasn't an experience worth remembering.

Tong Youming's parents are a veritable pair of high-spirited couples. From their behavior to their preferences, they are noble and refined. Their high-spiritedness is nothing more than a lack of human affection. This can be seen from the almost harsh upbringing and meek compromise of their child Tong Youming. One or two things can be reflected in his personality: he grew up under such a high-pressure discipline. Although he has ideas and opinions, it is difficult not to make concessions in some major decisions about himself in consideration of family affection.Just like what happened to Si Jun.

In their "last life", their relationship was far from what it is now. Si Jun was a bastard. When he couldn't stop Tong Youming from going on a blind date according to his family's wishes, he was forced to do the most stupid but also the most self-destructive The only way to fight back was to pull Tong Youming and force him to come out in front of all his family's relatives and friends.So in the eyes of Tong Youming's parents, he is not his son's lover at all, but just a nagging rascal.

For Si Jun at that time, this was just a way for male animals to declare possession, and revenge for this pair of Kochi couples who did not take him seriously. You must know how a mere coming out of the closet could give him a life. Because of his status, no one would point fingers at him; but Tong Youming was different, his mother was outraged and had a heart attack on the spot, his father was furious and wanted to sever ties with him, and some relatives with extreme ideas poked him in the back. He has a backbone, and for a while he didn't want to associate with Tong's family at all, and he never forgot to warn his children not to go astray, "Like your cousin/cousin, hang out with dubious people, and become a bitch." Disgusting gay."

This became the direct trigger for Tong Youming to find someone to marry by mistake.The last bit of love and nostalgia he had for this man had been destroyed. He just wanted to find a quiet corner in this world without Si Jun, and spend the rest of his life in a languid and mediocre life. He just begged him to let him go. , even if there is nothing.

— how I made him sad.

Si Jun hugged the person in his arms tighter.

"I'll listen to you."

"Ah."

Tong Youming's answer was more straightforward than he imagined, "It happens to be my birthday, let's go together."

His smile fell into Si Jun's eyes impartially, the corners of his eyes were beautifully curved, revealing some white teeth, he was carefree, and he didn't look as beautiful as any wind and rain.