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At noon, Tong Youming took a nap on the sofa in Si Jun's office. Si Jun lent him his leg as a pillow, and found a suitable position on the backrest for his head to rest on, closing his eyes and resting his mind.

The blackout curtains were drawn in the office. Amidst the faint sound of the air-conditioning fan blades slowly opening and closing, Si Jun became drowsy. The palm of his left hand was opened to cover Tong Youming's eyes. He could feel the trembling of his eyelashes in his sleep. ;He fell asleep.Dimly felt that he had a dream with a not very clear picture, as if through frosted glass, the content was straightforward, without any surprises or surprises, but the moment of waking up was a little tight, this feeling he had just " "Come back to life" often appeared during that time, he was always afraid that he would wake up and lie on the road full of smelly asphalt, haggard, and his life would not be long.

He suddenly opened his eyes, and the excess air was squeezed into his lungs. He held him down with both hands, and used gentle and calming force. The movements were so skillful that they seemed to have been repeated hundreds of times; he regained consciousness, He knew who it was from the beginning to the end, but as if feeling it for the first time in his life, he let the hand rest on his chest, embedded in the sense of touch and even the memory of the whole body together with the heartbeat.

He opened his eyes.

"it's me."

The person he wanted to see was looking at him, and no one blinked, afraid that if he missed a second, it would be forever.

Just two days after that it was New Years Eve.

Tong Youming hasn’t celebrated the New Year at someone else’s house yet. In fact, compared with his childhood, the New Year’s day is not as old as it was when he was a child. For those who have been away for a whole year, the meaning is only family reunion. He is very grateful Now that there is a second family willing to take him in, Si Jun is also very happy-he hasn't celebrated the New Year with his father for many years.

It's just a bit delusional.

On New Year's Eve, they went to the square in the city center to participate in the countdown. After ten o'clock in the evening, people gathered there one after another. The weather was sunny and cold. Tong Youming wore a hooded coat, and a few strands of hair protruded from the brim of the hat. He was concentrating on wrapping a long scarf around Si Jun, no matter how many times he wrapped it, it seemed that there was an extra length, which made him a little distressed when he was serious.Si Jun looked at his straight nose and writhing lips, and finally untied the scarf and wrapped it around his neck. The two stood with their chests against their backs, and looked up to see the bright and clear faces in the night sky. stars.

"Hey, ready to count down."

The commotion crowd calmed down following the sound, and there were occasional whispers from the corners. Everyone's eyes followed the clock on the central building of the square, watching the pointer step by step into the next year, counting silently. Bearing the joys and sorrows in everyone's heart, carrying everything but never staying for anyone.

Si Jun felt that time favored him, because he had a chance to live again, but time left him in shackles, so that he could only walk forward step by step with no regrets in his heart.

On the other side, under Si Jun's persuasion, Tong Youming sent a text message to her mother alone, telling her that she is safe now and there is no need to worry. It was just to avoid conflicts, and she wanted to wait for her father to calm down before going home. time.

In fact, he also knew in his heart that the so-called "calmness" had very little chance of bringing good results, and no one could easily give in to the correctness of each other's insistence, but this time, he was not willing to compromise.

He had never tried to win anything for himself in the first half of his smooth sailing life, which was maintained by obedience and compromise.Because I am young and immature, because I want to fulfill my parents' wishes, because I want more attention, recognition and love.

But now he doesn't want it so much, and for the first time he feels like a man, defending his love, even though this method is not only passive but also lacks the courage and means he should have, anyway, he will not give up first.

On the contrary, friends who knew the situation around him gave him a lot of comfort, such as Tu Ge who was almost involved.On the third day of the Lunar New Year, he, Si Jun, Tu Ge, and Lei Xiao went out for afternoon tea together. When he learned that his assistant had really fulfilled his mission and took down the senior sister, Si Jun first tried his best to mock her. The capable man laughed wildly at the two of them, then held Lei Xiao's hand tightly and said that he would definitely give him a five-figure red envelope when he got married.

"How should I put it?" He was very moved, "The feeling of 'this marriage can be scaled up' is very wonderful."

Lei Xiao laughed like he was crying, "Yeah, I fainted from injections when I was a child, but since I found a nurse, my waist is not sore and my legs don't hurt anymore. I'm cured of everything."

Tu Ge was holding his arm with one hand, ready to set his bones at any time, "Are you not satisfied?"

"……No."

When asked about the situation on Tong Youming's side, Tu Ge's side completely relied on the sixth sense of women, showing an expression of "seeing through everything", "Hehe, I think you plotted against my junior brother when you were in the hospital .”

Si Jun coughed.

More than that?He looked out of the window and thought to himself, I have drawn it in my previous life, who could have done it earlier than me.

"But this matter at home," she said, "the worst thing is that you cut off the relationship from now on. You have to be mentally prepared for this. On top of this worst result, use all the methods you can try to negotiate with them. You don't have to Too much self-blame, this can be regarded as doing the best of human affairs, and the rest depends on whether they can figure it out."

Tong Youming listened to her words in his heart.

Later, Si Jun went to work one day earlier and went to the company to take care of some things temporarily. He climbed the mountain with Mr. Si all morning at home, played a few games of chess in the afternoon, went out for a walk in the evening, and met old friends on the street. Pulling the shy boy like a white rabbit, he introduced it confidently, "This is my godson!"

On the last day of the holiday, he and Si Jun went to the cinema and watched a Lunar New Year comedy with a room full of bright red, green and happy audience.

Even if this year is over.

On the first day of work, many people were still trapped in the post-year syndrome, and a group of people fell asleep in the regular meeting in the morning. Tong Youming sat next to Tu Ge, while writing the operation report on the draft paper into the record book While watching her under the table tapping her fingernails on the phone screen and chatting with Lei Xiao, half of the meeting was interrupted by someone coming in from outside.

"The general surgery is back to his own department, he has something to say."

Now most of the people in the room woke up, Tong Youming exchanged the same puzzled look with Tu Ge before pulling out the chair to go out, and returned to the general surgery office with a few colleagues. Standing in front of the table, holding a stack of papers of various colors in his hand, he turned them into a mess, and then rolled them up again.

"Immediately," he looked at his watch, "a patient is going to be sent here, it's that one from the prison on parole."

"Bronchiectasis and repeated hemoptysis, the laboratory and the blood bank are in place, hurry up."

When Tong Youming was picking up the disinfected gloves in the locker room, he heard two colleagues who were changing clothes behind him, and when he mentioned the name of that person, he spoke in a secretive tone, with a little suppressed curiosity.

"I heard that he is a hugely corrupt official with a net worth of tens of millions... surname, surname Xing, the one who was arrested last year."

"Is it called Xing Fei?"

He thought the name was very familiar, but for a moment he couldn't remember where he had heard it.