ashamed

Chu Qing let go of one of the hands holding the steering wheel, grabbed Si Jun's shoulder and shook him awake, "You idiot! Don't sleep!"

The man suddenly opened his closed eyes, and muttered as if disturbed, "Huh?...No, I didn't sleep..."

His side face reflected on the car window was a little pale, compared to half of his body, which was as red as soaked in blood, his pants were soaked, the fingers of his left hand were still twitching slightly, and the edge of the cut wound was turned outwards. The blood on his hand covering the wound has dried up, and the blood flow has slowed down. He will feel cold now, getting colder and colder.

——Maybe the car was driving too fast, there was always a light flashing in front of his eyes, sometimes blazing and sometimes dim, unable to connect into a complete bridge.He saw the one-inch photo of Tong Youming clipped in the hospital work card, saw his father's family portrait on the bedside, saw the white shirt that was ironed every morning, saw Tong Youming slightly raised his eyes to meet his, Seeing the long alley covered with snow, he carried him in the wind and snow, as if he was going to walk for a lifetime.

He opened his mouth, but made no sound.

"Si Jun," Chu Qing turned another corner, trying to find something to say to him, "Tell me, what are you thinking right now?"

He swallowed, blinked vigorously to stay awake, "You said if I were disabled, would Tongtong not want me..."

"That's all you have to offer."

Chu Qing glanced in the rearview mirror, and drove onto the viaduct without even looking at the traffic lights.This road is the closest to the hospital in a straight line.

"What are you thinking about, if you don't cut off your tendons, you'll be fine..."

Just as he finished speaking, a siren sounded harshly in the distance.A few white cars followed and squeezed onto the main road, with a clear goal, apparently well-prepared.

"Damn it...Si Jun! Sit still!"

He fastened Si Jun's seat belt with one hand, fixed the precarious body on the car seat, and stepped on the accelerator to the bottom.

The light in the bathroom flickered twice, and finally fell into darkness.Outside the window, a few beams of light from street lamps illuminated half of the wall, and also illuminated Tong Youming's fingers sticking to the crack of the door, with the palm bent and clasped against the corner of the wall.

I don't know what happened outside the door. There were some faint noises in the silent ward after nightfall, as if someone was walking on tiptoe.They were confronting each other, and no one took the first step. They only heard Tong Youming ask, "What are you waiting for?"

"Then what are you waiting for?"

Xing Fei's rhetorical question was in his own voice. This middle-aged man in his 40s had the smell of being imprisoned for a long time, as if something was rotten. Tong Youming thought of Si Jun inappropriately. The smell of smoke, occasionally mixed with men's perfumes with marine notes, he doesn't like too strong types, sprinkled on his wrists, and after a long time, it will mix with the smell of tobacco.

He felt calmer than before, but he didn't continue this meaningless conversation, because there were slow and clear footsteps in the corridor behind the door.Neither he nor Xing Fei moved.

In the distance, there are faint sirens circling.

When he wanted to listen further, the voice disappeared again, making one wonder if what he just heard was just an illusion. Even so, Xing Fei still stuck Tong Youming's throat with his arm to prevent him from calling for help. This kind of person who used to be in the officialdom Generally fierce and suspicious, with hands like iron tongs, Tong Youming knew he had to do something, but at this moment, the cell phone in his trouser pocket rang.

The sudden sound without psychological preparation was so scary that both he and Xing Fei froze for a second, as if they were out of the situation; but Tong Youming couldn't move, and he realized that he had let go in vain. After a time when he could escape, Xing Fei seemed to want to touch his mobile phone. The physical contact made him nervous again. What was even more strange was that the mobile phone rang and then quieted down. The other party hung up as if confirming something up.

Only Tong Youming, who had her face on the door, caught that little signal first.

He broke away from the other party's restraint with almost all his strength, and the door was kicked open the moment he stepped aside, a loud noise accompanied by splashes of wood slag threw him in the face, and Xing Fei, who was standing in front of him, was the first to be crushed. Knocked down, Tong Youming looked up and watched several people in black uniforms rush in and push Xing Fei to the ground, and then the young man who helped him up from the ground was his junior Xia Xi.

He couldn't believe what he saw, but the other party didn't give him time to ask questions.

"Go downstairs and have a look first." Xia Xi put away his phone and said, "He's here."

He wanted to use the most subtle language to convey the meaning of the words to him, but in fact, he did not guarantee whether Tong Youming would understand the not-so-optimistic message.

He stood up and ran outside.

The lights in the stairwell were dark, and he found that the doctors and patients in the building had all moved to the open space downstairs for consultation at some point, and all of them were wearing white or gray clothes, and the most eye-catching ones were standing at the gate Police car outside.

Two police cars formed an angle between each other and blocked a Land Rover. There were too many people gathered at the door, but Tong Youming felt something instinctively. The intuition was so strong that it was almost stinging. He rushed out of the hall and whispered The discussion crowd saw Si Jun being lifted out of the car.

He heard himself yelling something, maybe it was the other person's name, and was immediately dispersed by the tide of noise around him. There were many figures in front of him, someone made way for him, someone pulled him from behind, and finally a familiar face appeared. Holding his shoulders, he said, "Little Doctor Tong, please calm down... You are fine... His life is so hard that he can't die... Now he is going to have a blood transfusion, come on, come on, don't move around, your face is turning pale..."

Chu Qing stood among a group of men in uniform, and his furious voice could be clearly heard here: "A man released here on medical parole, you fucking dare to block me, okay, kinda... If Si Jun There are three good things and two bad things, if I don’t tell you to go to the earth, my mother’s surname is not Chu!"

He looked at the man being carried on the stretcher, his whole body was shaking, and he broke free from Gong Junye's hands several times, because he saw Si Jun opened his mouth to him, and mouthed him.

"Tongtong."

It was as if he had been stabbed in the heart by these words, and tears welled up, but he kept saying, "The hospital is ahead, hold on for a while...Si Jun...I..."

Si Jun touched his hand from the void, without waiting for his unspoken words to turn into sobs, he hugged Tong Youming with his good hand, not afraid of the surprised eyes of others, he was so strong that people felt Pain, voice hoarse, "I'm sorry for you..."

——This scene is extremely similar to that time.

The red and blue lights above his head criss-crossed, making him unable to see the faces of the people who were close by. He felt that he was about to fall asleep, but he couldn't sleep, so he tightly held the hand that was reaching out to him.

He held it.

——No matter what dreams and partings he has had in this life, he owes him an apology.

"sorry."

Tong Youming couldn't figure it out.It's as if Si Jun didn't mean to apologize to him, but this kind of juncture is not suitable for him to ask, "No need..."

He tried his best to create a little smile to appease him, "You didn't get hurt, did you?"

Tong Youming followed the stretcher and ran up the steps, wiping the tears off his face while shaking his head fiercely, "I'm fine, I'm really fine, please stop talking..."

Some of the medical staff who were isolated by the police outside the incident site returned to their posts. After all, human life is at stake. When the situation is under control, they still have to focus on saving lives. Several nurses on duty often respond to emergency situations , so the reaction was relatively quick, and he came over immediately to push Si Jun for a blood transfusion. A nurse stopped Tong Youming and said that he was emotionally unstable and it was best not to participate in the operation.

He was left in place by a group of people who left in a hurry, standing under the bluish-white light in the hospital hall, suddenly dreaming.