ashamed

"Bring me my clothes."

The man's low and lazy voice dispelled Nie Qikong's thoughts. He suddenly came back to his senses, and couldn't help showing a flustered embarrassment. He picked out the clothes that belonged to the other party from a pile of clothes at the end of the bed, and handed them to him with both hands. Chu Qing next to her.

With half a cigarette still in his mouth, Chu Qing reached out to take the clothes and at the same time gave him a rude look, "Don't touch my hair."

Nie Qikong hastily retracted his hands under the quilt, tangled together stiffly.After a long time, he said, "You, your hair is beautiful."

The man with black hair hanging down to his waist stood up and buttoned his suit pants. He pinched the cigarette butt with the index finger and thumb of his right hand, and a long gray mist poured out from his mouth, "Thank you."

"I'm just a minority, not a transvestite." For a brief second, he raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, unable to tell whether it was mocking or perfunctory, "You've seen it in bed."

Hearing this, Nie Qikong blushed up to the neck, and he pulled off the quilt to cover it up tightly. Chu Qing's shirt was only wearing one sleeve, and he walked to the French windows of the hotel and opened the curtains.

In the evening, the slanting sun shone in, and the bed was made messily.Nie Qikong stared straight at the figure swaying on the wall. That originally docile and delicate face easily put together an expression that could be called lonely. , Feeling at a loss, Nie Qikong also took it for granted at first.

It may also be that his emotions were too obvious, his bed partner walked up to him at some point, looked at his drooping eyebrows and eyes for a while, and pressed his chin with crooked fingers.

Nie Qikong was forced to raise his head, revealing his Adam's apple and the crimson hickey on the side of his neck that were sliding due to nervousness. His eyes were clear tea-brown, and he looked up at Chu Qing innocently. Belly fire.

So Chu Qing also gave up his rare desire to tell, and gave Shen Shen the rare chance to face each other.It dawned on him that communication was such a tiresome process, that the best way to reach someone was to, yes, make love.

As for those feelings that are at best only accessories, they are superfluous.

So he just used his fingers to stroke the slightly chapped lips of the young boy once, twice, like treating a cute-looking puppy on the side of the road.

"Shall I take you back?" he suggested.

"No..." Nie Qikong shook his head and carefully refused, "I'm going back to the school dormitory at night."

Chu Qing didn't give in any more, put on a suit and threw the room card to him from a few steps away, "The money has been paid, I'll go first."

Nie Qikong is his veritable bed partner whom he asked out from a dating website a few months ago. He only makes love, not falls in love.

Chu Qing is 27 years old. He has a house and a car, but he has no fixed relationship. His appearance is attractive enough, but his character is a bit difficult to serve. Just need it.

And Nie Qikong is undoubtedly a suitable partner. A 21-year-old college student with a good-looking appearance and a shy and obedient personality. More importantly, the two have a high degree of compatibility in bed. This alone constitutes the reason for choosing him.The two felt good when they first met, and further left a phone number to contact each other. The stable relationship lasted for almost three months, and basically dated once a week. Most of the time, Chu Qing took the initiative to invite Nie Qikong. A college student with more time has a stricter life plan than him. Contrary to his cold and unruly appearance, Chu Qing is a person whose desire to control is slightly beyond the normal level.

For example, when he was walking downstairs, he didn't know which nerve he couldn't hold back, and he felt awkwardly leaving the child alone in the room was a very ungracious thing.

Every time he finished, he would sit on the edge of the bed in a daze, and the lost eyes stubbornly lingered in Chu Qing's mind, causing the restlessness he had suppressed so hard to burn again, and it was even more disturbing than before. , It seems that if you don't do something to make up for it, you won't be able to make it through.

So he temporarily decided to wait downstairs for Nie Qi to be free.Anyway, I will send him for a while, the distance from here to his university is not convenient, and it is just a little effort for me.

While he was smoking another cigarette, the figure of Nie Qikong appeared at the door of the hotel. He seemed to have taken a quick shower. When he walked out, he did not forget to open the door for the woman behind him.

Chu Qing stood there without saying hello until Nie Qikong saw him.

"You haven't left yet?" The boy blinked and pulled out his hand from his pocket to hold the hem of his clothes.

"I want to see you off." Chu Qing tilted his head, "Let's go."

"for……"

"No reason."

He didn't dare to ask any more, and hurriedly took a few steps to follow the man's pace. He smelled the city's unique smell of dust hidden in the evening wind, and it was just getting dark.

It is clear that this person exudes a repulsive aura all over his body, at least that's what Nie Qikong, who had a physical relationship with him, believes.

Some people who seem to have a story, at least they are willing to let go of their defenses to be known by the outside world, but Chu Qing always does not give people such a chance, almost stingy to make people angry.

It is true that Nie Qikong thinks he has no right to be angry with him.Their relationship is time-sensitive only on the bed, other aspects that involve private space, Chu Qing refuses to let him touch the slightest bit.

The bed partner is such a complicated and simple relationship. Objectively speaking, the body has reached an unprecedented close distance, but subjectively, the mind is thousands of miles apart, and they have never been close to or touched each other, so that talking about love is regarded as a taboo.

Nie Qikong originally wanted to have a good relationship, but he met Chu Qing, who had no love experience before him except for a naive crush, let alone a physical relationship.Chu Qing brought him into this world involuntarily, and only planned the relationship between them in his own way, while Nie Qikong just followed him in such a chaotic manner, which can be regarded as a kindness to this mature object. A blind trust.

But even for such a passive and timid person, he still has what he wants.When he was sitting on the edge of the bed alone, not being dazzled by passion, that thing emerged with incomparable clarity.

——It would be nice if it wasn't just a bed partner.

Such a flash of thought is just a thought.

How many times he has restrained himself, after all Chu Qing is very qualified as a bed partner, seemingly indifferent and unreasonable, but he has never done anything to hurt him or go against his wishes; but this time, he took the initiative to say goodbye He went home, making Nie Qikong sensitively aware of the slightest gap between this person's barriers.

After all, there are times when he is gentle.

This simple discovery alone was enough to make Nie Qikong jump for joy, but he didn't dare to be too happy too soon.

But indeed after that fight, Chu Qing would send him back every time without mentioning the reason, as if he suddenly realized that he had an obligation to do so.

When venting out, Chu Qing still hugged Nie Qikong's trembling and warm body, keeping the current posture still.

The black and fluffy eyelashes of the person below him were wet with tears, their rosy lips were slightly parted, panting slightly, their eyes were so clean that only his face was reflected.Chu Qing touched him with the back of his hand. From the delicate neck to the protruding collarbone, Nie Qikong never spoke or refused, as if a kind of calmness that wanted to be given. It is easy to arouse people's desire.

He tightened his jaw, bit his lower lip with the tip of his teeth, and let Chu Qing's fingers slowly move downstream, but his eyes couldn't help touching Qing Qing's lips lightly, as if longing for a kiss.

Maybe it's not that he wants it so much, but the current atmosphere and distance are suitable for a kiss.So he conveyed his wishes carefully, waiting for a response.

Chu Qing didn't know what influenced his thoughts at that time, so he lowered his head uncharacteristically, covered the child's eyes with his palms, and kissed his upturned nose and restless lips.

"What are you thinking?"

He had the urge to ask this question.What were you thinking when I touched you?

—Why would I want to know what you're thinking?

Again he blamed himself for this unreasonable restlessness.

But when this empty silence spread again, Nie Qikong's lips that had just been kissed by him gently opened and closed, and he said, "I... can I ask you out for a walk?"

Chu Qing lay on top of him, his jet-black hair slid down his strong arms and fell between their staggered bodies, his eyes were indestructible black reefs. "Give me a reason for agreeing to you."

Unsurprisingly, Nie Qikong was stumped by this seemingly nitpicking question.

He is still in a state of wide-open limbs at the moment, with traces of love all over his body, Chu Qing is controlling his strength on the bed, he knows how to exchange a little pain for pleasure; between his legs is still wet, Nie Qikong uncomfortably Move over, as a cover for psychological shame.Chu Qing stared at him until his throat became dry, and after thinking for a long time, he couldn't find a better reason, so he turned away from his flushed face and said honestly, "I think you may be hungry..."

Now Chu Qing burst out laughing.

He quickly turned over to the side, without answering for a while, he lit a cigarette for himself, took a sip of the cold water in the bedside cup before smoking, and handed the remaining half of the cup to Nie Qikong.

"Well, I'm hungry." He lit his cigarette. "Please buy me something to eat."

Nie Qikong peeked at him, and looked away before Chu Qing noticed, and nodded obediently while holding the water glass, "Okay."

There was a look of joy on his face.Chu Qing took another look.

Chu Qing and Nie Qikong came out of a small shop in a remote section of the road, and walked along the embankment to the parking lot across the street.

It rained a little at night, but Rou Rou didn't cause much trouble. When Chu Qing opened the curtain of the shop, the rain splashed on his neck. He tied up his eye-catching long hair and put it on his left shoulder. Calling like no one else.

"I know. I'll go back to deal with it at night... well, put it on my desk, don't worry about knowing it, just give it to me."

Nie Qikong walked beside him and didn't dare to disturb him. In fact, they only talked once during the meal, and that was when Chu Qing added a big spoonful of sweet cream to his coffee. With an unchanged expression, he said to Nie Qikong's eyes that he forgot to restrain himself, I love sweets, so don't look at me with those diabetic eyes.

The young man bowed his head to eat in a hurry, and his tongue was burned by the sizzling fried pork chops.

Then until Chu Qing sent him back to school, Nie Qikong couldn't find a chance to talk to him, and finally got out of the car, he was determined to say something, and the hand and foot that were pushing the car door had already reached out. After going out, Chu Qing stretched out his hand to hold him by the back of the neck and brought him back in a daze. The opened door was half-closed again. Nie Qikong was pressed on the smooth leather backrest of the passenger seat, and he and Chu Qing had a long, long wait. A kiss that choked him.

When they parted, he clearly felt a transparent thread of water protruding from the tip of their tongues, as well as the sticky sound of lips rubbing against each other in a small space. His red earlobe was pinched by the man, "Kiss before I let you go."

Can't hear whether it is an order or a temptation.In any case, Nie Qikong did as he did. He leaned forward with the jerky movements he tried for the first time, and kissed Chu Qing's lips lightly. The first piece of protruding neck bone stroked down, and slid down to the collar along the thin outline, where there were still clearly comforting hickey marks when entering his body, the body was already fitted so that it would be because of the other party's small movements At the point of reacting, he couldn't help trembling, but fortunately he was supported by Chu Qing.

"Goodbye."

"See you next time..."

He almost ran away, swayed back to the dormitory with weak legs and feet, washed his face and mouth with cold water in the water room, looked in the mirror to make his expression look the same as usual, walked back to the dormitory and saw the clothes on the desk. There was the postal bag brought back by his roommate.

"You brought it back for me? Thank you." Nie Qikong thanked his roommate, and casually unpacked the snacks sent by his family in the package and distributed them to the roommate. With a small bag of snacks.

A box of beautifully packaged mochi, matcha-colored and coconut-white, looks soft and appetizing.

Nie Qikong sat on the desk, listening to the laughing and noisy voices of his roommates, he unconsciously touched his still warm lips with his hands.

Who likes sweets?

It was the first time in Chu Qing’s life that he received a gift from a friend in a relationship. He insisted on expressing his feelings, but he could only say that he was a little dumbfounded when faced with the small box of white and fat mochi.

"Do you remember that I love sweets?"

He tried his best to speak in a calm and not-so-serious tone, but the boy sitting across from him misinterpreted the meaning of the question.

Nie Qikong was wearing a bathrobe, and the tight-legged sitting posture always seemed too restrictive. He was annoyed and wished he could hide his face in his palms, "I didn't mean to..."

—I didn't mean to remember things about you.

Even though this sentence didn't sound like an answer to the question, Chu Qing still deciphered the twists and turns in it.He sighed silently.

"I don't want to make you angry. You always seem to be distracted... No, that's not what I meant..." Nie Qikong was still trying to explain, "I want to make you happy..."

Although he did it out of good intentions, he didn't want Chu Qing to feel that his unauthorized "knowing" was an offense. He swore that he was really just unconsciously remembering the details related to the other party, trying his best to make Chu Qing Clear happy things.

——I just want to be nice to you.

"I don't blame you."

Chu Qing pressed him on the bed again, untied his bathrobe with ease, lowered his head and kissed his curvaceous thighs to the root when parting his knees, looked at Nie Qikong naked in front of him , his possessiveness suddenly became less urgent.

"Do you want to touch it?"

Chu Qing pointed at her hair that naturally hung down with her bowing movements.Nie Qikong rubbed his eyes, looking confused and unbelievable.He didn't know when he had this power, and he was worried that the other party was just teasing him on a whim.

But seeing Chu Qing's motionless and happy expression, Nie Qikong hesitated for a long time, his fingertips passed through the other's hair, sliding from the middle to the end, he stretched out his hand, and repeated the stroking movement, like treating a close relative or a lover Gentle and lingering, fingers inevitably touched the other's cheek, trying to dodge but was held by Chu Qing's hand.

"If you'd stay with me a little longer," he said, "I might be happier."

Then he spread out his palm and asked Nie Qikong to clasp his fingers, the palms of his palms closely touching each other.

"Don't let go."

He closed his eyes.

Besides making love, I think there are many things we can do together.

Do you want to know?

Only with yours.

End.