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Si Jun turned the steering wheel and drove the car onto the main road. Since he forgot the road conditions 20 years ago, he had no choice but to turn on the navigator in the car to locate the car.

He is going to find Tong Youming.He's trying to hypnotize himself to think of this as a whim reunion, but he doesn't seem to be able to convince himself that much.

He wanted to see him, just now, now.

I think of Tong Youming's neat and clean shirt, clear and quiet eyes, steady tone of voice when speaking, the faint smell of liquid medicine on his fingertips, serious and raised eyebrows when working, red neck when approaching, tense and trying to dodge Face, he thought about it all his life.

——It's really great to meet again.

When he walked up the steps, he glanced at the quartz clock in the hall, and it was a quarter past nine; he went to the duty room at the end of the corridor with ease, and knocked on the door, and heard the chatter inside suddenly stopped.

"Please come in."

The door opened, and several nurses who were familiar with him looked at him together, with both doubts and joy in their eyes; Tong Youming sat at the desk in the corner and flipped through the medical records, and was hesitant to raise his head to look at this side, and then, he There was a catchable change in his expression.

"Doctor Tong, I'll come back and ask you to help me check again."

That feeling of confusion is back.Not knowing what was about to happen, Tong Youming's ears were red when he stood up, and Si Jun stretched out his hand and pulled him into the empty consultation room next to him.

Even so, he still abided by the professional requirements seriously and responsibly, and asked, "What's wrong with you? I can help you to register in the internal medicine department."

The man tilted his head slightly and smiled, this smile made Tong Youming feel in a trance that the man in front of him who was seven years older was indescribably naive, and it seemed that he knew and firmly grasped something from the beginning, his black The eyes made him want to run away.

"I don't think I need it," he said. "Only you can cure me."

Si Jun poked his chest with his right index finger.

"It's been calling your name since the morning, and it hasn't stopped yet."

The incandescent light tube above the head flickered twice very unwittingly.

Si Jun watched Tong Youming lower his head and took a deep breath in the silence that lasted a long time. His hand squeezed the bridge of his nose awkwardly, and he couldn't say a word for a long time. He probably didn't want to embarrass himself by hesitating, so Spent a lot of time brewing.

Si Jun couldn't stand it anymore, "...can you smoke a cigarette to calm down?"

"No no no I don't smoke."

It was only then that he remembered that the other party would not be addicted to smoking in the next ten years, because excessive smoking would cause hand tremors, and he would not be able to use the scalpel accurately. For the profession of a doctor, any small mistake could be fatal.

This is a person who is cautious and restrained in all aspects, and he can't help but lose control only in front of Si Jun.

Tong Youming put down his hands abruptly, crossing his fingers together. The bones of those young boys' hands were hard and abrupt, and the joints were a little white.

After a long time he spoke. "Mr. Si, if time is life, why do you think a person would spend so much of his life thinking about another person?"

"Because I like it."

The man answered as a matter of course.

"After you left today, I spent an hour and 4 minutes...to do this." Tong Youming spoke in a low and peaceful voice, with a kind of humility and gentleness that came from his personality, "I think I I should tell you, I don't hate this..."

God knows how hard he had to suppress that rampant impulse.Si Jun felt that he would have to prescribe two boxes of antihypertensive medicine later, and he didn't have the confidence to be able to handle this kind of mental attack for a long time in the future.In terms of confession, this is really a strange and straightforward way. At first he was a little taken aback, but his heartbeat accelerated abnormally.

——This is a distinct feeling of "alive".If the complex concept of liking is explained in a more succinct way, when you look at this person, you will feel that you have not lived in vain.

It was so sudden.

"We can hang out for a while longer." Tong Youming suggested carefully, "I want to get to know you."

"Deal." He heard Si Jun's voice lingering with a smile, "I'm very happy, Tongtong."

Tong Youming closed his eyes reflexively when the other party's hand held his cheek, "But why on earth do you know my nickname..."

Unexpectedly, the man kissed his left forehead with an intimacy and tenderness.

"It's a secret."

You don't have to know.Just give me your hand and let me keep those unfulfilled promises.

This is what I owe you.

"Well, you try to avoid strenuous exercise recently, and contact me in time if your headache recurs."

When the two of them walked out of the door, there was an ordinary atmosphere outside which was obviously created on purpose. Everyone continued the topic just now absent-mindedly, but countless pairs of eyes greeted the person concerned endlessly.Tong Youming walked back to his seat, and told Si Jun seriously, "If your shoulder hurts, I suggest you take a film. The main concern is bone fracture or contusion, and the rest is nothing."

"Good doctor," Si Jun stood up straight and politely, "Leave me a cell phone number?"

Except for Dr. Tong's complexion, there was nothing wrong with it.