An alpha's ancient life record

Shen Qingshu subconsciously blinked twice, and his eyelashes gently scraped Lin Weizhi's palm. The throbbing followed the arm texture, penetrated into the blood vessels, and spread to her heart, making her unable to speak suddenly.

The liking in her mouth made her heart tremble, how could she bear to reject her, she obviously fell in love with this person earlier, followed the temptation, and after knowing her identity, she was willing to stay by her side, losing the chance of having children forever Chance.

These days, she knows it's unreasonable, but she can't refuse her approach. She indulges the deepening ambiguity between them, but deceives herself that they are just friends, and never dares to pierce the window paper.

The education she received since she was a child, the etiquette engraved in her bones, and the cognition she naturally formed, all told her that this was wrong and would never be allowed. Shen Qingshu was a man outside, so they could be husband and wife, but she was a woman, but she couldn't. Probably the first person.

Reason and emotion were entangled, and her dark eyes contained pain and helplessness, and she remained silent without speaking.

Shen Qingshu suddenly noticed something in her actions, like standing in the snow in winter, and being splashed with a basin of cold water, he became flustered.

Although she used the alcohol to boost her courage, she thought it was the right time, and what she felt was definitely not fake.

Her temples were still throbbing, and she felt a severe headache, but she had to suppress it and tried her best to keep calm. She was afraid that if she flinched, Lin Weizhi would push her away.

"You're not sure, are you?" Shen Qingshu gropingly pulled down the hand in front of him, put it in the palm of his hand, squeezed her fingers away, interlocked her fingers, and looked into her eyes.

Her eyes are always sincere and gentle. Lin Weizhi did not dare to look at her. She turned her eyes away, stared at the dancing candles, and said with difficulty: "We two girls are against the norms of human relations. Just now... You are drunk, and you are not allowed to treat me like this in the future."

Shen Qingshu's heart sank, and her jaw tensed involuntarily. She also guessed that Lin Weizhi was not so easy to accept, but she still felt a little disappointed.

She took a deep breath, leaned forward with a little oppression, and stroked her fingers along the hollow of her neck, gently lifted her small chin, forcing Lin Weizhi to turn her head to look at her, her voice hoarse, " But you didn't push me away just now, because you like me too, right?"

Lin Weizhi looked into her eyes, her lips moved, but the words came to her lips but she couldn't speak. She couldn't lie, because her heart was beating uncontrollably, so she could only keep silent and didn't answer.

Shen Qingshu regarded her as acquiescing, and his eyes were naturally filled with joy, "Since we are in love, why can't we have sex with each other?"

"What is disregarding ethics? Who stipulates that two women cannot love each other. It is all determined by the ruler. Is it normal for the rich to have three wives and four concubines, and the poor to have no wives for a lifetime? Like a person, age, gender, rich and poor are all different. It shouldn't be an obstacle, besides, you are my wife, as long as you don't care, who knows that I am a woman, so why worry so much?"

Lin Weizhi's eyes flickered a few times, confused and bitter, "But God knows, and you and I know it too, but it's just a self-deception. We are just like before. Isn't it good to be friends as you said?"

"No, it's impossible for us to spend our whole life in such a muddle. Sooner or later we have to make it clear. I like you, and that's why I want to get closer and closer to you," Shen Qingshu took her hand and stroked his face, Looking at her eagerly and tenderly, "Azhi, what you like is a woman. After you accept it, you will find that this is no different from your liking for a man. It is also love, and it is also exciting. There is no shame in longing for intimate contact, it is just a kind of natural human emotion, which may be different from the general public, but it cannot be denied because of this.”

The expression on her face was unbelievably soft, and there was water-like tenderness and expectation flowing in her eyes. Lin Weizhi seemed to be bewitched, no matter how rational dogma resisted the clamor, she didn't take back her hand.

His fingers slid down Shen Qingshu's sideburns, outlined the lines of his face, and finally hung down to rest on the neckline, moving slightly.

Shen Qingshu let her move, and after a while, she dropped her hand weakly, her eyes were bright, she said in confusion and helplessness: "I don't know."

"Don't be afraid," Shen Qingshu was silent for a while, cheered up, and took her hand again, "Maybe I was too anxious, don't be afraid, I just couldn't help it, I wasn't forcing you, and Give us a little more time, I will wait until the day you accept, okay?"

Lin Weizhi raised her eyes to look at her, and asked by chance: "If I can't accept it all the time, you...will you leave me?"

"No, you are already my wife, and I will always wait for you." Shen Qingshu smiled reassuringly, and suddenly remembered what she had asked himself, so he also smiled and said: "It's just that I also hope, don't let me Wait too long."

"Okay..." Lin Weizhi responded hoarsely with a bit of embarrassment in his eyes, took the initiative to hug her, and buried his head in her arms.

Shen Qingshu rubbed her hair. She knew that even in later generations, many people could not accept the same-sex relationship, let alone Lin Weizhi, a native ancient woman like her?

In a feudal society, there are general ethics, and Mrs. Lin is such an old-fashioned person. One can imagine how subversive this kind of thing is to her.

In fact, knowing that she was a woman, Lin Weizhi did not deny that she liked her, but just did not want to change the status quo, which was beyond Shen Qingshu's expectations.

When they kissed just now, she didn't feel Lin Weizhi's resentment or disgust. Although she was shocked and shy, she was as addicted to enjoyment as herself, so she believed that Lin Weizhi would accept it.

They are in love with each other, the relationship between husband and wife is so close, they eat and sleep together, even if they boil frogs in warm water, she must have cooked them for her.

Shen Qingshu worked hard, and after returning to the uncle's mansion, as soon as he touched the bed, he was exhausted from drinking, and he couldn't keep his eyes open while yawning.

Lin Weizhi just ordered a few words to the maidservant, then turned around and came back to find that she was already asleep.

She came over with light steps, leaned over to look at her, put her fingers on her handsome face, slid along her eyebrows to the corner of her lips, paused for a moment, as if she had been burned, and withdrew her hand in a panic.

She was fearful and expecting, bitter and sweet in her heart, uncontrollably wishing for them, could they really stay together for a lifetime like a normal couple?

She rolled onto the bed and lay down on Shen Qingshu's side. In the darkness, she hesitated for a moment, then leaned over and hugged her from behind.

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The next day was New Year's Eve. After getting up in the morning, the family first went to offer incense to Shen Qingshu's grandfather and father, and hung up pictures. Lanterns, put on the New Year's Eve dinner, and sit together in groups.

The rules of the Shen residence are not very strict, as usual, the old Mrs. Liu would say some auspicious blessings and give some new year's money to the servants in the residence.

Shen Qingshu has been adding vegetables to Lin Weizhi's bowl, "Eat more, you have lost a lot of weight recently."

"That's enough." Lin Weizhi tugged on the corner of her clothes, facing the smiling eyes of old Liu Shi and He Shi, feeling a little shy.

Since talking about it yesterday, Shen Qingshu has hardly restrained himself, treating her more than before, he must hold her hand when walking on the road, so that she can't break free no matter what, and eats like she doesn't have long hands.

Shen Qingshu looked at Old Liu and the others, and felt a little embarrassed. She coughed and put down her chopsticks, but turned her head to Lin Weizhi's ear, and said with an angry smile, "I'm chasing my wife, you have to get used to it as soon as possible." .”

Her warm breath hit her ears, Lin Weizhi covered her ears to avoid it, and gave her a reproachful look.

The corner of Shen Qingshu's mouth twitched into a smile, he didn't think he was disobedient, but he heard the old Liu say: "Seeing that your husband and wife are in harmony, grandma is relieved. In the coming year, I think I can add a daughter to the Shen family."

As soon as this remark came out, the atmosphere at the banquet became tense, He lowered his head anxiously, Lin Weizhi also stopped his chopsticks, Shen Qingshu looked around and said haha, "Grandma, we are still young Well, don't worry."

The old Mrs. Liu said in a more serious tone: "You are not young. You will be twenty after the new year. People say that twenty is the crown, but you can also be a father. What's more, you have been married for a while."

She couldn't help but cast her eyes at Lin Weizhi. She is actually very satisfied with this granddaughter-in-law. The Lin family, but if Lin Weizhi couldn't conceive, then she might as well take a concubine for Shen Qingshu.

Seeing that old Liu frowned, and was about to say something, Shen Qingshu quickly explained: "Grandmother, this is because of me. Before the palace examination, I don't want to be distracted by other things. These things are all placed in the palace examination. Let's talk about it later."

Although I don't want to lie to Mrs. Liu, this is the best solution. At that time, she will be released as an official, adopt a child, and falsely claim that it is hers. Keep it secret, so no one will know.

Mrs. He also came out to smooth things over, "Yes, mother, children can be born at any time, and the palace examination is more important now. If you are thinking about your great-grandson, you can also go and see Li'er and those two."

Could it be the same? Old Liu scolded a few words in his heart, looked around, and saw their expressions in his eyes, thinking that it would be difficult for the Chinese New Year, so he took He's down the steps. , Said: "After two days, Li'er will come back, I don't know if she will bring the little one, it's such a cold day, don't freeze it."

But he was thinking in his heart whether he should find a doctor to give Lin Weizhi a secret recipe for having a child, or find two beautiful maidservants to serve in Shen Qingshu's room. Speaking of which, Zhao Yu's group was a bit older.

Shen Qingshu didn't know it at all. Seeing that the atmosphere had eased, she breathed a sigh of relief. She turned her head to look at Lin Weizhi, and saw her poking the chicken in the bowl intermittently. She seemed to be distracted, and she didn't know what she was thinking about.

Shen Qingshu secretly sighed, sons and heirs are also an unavoidable problem between them, and I don't know how many troubles there will be when I talk to Old Liu about the release.

And will Lin Weizhi regret not having a child of her own? In later generations, some homosexuals or lovers who decided to dink, in middle age, gradually began to like children, but suddenly regretted it and left the other party to marry another.If later...

She suddenly reached out and pressed her chest. In this situation, just thinking about it made her feel so stuffy that she couldn't breathe.

"What's the matter?" Lin Weizhi noticed and asked with concern.

Shen Qingshu shook his head, found her hand and held it, forgiving her selfishness, if there was such a day, she would never write a letter to release his wife.

The author has something to say: Hahaha, Ah Zhi's mind is similar to that of an ostrich, if you don't talk about it, you won't have it.

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