Sea of ​​people retrograde

"Mang, it's not convenient to park at the market. It's better to take the subway there, which happens to be a subway entrance." Zhuang Shiling adjusted his collar in front of the mirror and called Lu Mang with the loudspeaker on.

There was a handmade market in the square in the center of the city, which contained old and exquisite European antiques, exquisite handcrafts, ceramic art, Jianzhan, etc. Lu Mang heard from his colleagues that there was such a place, so he guessed that Zhuang Shiling would like it.

"Okay, then I'll drive to your place, and we'll drive there together."

In fact, it would be closer for Lu Mang to go directly there, but she just wanted to see Zhuang Shiling sooner and go to the station with her for a ride.

Once the two left Zhuang Shiling's residence, they would automatically separate into a state of friends, and they wouldn't even hold hands. Lu Mang looked at Zhuang Shiling beside him with some disappointment.

The wind in the subway station was very strong, because Zhuang Shiling was so thin that the sleeves of her shirt were blown up by the wind. Lu Manduo wanted to hold her hand, but there was still half a person standing between the two of them.

With the rumbling sound, the bus on the other side arrived at the stop. Lu Mang looked at the stop sign intently. She seldom takes public transportation, but she still remembers the general process. Now they have to take Line [-] to the transit station. Take Line [-] to the place where the market is located.

"Hello, are you a doctor?" A woman in her 20s next to her suddenly asked Lu Mang.

"No." Lu Mang tried to separate work and life when she was not wearing a white coat. At this time, she didn't know the intentions of the woman next to her, let alone admit it.

But the woman kept looking at Lu Mang unwillingly. She was a head shorter than Lu Mang, so she looked less imposing but also enough to make Lu Mang feel uncomfortable.

"Okay, I'm a doctor, what can you do?" Lu Mang turned to her and asked.

The woman stretched out a polite smile, "You are Doctor Lu, right?"

Seeing that Lu Mang nodded, she continued: "A few years ago, my mother had an operation in the hospital, and you were her chief surgeon."

It was only then that Lu Mang realized that it was the patient's family member. She asked, "Is your mother recovering well after surgery?"

The woman shook her head and said regretfully, "My mother couldn't make it through, she died on the operating table."

Zhuang Shiling heard the conversation from the side, grabbed Lu Mang's hand vigilantly, and stepped forward to protect Lu Mang behind her.

The woman quickly explained: "Don't get me wrong, the doctor told me that the operation is very risky before the operation. Before my mother passed away, she always told me that you are still relieved to help her. I am very grateful to you."

The success rate of most gynecological operations is extremely high, and it is almost impossible to get off the stage. When Lu Mang heard the woman say that his mother failed to get off the operating table, he remembered it.

It was a very amiable middle-aged woman, her age was similar to that of Lu Mang's mother, her eldest daughter was also about the same age as Lu Mang, and the youngest daughter was the woman in front of her.

Because she never faced up to the pain in her body, when she was sent to the hospital for examination, it was already an advanced stage of uterine sarcoma. Lu Mang was deeply puzzled that she could endure such severe pain and did not go to the hospital for medical treatment. I don't want to cause trouble to my children.

The operation plan was quickly discussed. Considering that the patient had no childbearing needs, the doctor suggested complete resection of the uterine appendages. After obtaining the consent of the family members, the operation was arranged soon.

But just the night before the operation, the patient suddenly vomited blood, and the operation was carried out in the middle of the night. It turned out that the aunt not only had uterine sarcoma, but also had an abdominal aortic aneurysm. After consultation with the doctor, I did not expect the most extreme situation to appear.

She remembered that it took four hours to rescue her that day, and finally announced that the operation had failed. Lu Mang asked another doctor to announce the results of the operation to the family members, while she sewed up the incision for her aunt seriously.

Doctors are not numb because they face the pain and death every day. After that operation, Lu Mang fell ill. Lu Xiaosong sat on the side of the bed and held Lu Mang's wrist to enlighten her. The incident was slowly being dusted in the depths of her heart, and at this moment it was revealed again, and the dust raised was about to choke her to tears.

Zhuang Shiling gently squeezed her hand to comfort her, she didn't remember the last conversation she had with the woman, and when she came to her senses, she and Zhuang Shiling got into the car.

Zhuang Shiling's thumb gently rubbed against the back of Lu Mang's hand. Lu Mang felt the coldness of Zhuang Shiling's fingertips, and held her fingers in his palm.

Today's weather is very good, the sun shines on the two of them when they come out of the subway station, and the haze in their hearts seems to go away.

The scale of the market is not small. Looking around, the entire square is filled with awnings. Except for the open space on the right, it seems that something is being built there.Every item on the booth is the stall owner's favorite. When Zhuang Shiling picked up a kitten ornament made of clay, it was only half the size of a palm. It was rough to the touch due to the material, but the details were vividly depicted. A lazy cat was wagging its tail boredly, and the stall owner enthusiastically introduced the production process to her. When she heard the price, Zhuang Shiling carefully put the kitten back in its original place, glanced at it reluctantly, and led Lu Mang away. up.

Lu Mang looked at the hand being held and raised his smiling face. The two of them wandered aimlessly. Seeing the night tour project marked on the promotional map put up by the organizer, the two who wanted to go back after lunch kept going. Stayed here till night.

In the afternoon, the Kung Fu staff set up a small stage on the far right of the square, and several singers auditioned on it. It was getting dark, and suddenly the street lights in the whole square were turned off, and a string of small light bulbs on the awning lit up. Like a galaxy.

There was a melodious strumming, and a folk singer played and sang in front of the microphone, singing "Night of Infinite Possibilities".

Couples holding hands in the square stopped to watch one after another. This song is very suitable for the atmosphere of this scene.

when love comes quietly

It was just getting dark

Endless romance without words

night of endless possibilities

Let candles replace all lights

Let the music replace the voice

The silence speaks

if i have to speak

Can only say a word

let me be your possibility

if i choose

can only love one person

let me be your possibility

Zhuang Shiling stared in the direction of the stage and didn't look at Lu Mang, but she could feel her fiery gaze, and they were standing in an inconspicuous dark corner with their fingers clasped together.

Lu Mang took out a small paper bag from his bag and handed it to the person beside him. Zhuang Shiling opened it suspiciously, saw that it was the cute clay cat, squinted his eyes and smiled.

"If you say you like me, I'll give it to you." Lu Mang's words could be heard clearly in the music.

Zhuang Shiling wrapped the kitten back into the newspaper and put it in a paper bag, then raised her head and said to Lu Mang.

"Without it, I would say I like you."

Lu Mang thought it was another ambiguous answer, so he turned his head and looked into the distance a little discouraged. This time, Zhuang Shiling didn't evade any more, she continued talking beside Lu Mang.

"Lu Mang, meeting you is the best thing in my life. I dare not expect too much. You will have your own life. You should get married and have children to live a normal life." Zhuang Shiling looked at Lu Mang's side face, "But when I think of not having you, I don't know what to do."

The tone seems to be talking about other people's emotions calmly, but every sentence is like expressing separation.

Lu Mang didn't blame her. When she knew that Zhuang Shiling kept a distance from her because she was afraid that she would be affected, she began to understand her. She has been deeply affected by her living environment and dare not fall in love with a person or thing. Because she may have to break off her relationship at any time, she never acts dependent.

"Being with the person you like is a normal life." Lu Mang told her seriously, she had no way to change Zhuang Shiling, she could only tell her what was in her heart.

Lu Mang is different from Zhuang Shiling. Since she was a child, she has been able to choose her own life. She only needs to work hard on what she wants. The family will only support her and never make her feel troubled.

"If I just want a word from you, can you tell me you love me?"

In this relationship, Lu Mang has always been the superior party. Although she has tried her best to make both parties equal, Lu Mang is much higher than Zhuang Shiling in terms of family, finances, and knowledge.But Lu Mang didn't look down on Zhuang Shiling because of these, she gave her respect, help and encouragement, even if one day she had to face criticism from all sides, Lu Mang would never let Zhuang Shiling get hurt in the slightest, she only hoped that Zhuang Shiling don't give up her right to love others.

"I love you, Lu Mang." Zhuang Shiling couldn't bear it any longer, and reached out to hug Lu Mang.

When she was a child, the big yellow dog of her grandmother's house gave birth to a puppy, and her mother gave her a puppy. One day after her mother died of illness, her father called a group of friends to beat the dog to death and eat it.

The puppy was still wagging its tail at the wooden stick that was swung towards him. The wooden stick fell mercilessly on its nose and head, and the dog fell down and twitched for a while.These were not what Zhuang Shiling saw with her own eyes, but what her stepmother described vividly to Zhuang Shiling at the dinner table. She didn't know why her stepmother was so cruel to her.

Fortunately, her psychology didn't become unbearable because of these twisted things, but she never showed any concern and love for anyone and anything later.

But this time her feelings for Lu Mang were out of control. She could feel her love for her rushing out of her chest. She couldn't hide her love for her. She buried her face in her neck, which belonged to Lu Mang. The special aroma of the scent entered her nose, she sniffed a few more greedily, her lips touched Lu Mang's skin intentionally or unintentionally.

"Then why don't you be brave?" He protected her behind him like he thought someone was going to hurt her when he was at the station. At that moment, Lu Mang felt that her love for him was ten times and a hundred times more than what she usually showed.

Lu Mang kissed Zhuang Shiling's forehead. Although the two were in the corner, there were people coming and going in the square. No one deliberately looked at them, but they could feel their embrace, but this embrace is a kind of friendship for passers-by. What is the difference between hugs?

"Did you think she would hurt me?" Lu Mang asked while lying on the bed watching Zhuang Shiling busy cleaning up the house. Zhuang Shiling's hands paused for a moment, and continued to pat the pillow to make it bulge up.

"I don't know, but such an occasion and what she said inevitably make people not worry." Zhuang Shiling tugged at the four corners of the carpet and smoothed it with his hands, "Have you ever experienced medical trouble?"

Lu Mang's eyes darkened. She nodded and told Zhuang Shiling about the accident Xiang Jing suffered. It sounded unbelievable but it really happened. Lu Mang was only free to go to the ward at night after Xiang Jing's surgery. look at her.

Steel nails were placed in her waist, and it took her half a month to sit up.

Zhuang Shiling sat there motionless and listened to Lu Mang talk about the past, her heart was full of sympathy for Xiang Jing, it was hard for her to imagine the physical and mental pain.

"Her ex-girlfriend didn't like her and transferred all her money away. Why didn't Xiang Jing call the police?" Zhuang Shiling asked after hearing Lu Mang gritted his teeth and said that Liu Youyou was going to get married. The posture of lying flat on the head of the bed changed to lying on the bed and looking at Zhuang Shiling who was only a few feet away from her.

"There are a lot of bad people in this society. So my friend is always worried that you will lie to me too."

"I won't lie to you!" Zhuang Shiling said dissatisfied.

"Then who knows? He doesn't recognize our relationship and still meets other men behind my back."

"I'm really afraid of affecting you! I have nothing to worry about being alone, but you are a doctor, and you have your family." Zhuang Shiling said aggrievedly.

"You don't need to worry about these." Lu Mang sat up and reached out to Zhuang Shiling for a hug.

Zhuang Shiling walked up to Lu Mang and kissed her on the forehead. Lu Mang lifted his chin and went deep into the kiss, nimbly prying open Zhuang Shiling's teeth, two tongues coming and going, chasing and fighting happily.

In the dark night, Zhuang Shiling tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. As long as Lu Mang was lying next to her, she couldn't fall asleep. Her heart was beating violently in her chest. When Lu Mang was studying for a Ph. , so I have practiced the ability to sleep in seconds since I was studying.

But today she was also woken up by Zhuang Shiling's restless heartbeat and the sound of turning over.

"Can't sleep?" Lu Mang looked at her sideways, the moonlight shone into the room through the gap between the undrawn curtains, Lu Mang reached out and stroked her face.

Zhuang Shiling shook her head, smiled and said, "I dare not sleep."

"Why don't you dare to sleep?" "It feels like everything is unreal." Zhuang Shiling shrank herself into Lu Mang's arms, feeling Lu Mang's warm and powerful embrace.

Lu Mang didn't say anything, he rested his chin on her head, and gently patted her to sleep.

In the end, I don't know who fell asleep first. The troubles are only temporarily forgotten but they will not disappear. Lu Mang knows that Zhuang Shiling is a person who will worry deeply for a long time. The relationship between the two is difficult to disclose, and there is no guarantee for each other. , like a beautiful but bursting soap bubble, it is disturbing to watch it float around.