withered color

"Buy me flowers." Chen Yan said, "Buy me flowers, okay?"

Xu Liangyun was silent for a moment on the phone.

"...Okay." He said, "I'll buy it for you, and I'll buy it for you when I get home."

Statement Yan smiled slightly, and hummed.

Xu Liangyun panicked when he smiled, and Xu Liangyun panicked when he heard his breathing visibly trembling, then said in a panic that he would be there soon, and after faltering several times, don't be afraid, finally hung up reluctantly Telephone.

After the phone was hung up, Chen Yan looked down at the hung up interface, feeling a little complicated.

He always had a very unreal feeling that Xu Liangyun was really not like Xu Liangyun.

Xu Liangyun came really quickly, within 10 minutes after hanging up the phone, Chen Yan heard a burst of anxious footsteps.

Then the door of the ward was opened.

Chen Yan looked up and saw Xu Liangyun standing at the door with his mouth tightly pursed, his face pale and panting.

It seems that even though "Wu Xiashu" didn't do well, the fact that he appeared the next day and released a murder notice at such a close distance had a great impact on Xu Liangyun.

And it happened after he left.

Xu Liangyun obviously couldn't sit still anymore, he walked in, opened the bedside table, took out a statement jacket from it, covered him with it, and said, "Come on, I'll ask someone to go through the discharge procedures for you, I'll get you a wheelchair."

When he said this, he was very close to the statement.Chen Yan saw sweat dripping down his face, he didn't know if it was because of nervousness or because he was tired from running up in a hurry.

Chen Yan really wanted to ask him something, but it seemed that the time was not right now, so he had to answer twice and agreed.

Xu Liangyun seemed to treat him as a cripple, and even dressed him himself, and then put gloves on him.After he was fully armed, he was going to fetch a wheelchair for Chen Zhen, but he suddenly felt worried that Chen would stay alone in the ward, so he picked him up again and went to the nurse's station to go through the formalities together.

He had already asked someone to do it, and when the statement was passed on his back, he saw the policeman lying on the front desk of the nurse's station and filling out the form, holding his forehead.

The criminal policeman who asked him before was also standing in the nurse's station, holding a recording pen and asking two or three nurses.

As soon as Xu Liangyun walked over, the police turned around.

He glanced at the statement carried on Xu Liangyun's body, and seemed to have nothing in particular to say.He quickly withdrew his gaze and looked at Xu Liangyun again: "It's almost done. A nurse has gone to pick up the wheelchair and will be back in a while. You go first, and I will do the rest of the procedures."

Xu Liangyun didn't say anything.He turned his head, looked at the statement on his back, and said, "Then take you back to my house first."

The statement had no objection and nodded.

After Xu Liangyun finished speaking, he turned his head to look at the policeman who was filling out the form, and said, "You go there when you're done, and guard at the door of my house."

The policeman gave him an OK sign without looking back.

Chen Yan blinked, looked at the policeman, and then looked down at Xu Liangyun.

After waiting for a while, they waited for the nurse who came to fetch the wheelchair.Xu Liangyun put the statement on the wheelchair, and then instructed the police here to ask them to return to the bureau for half of the investigation and half to go out to find Yang Lu, pushing the statement and leaving.

After he left, the criminal policeman who stayed in the nurse's station for questioning also happened to finish his work, walked out slowly with his hands in his pockets, and looked in the direction where Xu Liangyun left.

He sighed: "It's really not easy, our captain."

The policeman hummed, but didn't answer much.

"Is it asking you to guard the door of his house again?" The criminal policeman said, "Why does he care about you so much?"

"Don't talk such nonsense." The policeman said without raising his head, "I have a wife."

-

Chen Yan was pushed out of the hospital by Xu Liangyun, picked up by him and carried into the car, and put on the seat belt by himself.

After doing this, Xu Liangyun asked him to wait for a while, then closed the car door, folded up the wheelchair, and put it in the trunk.

Chen Yan watched in the rearview mirror as he cleaned up in the rear, then turned his head and looked inside the car.

There is an indescribable faint fragrance in this car, and I can't smell the smell a little bit, and I feel like I'm going to get motion sickness when I smell it.

He rolled down the car window a little, pinched his brows, and shook his head slightly.

He felt dizzy after smelling it for a while.

Xu Liangyun quickly put away the wheelchair, walked over and sat on the driver's seat.

Seeing that Chen Yan had rolled down the car window, he was stunned for a moment, then smiled helplessly, and said, "Sorry, the car smells so heavy that I'm afraid I'll choke you, so I sprinkled some perfume... the perfume is also very choking, right?"

"No." Chen Yan said, "Just open the window. You should stop smoking that thing in the future. It's better to quit. It's not good for your health."

Xu Liangyun nodded firmly: "Okay, I quit."

Xu Liangyun's expression was too resolute, as resolute as if he had received an imperial edict.This has not done anything, and Chen Yan has an inexplicable feeling that he can go up the mountain of swords and go down into the sea of ​​fire for this guarantee.

He was a little scared.

"...Take your time." Chen said in an embarrassing way, "I'm not telling you to quit completely right now...just smoke less and quit slowly."

Xu Liangyun nodded fiercely at him, saying all over his face that you are right and everything is up to you.

"...You really understand, don't you? Don't be in a hurry? You can smoke a little at ordinary times, just don't smoke too much. I mean, let's quit slowly... shall we?"

Xu Liangyun nodded like a rattle.

"...It's good that you understand, then drive."

Xu Liangyun drove obediently.

I am tired of the statement but still worry, especially worried.

He always had the feeling that Xu Liangyun would really quit smoking because of what he said, and he would stop smoking from today, saying that he would believe it even if he said that he would hurt himself because of this.

Statement Yan sighed helplessly in his heart, thinking that there was no other way to do it, he could only stare at him, and if he felt a little uncomfortable, he would counsel him.

Only his words will work in Xu Liangyun's place.

But don't worry too much, they can take their time.

While thinking about it, Chen Yan tilted his head to look at Xu Liangyun.

Xu Liangyun was watching the road.Once he stopped reading the statement, the expression on his face would become rigid.This person has a natural stinky face syndrome, and he looks very angry when he is expressionless.

Looking at the past in this way, Chen Yan felt that he was really too fierce.

Obviously, he was still cautiously acting like that just now.

Chen Yan looked at him silently for a while, and asked, "Where is your home?"

The "fierce" on Xu Liangyun's face shattered all at once, and his eyes flashed towards him for a moment. After glancing at him in such a panic, he quickly withdrew his gaze and looked at the road, faltering, um, huh, huh, huh, huh. He said twice, and said, "On Yongguang Road...in that apartment complex."

"How many floors?"

"First floor." Xu Liangyun said, "I don't dare to live in tall buildings."

Statements: "..."

The statement choked up.

He suddenly remembered that when the two met the day before yesterday, Xu Liangyun didn't come upstairs to see him, but only asked his subordinates to bring the gloves up to him.

"...Are you afraid to go to the top now?" Chen Yan asked him, "So you didn't go to my house that day?"

"No, that's not enough." Xu Liangyun said, "It's just that I dare not sleep on the upper floors. It's okay to go up."

The statement made a sound of boredom, with a not very good-looking expression.

Xu Liangyun sensed that he was not in the right mood, and hurriedly added a few words: "Don't worry, I'm not that serious. If it was really that serious, I can't be a policeman now.... I will still call Zhong Tang home at night , there are some things you must know."

Xu Liangyun paused when he said this.He seemed to want to say something, but the words didn't come out, they all stopped on his lips, and he couldn't make a sound, and it became nothingness.

In the end, he didn't say anything, and limply closed his mouth.

Statement weariness saw that he hesitated to speak.

"What are you trying to say?" he asked.

Xu Liangyun was silent for a moment.

"I... still want you to think carefully about it." He said, "It's not safe to talk to me."

Statement Yan didn't hesitate: "Then it's not safe."

Xu Liangyun: "..."

"If I were afraid of this, I would have broken up with you five years ago, let alone fall in love with you, and I wouldn't sit here now." Chen Yan said, "Why would you be so angry because of Ye Xia?" Want to give up on me."

Xu Liangyun's eyelashes twitched.

"I told you earlier, I only hate you for this." Chen Jian said, "Didn't it be agreed that I won't hate you anymore? Don't say that, don't look at me like this, I'm very brave .”

"...It has nothing to do with how brave you are."

"But you're not very brave."

"..."

"You are really, really timid now." Chen Yan leaned closer to him, "Be brave, Xu Liangyun, you are a policeman."

Xu Liangyun fell silent.

Statement Yan went on to say: "I will accompany you to be brave, I don't want to be that nightmare in your heart."

The car happened to be at a crossroads, Xu Liangyun turned his head to look at Statement Yan.

Statement-hate was the same as he remembered, his eyes were calm, but there was a faint light in them.The light was hidden in the depths, and it was difficult to catch a glimpse, but Xu Liangyun could see it clearly.

The light just pulled him like that, making him fall into it step by step, and it was difficult to get out.

"We," Chen Yan said to him, "we can't lose to Ye Xia."

Xu Liangyun's heart roared, and he suddenly felt ashamed.

You look tired of statements.

He said to himself, look at the statement, he walked through the dark, he was scarred, but he did not crumble.

He still has the courage to love, and he still has the guts to face malice.

The corner of Xu Liangyun's mouth twitched, and after a while, he finally laughed at himself.

"Yeah." He murmured, "What's wrong with me."

"You have been victimized." Chen Yan said calmly, "We are the same, so now we have to rely on each other for our lives."

Xu Liangyun seemed to be dazed, and what he said was not on the same channel as him: "Should I be cured?"

"..."

The statement was silent.

What Xu Liangyun said was not whether it could be done, but whether it should be done.

This is a question that is wrong in principle.

Chen Yan really wanted to ask him why he said this, but Xu Liangyun's eyes told him that Xu Liangyun couldn't say it.

Chen Yan looked at him, and after a moment of silence, said: "If you feel uncomfortable, just cure it."

Xu Liangyun lowered his eyes, and something sank in his eyes, turning into an indistinct obscurity.

He hummed and didn't speak again.

Xu Liangyun's mental illness didn't seem to be very serious, and it didn't affect his driving anyway.

After that, he drove the car home without saying a word, went to fix the wheelchair, and took the statement out of the car.

Xu Liangyun pushed him towards the house.Walking on the road, Chen Yan raised his head and asked him, "How's the pudding? When can I pick it up?"

He asked this question once during the day, but those who raise fur children are worried parents, Xu Liangyun understood him very well, and said: "It is said that it needs to be observed for a while, and now I have washed my stomach and am lying in the pet hospital. I have gone to see it. It seemed like it wanted to pounce on me, but unfortunately it doesn't have the ability now, so it has been lying there humming."

Chen Yan wanted to laugh a little: "That would be suffocating."

"I wondered too."

"Is the medical bill expensive?" Chen Yan asked, "How much did it cost?"

Xu Liangyun said: "Not much, about three thousand yuan, I can hold on."

"Really." Chen Yan said, "Then wait for me later, I'll cook for you at home."

"……it is good."

"Usually I have to buy fruit for you."

"En." Xu Liangyun responded, "Okay."

Chen Yan chatted with Xu Liangyun one after another while walking outside.

As soon as he got out of the underground parking lot, Chen Yan found that the apartment complex was full of low-rise buildings, the tallest of which did not exceed seven floors.

I always feel that this is no coincidence.

He pursed his lips, and decided to ask about it when Zhong Tang came in the evening.

Xu Liangyun asked him: "Why are you home alone during the Chinese New Year? Why don't you go back to your grandma's house?"

"Something happened, so I didn't go back." Chen Yan sat on the chair and scratched his hands, then raised his head and changed the subject, "You seem to value that policeman very much?"

There is only one police officer that Xu Liangyun values ​​in the whole bureau, and he knows which one the statement is talking about.

Xu Liangyun originally wanted to ask the grandma who hated the statement more, but was so forcefully changed the subject, he had no choice but to give up, and obediently replied: "Yeah, I feel that he is not simple at a glance."

Statement Yan agrees with his words: "Indeed."

"He is indeed not simple." Xu Liangyun continued, "When you were taken away by that courier yesterday, the people guarding the door didn't think anything was wrong. Because the courier was really a courier, they checked his ID , I also checked him, but nothing was found, so he put it in. He heard someone describe it when he was changing shifts, and found something wrong."

The statement made a long voice.

"It was the same when 'Wu Xiashu' sent flowers today. I don't know what happened to him. Anyway, he himself said that he smelled blood...but the other policemen had to get very close to smell it. I don't know how his nose is long."

Statement: "...what's his name?"

Xu Liangyun replied, "Xie Weixian."

"What a strange name." Chen Yan said, "It seems that there are these two characters in some poem... like ancient people."

"If you want to put it that way, I'm about the same."

"You're better than him."

Xu Liangyun smiled helplessly.

Chen Yan asked again: "Is he good at fighting? He told me that he is No.1 in melee combat."

"Really." Xu Liangyun said, "Anyway, the marksmanship is really not that good. When others told him this, he refused to accept it, and once said that he was not used to modern technology. Give him a bow to ensure that it will not have this effect."

"..."

Why do you look more and more like ancient people?

Xu Liangyun asked: "He should treat you very well."

"Is there?" Chen Yan tilted his head, "I think it's normal."

"That means he has a good attitude towards you." Xu Liangyun said, "You have the same surname as his boyfriend, and his partner is also surnamed Chen. When I told him your name before, his expression was wrong. He has a quick temper. But I never yell at him, I can tell at a glance that he probably won't be able to yell at you, he really cares about his date."

Statement Yan: "... I am grateful that my surname is Chen."

Xu Liangyun laughed again.

After chatting about this one after another, the two entered a building.

Pushing him, Xu Liangyun walked into the second unit with ease, then walked to the left of the first floor, and opened the door with his hand.

His house also has a fingerprint lock.

"This is a fingerprint combination lock, and it can be opened with a password. The password is six digits, which is your birthday, and the last two digits of your birth year plus the day of your birthday." Xu Liangyun opened the door and said, "If you have If necessary, use the password to open the door first. After two days you can stand up, I will take your fingerprints. "

Narrator nodded.

Xu Liangyun led him into the house.

As soon as he entered, Chen Yan felt that his eyes were smeared with darkness.

Xu Liangyun's house is full of black, white and gray, and he can't see any new colors—the tables, chairs and sofas are all the same color of black, white and gray, as cold as hell.

Statement Yan even suspected for a moment that he was colorblind.

"What's wrong with your family..." Chen Yan didn't know what to say, "Why are you so...personal?"

"I feel uncomfortable when I see bright colors." Xu Liangyun said, "Black and white are more peaceful."

Statement tired all of a sudden speechless.

He didn't even walk into Xu Liangyun's life for a few hours, but every few steps he took, he could step on the shadow of Xu Liangyun's mental illness.

He doesn't live in high-rise buildings, and his family is black and white.

All because of PTSD.

All this tells Chen Yan that this disease has penetrated into Xu Liangyun's life, dyeing every minute and every inch of it.

The statement was speechless for a moment.

He couldn't say anything, so he curled his lips and said, "Then I..."

Xu Liangyun knew what he was going to say, so he said: "You can do whatever you want. If you can't see it here, you can redecorate it. You don't have to follow me with the things you bring. My former psychiatrist said that if you want to cure this disease, The best way is to find you, so you can come here anyway."

As soon as he said this, he vaguely understood why he asked whether he should be cured.

He was hesitating whether to interrupt the statement.

The statement was silent again.

He sighed, said yes, I see, and turned his head to look at his house again.

His house is not big. There is a living room on the left after entering the door, and an open kitchen on the right. There is a dining table next to the kitchen. Walking inside, there are three rooms with closed doors, which should be bedrooms and bathrooms.

Chen Yan looked around and found that there was basically nothing on the table in his house, everything was a bit scary, except for a small medicine bottle on the table.

He remembered that Xu Liangyun had swallowed the medicine this morning, so he turned his head and asked, "What medicine are you taking?"

"Paxitin."

Statement Yan frowned all of a sudden.

He found this medicine when he was looking up traumatic stress disorder in the morning, and he went in and looked through it.

This is a kind of medicine that is often used to treat various mental diseases. It can effectively control sleep disorders and loss of appetite, as well as anxiety, panic and mania.

I was tired of the statement for a while, but I didn't dare to ask how many of these symptoms Xu Liangyun had.

He knew that Xu Liangyun must have panic symptoms, and he could tell from his appearance in the morning.

"Have you been eating?" he asked, "Every day? How much?"

"Take three or four pills every morning, and also at night, twice a day." Xu Liangyun replied truthfully, "It depends on the situation during the day, if there is no serious problem during the day, you don't need to take it, but if you can't, you have to take two pills at noon. If you really can't sleep at night Take other sleeping pills."

"...you still take sleeping pills."

"……Occasionally."

Statement Yan knows him too well: "That's what he eats often."

"..."

"Drink water and eat later." Chen Yan said, "If you swallow it raw, you will suffer more. Those are not jelly beans."

Xu Liangyun nodded: "Okay."

Chen Yan turned his head and looked around again: "Is this the house you bought?"

"I bought it." Xu Liangyun said, "My mother helped me a little bit."

As soon as he heard him talking about his family, the statement made him feel tired.

"...Does your mother know that you have this disease?" He asked.

"She knows, and knows that I am no longer a special police officer, and you were killed because of me. I was not well at that time, and she came to take care of me for a while." Xu Liangyun said, "I told my dad that I was sick, I don't know what he thinks."

The statement was a little helpless: "Who knows what he will think, he can't say anything."

Xu Liangyun smiled at him.

"You still have to go out in the afternoon to do some work." Chen Yan said, "I can't go with you like this, so I'll wait for you at home."

"Alright." Xu Liangyun said, "Yang Lu hasn't believed it yet, so I have to go and have a look... I'll leave when Xie Weixian comes. You have a good lunch, and I'll come back as early as possible at night. Lunch is called They will buy it for you, I will call two more policemen later, don’t be afraid.”

Narrator nodded.

"Be careful at home alone." Xu Liangyun was a little worried, "How about I call Xie Weixian into the house? I can still take care of you."

Statement disgust originally wanted to say that it was unnecessary, but after thinking about the previous things, I felt that it was actually necessary to do so.

"...OK." Chen Yan said, "Let him in, if you don't mind."