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Chen Yan didn't say a word, and neither did Xu Liangyun.

The two hugged each other in silence for a long time.

Gradually, Xu Liangyun's hands holding him stopped shaking, and Chen Yan also hugged him so that half of his body was a little numb, so he raised his head to look at him.

Xu Liangyun was lying on his back on the ground, his head was also raised up, and his eyes were vacantly looking upwards.

There was a peaceful daze in his eyes, as if he was dazed again, but he didn't seem to.

"What are you thinking?" Chen Yan asked him tentatively.

Xu Liangyun didn't go out in a daze this time, he immediately replied: "I'm thinking it's so cold on the ground."

Chen Yan chuckled and said, "Then let's get up."

"Okay."

So the two got up.After Xu Liangyun got sick, his whole body was not well. When he got up, he staggered and almost knelt down to Chen Yan, but thanks to Chen Yan's quick eyesight, he quickly supported him.

Xu Liangyun said helplessly that his legs were weak, and he was tired of stating that there was nothing he could do, so he helped him into the bedroom.

Chen Yan put him down on the bed and said, "I'm going to boil you some hot water to drink."

Xu Liangyun said that it doesn't need to be hot, just bring a glass of water.

The statement is tired of thinking about it, and the same is true for thinking. It takes time to boil the water.Now both of them have bad throats, just water.

So he nodded and went to the kitchen to fetch two glasses of water.

Pudding didn't run back and forth with him.It jumped onto the bed in the bedroom and purred towards Xu Liangyun, with an angry expression on its face, as if scolding Xu Liangyun.

When Chen Yan came back with water, he saw that Pudding was still purring and cursing at Xu Liangyun who was leaning on the head of the bed with his ears behind his back.Xu Liangyun lowered his head slightly, and nodded to the dog's snoring sound, as if echoing that what you said was right.

Chen Yan couldn't help laughing again, he walked over, walked on the dog's back twice, and said forget it, your father didn't do it on purpose.

While talking, he handed the water to Xu Liangyun and said, "You say yes, dad."

Xu Liangyun curled his lips and reached for water.

Chen Yan drank half a glass of water, then put the quilt on the bedside table beside him, leaned over, and looked at the wound on Xu Liangyun's face.

Xu Liangyun was still drinking water.As soon as Chen Yan got so close, he put down the water glass, swallowed the water in his mouth, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Chen Yan said, "I'll take a look. Don't move, I'll look at your face."

Xu Liangyun obediently showed him.

He just hit him hard, and his face was covered with bloody cuts from his own claws.These wounds have already bled, and the ten blood marks are twisted and twisted, which makes people feel pain on the face.

The more I look at the statement, the more distressed I feel.

"How do you treat yourself..." The statement hesitated, sighed in the middle of the sentence, and said, "Treat yourself better...does it still hurt?"

"...It doesn't hurt." Xu Liangyun said, "I'm fine."

"I don't believe it." Chen said angrily, "Do you have any medicine at home? I'll give you some medicine."

"Yes... over there in the living room, in the cabinet under the TV, there are povidone iodine and bandages.... No need, this kind of small cut, just let it heal after a few days."

"The medicine can be taken faster, and besides, can I let you go." Chen Yan patted his forehead and said, "You wait for me."

After saying this, I was tired of reporting and went to find medicine.

He went to the living room and found iodophor and bandages, and there was a box of cotton swabs inside.Chen Yan took all these with him, went back to the bedroom, and put all the things on the bedside table.

He thought for a while, picked up the half-drinked glass of water and drank it down in one gulp, went to the kitchen to pick up another glass, first dipped a cotton swab in some water, then tapped on Xu Liangyun's face, and gave it to him First wash the wound with water in disguise.

The moment the cotton swab soaked in water touched the wound, Xu Liangyun hissed lightly, but he didn't hide, and only frowned slightly.

"Does it hurt?" Chen Yan said, "Good boy, it won't hurt anymore, we can get better sooner with the medicine."

Xu Liangyun muttered "Mmm".

Statement Yan stared at his face intently, and treated his wound with a cotton swab.The statement was so close that Xu Liangyun could see both of his eyes clearly.

He saw the sparkle in Chen Yan's eyes, all of them were Xu Liangyun.

Xu Liangyun lowered his eyes.

Pudding didn't know when he came closer, lying next to Xu Liangyun, and started whining, as if he was also worried.

Xu Liangyun stroked the dog's head carelessly with his right hand.

Pudding took his right hand with his paw, lowered his head, and lay on his arm.

After Chen Yan finished dipping the wound with water, he unscrewed the iodophor, and then dipped the iodine to disinfect the wound on his face.

Xu Liangyun frowned lightly and endured.He stared at the statement with disgust, but his eyes were dim.

After finishing everything with iodophor, Chen Yan touched Xu Liangyun's face, then withdrew his hand and smiled: "Okay."

Xu Liangyun looked at him, his Adam's apple moved up and down.

Xu Liangyun sighed softly, stretched out his hand, took Chen Yan's hand, and called him softly: "Gan Yan."

"Ok?"

"Some things... I don't know how to say it." He said, "I just thought, since you're back, I have to get along with you."

Statements are boring.

He knew what Xu Liangyun was going to say, so he put away his smile, lowered his eyes, took out his other hand, and held Xu Liangyun with both hands, and while stroking his hand, he replied softly.

"I know I have to get along well with you, I can't be sick anymore." Xu Liangyun said, "The doctor told me that in your situation with me, PTSD is very likely to become a dual mental disorder...it is contagious. You might get stress disorder from me."

"I don't want you to be like this. I really don't want to. This sickness is uncomfortable."

"I don't want you to be afraid anymore. I said that I want to make you feel at ease, but in the end I need you to comfort me not to be afraid... To be honest, I feel ashamed."

"No, no embarrassment." Chen Yan said, "You..."

Xu Liangyun said, "But I'm a policeman."

Statements: "..."

"I know it all, but when I think about how I left you in the ICU, I can't get out. Really, I know, no matter what reason I have... I can't leave you there alone ah."

"It hurts you so much." He said, "What a bastard I am.... I have thought many times in the past five years that I make you hate me so much now, probably because of myself. I don't want to face it, so I make you hate me." Me, I have a reason not to face it... I really, the more I think about it, the more I feel like an asshole."

"Me too."

"I don't even know what I was doing at the time...Really, why didn't I go and see you."

"I regret it very much." Xu Liangyun said, "I'm really sorry for you.... As soon as I thought about it, I felt that if I walked out so easily and forgot all of this so easily... then for you... ...It was too unfair to you at the time."

"I know you'll think so." Statement said angrily, "Do you remember what I said?"

Xu Liangyun nodded.

"You said you want me to be happy." Xu Liangyun said.

"I said I don't want to be fair." Chen Yan said, "It's not you who said I was unfair to me, but Ye Xia."

Xu Liangyun fell silent.

He lowered his eyes and pursed his lips tightly.

"I also said that we are all victims. It's not easy for you, and it's not easy for me, that's it, that's all."

"Don't say it's unfair, fairness has always been there. Ye Xia was caught and sentenced to death, and a policeman named Xu Liangyun gave me fairness long ago."

Xu Liangyun was startled and raised his head.

Chen Chen looked at him and said: "It's just that he took a lot of risks for this fairness, and I feel sorry for him now. He said he was sorry for me, so it should be me who decides whether to forgive him - I forgive him, I Don't blame him."

"Thank you for his hard work."

Chen Yan smiled wryly, looked at Xu Liangyun and said, "I hope he can come out soon, raise a dog with me, pick the most beautiful flowers under the sun, buy them for me, and give them to me. Kiss me well."

Xu Liangyun opened his mouth slightly, but couldn't make a sound.

The corners of his mouth were trembling, his eyes were red again, and he slowly leaned over to hug the statement.

He said sorry, he finally couldn't restrain himself, and he cried out in a muffled voice.His voice was still hoarse, he couldn't cry loudly, he was out of breath and choked up intermittently, saying sorry, sorry.

Statement Yan held him in his arms, patted his back, without saying a word.

Come out, Xu Liangyun.

State your disgust, come out.

Come out, come back to look at me, come back to love me.

As always, be brave.

Pudding seemed to have sensed it, and it followed, stretched out its claws, and pressed Xu Liangyun.

Statement is tired of looking at the past, seeing the look of worry and distress in its eyes.

It knows everything.

Statement tired of thinking, could not help but a wry smile.

Xu Liangyun held him and cried for a long time.But after crying this scene, he got better a lot, and he didn't lose his mind a few times that afternoon.

After the onset of the disease, his legs were weak, and he lay on the bed listlessly for half an afternoon. Chen Yan lay with him and chatted with him one after another, but most of the time they stayed together quietly and watched together. The view from the window.

Although there was nothing to see, the two of them still lay down together until dark.

Xu Liangyun watched the sky outside gradually darken, and couldn't help sighing: "What a waste of time."

"It's good." Chen Yan said, "Time is just wasted."

Xu Liangyun smiled.

In the evening, they made something to eat.Chen Yan planned to take Xu Liangyun for a walk with the dog, but Xu Liangyun was afraid that he would get sick outside, so he refused to go.Chen was disgusted and afraid that something might happen to him at home, so he had no choice but to give pudding half an apple and half a bowl of broth, and he coaxed it to say that your father is not doing well recently, so he will not go out for the time being.

Pudding was an understanding little dog, and he forgave him with two loud barks.

Chen Yan smiled wryly, and said that when your father is well, we will take you to play together.

Pudding was very happy and barked twice more loudly.

In the next few days, Xu Liangyun recovered well.Three days passed in a blink of an eye, and nothing happened to him. The number of times he was stupefied became less and less day by day, and he never fell ill again.

Thinking about it carefully, probably what Chen Yan said that day really pulled him out completely, he was really getting better slowly, and even those who were careful were showing signs of going back.When he was grinning at the statement, he gradually had a shadow of five years ago.

While being happy about this, the statement was a little helpless, and he couldn't help thinking that he would have had a good talk with him if he had known this before, and asked him what he thought, if he had said these words earlier, then nothing would have happened.

Then he thought about it again, and he didn't think so.After all, when Xu Liangyun got this disease, he would definitely close his heart to some extent, maybe he wouldn't tell if he asked him.It was probably because of his illness that day, not only did he not blame him for his disgust, but he even suppressed his own fear to coax him. After this, he couldn't bear it and said those words out of his mouth.

But anyway, he's moving forward.

That's it.