smoke like fire

Ms. Zhao called to ask me if I would like to watch a movie.

I thought about it, and there was nothing wrong with it, so I accepted the appointment.

It seems that a date like today has never happened in two years.Halfway there, the call came again, and it was still Ms. Zhao.She said: "It seems to be raining outside, otherwise why don't you watch a movie and drink tea instead."

I looked out the front window glass.The sky is gray and not very good, it seems that it will rain at any time.The weather in winter is often like this, and it may not really rain.But I've always been negotiable.

The two agreed to go to Jinghua. It was around four o'clock in the afternoon, and there were more cars on the road, so there was a delay in arriving.I went into the atrium and saw a tall Christmas tree covered with colorful lights at the entrance of the cafe, with snowflake decorations hanging on the top, which was full of atmosphere.The waiter at the front desk even wore a Santa costume.And it was only November.

I went up to ask and the waiter led me to a table.

Miss Zhao is here.She was dressed plainly and sat drinking coffee.Hearing the sound, she looked over.Under the brownish-yellow lamp shadow, that air seems to be soft.She smiles at me.

I went over and said, "I've been waiting for a long time, there is a little traffic jam on the road."

Miss Zhao put down her coffee and said with a smile, "It's okay, I can just sit quietly for a while."

I smiled, took off my coat and sat down.The waiter handed over the meal book and walked away.I flipped through the pages by myself, and suddenly heard Ms. Zhao say, "I didn't expect Taipei to be so cold."

I looked at her and said, "There seems to be a cold snap these days. But compared to Boston, Taipei can be said to be warmer."

Ms. Zhao smiled, "That's right. I heard from Danny that it has snowed there in the past two days. It's only November now, and the weather is really getting weirder and weirder."

Danny is Miss Zhao's new fiance.But it was an old man, her second husband, Mr. Tan.The two reunited a year ago.

I'm just a little perfunctory.At this time, the waiter came to ask for food order, I ordered coffee, and Ms. Zhao ordered another dessert.Afterwards I chatted with her, and what I talked about was insignificant; it was nothing more than what she saw when she came back this time.She sighed that Taipei seemed to have changed a lot.

I listened to her and looked at her, and I also felt emotional in my heart.She also becomes a lot.Of course it still looks beautiful and more radiant.But it seems to be content with everything.The sharpness and unruliness in her temperament seemed to have disappeared.

Just can't think of it.However, there are too many unexpected things in this world.

Half a year ago, I went to Hong Kong for a meeting. One night, a bank director I knew locally treated me to dinner at Lung King Heen in the Four Seasons Hotel. A group of people went, and I also went.Leaving the banquet, talking to someone at the door, I suddenly heard accosting.I didn't immediately recognize that it was Miss Zhao.

I feel really strange.

She was not alone that day, with a man beside her.The two seemed close.It was only later that I found out that it was Mr. Tan.It was their friends who were also entertaining guests at the same place.

This can be said to be an old acquaintance in a foreign country, but I am not particularly happy or embarrassed.I really can't tell what kind of feeling it is.I still remember the last meeting, which ended unhappy.After that time, there has been no contact since then.

The incident with Ms. Zhao was settled after reconciliation, and that's it.But she didn't seem to be active again as before, and she wasn't seen for a long time.It was a long time later that I heard that she had left Taiwan.The immediate reaction is only a moment, and after recollection, I don't know the emotion.Just when she went to Switzerland, it turned out to America.

At that time, after a little pleasantries, they all rushed away.

I'm still in Hong Kong.We stayed for a week in total, and that was the third day.The day before I was about to leave, I received a phone call.It's a number I haven't seen before.Then, it was Miss Zhao's voice, asking me about the next day's meal.

Later she said to me: "I didn't expect that your number is still the same, and you haven't changed it."

I didn't say anything at the time.I didn't want to accept the appointment that time, because I was too rushed and had to arrive at the airport before noon.Although going back early and late, it doesn't affect the company.After thinking this way, I asked the secretary to change the ticket.

Later, Mr. Tan also ate together.Fang knew that Miss Zhao met him again in Boston.The two happened to have no company by their side, each had their own experiences, and they soon walked back together.

They soon decided to remarry.Mr. Tan himself is a native of Hong Kong, and his family immigrated to the United States when he was a child.That time I came back to visit relatives and friends, and then they would go to Taiwan together.

I wish them well, and there is nothing else to talk about.He is not familiar with Mr. Tan, and the friendship with Ms. Zhao is delicate, and it is difficult to talk about the topic.For some reason, it is also separated by a layer, and it is unfamiliar everywhere.She probably also felt that she didn't use the intimate tone she used to.

After dinner that time, I left without much delay.

It is absolutely unexpected that there will be a next meeting.It was at the airport and I only saw Ms. Zhao.She had been in Taiwan for more than a month to visit relatives, and that time she was going to fly back to Boston.She's changing planes in New York.

I was also going to New York at that time.In the past two years, I often have to go back and forth between the two places like this.Every time I go, I stay for about a month.It is a cooperation with Chen Liren, mainly for overseas markets.Due to the large size of the project, each link must be carefully detailed.It is also because the interests and conditions are all negotiable, and the bottom line has to be constrained in doing things, so he simply kisses the front line.Moreover, it is necessary to inspect the situation of other local branches.There is so much more to do now than ever before.

Because we were on the same flight that time, we couldn't help talking more.Ms. Zhao mentioned the situation after going to the United States, but she was very understated.Of course we also talk about current situation.But they all seem to be afraid to stop, their tone is hasty, there is something wrong, and they are about to jump to a topic suddenly.Really nothing to talk about. ... After that, I met him several times, all at the airport, and sometimes I could see Mr. Tan.Gradually, Ms. Zhao seemed to be familiar with each other again.But it's no longer the way it used to be.When she returns to Taiwan, she sometimes calls. If she asks to meet up, I always refuse.

only today.

The coffee and snacks were delivered quickly, and the waiters put everything on the table one by one.For some reason, Ms. Zhao and I were silent for a while.In fact, I just said some irrelevant things.

After the waiter walked away, Ms. Zhao reached out to pick up a sandwich that was cut into cubes on a white porcelain plate.She took it and didn't eat it. She looked at it and smiled at me: "I often make this to eat now. It's not so fancy. It uses sliced ​​ham and cheese, sandwiched between buttered white bread, and puts it in the oven for a while. Just coax."

I raised my eyebrows slightly.In the past, Ms. Zhao didn't move her hands when she entered the kitchen, she only moved her mouth.She can tell a good meal.Unexpectedly, Yin said: "Really? You can do it?"

Miss Zhao smiled and said, "You don't seem to believe it."

I smiled and said, "It's not that I don't believe it, it's just that it's hard to imagine you cooking."

Miss Zhao was silent, but there was still a smile on the corner of her mouth.She put down the sandwich, didn't eat it, and said softly, "I went out at the time, and I had to live alone. There was no aunt or nanny, so I had to do everything myself."

I said, "Why don't you ask someone to help? It's not difficult to find a local helper."

Ms. Zhao smiled, lowered her eyes, and said, "At that time, I thought, I might not be able to rely on myself—I was really angry. Why did I go to the United States? It was because I couldn't stay in Taiwan. You don't know , although the reconciliation has been made, some harassing continues... I’ll forget it myself, and my parents’ side is not clean. It’s really not an option if I don’t leave.”

I don't speak.

Ms. Zhao continued: "At that time, my family gave me a sum of money, which was simply - I really didn't want to use it. After the reconciliation, I only had a little savings left in my hand, and it seemed like I was fleeing when I went to the United States. I didn't bring anything important. There is still a house over there, and it’s really a new start alone.” After a pause, he raised his eyes to look at me, “Now that I think about it, I should thank those reporters, otherwise I wouldn’t have met Danny again.”

I heard her continue: "Although, many people think that we are together too soon. Sometimes when I think about the things I had quarreled with him before, I also feel that it is impossible not to quarrel now, and we will quarrel in the future. But no matter what , it’s good to have someone to accompany, and it’s someone who has known each other before.”

I look at her.She smiled slightly.

"You must think that I've never cooked, don't you?" She suddenly changed the subject: "I guess wrong, I cooked a long time ago, when I first got married with the third one, I still learned how to cook Chinese food, but I have learned and learned, only scrambled eggs are better, but in fact they are not very good, because I do it every day——" After a pause, he smiled and said: "Remember, Kuan Yi had to make scrambled eggs every day before going to school. eat."

I was silent and just picked up my coffee.

She also fell silent afterwards, and it took a long time before she opened her mouth: "You and him—" After a pause, she asked, "Do you know the latest report?"

I put down my coffee without answering.But how could you not know?You can always hear about Zhao Kuanyi, and the weekly magazine never misplaces celebrity gossip entertainment.There are many things about him in the past, and of course we have seen them often in the past two years.Every time the female partner in the magazine is different, until last month.

The new female companion is not a stranger, it is He Baoling, and the two have been photographed by reporters many times.It seems to be fixed in the future.

Their wedding date was widely circulated in social circles.Of course I can hear it.Once Wang Ziyang was drunk and asked me if it was true.I didn't answer because he vomited again.

At this moment, Ms. Zhao said: "Probably true. Mom and Dad are talking about it. But I didn't hear Kuan Yi say it himself—but he always only talks about things with his grandparents." See if I don't speak, Then said: "Frankly speaking, I don't like that girl very much. She is very good, but she doesn't know how to speak."

I couldn't help teasing her: "Hey, I remember you used to like her very much, don't tell me, you didn't have any intention of matching them back then."

Ms. Zhao was silent, and then said: "Then I don't like it now."

I laughed silently.

When Miss Zhao saw it, she also smiled.She remained silent for a while, and then suddenly said: "Actually, I didn't really blame you at that time."

I looked at her and said flatly, "I understand."

Ms. Zhao didn't say anything first, and suddenly seemed to be unable to bear it, and said: "No matter how bad I am, I am Kuan Yi's mother. It is unimaginable to suddenly know that you are in that kind of relationship. You are always close to him, and I never Doubt, I don’t think there is such a possibility at all, I didn’t expect you to lie to me for so long.” Looking at me, “I don’t understand, Kuan Yi has always been sensible, he is not someone who can be led by the nose, why doesn’t he know you guys? That doesn't work."

I can only be silent.

Ms. Zhao also fell silent, and said in a low voice for a long time: "But I think, some things are known to be impossible, but I still have to break through, so it seems that I can understand."

That tone seemed to be lost, and I couldn't help but look at her very carefully.Her face was still calm.She was asking: "After all this time, are you—are you still—to him?"

I remain silent.It's not because I don't know how to answer, but because I understand too much.Every time I think about such an emotion, my emotions will surge.My heart is always very stimulated.

After a long time, I said, "It has never changed."

Miss Zhao was silent, but seemed to be stunned.She lowered her eyes, as if looking at the table, and suddenly picked up the spoon and stirred the coffee.The action was hasty, as if impatient.The spoon clicked again and again against the rim of the glass.For some reason, I suddenly felt harsh.

At this moment, it seemed that there was nothing more to say.

Miss Zhao first said she wanted to leave.She will be in Taiwan for a few more days, and she said goodbye at the door, "If you still have time in two days, let's have dinner together."

I said, "We'll talk about it later."

Miss Zhao got into the car and left.I'm also going to pick up the car.

When the car drove on the Xinsheng Viaduct, it suddenly started to rain. The road was smooth, but the speed gradually slowed down and even stopped, forming a long queue of cars.I simply lit up my cigarette and turned on the radio in the car.It happened to be a road report, saying that there was a car accident on the bridge here, not far ahead.

I put my hands on the steering wheel and looked out of the car window. It was raining heavily, and all the scenery under the water was blurred.It seems that sometimes memory too.Really rather.The past is always in my heart, and I can't forget it.But as much as I miss it, I dare not think about it.

Today I don’t know if it’s because of the rain, or what Ms. Zhao said, I recall a lot; it’s been so long—the former ones, really the former ones.

Thinking about it now, I really can't imagine being able to speak so decisively at the beginning.After that, I called Zhao Kuanyi, but he never answered.I didn't bother afterwards either.For fear of saying sorry.But this is something that cannot be said to him.I understand very well that even if I do it all over again, I still make the same choice.I don't think I'm doing it right, but I can't be wrong either.

Two years is such a long time, it is impossible for Zhao Kuanyi and I not to meet each other.He's not one to run away all the time.I first thought about what to say when I saw it, but when I saw it, I didn't say a word I thought about it.Because there are many people around, there are very few things that can really be said.There will never be a single situation.

Later, I didn't even have many opportunities to meet each other for entertainment. Mainly, I often went abroad, and he was not free, and he didn't go on some occasions.The last time I saw him was September.

Sometimes I feel as if I'm going to forget what he looks like, but I can always remember it.Time is too fast and too slow.Too fast to forget, but too slow to love him.

On this Saturday, I went to my father's place in the morning.

Father still lives in Tamsui.He and Ms. Xu were not married, but only mentioned that Xu Chengcheng recognized his ancestors.Now his body has recovered very well, without a cane, even going out alone is not a problem.

When he just got up, he said he would go to the company to have a look, but he didn't go there after that, and even the board of directors seldom came to the meeting.Since then, he has hardly asked about the company.Maybe I really recognized my old age.

When I arrived, I had just gotten out of the car when suddenly a car honked its horn behind me.When I turned my head, a white Volkswagen was approaching, so I slowed down.

The window near me rolled down.Zhong Wenqi was in the driver's seat, she shouted: "Wait for me to go in together." She stopped the car in front.

I waited for a while before Zhong Wenqi got out of the car with a big bag in her arms.When I saw that they were all baby products, I couldn't help saying: "Auntie can just ask my aunt to buy these things. Why do you have to go all the way by yourself?"

Zhong Wenqi said: "I'm used to picking by myself, besides, I can take a breather, you know, mom moved back again."

The last sentence vaguely carried a hint of unbearable.I didn't answer.The mother in her mouth is Ms. Xu.She and Xu Chengcheng registered their marriage half a year ago.Because of having a child.But the two had no choice but to get married, but Ms. Xu was very reluctant.She never wanted them to be together.

As for the father, he didn't object, but he was not happy that they were married first.Because Zhong Wenqi had a big belly, the wedding had to be postponed, which was very unseemly in his eyes, but he could only ask them to complete the registration quickly.

It was also because of this incident that Ms. Xu had a dispute with her father.Ms. Xu left even more angry and refused to go back.Of course my father lost his temper, and went to the hospital after a few days saying he was not feeling well.Soon afterwards, Xu Chengcheng brought Zhong Wenqi to live with his father.

And Zhong Wenqi gave birth to a child two months ago.It's a girl.They already had an aunt in their family who took care of their father, but they had more children and hired a nanny.Before the child was about to be full moon, Ms. Xu moved back.Now is a very lively moment.

All the way from the outside to the house, Zhong Wenqi said, "Since Mom came back, I have to meddle in the children's affairs every day. I have already hired a nanny. Xu Chengcheng also told her to leave it alone, but I have to tell her more. , she was about to shed tears for Xu Chengcheng to see, she couldn't stand it!"

I said nothing.After entering, Zhong Wenqi finally stopped talking.The father was in the living room, sitting on the single sofa seat, watching the nanny hugging and coaxing the baby.The child had just turned two months old, and was still very young. He kept silent, but opened his eyes and stared at people.

Father's face was flat, but his brows seemed to be very satisfied with the moment.Seeing me and Zhong Wenqi come in, it seemed that I reluctantly looked away.

I can't talk about feeling for a while.

Zhong Wenqi called him first: "Dad, I'm back."

Father responded in a low voice and looked at me.

I said, "Dad."

Father nodded, pointed to another sofa, and said, "Sit down."

I went to sit down.Zhong Wenqi didn't sit down, but hugged the big bag, called the nanny, and teased the children at the same time.The two went to the corridor together, just in time to meet Ms. Xu who was coming downstairs.

Zhong Wenqi called Mom.I didn't hear how Ms. Xu agreed, but she immediately looked towards the living room.Seeing me, he paused and nodded slightly.She let Zhong Wenqi go, walked down quickly, without looking at her father, and called her aunt to the kitchen.

When he couldn't see them, his father asked, "When did you come back to Taiwan?"

I replied: "Monday."

The father asked again: "Is everything going well?"

I said: "It's all good."

My father seemed to think of it and said: "I heard that you plan to increase the development projects in Seattle. The global market is still affected by Europe, or take insurance."

I said, "I have plans, and I'm just starting to evaluate it now, and I'll make a decision at that time."

Father nodded and said nothing.At this time, Ms. Xu came over holding a tea tray.The above two cups of tea, probably just brewed, are steaming.She put a glass in front of me, offered me a drink, and handed the other to my father.

Ms. Xu said, "Drink it while it's hot to be effective."

Father frowned slightly, his face seemed a little cramped.He still took it.

Ms. Xu looked at me and said with a polite smile: "The cup your father drank is herbal tea. It is specially formulated by a Chinese medicine doctor. It is very good for health."

I was silent and just took a sip of tea.

The father coughed, put down the glass, and said, "Wen Qi has been upstairs with the child for a long time, please go and help."

Ms. Xu said: "There is a nanny here." But she still answered my father, smiled at me again, and asked: "Then let's eat here later."

I put down my tea and said, "I still have things to do, no need."

My father glanced at me, but said nothing.Ms. Xu didn't ask any more questions, and walked away to go upstairs.Only then did the father speak: "When are you going to visit your mother?"

I didn't expect him to ask, but I replied, "Next month."

The father seemed to hesitate, and then said: "I talked to your mother on the phone two days ago. I don't know if you are clear. Your mother made friends in England."

I said: "Oh, I knew it earlier, I think that's very good."

My father was silent for a while, and then said: "I don't mean anything, you just need to know." He looked at me, and after a pause, he said: "I also want to say that you are about to have plans to get married, see If there is anything suitable, settle it quickly.”

I was silent for a moment, and said, "I probably won't get married."

The father seemed unable to respond and did not make a sound.

I have thought a lot about getting married and starting a family in the past two years.I really didn't think about it before, or subconsciously avoided it.Because the family itself is not a good model of imagination.Before Zhao Kuanyi, there were men and women, men needless to say, and they didn't think about that at all.But women, I don't seem to have considered any of them.

When I was with Zhao Kuanyi, because of too many reasons, I didn't dare to think deeply.It is also not sure enough, and the happy time is so short.And because it has always been profound, now I can't even imagine the situation where I marry a woman.

At this time, the father probably came back to his senses, and he said, "Why don't you get married?"

I wasn't going to explain to him, and said, "Anyway, I don't have any plans right now."

Father frowned, looking like he was going to have a fit, there was movement in the corridor.It was Zhong Wenqi who came downstairs, holding the child in her arms, followed by the nanny.The child is crying.

Father paid attention to the past, frowned and asked, "Why are you crying like this?"

Zhong Wenqi said with a smile: "I haven't stopped coaxing for a long time, I probably want to find grandpa. Dad, you can hug her." She came closer and handed out the child in her hand.

The father was still sullen, but reached out to take the child.He hugged, frowned slightly, and slowly patted the child's back with his hand.Looking at this scene, I don't feel any mood, a little numb.

I looked at my watch and said, "I have to go."

When the father heard it, his face seemed a little displeased.Probably because he was holding the child, it was not easy to have a seizure, he said: "Okay, you go first, and then come over after taking a look."

I stood up and said, "I'm going to Shanghai next week."

Father nodded slightly and said nothing.So I left.Zhong Wenqi came up behind, opened the door for me, and walked out with me.

I glanced at her and said, "Are you still going out?"

Zhong Wenqi said: "Oh, the guest is leaving, I should give it away."

I took out a cigarette, lit the fire, and said, "I am indeed a guest."

Zhong Wenqi said, "I don't mean anything."

I said, "You're just being to the point."

Zhong Wenqi seemed to be silent for a while and then said: "I heard you talking to Dad just now, are you really not married?"

I stood still in front of the outermost iron gate and looked at her, "How is it? Isn't this great? There will be fewer people to share property with your children."

Zhong Wenqi seemed to disagree, "Even if you don't get married, you can still have children."

I laughed and said, "Where am I going to have a baby?" After a pause, I suddenly wanted to say, "I don't want to have a baby at all."

Zhong Wenqi raised her eyebrows slightly, and said suddenly: "If I hadn't had an accident, maybe it wouldn't have happened."

I have no comment on this.

Zhong Wenqi looked at me and said suddenly: "You are not married, but someone is probably going to get married."

I glanced at her and said nothing.

Zhong Wenqi continued: "I have some contacts with He Baoling, and I heard a lot—"

I cut off her words: "Then congratulations on gaining a bosom friend—stop talking, I'm leaving, you go in."

Zhong Wenqi paused, and then said: "Next time you come, leave more time for dinner, by the way, you haven't seen a child today, next time you will be older than now."

I smiled, didn't speak, waved my hand slightly, opened the iron door and walked out.

The iron door closed heavily behind me, I took two steps and suddenly wanted to turn back.Zhong Wenqi's figure had gone away.I turned around after a while and left.

Leaving Danshui, I went to Qiu Yisen's place.

He has now opened a third hair salon, which is so busy that sometimes he can't even spare 10 minutes for a meal.Today's meeting was finally finalized, and I didn't go far away. On the same road, the shop opened by his boyfriend.

He catches up with me, flirts with his boyfriend at the same time, wastes no time.

I couldn't see it and complained to him, but instead he blamed me for not being single.He said: "To be honest, you should find someone to associate with. Anyway, it's all here."

I pretended to smile and asked, "Oh? How far?"

Qiu Yisen didn't talk about it, and he didn't mention this topic later.But I know what he means, probably he has also seen the speculation about Zhao Kuanyi's marriage date in the weekly magazine.Besides, in the past two years, he never persuaded me to take the initiative.He always thought that Zhao Kuanyi and I were not suitable.

Probably also really inappropriate.So that's how it ended.I am not suitable for Zhao Kuanyi.He should have found a better one.He said before that he is not someone who will not get married.If it weren't for me, he might have been able to choose a good marriage partner very early.

Maybe he did find it.

This winter is colder than ever, just entering December, it is already too cold.It was raining again, and I felt like I was immersed in icy water all day long, and my body smelled soaked.Of course, no matter whether it is cold or not, life must be lived.When I get busy, I don't care about the weather at all.

I made an early schedule to go to England.This time, I went not only to visit my mother, but also to attend a wedding banquet.The bride is the cousin's daughter.

Before that, I went to Shanghai.The secretary also went along.The plane landed at Pudong Airport at around three o'clock in the afternoon.

After passing through the customs, the secretary called the people in Shanghai. I walked in front and suddenly saw Zhao Kuanyi.He's not far ahead.He didn't notice it.He was surrounded by two respectable persons, one of whom was talking to him.The three of them walked all the way, heading in one direction.

I was stunned for a long time, almost thinking that I was wrong.But it was indeed Zhao Kuanyi.

Of course he was still the same, always good-looking, always cold.I didn't know what he was doing in Shanghai. I couldn't help guessing that maybe he was on the same flight just now, and my heart suddenly trembled.

But I didn't call him.

So what if you shouted?It's not that I didn't try my best to speak up in the past two years. I don't know what the situation is.Now he probably pretended not to hear.Besides, he walks very fast.I don't think I'll see him here either.But in the next few days, I always have to be distracted, thinking that he might just happen to be nearby.

However, until I went back, I never saw it again.

In mid-December, I went to England as scheduled.

In addition to the mother, the person who picked up the plane also had one of her boyfriends.It's a middle-aged white man of British descent named Logan.This is not the first time we have met.He is a lawyer, lives in London, and is an elder friend of his cousin's daughter.I met my mother because of an event.For their relationship, I was only surprised at first.Because I thought that my mother should not talk about feelings at least for a short time.But always happy to see it happen.

Mother still lives in Canterbury with her cousin, and she and Logan only see each other on holidays.For this wedding, Logan was of course also invited.He drove to my mother the day before, and came to pick me up again today.

When the car drove out of the airport, it started to rain suddenly.It wasn't raining much, but it was foggy, and it was gray and gray as far as the eye could see, a bit bleak. While driving, Logan said, "Hey, the weather has been fine these two days. However, I think it will stop in about ten minutes, it's all like this."

Mother smiled and agreed.I didn't make a sound, just looking out the window at the scene that went away.I was tired due to the jet lag, and I seldom talked along the way, mostly my mother and Logan were chatting.After a while, the rain really stopped.And the car slowly left London.

The wedding banquet is tonight at my aunt's house.But it's more like a cocktail party.My aunt's daughter and her wife had completed the registration procedures as early as October.Because they have too many friends, they have held two large wedding banquets, this time for my cousin's friends in this place.

It started at about five o'clock in the evening, and many guests arrived one after another.Some have seen it before, and some are seeing each other for the first time.Everyone gathered in the decorated living room, served wine and food, listened to the music played in turn on the stereo, and talked and laughed easily.

There are two female college students living in my aunt's house, who help my aunt greet guests with her mother.I talk to Logan.Ronnie, the cousin and neighbor who can always be seen, also came later. He brought two glasses of wine and joined our conversation.

After a while, the two brides appeared.They don't wear wedding dresses, only short white dresses, and their faces are filled with the joy of being newly married.They walked forward arm in arm, and everyone was quiet.

My aunt's daughter, Mrs. Ling, addressed everyone, thanking everyone, especially my aunt.My cousin's life was not easy. She married far away in England, but her marriage was unfortunate. It took a lot of effort to finally get a divorce.She raised her daughter alone, but she has no old ideas, adopts tolerance, and supports her daughter in all choices, including accepting the fact that her daughter is gay.The listeners were all moved.Auntie stepped forward and hugged them.

"I'm so happy that I have another daughter," she told her daughter's other half.

Everyone clapped their hands.

The three of them raised their glasses of wine to pay their respects.Everyone also raised their glasses to congratulate.The music started again, with a brisk rhythm, and the man sang Ifeelitinmytoes, Loveisallaroundme...

The two brides danced with their cousins.Everyone also hugged each other and swayed to the tune.Some didn't dance, but they were all excited and happy, full of enthusiasm.

Logan dragged his mother to dance too.The two faced each other, with arms around their waists.Mother seemed a little cramped, but slowly relaxed, letting Logan lead the steps.

I watched quietly on the side, and walked to the door in a while.There were several cars parked on the lawn in front of the house, and it seemed that only this place was lit, and it was dark and very quiet.It seems that there is an exceptionally vigorous atmosphere here.

I took out a cigarette and lit it, and sat down on the front steps of the house.

Laughter came from behind, and the music changed to a lighter one.After a while, there were faint footsteps behind me, and I looked back, and it was the girl from Holland who lived here.

She sat down next to me, it seemed, "Hi."

I just smile.

"Can I have a cigarette?" she asked.

I handed her the cigarette case.She took one and borrowed another fire.She took a sharp sip as if she was greedy, but when she choked, she coughed forcefully.

I couldn't help laughing and said, "Be careful."

She asked, "What kind of smoke is this?"

I said, "I rolled it myself."

She took the cigarette in her hand and looked at it, "Your skills are so good, you can't tell."

I smiled and didn't speak.She finished that cigarette anyway.She gets up and walks away.I was still sitting and heard the song in the room change back to the original one.

Singing, You know I love you, I always will, My mind's made up by the way that Ifeel, There's no beginning, there'll be no end...

I listened quietly and smoked slowly.It reminds me of a wedding I attended a long time ago.I think of the happiness at that time, and I can't help but feel sweet.But aftertaste, sour and bitter.The world is unpredictable, how could it have been thought of now.How did you expect those accidents to happen.Nor did I expect to have to make a choice.

Time is still too fast, two years in a blink of an eye.Or Zhao Kuanyi has really changed.But I know myself, and I still love.No matter what.

I have been in England for a week.This is the longest vacation in two years.Still, Logan drove me to the airport with my mother.

After picking up the luggage, Logan went back to the car, but his mother was still standing. She suddenly said, "I know you have a lot of things to do, but you should pay more attention to your body and don't be too tired."

I said: "I will pay attention."

My mother glanced at me and said, "You should also smoke less."

I answered vaguely.Mother was silent for a while, and then said: "I heard from your father that you are not married. I don't have any opinion. What he says is his business. It is also your business. Whether you get married or find someone is up to you." It's your decision."

I looked at my mother and remained silent for a long time.She stopped talking later and got into the car.I watched the car drive away before I dragged my luggage into the airport hall.

Before boarding the plane, I got a call.It was Ye Wenli.After he got married, he followed his wife and family to England.I keep in touch with him all the time.But when he got married, I didn't go.

He asked me about my return date.I smiled and said, "You're too late, I'm going to get on the plane soon."

He said: "I thought you would stay for a few more days, my wife said she would treat you to dinner."

I smiled and said, "Next time, or if you come back, I'll treat you couple to dinner."

He smiled, paused, and asked, "Really go back so soon?"

I smiled and said, "Of course, but I have to go to New York first, and I plan to stay there for three days before returning to Taiwan."

He laughed and said, "It's really not easy to be a boss."

I smiled.After talking to him a few more words, I hung up the phone.It was almost time, I got on the plane and turned off my phone.

It takes about eight hours from London to New York, and when we arrive, it is already night