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"Remember, Lena, Joe Castle is your forever home."

She heard this sentence twice, one time when her father brought her into this world as a young child, he stroked her head lovingly, and the second time - Countess Tira at her father's funeral Later, I told her personally in a private conversation.

She always remembers this sentence, whether she is provoking those noble ladies who are lower than her, or when she talks with various nobles in daily life.

Because of this sentence, she won a status and a comfortable life that ordinary people can hardly get, and because of this sentence, she entered a world full of flowers and poisonous snakes, honey and poison/drug, so she engraved this sentence into herself In the bottom of my heart, in my flesh and blood.

Now, she wanted to dig out the muscles that were about to rot.

Linna, who was lost in memory, murmured: "...my mother?"

The faint light was ignited in the golden eyes, but it was dizzy into a blur in the next second.

"Yes, Linna, I found your mother's whereabouts."

At this moment, the voice of the Magda doll was extraordinarily soft, as if she was afraid that the peaceful night would be shattered inadvertently—shattered by the anger of the abandoned child. The sadness here seems to be just an illusion.

It's just that Magda heard it right—she heard it clearly.

"Honey, do you want to see your mother?"

"..."

"Who told you to call Miss Ben my dear! If you want to call...you have to ask my permission! Only then..."

Lina was silent for a long time, and turned the doll's eyes to the direction away from her, and retorted without thinking before thinking, which is really Linna's style.

She thinks that she has a complete family now, although her father is dead, her mother hates her existence, her half-brother is obsessed with his unique art, only Lawrence cares about her, and later, there is Mary Gerda - her lover, but she is doing so well, so well.

How can a biological mother improve the current life?Is it love?Maternal love?

Love can't give people bread, enthusiasm may be exchanged for cold stools, that's how she treated Magda, but Magda's thick skin can even warm cold stools, that can't be helped.

Love couldn't make her better, Magda always beat her at the ball, never lost to her, because she yearned for success, not for those who failed, she did.

To gain something is to lose something else, and Linna understands this deeply; from the past to the present, she always wants to have both, so greedy, keen on fashion, keen on prom, everything can make her When it comes to showing off, even if there are always more people laughing at her than praising her, she is only willing to hear other people's praise on her face and launched a fierce attack on those jealousy, so that she fell into the current situation.

Self-deception, she has always been.

Now, suddenly there is an opportunity to change this situation - to meet her biological mother.

Is the light seen from the darkness the flash of a hunter's gun?Is not the export of the bright sunshine?

she does not know.

What's there to see?Linna closed her eyes, then pressed down on the Magda doll, and lay on the bed.

Does she need maternal love?Can she give up her current life?How could a person who has been used to the noble life for more than ten years go back to be a commoner?Shut up in a dark room by a nervous mother, playing with the same boring toys worth a silver coin, and maybe being scolded, slapped, slapped at her—

"Losing money, why were you born? Why didn't I suffocate you in bed in the first place, instead of enjoying these dirty and cheap things?"

Why was she born?Maybe children who don't have that memory will only remember the gritted expression of Countess Tira, thinking that she is the crystallization of love, but the truth is often difficult to tell.

She was just an accident, accidentally destroying her mother's chastity, and accidentally destroying the perfect family and beautiful love of Countess Jocastel.

Her birth accidentally hurt too many people.

She didn't want to see her mother, that bad-tempered mother who was always melancholy; but, in the deepest part of her heart, she was softly calling her mother's name, the one she wanted to call out countless times but couldn't speak with her tongue. name.

Unice - her mother's name.

"Linna? If you don't want to see her, forget it."

Magda suddenly spoke, but what she didn't expect was that Linna turned the doll over and faced her face—she saw that beautiful face covered with sporadic tear stains, and her golden eyes were immersed in In the fog—she cried silently.

Lina, why are you crying?

Suddenly, Magda heard Linna speak.

"Magda", she called softly, there seemed to be a light in the depths of her eyes, faint but so tenacious, "I want to see Unice, I want... to see her."

"!"

One day more than ten years ago, the young Linna watched her mother read a book she could not read, and she was so focused that she didn't even know that the water in which her feet were soaking was cold.

So Linna called her mischievously, like a neighbor calling her mother.

"Uni (the child couldn't name her name), the water is cold! My feet are cold!"

"Linna, you said not to call me by my name!"

"Uni! Uni!" repeated playfully little Lina, laughing as brightly as the first rays of sunlight in the morning.

Unis, who came back to her senses, glared at her pretending to be unhappy, and flicked her little head, cut the candle wick under the dim light, and poured water to wipe her feet.

so gentle.

Her mother—— Linna laughed unconsciously.

Then, another rain blurred the night.

The author has something to say:

It feels so sad to write a chapter... Linna's mother is named Unice!As for the original book is called Shenma, don't call me.

Wu Nisi's occupation is also different, she is doing well...