my naughty boyfriend

Lin Yunjie and I were smoking cigarettes in the corridor, looking at the dark dome and the ochre-colored sunlight, I erected the cigarette I had only smoked in, and placed it in the sunlight, like a standing tower.I picked up my phone, took a picture, and posted it on Moments:

【Lecoucherdusoleil】

It's recess now, and many people can't get out of the classroom playing with their mobile phones, so after seeing Moments, many people liked it.

Yan Xiaoming also commented below: [What do you mean? 】

I smiled coldly.Reply: [sunset. 】

In fact, Yan Xiaoming sent me a lot of messages before, but I didn't read them and didn't reply. Instead, I set the messages as no reminders just like I did with Chen Wenjian.

This time I replied to her comment in the circle of friends, which made him feel that I was a little discouraged, so he started to push forward.

People are sensitive, and they have to scrutinize every detail they encounter. Yan Xiaoming is like this. When I replied to him, he thought it was right to think so.

In fact, wrong, I did not forgive him.

I don't know when to forgive, it's not my small belly, but what he said that day is still lingering in my ears, and it has been lingering in my ears.Every time I think about it, I feel pain and hatred in my heart.

Since Yan Xiaoming probably also knew that I would not reply to his WeChat messages, nor would he read his WeChat messages, so he simply chose to send me a text message: [Azhe, please, tell me where Min Xiao is. ? 】

It turned out that he sent me a message because of this matter, and he also came to me to apologize and may mention this matter.Yan Xiaoming's biggest mistake was time. At the wrong time, his head got hot and he fell into the pit he had fallen into. He also missed a worthy person at the wrong time.

But I have promised Zeng Minxiao not to tell Yan Xiaoming about him, so I'd better keep my word.

At this time, the class bell started to ring. In order to prevent Yan Xiaoming from calling me when he saw that I didn't reply to his message, I was going to turn off the phone.

I was sitting in my seat, and Xu Liyuan had already started giving lectures. When I was about to turn off the phone, Yan Xiaoming sent another text message: [Azhe, whether you reply to my message or not, whether you want to tell me or not, I just want to have If possible, tell him for me that I love him. 】

☆、2017/12/05-12/06

When I came to the library after dinner, I found that I couldn't go on at all.I don't know why, anyway, I just can't go on.

Zhou Yuan sent me a message saying that he would not be able to come tonight again, and the company had to go to a party again, and the boss asked him to drink.I thought that tonight Zhou Belly must be hangover No. [-] again, and I would have to be nervous again when I got home.

Lin Xueke looked at my expression and felt that something was wrong with me, so she ran over and asked me, "Huh? Why didn't that man come tonight?"

I laughed and said, "He's nothing to me, what is he here for?"

"Isn't that your cousin?" Lin Xueke flipped through the documents in her hand and looked down at me.

"He has something to do. He is afraid that I will work hard in the postgraduate entrance examination. Sometimes he will come to see me. I don't know what's going on tonight, so I didn't come."

Having said that, I suddenly remembered the specific reason.The content of the text message that Yan Xiaoming sent me in the afternoon has always left me wondering how to deal with it.

Zeng Minxiao still loves Yan Xiaoming, Yan Xiaoming seems to still love him, but Zeng Minxiao won't let me tell Yan Xiaoming's whereabouts, but Yan Xiaoming wants me to tell him.

Naturally, I, the middleman, was very uncomfortable being caught in the middle.

But after thinking about it, I still think it's better to pretend that I don't know anything. Now there is still a gap between me and Yan Xiaoming, and it's not easy for me to talk to him.Besides, I don't want to bother with him.Now I am completely on Zeng Minxiao's side. From Zeng Minxiao's point of view, Yan Xiaoming is a scumbag in my eyes.

Now that he suffered a loss, he ran back and asked Zeng Minxiao's whereabouts. Isn't this casting a wide net, and going after the other when one is gone?

"How is your political memorization?" Lin Xueke asked me.

I shook my head and said, "I've memorized two sets now, and I can't go on memorizing them anymore. There are too many sets. Although there are only four sets, there are about twenty pages in total. It's really terrible to memorize."

"I see that you often go to the corridor to memorize. It should be very effective, right? I have finished memorizing, but I forgot again, and I am going to memorize it again and again."

Finished memorizing?

I was taken aback.

"I always recite vocabulary when I go to the corridor, but I don't recite politics very much. I read silently."

Lin Xue smiled ridiculously, "Silent reading? You have to recite it aloud, and silent reading is ineffective. I basically do one set every day, and it feels good. You can't finish memorizing it in half a month with this method."

Is there something wrong with my method?

Maybe.

But I have basically forgotten all the things I have memorized before. There are too many things to memorize every day, and I feel that I can't hold so many things in my mind.

My mobile phone vibrated, I opened it and found that it was a message from Wang Yan.

【I'm going to buy the internal materials of Beijing Foreign Studies University. How much did you pay for the materials? 】

I didn't want to reply to Wang Yan's message, so I threw the phone away and continued to watch politics.What Lin Xueke said made me more motivated, but in fact it was still a lot of pressure. After all, his memory is so good, but my efficiency is so poor.

I looked around, this majestic palace-like library was spacious and quiet, like a cage, imprisoned me inside, I wanted to go out, but the cage made by my heart didn't allow me to go out at all.

When is this kind of day?I feel so painful, so lost, so directionless.The more it gets to this time, the worse my heart's ability to bear, it's like a thin layer of glass that will break when it hits the ground.

My phone continued to vibrate, I picked it up and looked at it casually, then put it in my schoolbag.I'm really irritable, Wang Yan is very lack of brain, just like Huang Ke, she can't think of some things at all.Just like buying BFSU materials, people bought them a long time ago, do you still have time to read them now?So I'm too lazy to reply, and I just smile at all mentally retarded questions.

She is really similar to Huang Ke, Huang Ke is the male version of "Xueba", but she is the female version.It's just that I don't have much contact with her, and I haven't had much trouble with her.Most of the girls hate her very much, saying that she is stubborn and stubborn.

Lin Xueke once told me that Wang Yan admired Huang Ke very much, because Huang Ke knew a lot of knowledge, especially literature and history.

So Lin Xueke and I both thought that these two were a natural match.

They have similar personalities, agree with each other, have the same experience of being hated by others, and have the same neurological brain that thinks about things.

I took a deep breath, looked at the books piled up like a mountain, and went to the stairs to recite politics.

After memorizing for an hour, I finally recited a set, and then I felt like my whole head was about to explode.

I went back to my seat and checked the time, it was nine o'clock in the evening.

Wang Yan has already sent me a lot of messages.I clicked in and took a look, she said that she had torn up with the seller, the set of materials cost two hundred and five in total, Wang Yan said that this number was unlucky, and asked the seller to make it 50 yuan cheaper, who knows that the seller disagreed with life and death, Wang Yan is fine, Come to me to vent.

I've never been a part of darker emotions before me, so I toss the phone and throw it in my bag again.

Next, I started to do grammar questions.Grammar questions are usually done when I am very, very tired, because the questions are relatively simple, but I can check for omissions and fill in the gaps.

By 09:30, I was ready to leave the library.I thought that Zhou Dupi would come back around ten o'clock in the evening every time he was drunk, and when I arrived at his home, it would be around ten o'clock.

I hung up my headphones and listened to music.It's cold outside and it looks like it's going to rain.Zhou Yuan told me to keep warm these two days, because the cold wave was coming again, so I wore a very long windbreaker, and the corners of the coat rolled up in the wind, and my face hurt.

The winter in Changsha is very terrible. It is different from the north. The north feels dry and cold, and the body temperature does not seem to be so low, but here it is damp and cold. When it is cold, it feels icy cold.

I don't even know how I survived high school.The dormitory in high school does not have air-conditioning. Although the weather forecast says the temperature is around 5 degrees, it is actually terribly cold. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night, and my feet are cold all night long.

Just like the feeling now, the wind is howling, and the cold wind is like a cold needle, blowing in through the loopholes, making my teeth chatter and my shoulders folded.

If only Zhou Yuan was here, I could sit in his car to avoid the cold.If only he hadn't gone drinking, I could live in a dorm and not have to travel so far.

Although Zhou Yuan told me not to go to his house and told me not to worry, in fact I was still worried, so I decided to go.

To catch the last train, I consider myself extremely lucky.I looked at the foggy window, and the night scene outside became blurred.I wiped the windows and my vision gradually became clearer.

I listened to "Road Trip" by Darin Zanyar. This song conformed to the temperature of the city's night scene at this time.

At around ten o'clock in the evening, I got off the bus, and soon after I came to Zhou Yuan's home, I found that he had returned.

When I entered the room, my little belly immediately pounced on me, as if I hadn't seen me for a long time, but it made me feel a little warmer.

I picked it up and found that it seemed to be a lot heavier than before.I kissed Little Belly's head and said, "Hey, have you had dinner yet?"

I pouted, with loving eyes, "You didn't eat after seeing it." I put it down, went to Zhou Yuan's room, and said to Little Belly, "Wait, I'll see what's going on with that drunk. Hey you."

Little Belly came in wagging his tail. I turned on the desk lamp, and found that Zhou Yuan was already fast asleep, with his clothes still on, but there was a smell of stinky socks.

I pinched my nose, threw his shoes out, and found a few unwashed clothes from the room, and threw the clothes and socks into the washing machine for washing. After that, I prepared dog food for Little Belly.

I went into the bathroom and took a shower, and found that the pressure has reduced a lot, and my whole body seems to be relaxed.After taking a shower, I was a little sober, so I went to the study to read a book for a while.The "Skins" was placed on the desk, and I tidied it up and put it in a drawer.

I accidentally saw a photo in the drawer. I picked it up and looked at it, and found that it was taken by Yan Xiaoming with a SLR camera on September 9, Zhou's birthday.That day, it seemed that I put a piece of meat into Zhou Yuan's mouth. Zhou Yuan's face was full of happiness, and my eyes were full of smiles. It's just that this picture has been edited. Wiping the light seems to have become a little brighter.

I smiled, put the photo back in the drawer, and started to read the book.At 0 o'clock, I finally couldn't hold on any longer. I picked up my phone and looked at it, preparing to reply to Wang Yan's message: [More than 300 yuan, what's wrong?I think 250 yuan is not bad, and it is not expensive. 】

Wang Yan seemed to be staring at her phone all the time, and quickly replied to my message: [Did you reply to Lao Tzu's message now?If I have a question for you, don't you fucking answer? 】

I thought to myself what happened to this girl?Why did he become so irritable all of a sudden?Because normally I think she is a relatively quiet girl, and she doesn't yell at me like she is now.

Even though many girls say that this person has neurological problems, I usually don't see it. This person studies quietly all day long, and I don't see any abnormalities in her.

Could it be that the real body is exposed now?

So I replied: [Sister, look at how many days are left for the postgraduate entrance examination.Do I have to keep looking at my phone just to reply to your messages? 】

But Wang Yan didn't continue to entangle me with this topic, and started to get nervous again: [I still bought that bitch's book for 250 yuan! 】

I thought to myself whether you bought it or not is none of my business?You came here to shout a fart?

Anyway, I thought she farted.I am so tired from studying every day. After I finish, I am not the one who comes to you and gets scolded and vented by you.

I went to Zhou Yuan's bedroom and found that it was filled with smoke.I turned on the light and found that Zhou belly was smoking a cigar.

I scolded: "Are you fucking drunk or fake drunk?"

Zhou Yuan was so blinded by the sudden bright light that he immediately covered his eyes and said, "So you're here, didn't I tell you not to come? It's so late, and it's so cold outside."

"You think I'm at ease?" I grabbed the cigar in his hand, took a puff, and extinguished it.

He took my hand and motioned me to bed.I let him go and he fell asleep in my arms.

"Honey, I'm sleepy, please turn off the light."

The switch in the room is actually very convenient. There is a switch by the door when you enter the door, and there is a switch by the bedside.I leaned slightly, pressed the switch, and turned on the desk lamp.

I lowered my head, stroked his hair, and said, "Go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow, it's not too early now."

Zhou Yuan didn't speak, he hugged my waist with both hands, and slept on my stomach, as if he was very comfortable.I looked down at him and touched his face. The thorny beard pierced my skin, and I shrank immediately.

My mobile phone continued to vibrate, I took it and opened it, and found that Wang Yan had sent me dozens of messages, each of which was so shocking.

[You fucking ignore me again?Do you think I am happy to talk to you?Aren't you fucking good at chatting normally?Why the fuck are you dumb today?Who do you think you are?How old are you?Why should I ask you! 】

I was so angry that I wished I could go over and slap this woman to death!

Then she sent another message: 【Please forget what I told you tonight. 】

I:【……】

After that, she started to scold again, and there were dozens of messages in one post, all scolding me.

I was still thinking, if this woman hadn't sent the message that made me forget what she said tonight, I would have blocked her a long time ago, and I would definitely have a face-to-face fight with her tomorrow.I am still worried that there is no place to release the pressure of my postgraduate entrance examination!

I don't know what kind of nerves this woman is having tonight, but no matter what, I think the pressure you encountered in your life or during the postgraduate entrance examination should not be vented on me!

So I threw the phone away and went to sleep with Zhou Yuan in my arms.

The next day I encountered a very painful thing, which seemed to hit me deeply, making me unable to find myself and direction.

I have an uncle who is now in Dongguan.I've always been upset with him, and he's actually upset with my whole family, but as far as I know, my parents have never done anything wrong to him. I don't know why he is upset with my whole family.

He is over 40, graduated from high school, and was a teacher when he was young.At that time, high school students were already very rare, so he was so popular at that time, and my aunt took a fancy to him.

The surface is glamorous, but in other people's mouths, he is also gentle and elegant, a high-end intellectual, but in fact he is a pious clown.He's the kind of person who has one thing on the surface, but another thing behind his back. He talks about people when he sees people, and talks about people when he sees ghosts. He praises you to heaven in front of you, and calls you a grandson behind your back.

Our family has not had an intellectual for a long time, and I can be regarded as "one of them".After I went to college, he started to be jealous and picked my faults everywhere, like picking bones in an egg, bad-mouthing my whole family, and saying behind my back that my major was useless and worthless.But when he was in front of me, he said that I was very promising, and told my cousin to learn from me.

I also turned a blind eye to these things, and just passed them.But what happened today is absolutely intolerable to me.

The thing is like this, because he hasn't contacted my parents for a long time, and occasionally he would come to ask about my health, pretending to care about my parents' recent situation, and sometimes asking about my situation.But because he changed his mobile phone and didn't have my parents' mobile phone number, he came to ask me.He looked at my WeChat screen name: I will not change my name if I am admitted as a research monk.So after asking for a mobile phone number, he sent a voice to ask me: "Are you taking the postgraduate entrance examination?"

I replied: "Yes."

So my uncle said angrily: "Don't take the exam, it's useless if you pass the exam, and even if you persevere to the end, you still won't pass the exam. Your undergraduate degree is not very good, and you can pass those 985 and 211 colleges." student?"

After I read this message, I cried, and in a fit of anger blocked my uncle and his cell phone number.

Because at that time I was struggling with the question of whether I could pass the exam, the pressure was surprisingly high recently, and I was overwhelmed. I had to memorize a mountain of materials. After memorizing them, I looked at those materials again, feeling frustrated. My heart is also very tired.

At this time, I am usually the most vulnerable, unable to bear any blow at all, I am afraid that a slight burden will be like the last straw that crushes the horse.

I seemed to have fallen into the abyss of grief, and I rushed to the stairs, and others were shocked when they saw me.

It was already the night of the 6th, and the evening wind was blowing, like a rolling wave. I was floating in the wave, as if I was torn apart by that powerful force, and I was riddled with holes and scattered into slag in an instant.

I frantically ran to the library, but no one stayed in front of the library at this time, because the air outside was too cold.

A face like a knife, a heart like a knife.

I lay down on a stone bench and burst into tears, but I didn't cry.

I have been weeping, or rather, unable to speak.

Why did I work so hard for so long, but became cannon fodder in the mouths of others?Why can't I get blessings from others for everything I work hard for?

why why why?

I really don't understand why.

My family treats you so well, and I didn't mess with you. Why do you treat me like this?

I continued to walk down, step by step, my heart beat again and again, and I couldn't calm down.I really want to shout at this moment, but I can't.

I burst into tears, and in the end it was gradually dried up, but new tears kept pouring out of my eyes.

Occasionally people pass by on the road, and when they pass by, they will look at me sitting on the side of the road, and I will bury my head in my arms in shame.

I was very cold, so cold that my whole body was icy cold, and my whole body seemed to be numb, because I only wore two clothes now, the inside was a short-sleeved summer dress, and the outside was a sweater.

I also won't go back and add more clothes, because I'm not thinking about keeping warm at the moment.I sobbed, looking at the bright yellow light from time to time, my eyes also became blurred.

I can't find anyone to talk to, and no one to comfort me.But I seem to hope so, because many times when I cry, I often cry silently, so that no one will find out.Even if someone came to me and asked me what happened, I would still shake my head and say nothing happened.

But when Dong Wei appeared in front of me, my tears still couldn't stop flowing, I don't know why, anyway, I just couldn't stop it.

Maybe when people are really sad, they cannot control themselves.

It was not even eight o'clock at that time, and Dong Wei came out of the library with his schoolbag on his back.He seems to have a habit of going to dinner very late, because he hates the time he enjoys eating but has to be exchanged for such a long queue.

He saw me, patted my shoulder, and asked, "Azhe, what's wrong with you? Why are you still crying?"

I quickly wiped away my tears, choked up and said, "No, really not."

"Brother, I have good eyesight. I can figure out what's on your face and your toes. How can you still fool me?"

Facing the sky, holding back my tears, I said, "I really don't."

But just after saying this sentence, my tears fell down again.

I am really in pain, when I think that my future is so frivolous, so useless, so difficult to touch, and my efforts are so worthless, I am very sad and very sad.

"Okay, okay, don't cry, I know you are under a lot of pressure, come on, it will feel better to stand up, don't sit down. God, you are dressed so lightly, aren't you cold?"

Then he helped me up, put down the backpack, took off my clothes and put it on me, put on my schoolbag again, put my shoulders on my shoulders, and said, "I'll take you back to the dormitory, and you'll be fine after you go back to sleep. .Seeing that you were so strong in the past, why are you crying like this today?"

I still didn't speak, but I didn't want to go back to the dormitory, because I was afraid that more people would know what I was like.So I asked Dong Wei to take me to a place with fewer people and let me be quiet for a while, but I didn't want to tell Dong Wei what happened tonight.

He took me to the bench by the woods, not far from the school gate.There are still relatively few pedestrians here, and the surroundings are a bit dark, and Dong Wei and I may not be seen at all.

My tears are still flowing, and my face seems to be covered with a thin curtain in the cold wind, and it becomes cold in the cold wind.

"Okay, okay, don't cry." Dong Wei suddenly hugged me and said: "Brother gave you a hug, why are you acting like a little girl now? I think you are usually very strong, why did you suddenly collapse today? What? Think about how you comforted Lin Xueke a few days ago, and you comfort yourself in the same way. Don’t think about whether you can pass the exam or whether you can pass the exam. You haven’t passed the exam yet, so what are you thinking about so much.”

I didn't refuse, and buried my face in Dong Wei's arms.There was a smell of perfume in his arms. Although I didn't like the smell of this perfume, it made me dizzy, but I still didn't leave this embrace.

No one around, just let me cry.

"Azhe, you..."

My tears seemed to have soaked Dong Wei's scarf, and suddenly I heard Zhou Yuan's voice.

I immediately jumped out of Dong Wei's arms.

☆、2017/12/06

Zhou Yuan was the same as the night before, carrying a schoolbag, but the inside of the schoolbag was not very full, as one could guess, there was only one book in it.

He looked into my Dong Wei's arms, his face seemed to be pale, but under the light it was bright yellow.

In short, his complexion is very ugly.

I left Dong Wei's arms, and Dong Wei seemed to recognize him, because Zhou Yuan sometimes went to our dormitory, so he could probably learn about my "relationship" with Zhou Yuan from Lin Yunjie and the others.

Dong Wei was a little embarrassed, smiled, lowered his head and thought for a while, then simply stood up and said: "Azhe is his cousin? Hello. Azhe broke down and cried badly. You... don't get me wrong Ah Zhe's sexual orientation, he is a straight man."

I:"……"

Zhou Yuan: "..."

"He was crying so badly, I gave him a brother's arms, don't get me wrong, I'm also a straight man."

I:"……"

Zhou Yuan: "..."

Zhou Yuan stood there for a long time, his appearance reduced my tears a lot, but whenever I remembered what my uncle said just now, I started to cry again.

I don't know why I'm so vulnerable all of a sudden.

Finally, Zhou Yuan moved.He took off the backpack on his back and walked towards me.

Seeing this, Dong Wei lowered his head and said to me, "Shall I go first? Your cousin is here, so he should be able to take care of you."

I nodded, wiped my tears, and said, "Well, you can go to dinner."

Dong Wei patted me on the shoulder, "Take good care of yourself, it is normal to be impetuous recently, since you have persisted until now, persist for a while, don't care about the result, at least you have worked hard."

I smiled and said, "Thank you."

I took off my clothes and handed them to Dong Wei. Dong Wei took them, smiled, and finally left in embarrassment.

Zhou Yuan put the bag on the ground, sat beside me, and hugged me.

I slept on his lap, with my face pressed against his belly, smelling something different from Dong Wei's.Zhou Yuan's body has a faint smell, or it can be said to have no smell, but sometimes a person will have an inexplicable smell for no reason, as if that smell is very special, just like everyone's face, unique and unique. easy to distinguish.

I can't describe that smell, but I don't reject it, it's not a bad smell after all.

Zhou Yuan stroked my hair, and I wept silently.After a long time, Zhou Yuan said softly to me: "I didn't misunderstand you, don't worry. Ah Zhe, why didn't you tell me? This way I will come here sooner."

I didn't speak, and he continued: "I know the future, or how important the future is to you. I also know that you are a bird chasing your dreams. You have a simple mind, weak wings, but a strong heart. I can't bear to see you defeated, even by others. I don't know what you went through tonight, but you have to be strong, do you know? I only know that you are a strong person, a strong person, Even though you wipe your tears silently many times, you still look strong in front of others. But what happened to you today, why did you cry in front of others?"

"Zhou Yuan..." My voice was more choked and hoarse than before. At this time, I was crying and my throat hurt.

"Huh? You said."

"My uncle beat me, he said I couldn't pass the exam."

"Fuck, what is your uncle? Is it still your uncle? I remember you used to complain about him a lot. How can you believe what he said today?"

"I don't know. I was very hard and vulnerable. When he hit me, I immediately collapsed."

"Cry if you want, it will feel better if you cry, I'm here." Zhou Yuan stroked my hair, his fingers running through it, it was a little soft. "You don't believe your uncle's words. You clearly know that he is that kind of person."

"Uh-huh."

I broke free from his embrace suddenly and sat beside him. I was shivering from the cold at this moment, and thinking of my uncle's words made me feel chilly too.

Zhou Yuan seemed to have reacted, and immediately took off his clothes and put them on my back.His movements were anxious, a little blunt, which made me laugh out loud.

"Why do you wear so much? Didn't I tell you to wear more?"

"I forgot."

"You always forget that you must not forget about your health, do you know that health is the most important thing, and living in good health is better than anything else. You have to think this way, if you are sick, how will you fight tomorrow?"

"Okay, I know what you said is very reasonable." Sometimes Zhou Yuan is like this, he usually doesn't talk much, but when he talks about the big truth, it's not enough to hold a lot of baskets.

But I was still very cold, Zhou Yuan lowered his head and asked me: "Is it still cold? Why don't you go back to the library? Oh, forget it, look at you, don't read books tonight, I think Heartbreaking, just go back with me, go back and eat something, wash up and go to bed, and continue to rise tomorrow."

I smiled and got up.When I got up, I realized that my limbs were weak, and even my legs were numb, as if I had been frozen and unconscious.

Zhou Yuan immediately helped me out of the school gate as soon as possible. When I arrived at the small forest to the south of the gate, he opened the car door and pushed me in, but he didn't let me sit in the co-pilot.

He turned on the heat, then came behind and hugged me.

I desperately needed warmth, so I shivered in his arms.He turned up the heat to the fullest, and then took off my shoes and wrapped them in loose clothes.

I buried myself in his arms, and he patted my back and said, "Okay, it's not cold anymore, just go back and take a hot bath in a while."

I didn't speak, and the heat hit me, which made me feel better.

After I adjusted to the temperature in the car, I moved in his arms and left his arms.He looked at me and asked, "Are you hungry?"

I shook my head and smiled slightly.

"Let me check for you to see if the snacks that were put in the trunk last time are still there." After he finished speaking, he stood up, and I quickly grabbed him and said, "Don't go, I don't want to eat."

When he came back, he held me in his arms again, holding me tightly, his breath was on top of my head, and it was slightly cold.

He suddenly held my face in his hands, his thumb brushed between my brows, his deep eyes were a little bit brighter in the dim light, and also warmer than the moonlight.Warm fingers were floating on my face, and my smile was blooming in the palm of his hand.

Suddenly, he held my face and kissed it.In fact, I didn't want to refuse, so I followed him.

The kiss was a little gentle, but it made me feel strange again.In fact, my kissing skills are very passive and blunt.When I was kissed, I was passive and often didn't know how to act, so I let him kiss and did nothing else.

After a minute or so, he let go of me.He had a great laugh and was genuine.A real smile thanked the garden full of flowers in my heart, bent the crescent moon, dimmed the bright starry sky, warmed the cold earth, walked away the darkness, and brought a pale pink light.

The light shines in the bottom of my heart, overflowing with a touch of sweetness.

"Let's go." I said and pushed his chest, motioning him to open the door.

He opened the car door, I put on some shoes, and sat in the co-pilot as usual.

After fastening my seat belt, I said, "I'm so tired, I don't care if the sky is falling tonight."

"Will it continue tomorrow?" Zhou Yuan asked with a smile.

I smiled and replied, "Continue."

"You're right." When the car started, Zhou Yuan said, "Look at your uncle. Everyone wants their family to be good, but he is good. He is always eccentric. If it were me, I would definitely hit him."

I said dully, "Do you dare to hit uncle?"

"Why not?" Zhou Yuan said, "My aunt has been tied up before, so what is my uncle, I am not related by blood."

I lowered my head and sighed, the hot air was sprayed on the car window, and it was covered with hot air for a moment and became blurred.

"If only I had been a soldier, had a strong body like you, and the ability to defend myself and attack people, I would beat my uncle up."

Zhou Yuan smiled and said: "It's okay, I'll be your bodyguard, whoever you want to beat, I'll beat him up for you, and help you beat him to the point where he can't find his teeth."

"Yeah, he must be beaten until he looks for his teeth all over the place, and he must be beaten until he counts the teeth in a pool of blood."

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I hugged my little belly and ate dinner made by Zhou Yuan.He ate relatively simple tonight, he just fried a piece of meat and added a bowl of chicken soup.

The fried pork he cooked seemed much better than before, so I praised his cooking skills.Who knew that Zhou Yuan was so praised that he raised his tail and said: "No, who am I? Zhou Belly! Who doesn't know my name within a radius of ten miles? From now on, this radius of ten miles will be my kingdom, and you will be me." queen."

I slapped him on the head and said, "When I was walking the dog last time, an old man asked me whose dog it was. I gave him a blank look and said, of course it belonged to my family. Then he asked me who my parents are." , I said Zhou Belly, he shook his head and left, saying he didn’t know this fat man.”

"Which old man? Say I'm fat!"

I kept laughing, and finally said seriously: "Don't tell me, the chicken soup you made is really decent. In fact, you can go to pick up some traditional Chinese medicine and make chicken soup. It's delicious. When I was at home, my grandma used to make soup with medicine. , delicious and nutritious, because my grandpa has bad teeth and chicken soup has to be boiled for a long time, so he always gives me the best meat."

"I really envy you, those who eat hard but don't get fat."

"Well, my physique is like this."

"Okay, whatever you say is what you say. I'll go to the Chinese medicine shop some other day and ask if there is any medicine that can make chicken soup."

After he finished speaking, he patted my head lovingly, since I have short hair now, I don't care how messy he can make my hair.

☆、2017/12/07

Gao Yuan said to me today: "How much courage does it take to love someone?"

I thought about it and felt that this question is actually a bit redundant.It's easy to fall in love with someone, but it takes courage to confess.

Then he said to me, "You're wrong."

I pushed the strangely worn glasses on the bridge of my nose, as if behind the glass lenses, he couldn't detect my surprised gaze.

"Why?" I sat on the stone bench, watching a pair of stray dogs playing, one black and one white, the white body was stained dark brown with too much dirt, but some places can still show its bright white .

Gao Yuan followed my gaze and looked at it, his gaze was a bit deep, as if the light veil and golden light covered by the sun could not obliterate the sad scar.Gradually, he opened his lips: "Because sometimes I dare not admit it in my heart."

I seem to understand what he means, like a person who doesn't know his gay status, after hearing how disgusting and disgusting other people are, he falls in love with someone who is the same gender as himself.He didn't dare to admit that he fell in love with him, but when he accepted his love for him in his heart, it took a lot of courage, because he wanted to break through the fear created in his heart when others treated his comrades.

Or, that person is someone you shouldn't love, but you fall in love with him, and it takes a lot of courage to admit this kind of love in your heart.

But this kind of courage will become fragile when the crowds come.

In winter, the vegetation withered and the meteorites fell. I picked up a dead leaf and rubbed it in my hand.The pair of playful dogs gradually ran away.The white dog chased the black dog, and at some point, the black dog fell down.

Gao Yuan suddenly laughed.

Turning around to look at him with a smile, thinking about which of the above two situations he was in, he suddenly noticed my gaze and looked at me.

I hurriedly avoided his gaze in embarrassment, but he never looked away and said to me: "Do you have someone you like?"

I froze for a moment, suddenly not knowing how to reply him.Because Gao Yuan seems to have been included in my danger list long ago. Sometimes things like feelings should not be revealed to him. It’s like a layer of paper is separated. I don’t want to pierce it. eyes and unkind words.

Seeing that I didn't answer the question, Fang smiled lightly, and the smile was very gentle, immersed in the light pink halo.

I avoided the golden color of his forehead, and he said: "I know it even if you don't tell me, you have it. In fact, you don't need to hide anything from me. We have known each other for so long, so there is no need to hide it so much."

I laughed a little distorted, "You're right, but I don't want to think about those things right now, let's talk about it after the postgraduate entrance examination."

Gao Yuan suddenly laughed again, and said: "The postgraduate entrance examination dog is really like this. He talks about the postgraduate entrance examination all day long. But it's coming soon. Remember to print out the admission ticket a week in advance and go to the examination room."

"I know this." I looked at the time and said, "There is still half an hour before get out of class is over, shall we go to eat?"

Gao Yuan stood up, took out two cigarettes and said, "You can treat me to a small hot pot. I came back from Nanchang and failed the interview. This is a comfort to me. What's more, I'm fucking poor."

"Okay, it's not expensive anyway." I smiled, "Do you need my relief? Usury, how much money do you have left?"

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