compulsory possession

On the day of Gu Cheng's 22nd birthday, someone brought a piano from the city to the school.The principal and the children were very excited. This was the first time they saw a real piano.

Finally, Teacher Gu no longer has to hold the worn guitar, but puts himself in the arms of the piano and plays Chopin in the classroom.

He saw that Li Beiyan was so boring every day, so he insisted on teaching him to play the piano.Li Beiyan went with him and honestly treated him as a student for two days, but the music teacher was too demanding and thought he was soulless like playing cotton.

Teacher Gu disqualified Li Beiyan from being a student, and worked together with the older students to carry the piano to the playground, playing Liszt for a whole day as if to vent his anger.

The principal watched him play the piano with his fingers at an extremely fast speed, and the dazzling notes entered everyone's ears, and asked Li Beiyan: "Will the piano be damaged by Teacher Gu?"

Li Beiyan comforted him and said, "No, the piano that Mr. Gu paid a lot of money for is solid."

In a Chinese class, Li Beiyan taught the students idioms and talked about the word "soul mate". Some children asked Li Beiyan what a soul mate is.

Li Beiyan thought for a long time, and suddenly thought of a certain movie he had watched, that long monologue, and Li Beiyan answered it when get out of class was about to end.

"It's like your best friend, but more than that. He knows you better than anyone in the world. He makes you a better person, actually...not that he makes you a better person, You make yourself better. Because of him always supporting you."

He Cong's face suddenly appeared in front of Li Beiyan's eyes. He Cong looked for the rebellious him in every street in Beijing, forced him to stay up late to study for exams, helped him find a job, managed him to eat and drink, hugged him and kissed him... …

The scenes that Li Beiyan thought he had forgotten all these years flooded in like a tide, as clear as if they happened yesterday.

"He's someone you'll always have in your heart, someone who understands you, accepts you and...and believes you, before anyone else believes you, when no one else believes you."

After finishing speaking, Li Beiyan was stunned on the podium, with a faint voice in his heart: No matter what happens, you will always love him.Nothing can change this.

In the evening, Li Beiyan brought the wine made by the school to Gu Cheng. Teacher Gu rummaged for a long time on the storage shelf he made before choosing two perfect glasses.

They wore thick coats and chatted all over the place.Gu Cheng drank the red-brown wine and said, "Teacher Li, I was actually exiled to Xinjiang."

Gu Cheng supported his head with his hands and buried it very low. Under the light, Li Beiyan couldn't see his face clearly, but he heard him muffledly say: "At that time I came out with my family. Sent here."

"and after?"

Gu Cheng smiled wryly, "Later, the person who said he would be with me forever was with my friend."

Li Beiyan picked up the wine and toasted with him. When they were young, their promises to the future were as cheap and worthless as rumors.You can say it all you want, and forget it without any scruples.

Gu Cheng asked: "Teacher Li, what about you? Who have you ever loved?"

Li Beiyan smiled and said, "Kids don't care about adults' business."

Gu Cheng's eyes widened, and he said loudly: "Uncle, who are you kidding! You lied to me about all my secrets, and you didn't tell me anything in the end."

The familiar words gave Li Beiyan a headache, and he recalled the scene when he called He Cong uncle many years ago.He simply closed his eyes and passed out drunk, the glass fell to the ground and the red wine splashed all over the floor.

In the third year of coming to Xinjiang, Li Beiyan finally decided to go to the city with other teachers. After so many years, no one has found this place, and Li Beiyan is very confident in hiding his tracks.

Whether it's a big girl or a handsome guy on the street, they all have deep eye sockets, high nose bridges, strong exotic features, and are particularly good-looking.

The local dialect spoken by most locals here, that is, Xinjiang dialect, feels like going abroad even though it is in China.

Xinjiang is located in a high-latitude inland area, which belongs to a temperate continental climate, with a large temperature difference between day and night, long sunlight hours, and particularly sweet fruits.The principal bought a lot of cantaloupe and distributed them to the fellow teachers.

The law and order here is very strict, there is a police booth every few hundred meters, and any public places that are slightly larger and more crowded have to undergo security checks, with metal detectors scanning back and forth on the body.

There are patrol officers everywhere, which makes people feel safe.

Everyone had a great time. Gu Cheng, the youngest, was intoxicated by the exotic style here. Wearing a retro and gorgeous Gucci, he took a group photo with the handsome guy from Xinjiang.

The teachers squatted on the street corner quietly watching him jump up and down, just like watching a monkey in a zoo.

The principal suddenly sighed: "I don't usually think so, but compared with young people at these times, we are really old."

When you get older, many things will naturally disappear. There are many things that you don’t need to force too much. There will be many things that are unnecessary.

It’s meaningless, it’s troublesome, just one sentence will get rid of it, and things will happen a lot.

On the way back, Gu Cheng looked at the group photo on his phone, and he quietly approached Li Beiyan, saying that he was leaving.

Li Beiyan was stunned for a moment, and it took him a long time to find his language. He stayed here for two years, and it was time to leave.

"Mr. Pei, when are you going back?"

Under the moonlight, their shadows were stretched very long on the playground, "Go back?" Li Beiyan didn't know where to go back.

three years.Li Beiyan hid in a sparsely populated mountain area for three full years, and once it passed, he would never come back again.He can no longer see He Cong's face, can no longer hear his warm voice from the phone, can no longer lie on the bed, and when he comes over to ask his health, no one will call him Yaoer helplessly and dotingly.

What are you going to do?It's fine here.

Gu Cheng didn't give up the idea of ​​letting Li Beiyan leave to Kashgar together, and kept reading to him every day. Li Beiyan regarded him as a naughty student and ignored him.

One day, Gu Cheng finally couldn't bear it anymore and said, "Pell, I beg you, please leave with me, I don't want to continue hiding here."

Li Beiyan asked him, "Where do you want to go?"

"Anywhere is fine, as long as you are with me."

Li Beiyan didn't speak any more, he stuffed the earphones into his ears and played Adele's new album on a loop, Gu Cheng suddenly took one from his ear and listened to it.In less than a minute, he took it again and said, "What kind of old-age aesthetics are you?"

Li Beiyan doesn't want to explain Adele's unique smoky voice and smart original music to him, these are all his own little hobbies, and he doesn't want to share them with others.

Gu Cheng suddenly pulled Li Beiyan's arm to stop, and called him softly, "Teacher Pei..."

Li Beiyan looked up and saw Gu Cheng closed his eyes, his thick eyelashes trembling up and down, he slowly approached him, and kissed his lips like a dragonfly.

Li Beiyan turned around, Gu Cheng's lips wiped his face, and looked at him seriously.

"What are you doing?"

Gu Cheng sneered, "Obviously we already have the answer, so what's the point of asking?"

Li Beiyan pushed him away with a cold face, the wind was howling, the Gobi Desert was empty, and the color of the sky and sand was cloudy.

The phone rang, and it was an unknown number. Li Beiyan pressed the green button and heard Cheng Xia's voice.

He said: "Bei Yan, go back to Beijing immediately, my aunt has a sudden illness and is in the hospital for emergency treatment."

The moment he hung up the phone, Li Beiyan opened the ticketing software and bought a ticket back to Beijing for the first time in three years.

From Xinjiang to Beijing, Li Beiyan sat without closing his eyes.This was the longest four and a half hours he had experienced. When the programmer announced the end of the voyage, he got up from his seat, his legs softened and he almost knelt down.

Li Beiyan took a taxi from the airport and went straight to the hospital. The lights in the operating room just went out. He watched Ms. Wang being pushed out of the operating room by a group of medical staff. Li's father stood with his back to Li Beiyan, and quietly wiped away his tears.

Li Beiyan held back his tears for a long time before shouting, "Dad!"

He turned around, and the familiar face turned vicissitudes.

Ms. Wang's operation was very successful, she was out of danger, and only needed to rest in the hospital for a period of time.Father Li took Li Beiyan to the attending doctor's office to discuss his lover's condition.Li Beiyan saw that many gray hairs had grown on his head during the three years since he left.

It turned out that Li Beiyan was getting old, and his parents were also getting older.

Why did he want to leave the two people who loved him the most in the world even though they were already by his side?

"So you're not leaving?" Cheng Xia came to the hospital at night and brought a lot of supplements.

Li Beiyan looked out the window of the hospital. The capital city was as prosperous as before. The Gobi desert in Xinjiang, dilapidated schools, simple villagers and lovely students seemed like a dream.Waking up now.

"Yes, not leaving."

Because of his teaching experience in the border areas, Li Beiyan quickly found a job in Beijing, teaching fourth grade in a private elementary school.I live in an apartment while working, and I go back to the suburbs to be with my parents on Fridays.

Occasionally, he would meet with Cheng Xia for dinner, and he tacitly did not mention the past, and Li Beiyan didn't want to ask, even if He Cong found out one day, he would still face him calmly.

In the past three years, Li Beiyan has compiled the past events into a book, reminiscing over and over again, it seems that the footer of the page is almost torn by him.The hatred at that time, the sadness at that time, all turned into a handful of insignificant sand, blown away by the northwest wind.

On the contrary, Li Beiyan often thinks of He Cong's kindness, of the man's careful care of him, and his humor when he is not angry.

He Cong...is such a good person.

Regrettably, when Li Beiyan found out about this, he was already in the present where he would no longer have the chance to meet him again.

Children in big cities are fundamentally different from those in the mountainous areas of the northwest. This school is regarded as an aristocratic elementary school in Beijing, and the students are all from prominent families.

They are young, but they are spoiled by the adults and the nanny at home, and they have a bad temper.Li Beiyan's temperament had long been worn out, and after teaching patiently for a while, he managed to coax the group of children.

But there are exceptions. There is a little boy named He Nian who doesn't like to talk, has no friends in class, and is very closed at a young age.

Li Beiyan tried to get close to him, but he always looked at Li Beiyan quietly with those big eyes open, without responding.

Li Beiyan went to check He Nian's family background, and found nothing in the mother's field, and his father's name was actually encrypted.

The child should have been born into a wealthy family that even had a significant position in Beijing, but he was not happy at all.I often stay in the empty classroom alone after school, waiting for someone to pick me up.

One night, Li Beiyan dropped his notebook in the office and forgot to pick it up. When he went back to school, he saw that the lights in the classroom were still on, and there were children crying. Li Beiyan approached and saw He Nian squatting on the ground with his hairy head buried in the Between the knees.

Li Beiyan pulled He Nian up from the ground and asked about the situation in a low voice. After staying alone for too long, he had long since lost his hostility towards Li Beiyan, and shrank timidly into Li Beiyan's arms, his face full of tears.

When people are old, they don't see children crying at all.

Li Beiyan called his parents, but they answered, but it was the nanny who had already asked the employer for leave to go back to his hometown.It seems that this incompetent father was too busy to forget about this incident, leaving his son waiting alone at school.

Li Beiyan asked He Nian: "What is Dad's cell phone number? Teacher, call him." He shook his head, and Li Beiyan asked again: "Where do you live? I'll take you home." He still shook his head.

Nowadays, children are picked up by drivers in special cars, so there is no need to remember the way.

Afraid of missing out with his parents, Li Beiyan took the child to the office and ordered takeaway for him.The child was very hungry, and he was not picky about food. He finished his food in two or three mouthfuls, and with red eyes, he whispered, "Thank you, Teacher Li."

Li Beiyan asked him, "Why did you ignore Teacher Li before?"

He Nian bit his lip and refused to speak.

Li Beiyan stopped asking no more, turned on the computer and played cartoons for him, and he fell asleep lying on the chair not long after.Li Beiyan took out the air-conditioning blanket from the office and covered him, for fear that the child would catch a cold.

After waiting for a long time, it was almost eleven o'clock before hearing hurried footsteps in the corridor. Li Beiyan walked to the door of the office and saw a tall figure walking out of the darkness.

The dim light shone on his head, and Li Beiyan could clearly see the familiar yet unfamiliar face under the shadows.

It turned out to be He Cong.

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