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"He said I was his relative..." Living to such an age, Ye Xiaojuan still can't forget how she felt when she heard these two words. The shock and bewilderment at the beginning, the shame and sadness after the reaction, and the throbbing of love at the beginning Similarly, Ye Xiaojuan will never forget.

At that time, Ye Xiaojuan's mind buzzed, and she didn't know what to say at all. She thought her face must be ugly at the time, but she still insisted on cooperating. Jiang Wenbin greeted his classmates. What did she say at that time? I can't remember clearly, I just remember that my face was very red and hot, and Jiang Wenbin took her away without saying a few words.

Afterwards, Jiang Wenbin explained that he hadn't told his classmates about his marriage. Ye Xiaojuan suddenly appeared and couldn't explain clearly. Simply say that they are relatives, so there is no need to explain so much to the students.

Jiang Wenbin talked a lot, but Ye Xiaojuan didn't listen to a single word.

She is not stupid, she is the most ingenious girl in the village, how could she not know that Jiang Wenbin disliked her?

The girls in the city are glamorous and fashionable. She is indeed inferior. The money she makes from making toys is only enough to keep her two children hungry. She has no extra money to follow fashion. She has tried her best to be clean and tidy, and she also has concerns , she was also afraid of embarrassing Jiang Wenbin, but Jiang Wenbin still hated her...

It was a not so pleasant trip.

Ye Xiaojuan went there full of enthusiasm and went back the same day.

She said that she didn't expect the hostels in the capital to be so expensive, and she didn't have enough money with her, so she couldn't stay. Jiang Wenbin frantically took money out of his pockets, both husband and wife had empty pockets, Ye Xiaojuan didn't say anything, just smiled wryly, pretending to be relaxed Ye Xiaojuan said goodbye to Jiang Wenbin and left the little money she had left to Jiang Wenbin. Ye Xiaojuan went to the train station alone, but she didn't ask Jiang Wenbin to send it.

This was the beginning of their estrangement.

Ye Xiaojuan recognized more and more characters, but the characters on the letter became less and less, and finally fixed at about six or seven lines.

Three or four lines to explain their current situation, one or two lines to greet the situation at home, and then some words of missing.

After Ye Xiaojuan got the letter, she no longer felt sweet.

Does Jiang Wenbin really miss her?

Miss her, why don't you want her to find him?

When Jiang Wenbin came back in the winter of his junior year, Ye Xiaojuan packed his luggage for him. She was careful and wanted to help him wash the suitcase, and took out a group photo from the middle of the suitcase.

Seven or eight men and women stood back and forth in front of a large flaming maple leaf, some old and some young, the older ones seemed to be in their fifties or sixties, but the younger ones were a minority.

Ye Xiaojuan saw Jiang Wenbin at first sight.

He was standing in the middle of the first row, wearing a black jacket. Ye Xiaojuan had never seen this jacket before. It was probably newly bought by him. It seemed that he was very energetic and energetic. He hadn't changed for so many years. His face With a faint smile on his face, he is eye-catching.

Ye Xiaojuan smiled foolishly, and when she moved her eyes to the side, she saw the girl standing beside Jiang Wenbin.

The girl's hair was too short, so Ye Xiaojuan thought it was a boy at first. She was wearing a jacket that was very similar to Jiang Wenbin's. Eyes are very bright.

Ye Xiaojuan raised her face blankly, her appearance at this moment was vaguely reflected on the window.

In fact, there is no need to look at it anymore, her face must be tired and boring, it is the numbness after many years of raising children and doing housework.

Ye Xiaojuan glanced at the photo again.

Jiang Wenbin stood very close to that female classmate.

In fact, this is also normal, because the people in the photos entered the country for the sake of viewing, and everyone was crowded together.

Ye Xiaojuan tried her best to convince herself.

The sun shone on the photo, and there seemed to be faint words on the back. Ye Xiaojuan turned over the photo.

She can read the words on the photo.

There are wood in the mountains and branches in the wood, and the heart is happy and the king does not know.

The handwriting is beautiful, not Jiang Wenbin's.

In fact, she still doesn't understand the meaning. She hasn't read much, and she hasn't graduated from elementary school. In order to write a letter with Jiang Wenbin, she rummaged through the dictionary. Every night, she coaxed the child while holding the dictionary to study. , but this kind of sentence is still difficult for Ye Xiaojuan to understand.

If you don't know, then ask.

Ye Xiaojuan took the photo to ask Jiang Wenbin who came out of the bath.

This is their first big fight.

Jiang Wenbin accused Ye Xiaojuan of not knowing how to respect personal privacy, and casually rummaged through his things.

Ye Xiaojuan really doesn't know what privacy is. She shed tears facing the yelling Jiang Wenbin, and she asked him, do you still love me?

Jiang Wenbin replied to her, you are suspicious, are you sick?

She stopped talking.

She still loves him, as much as she did when she got married, but the eyes he looked at her no longer had the light that made her heart flutter before.

Ye Xiaojuan had the idea of ​​divorce.

She's a country girl, but she's also a proud country girl.

In the village, she strives to be the best in everything, and she is never inferior to anyone else. She believes that with her own hands, she will live the life she wants to live. After entering the city, she also works hard to support her family. She knows that she has nothing. If she made a mistake, she wanted to divorce Jiang Wenbin outright.

The cries of her children brought Ye Xiaojuan back to reality from her impassioned state.

Her two sons and daughters didn't know why the parents, who had always been in harmony, were arguing fiercely, holding hands and crying in the living room corridor.

"Have you had enough trouble? You have to scare the children like this to be satisfied, right? Ye Xiaojuan, I realize that you have really changed."

Her husband said that she had changed. He entered the bedroom with a pair of children in his arms in a victim posture, and turned to her in a warning tone and said: "You are not clear now, you better calm down."

After calming down, Ye Xiaojuan understood that this marriage cannot be divorced.

The child is still so small.

Afterwards they quarreled more and more frequently.

Without a passionate marriage, Ye Xiaojuan felt like a match, any little friction could quickly ignite her, and she wanted to die with others.

After graduation, Jiang Wenbin wanted to stay in the capital, but Ye Xiaojuan objected, and she choked him, "If you run into your old classmates on the street, how can you tell them, I'll forget it, you can just say you are relatives, Chao Chao What about Yueyue? A relative's child?"

That girl is a native of the capital, Ye Xiaojuan knows.

Jiang Wenbin went crazy with anger, the quarrel was so severe that time, Jiang Wenbin dropped a vase at home and ran out the door.

Ye Xiaojuan knelt down to tidy up by herself, picking up the pieces piece by piece, without shedding a single tear, she muttered to herself, "I bought it at the flea market for ten yuan."

Broken things are broken, and the best destination is to be thrown into the trash can.

But Ye Xiaojuan's broken marriage has been lingering on.

Jiang Wenbin did not stay in the capital in the end. He returned to the south and taught at a university. He was a gentle professor at school, but he refused to give in to Ye Xiaojuan when he returned home. He seemed to be taking revenge on Ye Xiaojuan by using a With an aggressive attitude, she spared no effort to find fault with Ye Xiaojuan.

"Small peasant thinking in the bones."

"Ignorant women and children."

"Only women and villains are difficult to raise."

Ye Xiaojuan learned a lot from Jiang Wenbin's "criticism".

Sometimes, she fell asleep, and when she woke up, she would have doubts. Did the man who said under the oil lamp, "Xiaojuan, you are so skillful" really exist?Or, because it took too long, she beautified that memory by herself. In fact, from the very beginning, Jiang Wenbin just made do with it. It was just a last resort. He never loved him like she did.

Regarding this question, Ye Xiaojuan only thought about it for herself, and she never asked Jiang Wenbin again.

How strange is it for a "countryman" like her to talk about love or not, or with a university professor?

Being a university professor was a decent job, and the income was not low at the time. In addition, the unit allocated a house, and the family could be said to have no worries about food and clothing.

Ye Xiaojuan did not choose not to work at home, but found a job in a garment factory and continued to work.

Jiang Wenbin was very opposed to this.

"The family doesn't lack your tens of hundreds of dollars, so why go out and work hard to earn that hard-earned money?"

"Speak out, others will think I abused you."

Ye Xiaojuan refused to listen to the sarcasm. She insisted on going to that job and earning her own salary. She did not rely on Jiang Wenbin to support her. In her heart, she and Jiang Wenbin were no longer husband and wife. She and Jiang Wenbin were just It's just a relationship of raising a pair of children together.

Later, when the children grew up, Ye Xiaojuan thought about divorce, but was stopped by relatives and friends, who said that in the future, if the children were looking for a partner, they would be discriminated against if they heard that they were single parents, so it would be difficult to find a partner.

Ye Xiaojuan thought about it for a long time and knew that what those people said was correct.

It seems that at every stage, she has reasons why she cannot divorce.

Now that she is too old to step into the coffin, the reason why she cannot get a divorce has changed again: she will not be able to survive after a divorce.

"I lost my parents when I was seven years old. Since then, I have never relied on others. I don't believe that I can't live without anyone."

Ye Xiaojuan's face showed the perseverance after going through years of trials and hardships.

Du Cheng can see that this is a human being with a noble heart. She is kind, gentle, selfless, and forbearing, swallowing all the suffering alone, leaving only good things for her loved ones, even at the end of her life Consider your real options.

"I believe it too."

Du Cheng smiled. There was no sympathy in his smile, but pure admiration and appreciation.

This smile gave Ye Xiaojuan infinite strength.

"I want a divorce."

The four words came out loudly from her mouth.

Du Cheng: "OK."

"Before the divorce, do you want to make it clear to him?"

"Be clear..." Ye Xiaojuan's old eyes burst into a gleam, tears washed her eyeballs, and she choked up, "I want to make it clear to him."

Even if he didn't care, even if she was old, even if she was a "country person," she had to make it clear.

In her whole life, she owed a clear explanation.