Bamboo Horse vs Skyfall

7.20 update.

I am back.

I'm still... messed up.

I just ran a few laps in the community, and went to the top floor to blow the wind for a while.

Sorry, I still haven't calmed down.

I can't understand all this.

I don't know how to describe how I feel.I feel so bad, I'm sick.Maybe I should talk to my therapist.

7.20 update.

I went to see a psychiatrist in the afternoon, and I felt much better after talking with her for a while.

I feel much calmer.

I just checked WeChat, but there is still no news from Shenma.

dog man.

7.21 update.

It was the familiar morning meeting again.

Last night, Shenma finally sent me a WeChat message asking me to go out for supper.

Then I went out.

After buying some octopus balls, we went to the elementary school next door.

The elementary school playground is open. Some people take a walk, some play ball, some run, and some dance in the square.

We were walking on the playground, surrounded by noise, no one would pay attention to a pair of boys walking side by side.

The feeling of hiding in the crowd makes me feel comfortable.

God said sorry.

I said it's okay.

Actually I don't know what to say.He has nothing to apologize to me, he just made a request, and I just accidentally said yes to him.

I don't know how much water this "accidentally" has.

Shenma said that what he said that day was serious.

I am silent.

On the surface I am indifferent, but in fact, in my head: This square dance music sounds familiar. What is the name? That kid’s kick just now was great. The old man on the opposite side has such a bold and unrestrained walking posture. I don’t know why the grass is so green. .

Shenma: If you hate me, you just shake your head, if you don't hate me, you just pull my arm.

I took his hand.

Shenma just laughed: If you want to be with me, you can hold my hand, if you don't want to, just shake your head.

I neither shook my head nor shook his hand.

My mind is a mess.

I said I don't know, let me think about it.

Shenma touched the back of my head and said okay.

We walked around the playground a few times, and saw a few children holding something that would glow. I couldn't name them, and they weren't light sticks.

Shenma took me to the entrance of the elementary school. It turned out that there was a stall selling it at the entrance. We walked through another small gate just now, so we didn't see it.

Shenma backhandedly bought me one, and I said, "Why, you're so childish."

Shenma: "I want it, can you hold it for me?"

Then I can only reluctantly agree.

Shenma went to buy some small fireworks, and took me to a nearby open space.There is a small river next to it, we lie on the railing and play fairy wands.

His burnt out, so I took one and put it on my fairy wand for fire.

There was a flash of fire, and his eyes glowed.

Mine burned out too.

He took one and handed it to me, approached me, and set me on fire.

The flames are shining, kissing him, kissing me.

I suddenly think he is very beautiful.

7.21 update.

good afternoon.

Stopped in strange place yesterday.

In fact, I don't think Shenma can be regarded as a "beautiful" person.He is more inclined to that kind of handsome appearance, but he is definitely not beautiful.

But it was very strange. At that time, I just thought he was very beautiful, even a little fairy-like.

You asked me why I didn't agree to him, and I honestly don't know.

I'm definitely not pretending to be reserved.

I was just thinking is this like like?At the beginning, you also said that I like gods, and now you say that I like horses, but I don't even know what I like.

The previous analysis showed that I might like immortals, but obviously not.

I am now skeptical of this theoretical analysis.

How about doing it yourself?

7.22 update.

Where are you all thinking? !

And by practice I mean things like checking my heart rate.

After today's test, I found that I will indeed have a faster heartbeat for Shenma...

But in fact, we didn't do anything today. For a while, I just watched his heart beat a hundred and two.

If this is liking, when did I fall in love with him?Obviously at first I just wanted to get close to the gods.

7.22 update.

Saw a long review.

"You asked where the love started and where it came from. I dare not answer arbitrarily. Maybe from the very beginning, when you rejected all sports boys but became friends with him, there was a kind of fate that was quietly buried; maybe it was When he wept because of your grievance and anger, there was a kind of throbbing in his heart; maybe it was because he sent you messages every day to make you happy, there was a kind of dependence in his heart; or maybe it was each other in the dark classroom The blending of breath and body temperature gave birth to love. Love sometimes appears suddenly, and sometimes it hides."

Master, you really know how to speak.

I seem to have realized something.