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Guilt, exclusion and murderous hatred occupied Su Yanting's whole heart.

Feeding Bai Ling porridge mouth to mouth, this kind of behavior has never even occurred to Su Yanting.

He hated kissing, he hated the feeling of saliva passing from wife to husband to lover and lover to lover.Just as at the age of eight, he knew that his father, mother and his father's lover did this, and he vowed never to believe in love in the future.

But he was willing to take the initiative to cover his lips with Bai Ling's, feed him porridge, and exchange body fluids.

It was not just guilt, but an emotion that he had never felt before, and which would be covered up by guilt.

Bai Ling didn't know it.

"Go to bed when you're full, and tell me if you feel uncomfortable." Su Yanting covered Bai Ling with a quilt, and hugged him to sleep.

In the early morning of the next day, Su Yanting gave Bai Ling another porridge.

Bai Ling is better, but she still looks a little weak, and she doesn't seem to have any symptoms of illness.

Su Yanting felt relieved a little, thinking in his heart that he would still take Bai Ling to the hospital for an examination later.

Su Yanting and his assistant explained a few words on the phone, and then took Bai Ling to the hospital.

"How's the test result?" Seeing the doctor coming out, Su Yanting asked eagerly.

"I'm afraid it's not very optimistic." The doctor said and motioned Su Yanting to go to the office with him.

"Judging from the results of the VEP examination, the last car accident caused his optic nerve contusion, and this disease has an incubation period. Generally speaking, two months after the injury, symptoms of vision loss and sudden blindness will begin to appear. , this is because the optic nerve has begun to shrink." The doctor looked into Su Yanting's eyes and explained.

"What will be the result? What kind of treatment is needed?" Su Yanting was confused by those medical terms.

"To put it simply, he has started to show symptoms now, and his eyesight will get worse and worse, until he becomes blind. Generally speaking, optic atrophy caused by trauma is basically incurable." The doctor's voice became more and more serious. The more depressed.

"It's not curable, did you just say it's not curable?" Su Yanting narrowed his eyes.

"Of course, there is no cure, but I advise you not to have too much hope. The damage caused by trauma is often irreversible, and the treatment is both dangerous and useless." The doctor continued.

Su Yanting nodded and left the doctor's office. He needs to be quiet for a while now.

After returning to the car alone, Su Yanting took out a cigarette from the car for the first time, and lit one.

The smoke curled up with sparks flickering, and spread to the entire car in a short while.

Su Yanting just smelled the smell of nicotine, held the cigarette in his hand, and didn't inhale. He put his hand on his forehead and gently massaged his aching temple.

"Doctor, what's wrong with me?" After Bai Ling finished the examination, she found that Su Yanting was not there, so she greeted the doctor who had just walked out of the office.

"Oh? Didn't he tell you?" The doctor hesitated to tell him.

"Please tell me the truth, no matter what the result is." Bai Ling insisted on asking.

"Let's wait for him to come back and tell you." The doctor walked away with a helpless expression.

Bai Ling stood there blankly, he had already guessed that it would not be a good result.

But he really wanted to know the answer, and hoped that the answer would tell him whether he should continue to survive.

When Su Yanting got out of the car and returned to the hospital, he saw Bai Ling standing in the corridor.

He has to pull himself together, yes.Seeing Bai Ling, Su Yanting regained some sanity, not letting confusion and pain consume him.

"Bai Ling, let's go back." Su Yanting called Bai Ling who was in a daze.

Bai Ling regained her composure and looked at Su Yanting who was walking over. She didn't respond, but followed him out of the hospital obediently.

After getting into the car, Bai Ling said quietly, "Su Yanting, tell me the result."

Su Yanting, who was about to start the car, froze for a moment, but tried his best to calm down and said, "If the optic nerve is contused, vision will gradually decrease until you become blind."

Bai Ling didn't seem to respond to this answer.

This is God's will, let me lose my eyesight, so that I don't have to care about who I am, and the world will become the same - dark, just like the essence of the soul.

Seeing that Bai Ling didn't reply, Su Yanting continued, "We can still try several treatments."

Bai Ling smiled, "No, Su Yanting, it must be incurable. I guessed it from your reactions."

Su Yanting lowered his head and said no.

"Can you promise me that you don't want to be cured, okay?" Bai Ling turned her face away, her eyes full of expectation.

"Bai Ling, you..." Su Yanting looked into those eyes, unable to speak.

"Please." Bai Ling's tone was almost pleading.

"Okay." Su Yanting stopped looking at Bai Ling and started the car.

Su Yanting does not comfort people, he is a man of action, which is why he can achieve his career.

If he finds out that he is wrong, he will not choose to apologize, he will only try to make up for his mistakes.If he feels guilty, he doesn't show it, he just does everything to make it up.

If you really can't see, then stay by my side forever, Bai Ling.Su Yanting secretly made a decision, like a lifetime promise.

"What do you want to do today?" Su Yanting deliberately had nothing to say after sending Bai Ling home.

Bai Ling shook her head weakly, "What about you?" Bai Ling looked at Su Yanting.

"I'll accompany you." After Su Yanting finished speaking, he felt so numb that he was about to get goose bumps.

Bai Ling smiled.

Bai Ling once thought that her rebirth was a gift.He once thought that he continued to survive in order to realize the unattainable dream of the past.He used to think that he was accepted in the world only to continue to be Bai Ling.He once thought that he was bound in this body to pursue his former love.

Now, he finally understood that those were all wrong.

The reason why he is still alive is that he is still useful to this world, at least to Su Yanting, he is useful.

The reason for his survival is Su Yanting.

Maybe when his meaning to Su Yanting disappears, the magical power that regenerates him will come and take away his vision, making it possible for him to be his former self.

After understanding this, Bai Ling finally stopped being so entangled.

Seeing Bai Ling's rare smile, Su Yanting didn't feel happy, but rather weird.

"Are you okay?" Su Yanting was a little annoyed, he couldn't figure out Bai Ling, and it had always been like this.

"No, Su Yanting, you don't have to worry about me, I'm fine." Bai Ling looked at Su Yanting with calm and soft eyes, something in his eyes had disintegrated.

Su Yanting suddenly had a feeling that he would lose him, he couldn't help wrapping Bai Ling in his arms, and tentatively kissed his lips.

Bai Ling's lips were cool, soft and comfortable.Su Yanting sucked it carefully, gnawed lightly, and teased with his tongue until the breathing of both of them was no longer steady.

"I'll carry you to the bed." Su Yanting looked at Bai Ling with a guilty conscience, gently picked him up and put him in the room.

And Bai Ling was so tired that she fell asleep as soon as she touched the bed.

Bai Ling, what should I do to you?Su Yanting caressed Bai Ling's handsome face and was fascinated by it.

Bai Ling, no matter if I wronged you or not, I won't allow you to leave my side, no, Su Yanting is overbearing like a child.

Bai Ling fell asleep in a daze, he couldn't remember how he fell asleep, he just felt sore all over.

Su Yanting heard Bai Ling's voice, poured a glass of water from the study, and handed it to Bai Ling's bedside.

"Oh, thank you..." Bai Ling was a little embarrassed.

"Is there any discomfort?" Su Yanting touched Bai Ling's forehead with the back of his hand as he spoke.

"No more discomfort." Bai Ling replied.

Today is probably the day Bai Ling talked to him the most, and Su Yanting is in a better mood.

"Well, let's get up and move around, don't lie down all the time." Su Yanting's expression was a little gentle.

Bai Ling got up and wanted to stay in her room for a while, but when she reached the door, she stopped.

Su Yanting seemed to understand what was going on, "Do you want to go in and get something? I'll accompany you." Su Yanting understood Bai Ling's discomfort, he must have recalled those bad memories from last night.

Bai Ling lowered his head, but he still couldn't completely ignore the emotions in his heart.

"Bai Ling." Su Yanting hugged Bai Ling, he didn't know how to express his apology.

"I'm fine, can you help me get the guitar out of the room?" Bai Ling deliberately spoke lightly, but her body was very stiff.

Patting Bai Ling's back with his hands, Su Yanting opened the door and went in, taking out the guitar.

"You know how to play?" Su Yanting felt that he obviously asked unnecessary questions.

Bai Ling took the guitar and said flatly, "En."

Bai Ling once thought that she was reborn for it, but now it seems that it is still a distant dream.

Su Yanting roguely followed Bai Ling back to the room, sat cross-legged on the bed, and was ready to listen.

Bai Ling, who had never seen Su Yanting so childish, smiled helplessly.

As soon as he touched Bai Ling of the guitar, he immediately became different.

He watched intently and emotionally as his slender fingers caressed the strings and began to play.

The voice came slowly.

He played and sang Qu Wanting's "In My Song"

"But you are like this. Before I knew it, you quietly disappeared. In my world, there is no audio, and the rest are just memories. You exist, deep in my mind, in my dreams, in my dreams. In my heart, in my singing."

Su Yanting immediately fell in love with Bai Ling's singing.

There is a kind of tension in his voice, which makes you feel deep into the soul, expel the gloom, and suddenly see the light.

He just listened quietly like that, he felt that he had never been closer to Bai Ling than now, Bai Ling was like his name in his eyes, Bai Ling, a white feather, light, holy and ethereal.

Starting today, let me protect you, Bai Ling.Su Yanting was fascinated by this.