Sweet in my heart [aka: in my heart]

Ding Fan blamed himself when he saw Xing Nian kept silent. If he hadn't found out the text message, he wouldn't have made such a mistake.

On the way back, Ding Fan expressed his apology to Xing Nian, "Food Nian, I'm sorry for what happened at night, I hurt you..."

Xing Nian glared at Ding Fan speechlessly, "There's nothing to be sorry for, I've already guessed that I would have such a day, but I just don't want to hurt Hou Han."

"Do you like him that much? Think of him everywhere." Ding Fan asked with a sigh, he finally realized that this guy Xing Nian is also a master of death!It's completely as if there is Hou Han, everything is enough, and without Hou Han, he will not be implicated.

"It's not like you've never been in love, haven't you experienced the feeling of being overwhelmed by love?" He remembered that Ding Fan had dated several girlfriends, so there was no reason why he couldn't understand his current mood. People in Unrequited Love have a negative IQ, and people in Unrequited Love have a full dedication index.

Ding Fan shrugged and didn't know, he had been in love, not just for a while, but every time girls chased him, and he only confessed to Xing Nian, and it ended in failure. Big failure.

"Food Nian, what do you like about Hou Han?" This was something he hadn't thought about for a long time. How could Xing Nian like Hou Han?For him, what good is Hou Han? "He is 31 years old, you are only 21, the age gap is so big, why do you like him?"

"Although you are bisexual, you haven't really dated a boy, have you?" Xing Nian's mind came up with the appearance of Hou Han, and when he thought of him, he would feel much more at ease, "When I first came to this school , I didn't pay attention to him at all. I didn't even pay attention to him when he gave us classes and taught us courses, and he kept skipping his classes, so that I failed this class. I saw him talking and laughing with Wu Yun, and I think they are like a couple, because I have had a relationship that ended in a breakup, so I really like to see other people happy, and I feel that the world is still so beautiful and bright .”

Ding Fan really wanted to ask Xing Nian why his relationship broke up, but he was afraid of poking Xing Nian's pain, so he didn't dare to ask, and listened silently and seriously.

"In your eyes, Hou Han is a bit old at 31 years old, and he is also a teacher. Apart from being handsome and having a stable job, he has no advantages. But to me, he is different. He loves to laugh, and his Smiling seems to have the effect of soothing the pain in my heart. Every time I see his smile, I feel very warm and very healing. He is a bit handsome, because his skin is fair, so it makes him very handsome. In fact His appearance is just above average. The girls are too exaggerated and exaggerate him like the most handsome guy in the world." Xing Nian couldn't help showing a warm smile when he thought of how he went to Hou Han's house, "He and us Like most men, they don’t know how to cook, they just make simple things to fill their stomachs.”

This kind of Hou Han is actually not perfect, but he is his male god.Xing Nian thought so.

"Remember when you knew I liked Hou Han, I asked you if you thought I was perverted?"

When Ding Fan heard the nod, he certainly remembered that he never felt that there was anything abnormal about homosexuality, because he himself was bisexual.

"The boyfriend I was talking about before was dating a girl at the same time as me. He was a selfish ghost who wanted to have a boyfriend and a girlfriend. His girlfriend was considered a mistress, but she could come up to me and scold her. I am a perverted and abnormal person. But that selfish man kept silent, his cold and expressionless ugly face made people want to vomit. But Hou Han is different, he loves to laugh, and his smile is very sunny , makes me feel that the haze in my heart has been dispelled by him." The ex-boyfriend is really a black history, and he regretted it more than once. people? !

The word pervert is like a needle stuck in his heart, no matter how hard he can pull it out, he has no courage because of this, and he has become used to hiding himself because he has low self-esteem.

He knew that the reason for his low self-esteem was not only because the mistress scolded him as a pervert, it was just a trigger, the real reason was that he didn't have positive and optimistic beliefs.

"It's very sad to meet a scumbag. I'm not a scumbag. If you met me back then, you would be happy." Ding Fan tried his best to adjust the atmosphere. He didn't want Xing Nian to be immersed in the perverted haze. I despise Xing Nian's predecessor greatly in my heart, this kind of cheating scum, get out as soon as possible.

"You are really enough. You make it sound like you are the only good person left in this world." Xing Nian said with a smile.

"Yeah, I think I'm very good, but you don't think so, you think Hou Han is the best." Ding Fan also felt helpless, he thought he was dedicated and affectionate, but unfortunately it was not Xing Nian the person I like.

Xing Nian continued walking silently, he didn't know how to answer the conversation, Ding Fan had long been a good friend he could talk about everything, he felt a sense of sympathy for each other.

Separated at the intersection to go home, Xing Nian thought a lot along the way, from being admitted to this university, meeting a group of classmates in the current class, envious of Hou Han's optimism, keeping a smile at all times, to meeting Ding Fan, being known by Ding Fan The fact that he is gay, and the fact that Huihui accidentally discovered that he is gay today and that he likes Hou Han.

What happened in the past three years is not as memorable as the six months before graduation.

When I was a freshman, I still felt that I still had time to play, and felt that going to college was a life of liberation, but now when I am about to graduate, I am a little bit reluctant, and I don’t want to end my student life so soon.

If he were to say that the thing he regretted in college might be that he got to know Hou Han too late, and there were also reasons why he didn't take the initiative himself.

He rode an electric scooter to the entrance of the supermarket downstairs of Hou Han's house, and he could see the kitchen of Hou Han's house downstairs. The lights were still on, and it was past ten o'clock in the evening, and Hou Han hadn't rested yet.

It would be great if he could rush up to meet Hou Han!Although he also knew it was impossible, he didn't have the courage.

He hit the electric scooter at the entrance of the supermarket, sat on the back seat of the electric scooter, just looked at the lit window of Hou Han's kitchen, and occasionally saw Hou Han walking around in the kitchen.

Xing Nian thought, did Hou Han eat supper because he was hungry at night, or did he just start eating dinner at all?

I'm a little worried about Hou Han's body!Xing Nian accepted his fate, so he was destined to worry about Hou Han's life.

Xing Nian cheered himself up and rushed upstairs to have a showdown with Hou Han, but when he was really standing at the door of Hou Han's house, he hesitated again, he didn't even dare to knock on the door.

Hey!

Xing Nian himself couldn't help being angry at his cowardice, he obviously liked it, but he didn't dare to take that step.

Forget it, go back.Xing Nian looked back at the anti-theft door of Hou Han's house, and went downstairs step by step.

After returning home, Xing Nian immediately connected his mobile phone to the computer. He wanted to delete the SMS records with Ding Fan on the mobile phone, but he had to back them up before deleting.

Although he doesn't like being a nympho himself, this is the first time he has sent such a text message because of Hou Han, and every text message he has with Ding Fan can tell that he really likes Hou Han and cares a lot Hou Han, delete all these text messages, he is reluctant.

But it's too dangerous to put it on the phone, and I'm afraid it will make him as frightened as Huihui found out tonight.

It's better to export and copy the text messages and put them in the space log and lock them up for safety, at least they won't be known by people they know, because only he himself knows the password.

Xing Nian flipped through the documents exported to the desktop by himself. The content was a bit messy, because he read them in order from top to bottom. After reading several of them, he realized that the order of the exported text messages was the opposite of the order he guessed!

This text message should be read from the bottom to the top!

Xing Nian himself felt that he was so stupid that he couldn't even read the exported text messages. No wonder Hou Han would laugh every time he saw him in the examination room. He definitely thought he was a bit stupid.

After saving the exported text messages, Xing Nian immediately deleted the text messages on the phone, and read the backup on the log several times, feeling very happy.