lover's self-cultivation

Since the battle on the island, the power of the entire Luhu stock market seems to have changed.Because of the downfall of the Cheng family, the former two giants made the Si family the only one. Si Xiangyan took over the remaining territory and power of the Cheng family, and even used the Si family's unrivaled power to completely wash away the rules of the Shanghai stock market. cards and become the overlord on the road.

Standing at the door, Zhong Jinlan knocked on the door for a minute, but no one opened the door for a long time.In desperation, she had no choice but to break open the door with Long Wang and drag Si Xiangyan, who was drinking unconscious, out.Seeing that person's decadent appearance, Zhong Jinlan hated the iron, picked up the ice bucket on the side and poured it on her face. The ice cubes hurt her skin, and it also restored Si Xiangyan's confused sanity.

"You guys are here." Si Xiangyan didn't question Zhong Jinlan why he did that, but got up like mud and lay down on the bed in an extremely unimpressive manner.Seeing her decadent appearance, Long Wang frowned.This situation has lasted for half a month, and all the recent affairs of the Si family have been handled by himself and Zhong Jinlan.

Si Xiangyan's defeat of the Cheng family should have been a moment of prosperity, but the person who lost his love was pitifully like a bug.Pulled the drunken Si Xiangyan into the bathroom, turned on the cold water and poured it on her face continuously.Being treated like this, Si Xiangyan finally lost his temper.She pushed Zhong Jinlan away forcefully, staring at her fiercely through her messy hair.

"Si Xiangyan, don't look at me like that. Even if you look at me, the person you want won't come back. I really didn't expect you to be so useless. Since you don't want to be separated from her, why don't you go to her? You are now Make yourself like a lunatic by drinking, and Weng Linran will come back? Instead of performing such a bitter trick, you might as well kneel in front of her and beg her."

"You don't understand." Hearing Zhong Jinlan's words, Si Xiangyan collapsed powerlessly on the ground, pulling her wet long hair with both hands.After the battle that day was over, Weng Linran was sent to the hospital by herself, but when she went to visit the next day, the other party had completed the discharge procedures and returned to her original place of residence.

It took three days for Si Xiangyan to finally find out everything about Weng Linran, and only then did he know that the two had attended the same elementary school.Thoughts and memories intertwined and echoed in the brain, as if the unstoppable attack left no room for breathing to remind Si Xiangyan of things she had forgotten.It turned out that the child who liked to follow her back then, the one who was injured and kissed her in order to save her was Weng Linran.

Every time I close my eyes, Weng Linran's face always comes to mind.She laughed and said that she had loved herself for a long time, but she cried and said that she was tired and really had no strength to chase herself anymore. In 20 years, this cannot be called a short period of time, I completely forgot about Weng Linran, but this woman is always working hard to chase after herself.

She suffers, suffers, and bears everything, but she doesn't know it.He even took her love as sweet words every time, without really thinking about whether it was true.Thinking of this, thinking of what he did to Weng Linran, Si Xiangyan looked at himself in the mirror, punched the person in it, blood was overflowing, but laughed.

It was she who lost Weng Linran and pushed out the best happiness.Now that things have happened, she has no face to go to that person again, and she doesn't know what face she has to face Weng Linran.I can only rely on alcohol to numb my brain every day, making all my feelings muddy and ignorant.Only in this way can she see Weng Linran more in hallucinations and dreams.

"Si Xiangyan, if you really let her go now, you are the one who should be cast aside. You two clearly still have feelings for each other, why do you let the past hinder you? Listen, go to her house now To find her, begging or forcing, you have to bring her back, otherwise Long Wang and I will go for you."

As Zhong Jinlan said, he dragged Si Xiangyan up and threw him into the closet.Looking at his embarrassed appearance in the mirror, Si Xiangyan sat on the ground blankly, motionless.It wasn't until more than ten minutes passed that she dried her hair, changed her clothes, and walked out of the room again.

"I'll take you there." Seeing Si Xiangyan coming out, Zhong Jinlan felt a little comforted. At this moment, Si Xiangyan shook his head and stopped Zhong Jinlan.

"No need, I'll just go there alone."

"Then drive carefully."

The Si family was not far from the house where Weng Linran lived, and they arrived at their destination soon.It was a relatively new community, Si Xiangyan reported Weng Linran's name, and found that the security guard had a weird expression, but he didn't say much to let him in.She went upstairs step by step with anxiety, and when she was about to ring the doorbell to relax herself, she found that the door was not locked at all.

The anxiety in his heart made Si Xiangyan couldn't help but push the door open and go in, but what came into view was not traces belonging to Weng Linran, but the evacuated house and strips of white curtains.Facts have proved that Weng Linran is gone, and she left Luhu stock market without telling herself and all the circumstances, and she didn't even give herself the last chance to meet.

"So, is this your choice?" Si Xiangyan smiled wryly as he walked slowly in the room, visiting the empty room.There is still a faint fragrance here, which belongs to Weng Linran's reassuring smell.The kitchen was empty, the bedrooms were also empty, and all the doors were open, as if deliberately telling the intruding self that she had lost the chance to redeem herself.

At this moment, a small retro door caught Si Xiangyan's attention. She walked over slowly, only to find that this door was locked.If it was Si Xiangyan in the past, she would never have broken in, but now she can't control so much, she needs to know where Weng Linran went, and what was left in the room where she lived.

He took out the gun in his pocket and smashed the door lock, and when he pushed the door open, he was greeted with a faint fragrance of grass.This room was obviously just a storage room, but after entering, Si Xiangyan finally understood why Weng Linran locked it up.All kinds of newspapers are plastered on the walls of this room, and all of them are about themselves.

There are news about myself being suspected by the police, photos of myself participating in some meetings, and more graphic files used by the police to handle cases.In addition to these, there are many bottles and cans.The things inside are not worth much, and it is not an exaggeration to describe it as garbage.The buttons on the clothes, the cigarette butts that have been smoked, the delicate hair.But Si Xiangyan knew that the owner of these things was also himself.

The corner of the mouth raised an incredible arc, but what he felt was the salty bitterness.Si Xiangyan didn't know what was wrong with him, he was clearly still smiling, but his nose was so sore and painful, even his heart was throbbing.The steel fork repeatedly poked at the softest part of my heart, where my feelings and self-blame for Weng Linran were hidden. With a slight touch, the two melted together, and it was a pain that pierced to the bone.

As Weng Linran said, she chased herself for a long time, so long that she forgot what it felt like to be tired.Thinking about someone, paying attention to her life, her actions, her relationships.In order to get close to her, he did not hesitate to go to danger himself, abandoning his timidity and dignity as a woman, just to chase shoulder to shoulder.Such feelings can no longer be described in any words in the world.

Kneeling on the wooden floor of the room, Si Xiangyan didn't know what to do now, she just wanted to stay for a while at the place where Weng Linran was closest to her.Just as she was holding the table up, a line of writing on the corner of the table caught Si Xiangyan's attention.She crouched down again and lit up the place with her mobile phone.His vision became blurred when he saw the words clearly, and he wiped off the cover with the back of his hand, but it became hazy again.

You are my light, without you I am blind.

Si Xiangyan never thought that one day she would cry so embarrassingly, like a child abandoned by her parents, unable to stop those tears.Even if the neighbor next door rushed over because she sensed something was wrong, she couldn't restore her calm.

"Miss, you..."

"Weng Linran, where have you been...Are you really not wanting me anymore?"

"Miss, are you looking for Miss Weng, the resident here? She just left for the airport, if you..."

"Which airport did she go to, do you know!"

"This...I don't know much about this, but it seems that the car is heading towards the central airport."

"Thank you, thank you."

After hearing what the neighbor said, Si Xiangyan ran out before wiping away her tears, even refusing to stop when she twisted her foot when going down the stairs.She drove the car very fast, ran through countless red lights, and finally arrived at the central airport in the shortest time.She shuttled through the crowd regardless of her image, and asked the front desk staff if they had seen Weng Linran, but no one could tell her where Weng Linran was.

In desperation, Si Xiangyan didn't care so much, she rushed into the broadcasting room regardless of the airport staff's obstruction, and even threatened everyone with a gun to make them stand in the corner, and picked up the microphone in the broadcasting room.

"Weng Linran, I'm sorry, although you...you told me long ago that you don't like me saying these three words to you, but I still want to tell you now, I'm sorry. I love you, and I have rarely said this all the time. Three words, in fact, I am just afraid... I am afraid that after you get my love, you will no longer have a sense of novelty or conquest for me, and I am not good at expressing it, so I have been hiding these words in my heart."

"Damn me, if I was smarter, I wouldn't forget what happened to us before. I'm so stupid, I can't... say nothing. Break your heart over and over again, and it ends up like this Coming back to you so brazenly. I'm useless and selfish, I can't let you go, let alone let you go. "

"Please, can you stay? Or wherever you go, can you take me with you? I... I don't know what to say... I don't know what to do to save you. I look at you Evacuated house, I feel like I can no longer beg you to forgive me, but I still... want you to give me a chance. If you are willing to stay, just wait for me at the exit of the airport. "

After Si Xiangyan finished speaking, he looked at the stunned staff standing in the corner, and quickly ran towards the exit.Many people looked at her and saw her anxious look in their eyes.Unfortunately, 10 minutes, 20 minutes... 30 minutes passed, and the person she was waiting for never showed up. "It seems that you have really given up on me." Kneeling weakly on the ground, Si Xiangyan looked at the ring on his hand and whispered.At this time, the police rushed over, and under the leadership of the staff, took Si Xiangyan out.

"Miss Weng, your plane is about to take off, please board quickly." In the VIP lounge, the waiter looked at Weng Linran who was standing by the window and was looking downstairs, and said puzzled.It wasn't until she found transparent tears dripping down her chin that she walked away wisely.Watching that Zhong Jinlan and Long Wang arrived in time to pick up Si Xiangyan, and seeing the other party's distraught look, Weng Linran clutched the ticket in his hand, turned and boarded the plane.

"Farewell, my light."