lover's self-cultivation

"Give me back the things!" The immature child's voice was sharp and piercing, but there was some stubbornness in it.A short, handsome kid yelled loudly in class, which made the teacher glared over in dissatisfaction and asked what happened.However, in the face of the teacher's questioning and the mocking eyes of the whole class, the child didn't say anything, but pushed away the smirking deskmate, bit his arm like crazy, and put his hands in his hands. He snatched back his own stationery bag.

This action of the child caused the whole class to scream, and the boy who was bitten screamed in pain. The teacher hurried over and pulled the two children away, and slapped the biting child back.The burning sting fell on the face, but the child seemed to feel no pain, and tried hard to protect the stationery bag in his hand, like a baby.

It was the first time for the teacher to see such a neurotic and disobedient child. She angrily told him to roll to the corridor as punishment. After hearing this, the child moved his lips as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he said nothing. He stood there in a daze, staring blankly at a certain girl who had never looked this way from the beginning of the incident to the present.

Even if he is young and ignorant, the child knows that everyone here hates him, and maybe that person does too.But she didn't mock her, and she didn't make bad words like others, making fun of herself all the time.Although there is only a little consolation, it is enough.

"Cough..." Weng Linran couldn't help laughing at the sudden intrusion of memories, but it touched the wound and made her cough painfully.She didn't know how long she had been lying here, but she felt that her body was cold and stiff and numb, as if even doing something as easy as blinking was as difficult as reaching heaven.The wound on his waist no longer hurts so much, and his right leg is completely numb.

Weng Linran told himself in his heart to stand up, go to the place she and Si Xiangyan had agreed upon, and fulfill the promise he said he would go back.It's just that it's difficult for this body to even maintain breathing, so why go back to Si Xiangyan's side?

"Yan...Yanyan." Calling Si Xiangyan's name, Weng Linran struggled to cover the bleeding wound on his waist, turned over and lay down on the ground with difficulty.His five fingers sank into the ground, staining the ground a few shades of red, and he struggled to bend and straighten his left leg. After completing this series of movements, he only moved a few centimeters.

"Weng Linran, move a little more, hold on a little longer...it will be fine. You are so weak, how can you protect her...how can you let her remember you, you said you would go back to her, have you forgotten? " Xu was in order not to lose consciousness, Weng Linran kept talking to himself, crawling on the ground with difficulty.The branches rubbed against her bloody right leg, but she still refused to stop as if she couldn't feel it.

In order to ensure Si Xiangyan's safety just now, she didn't make any marks at all along the way, and she didn't know where she ran or how far she ran.Weng Linran doesn't expect anyone to find her before she reaches her limit, but her heart is full of unwillingness.She misses Si Xiangyan so much now, wishing she could see that person's face and smell her cool and sweet smell.But, I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on for too long.

"Ha...ha..." After climbing a few meters with difficulty, it took Weng Linran all his strength for such a tiny distance.She trembled with her hands, trying to support the ground to stand up, but her right leg refused to obey, as if it was being manipulated by someone else.Weng Linran gasped for breath, clasping the wound on his right knee with his hand, trying to use the severe pain to regain the feeling of this leg.

She succeeded, but it caused more blood to overflow from the wound, but she didn't care about that much at the moment.He staggered up from the ground, and carefully moved forward while holding onto the tree trunk.But after walking a few steps, Weng Linran realized that his eyes were getting darker and darker, and he fell to the ground again.This time, there was really no way to get up again, she was panting weakly, her hands were hanging down on her sides, unable to lift them up anymore.

"Yanyan, I'm so cold, I miss you so much..." Weng Linran murmured softly, insisting almost with his only willpower.Vaguely, she felt that she was dead, and she was lucky enough to escape the entanglement of hell and enter heaven by mistake.The body was embraced by that warm and familiar embrace, and Si Xiangyan looked at him with unprecedented tenderness and pity, which almost gave Weng Linran the illusion that the other party also loved her deeply.

From meeting Si Xiangyan to now, Weng Linran has never said love to her.It's not that she doesn't love her, but on the contrary, Weng Linran has already fallen in love with Si Xiangyan.But she is smart but knows that if she says that word now, it will only add burden to Si Xiangyan.If they separate due to some reasons in the future, Si Xiangyan may feel uncomfortable, and may also feel that the beautiful word of love has been deceived and betrayed.

Even if there is only a zero-to-one possibility, Weng Linran does not want Si Xiangyan to take that risk.She hid her love for her in her heart, and every time she wanted to blurt it out, she replaced that word with like.That's right, it's just liking, a kind of love that is infinitely close to love, it doesn't sound strong or passionate, and it won't be too sad even if we separate.Weng Linran thought so, but regretted it a little at this moment, because he was afraid that he would not have the opportunity to tell Si Xiangyan the love she had not had time to express to Si Xiangyan, which is really contradictory.

"Weng Linran, you said you would return yourself to me intact, you broke your promise." Hearing Si Xiangyan say this in a trance, made Weng Linran jump out of the regret that it was too late to say love.She barely opened her eyes, and almost used all her strength to see clearly the person holding her.

She was still so good-looking, and her expression was as cold and reserved as usual, but the anxiety and panic in her eyes exposed all her disguises.Even though her pale face was haggard and dull, and her body was covered with mud, those filths couldn't reduce her arrogance and elegance by half.She knelt on the ground with her back to the sun, supported herself with her arm, and covered the cold and numb wound on her waist with the other hand.

Seeing Si Xiangyan's stubbornness not to express his sadness and fear, Weng Linran's uneasiness was also reduced by half.She smiled joyfully in her heart, thankful that she could see Si Xiangyan in reality, not the paradise she thought she was.Yanyan was really nice, knowing that she couldn't walk back, so she rushed over to find her.In this way, he can be regarded as fulfilling half of the promise, right?Thinking of this, Weng Linran raised the corners of his mouth, and gently tugged at the corner of Si Xiangyan's clothes.

"Although it's not intact, I still...returned to you. As you said, if...I come back...I won't forget...I love you."