lover's self-cultivation

"That's why you leaked all the news about the Si family recently." The pendulum swayed, and its crisp echo made the silence in the room even more obvious.Sitting on the sofa, Si Xiangyan looked at the man half kneeling in front of him, Luo Qi.He is his fiancé, the one he loves, but everything is so ridiculous now.

"That's right, I did it." Even though what he did was exposed, Luo Qi still replied in a flat tone.His short black hair was a little messy, and the white shirt he was wearing was also stained during the escape, but there was no fear or panic in his eyes.

"Give me a reason not to kill you." Forcibly controlling her breathing, she barely managed to keep her words flowing.Si Xiangyan stared closely at the man, wanting to see some traces of distress or sadness from being forced in his eyes, but unfortunately, there was none.

"Xiang Yan, I just don't want my fiancée to be a murderer with blood on her hands. I know that the death of your parents has hit you hard, but it doesn't mean that you need to bear responsibilities that you shouldn't bear. The Si family With so much money, you can completely give up the underworld and find other ways, and I can help you too. But I really can't understand you now, you..."

"Oh, that's why you betrayed me to other gangsters and the police, and put me in danger several times because you love me?" Listening to Luo Qi's words, Si Xiangyan seemed to have heard something The corners of his lips curled up like a joke.She narrowed her eyes slightly and looked at Luo Qi seriously.I don't know when, this sunny boy who always smiles has turned into a man that I can't fathom.And the reason why he betrayed himself was actually because of love...

"Xiang Yan, look at what you have become now? Unreasonable, selfish, selfish, cruel, and even use any means to achieve your own goals. If you kill others recklessly now, sooner or later, someone will deal with you .I just don't want to see that day, I will..."

"Luo Qi, in fact, you wanted to tell me these words a long time ago. Since I started sending people to protect you and let you move into the Si family, you have been dissatisfied with me. This year, you have been subdued I, you must have suffered a lot of grievances."

"Xiang Yan, if you must think so, I can't help it. Indeed, I can't understand your actions. After all, you are only a woman. I can't be your man safely under your protection, but more importantly What's more, I hope you quit the underworld and don't take this road of no return again."

"How I should go is my business, it has nothing to do with you. Tell me, what should I do with you." Getting up from the sofa, Si Xiangyan walked slowly to Luo Qi, looking at the strangeness in the man's eyes towards him , She clenched her teeth and revealed a slight smile.It turns out that no matter how close a person is, they will turn bad, and no matter how much you trust someone, they will betray you for their own desires.

"Xiang Yan, if you really don't care about our relationship for several years, then kill me." At this moment, Luo Qi's expression changed.Seeing him close his eyes, he looked like he was waiting for his own execution.Si Xiangyan just felt helpless and ridiculous, yes, he really couldn't kill him like he did with other traitors.However, the affection he mentioned for several years, is it only he who has it, and doesn't he have it?

"You go."

Memories entangled with dull pain surfaced in the brain, and the scenes reflected in front of my eyes were so familiar at this moment.The right hand holding the gun was already shaking, and the blood soaked the gauze and slowly dripped onto the bed.But at the same time, there is another substance mixed in the period.Weng Linran's face became more and more blurred, as if it was covered with a film of water, making it impossible for him to see through.

As if aware of something, Weng Lin who was sleeping moved, and then stretched out his hand to look for himself, but only hugged his own pillow.Seeing her hugging the pillow tightly as if she found comfort, she kissed her a few more times.Si Xiangyan smiled, reached out to touch his wet cheeks, and took a few steps back as if frightened.The air in the room became more and more oppressive, as if mixed with a virus, she couldn't breathe. She covered her mouth, suppressed her unsteady breathing, and staggered pushed the door out.

"Ha...ha..." Kneeling on the floor of the living room on the first floor, Si Xiangyan gasped with difficulty.She didn't know what was wrong with her, but she felt that her heart was hurting like it was about to split open, more like a scar was cut open with a knife, which made her want to roll on the ground a few times.The tears in her eyes fell uncontrollably. Ever since her parents died, she had long forgotten what it was like to cry.Even after Luo Qi betrayed her and even took her money and left, she didn't lose control like she is now.

However, my whole body is aching, my heart is filled with remorse and powerlessness, and even more disgusted with myself.Si Xiangyan, how can this be useless? If you don't make up your mind, how will you explain to the Si family? If you don't get rid of these betrayers, how will you return to your previous strong state?But... Weng Linran, Weng Linran, his head is full of the shadow of that person.The way she talks, the way she laughs, her embrace makes me nostalgic, and even every love word she said will make me recall it repeatedly, and even laugh out unconsciously.

"What should I do...what should I do to...get myself back to normal." Si Xiangyan murmured in a low voice, and then fell silent.She curled her body together and nestled in the corner of the sofa. She had clearly reached the end, but she was still wriggling inward.She felt that she was so ridiculous at the moment, that she would be troubled by the same thing twice in a row.

After staying in the living room all night, Si Xiangyan didn't feel that his body had regained some strength until the sky was dawning.She picked up the phone, looked at the missed call from Longwang, and called back.

"what's up."

"Sister Si, he was caught at 1 o'clock in the morning yesterday. He didn't know that his identity had been exposed, and he wanted to continue lurking in Si's house, but I caught him right away. I tortured him all night, and I still said this tough thing. You should listen to the content yourself."

"I am going now."

After hanging up the phone, Si Xiangyan closed her eyes and opened them again. She sighed heavily and returned to the room that made her feel like hell last night.Weng Linran on the bed was still asleep hugging his pillow, completely unaware that it was not him.Covering the messy quilt for her, Si Xiangyan still couldn't be completely cruel after all.Finally, he took a look at Weng Linran's sleeping face, and pressed a kiss on her forehead lightly.

"I'm leaving." After Si Xiangyan finished speaking, she changed her clothes and opened the door to leave.She knew that once she left here and came back again, she would no longer have any excuses to convince herself to trust Weng Linran.The kiss just now, the joy of last night, will all be a thing of the past, and one day they will be forgotten by themselves, and they will no longer be remembered.

"Sister Si, are you okay?" Si Xiangyan came in a hurry and was not in the mood to put on makeup. Although he was not very embarrassed, his haggard face was obvious.Seeing her standing at the door with a pale face, Long Wang asked nervously, fearing that the other party would not be able to bear the next conversation.

"Man, I want to talk to him."

"Yes, the person has been brought to the interrogation room."

After talking to Long Wang, Si Xiangyan walked all the way to the innermost room.This is the most secret interrogation base of the Si family, built underground in a large shopping mall.The walls of each room are made of aluminum alloy with a thickness of 50 centimeters. Once locked in, unless Si Xiangyan is willing to let him go, there is no room for escape.

"What's your name?" Entering the interrogation room, Si Xiangyan looked at the man who was suspended in mid-air with wounds all over his body, and asked in a low voice.She has always had very little sympathy, and the only tenderness she has is given to Weng Linran. This kind of scene has long been commonplace.

"Yang...Yang Le."

"I said my real name."

"Heh, Miss Si, do you think I still have the strength or courage to say a fake name? My name is Yang Le. Although I am an undercover police officer, I don't have any records. Like Police Officer Weng, I don't need to change my name. Instead, it will arouse suspicion."

"Don't talk nonsense." Si Xiangyan frowned tightly when she heard Yang Le repeating the words "Officer Weng".

"Okay, whatever Miss Si asks, I'll just answer."

"What is the relationship between Weng Linran and you, what is the purpose of you lurking in the Si family, and do you have any other internal sources? Tell me what you explained yesterday, honestly." Before Si Xiangyan could ask , Long Wang had already spoken first.He was smoking a cigarette and leaning against the door, the warning in his eyes was obvious.

"Okay, let me say. Officer Weng is an informant selected by the police along with me. He has been lurking in the Si family for more than a year. I am her assistant, and her main task is to get close to Miss Si and gain her trust. As for It's just the two of us, and we don't know about the others. Now it seems that Officer Weng has done a very successful job."

"Don't talk nonsense!" Realizing that Si Xiangyan's face became even more ugly after Yang Le finished speaking, Long Wang pressed the finished cigarette on his body, seeing the pained expression on the other side's face, this time he took the cigarette butt away.

"Oh, I really have to admire Mr. Long's methods. Miss Si, if I say that I still know a secret about Officer Weng, will you let me live?" Yang Le said, very frankly. He smiled, he didn't want to lose his life for a job, after all, he wasn't a good person either.

"If it's what I need to know, I can consider saving your life."

"Then let me tell you, Miss Si, the subordinate you value the most right now is Officer Weng as I call her. She is not a policeman, nor is she a real informant. She has been your deadly enemy from the beginning to the end, from the Cheng family's side." Hahaha." Yang Le watched Si Xiangyan's expression change with his words, and smiled happily.Sure enough, the relationship between Si Xiangyan and Weng Linran was unusual.

"Long Wang, tell him to shut up. At least in the near future, I don't want him to laugh anymore." After hearing Yang Le's words, Si Xiangyan said coldly.She turned around, let go of her bleeding lower lip, and slowly walked out of the interrogation room.Si Xiangyan didn't know whether he should be thankful that Weng Linran didn't have the opportunity to say those sanctimonious reasons at this moment, or should be angry at her deliberate deception from the beginning.

But no matter what, no matter what Weng Linran's heart is, how much real affection she has for her feelings.

Between them, there is no going back.