lover's self-cultivation

"Miss Weng, here is the hot water you asked for."

"Thanks."

Sitting in the hall of Si's villa, Weng Linran drank warm boiled water slowly, like every day recently, in a daze, sleeping, and continued to be in a daze after waking up.It has been a whole month since Si Xiangyan left and went to an unknown place.Even the special day of New Year's Eve has never been back.

Spending Christmas, New Year's Eve, and New Year's Eve here alone, Weng Linran even forgot what she was going to do, and hadn't been out for a long time.But obviously, the scope of her free activities is only in the Si family's seemingly huge villa. She has nowhere to go, let alone the qualification and ability to step out of here.She was like a bird locked up, but Si Xiangyan's key had disappeared.

"Miss Weng, do you need anything else? I'm adding some water for you."

"It's okay, you go to rest, I can do it by myself." Weng Linran politely rejected the servant's proposal, moved his stiff body, and stretched out his left hand to grab the cup.However, when he got up, the cup was still standing on the table without moving at all.

Discovering this fact, Weng Linran was taken aback for a moment, looked down at his uncontrollably shaking left hand, and sighed helplessly.Time can heal many things, and Weng Linran's injuries are almost healed.The nails on his right hand have grown back, and there is no serious problem. The wounds on his abdomen and back have also healed and scabbed.However, this left hand is really as Dr. Zhang said, it is impossible to completely recover.

The fracture of the bone will leave permanent damage. After the splint is removed, Weng Linran often has a feeling of uncontrollable left hand. The five fingers will be sore with a little force, and they will tremble unconsciously from time to time. Little effort.Thinking of this, Weng Linran clenched his left wrist angrily, forcing himself to pick up the cup.But in the end, it was still in vain, and the five fingers still had no feeling.

"Weng Linran, you are really useless." Sitting slumped on the sofa, Weng Linran murmured in a low voice, hugging his head with his hands in pain, and curled up in a corner.She was fed up with being trapped in Si's house every day, unable to see Si Xiangyan, and didn't even know where she went.For such a situation, she was powerless to refute, powerless to reject, and she didn't even have a chance to ask why.

If Si Xiangyan really didn't care about her anymore, why didn't she let her go?Was she going to trap herself here for the rest of her life, or... did she feel like she hadn't paid off what she owed her?

Weng Linran sank deeper and deeper into his sadness, so he didn't realize that there was already a person standing at the door, and he took all her actions into his eyes.I haven't seen him for a month, and Weng Linran's condition seems to be much better than before. Although his figure is still so thin, his face is no longer sickly.Seeing her holding the cup, Si Xiangyan felt a dull pain in his heart. Sure enough, the injury to that hand was serious. Even if it was treated in time, it left indelible marks.

This month, in order not to let my determination waver again, or do anything to hurt Weng Linran again.Although there were thousands of worries in his heart, Si Xiangyan decided to go abroad for a while to sort out his messy thoughts.However, the reality is much more difficult than the idea in the heart.After such a long time, seeing her again, Si Xiangyan was surprised to find that he missed Weng Linran so much, and wanted to hug her tightly just thinking of looking at her from a distance.

"Since you're back, why don't you talk." In the end, it was Weng Linran who noticed the strangeness in the room. After all, Si Xiangyan's breath was so unforgettable and abrupt to her.She raised her head and looked at the person standing at the door.Si Xiangyan was still Si Xiangyan, she was still exactly the same as when I first saw her, dazzling, cold and natural.She looked at herself quietly, taking her own embarrassment into her eyes, but she didn't move at all.

"Your injury is healed." Now that he was discovered, Si Xiangyan had no reason to remain silent.She walked slowly to the sofa and sat down, facing Weng Linran's direct gaze, she took the initiative to dodge for the first time.

"Well, it's ready."

The simple conversation ended, but no one answered the conversation.The room was silent and could hear the breathing of the two people and the sound of the pendulum moving. Weng Linran looked directly at Si Xiangyan who bowed his head, and suddenly felt that the situation at this moment was both ridiculous and sad.The two of them should be the closest people, but now they sit opposite each other like strangers, and even ordinary conversations are full of embarrassment.

"Where have you been?" Ten minutes later, Weng Linran spoke again.She was very curious about what made Si Xiangyan leave for so long, maybe the real purpose was just to avoid herself? "Just walking around." Si Xiangyan was obviously unwilling to answer Weng Linran's question, and the answer was indeed perfunctory.Hearing her response, Weng Linran laughed disdainfully, at first it was just a chuckle, but later it turned into a wry smile.

"Yeah, just walk around at will, and you don't need to tell me anything before you leave. Si Xiangyan, do you still regard me as your woman? Or, the relationship between you and me has already made me that Someone who is not entitled to know where you have gone?" Weng Linran clearly finished speaking with a smile, but Si Xiangyan felt that her heart was clearly riddled with holes and bleeding bright red.Looking at the person in front of him, Si Xiangyan couldn't help but feel distressed and scared even though he was already prepared to face today.

"That's right, the relationship between the two of us is no different from that of strangers, and I don't need to tell you where I went. Now that your injury is healed, just leave." Si Xiangyan lowered his voice as much as possible, To avoid trembling, she lowered her head, not daring to look at Weng Linran's expression at the moment, perhaps this was the first time in her life that she was so cowardly.

"Oh...leave? Where do you want me to go, and where can I go? Si Xiangyan, I said that if one day you get tired of me, I will leave you without hesitation. But I don't know what you are What do you think, if you really don't love me anymore, why don't you dare to look at me? Since you think I betrayed you, why don't you just kill me!" Weng Linran said excitedly, and suddenly walked forward quickly , pushed Si Xiangyan down on the sofa, and pressed her shoulders with both hands.

"Weng Linran, you have crossed the line." Si Xiangyan did not expect that Weng Linran would suddenly press down on him with great force.I felt the trembling of her body and the weakness of her left hand, which was not only caused by anger, but also caused by forcefully exerting force despite being clearly weak.At this time, Si Xiangyan suddenly regretted what he had just said so directly.

"Si Xiangyan, are you lying to me? You haven't even heard my explanation, so why did you just deprive me of the opportunity? I have never done anything wrong to you and the Si family. Although I blame you for not believing me, I blame you. You hurt me, but I still can't stop loving you, even I don't know what's wrong with me. You let me get your virus, but you want to leave me cruelly. Do you know, my My heart is going to die of pain.”

This time, Weng Linran didn't cry, but made Si Xiangyan even more uncomfortable.She knew that she knew that Weng Linran had done nothing, but she couldn't tolerate other possibilities.Ever since she knew that Weng Linran was a policeman and a spy sent by the Cheng family, she always wondered why this person approached her?How could she like herself.If her original intention of loving him was to complete the task, how could it be said that she really liked her?

Si Xiangyan admits that she sucks, even if she can't let go of Weng Linran in her heart, she still can't accept the other party's purpose of approaching her.It was like a thorn in her heart, constantly grinding her mood, making it impossible for her to face Weng Linran calmly.That's why she made the decision to let her go, so that the two have nothing to do is the best result.

"Weng Linran, I don't love you anymore, and I don't want to see you again. So what if you love me? Do you dare to say that your purpose of approaching me is only because you love me? Not the so-called purpose?" Si Xiangyan said a series of words The question made Weng Linran slightly stunned, but then she laughed even more presumptuously.The laughter was not bitter, but full of sarcasm.

"So, this is what you care about. After all, you still don't want to believe me, right? Si Xiangyan, how can you think of me like that? You don't even know how long I've loved you, I..."

"Xiang Yan, I left your things with me, and I'll bring them to you, but you seem to be in some trouble now."

Weng Linran urgently wanted to explain something, but at this moment, the door was suddenly pushed open, watching Luo Qi come in, and looking at Si Xiangyan with gentle eyes, Weng Linran seemed to have suddenly understood something, completely frozen there.

"What are you doing here?" Upon discovering Weng Linran's change, Si Xiangyan gently pushed her away, even if it was just a small movement, the damage was immeasurable.Touching her shoulder that was touched by Si Xiangyan, Weng Linran lowered his head and smiled wryly, feeling that he was like an acrobatic clown at the moment, she used everything she believed to be true, desperately trying to save a heart and left people.In the end, she was treated as a joke like a fool.

"I just want to come and deliver the things you left at my house, so that you won't be inconvenient when you use them. Besides, I miss you very much." Luo Qi said, hugging Si Xiangyan gently, and whispering in a very small voice She whispered in her ear: "Xiang Yan, if you need help, I can play a show with you, so that she won't pester you."

Luo Qi's voice was so small that only Si Xiangyan could hear it. After receiving this suggestion, Si Xiangyan frowned and wanted to object, but before she could say anything, Weng Linran had already walked over.

"I am the one who should leave at this time." I was tired and tired.Weng Linran didn't want to explain anymore, and didn't want to say anything more.She had already made a promise that if one day, her love for Si Xiangyan would become her burden, even if she didn't want to, she would leave.And now, it's time to deliver on that promise.

"Weng Linran, you..." Seeing Weng Linran walking slowly towards the door, Si Xiangyan looked at her, and always felt that the thin back was frightening, as if she would disappear after leaving this door.It seems that since a long time ago, this person's smile has been lost by himself.

"Si Xiangyan, you have to be good." Even if the person who makes you happy is no longer me.

The sun, which had not been seen for a long time, was dazzling, slowly walking out of the Si family's villa, Weng Linran wandered aimlessly on the road.Seeing a large number of cars parked in front of her, she smiled and took the initiative to walk up.

She and Si Xiangyan are over, but her mission must continue.