lover's self-cultivation

"Why did you come here?" In fact, as early as the moment Weng Linran entered the room, Si Xiangyan realized that it was her, so he didn't make any moves.With the faint moonlight, she found that Weng Linran's face was extremely pale, and the whites of his eyes were covered with intricate bloodshot.Her whole body was covered with rainwater, and her body was even colder and shivering.

"Why... come here? Yes, in fact, you don't want to see me at this time. But there is no way, I miss you, I miss you like crazy, so I still come here. I waited at the door for a day, All day long, watching you and that man go in and out, watching you talking and laughing, I feel like an idiot."

As Weng Linran said, he leaned down and half-lyed on Si Xiangyan's body, rubbing his head against her shoulder.Although it was a coquettish gesture, she didn't move the knife around her neck.

"Things are not what you see." Si Xiangyan wanted to explain something, but felt that Weng Linran's current state was very strange.In order not to anger the other party, she absolutely did not dare to act rashly.

"I know it's not what I see, but I know it, but you don't."

"That man doesn't love you at all. All he thinks about is how to put you to death. He is Cheng Lun's adopted son, and he has relied on Cheng Lun's support in foreign countries all these years. He came back this time The purpose is to get close to you and regain your trust, do you understand?" Weng Linran said anxiously, his speech speed and tone were full of excitement.Listening to her messy panting, Si Xiangyan stretched out his hand and stroked her back.

"Weng Linran, I already knew what you said."

"You know? How did you know...Since you know, why do you..." Hearing Si Xiangyan's answer, Weng Linran's body froze.She didn't expect Si Xiangyan to know the conspiracy behind Luo Qi, that is to say, from the beginning to the end, she was the last person to know.So what are these now?Si Xiangyan asked herself to leave not because she liked Luo Qi, but because she wanted to leave without any reason?

"Weng Linran, calm down." Although she doesn't know what happened to Weng Linran, her current behavior is too abnormal.Seeing her start to laugh after being silent for a long time, Si Xiangyan's weird reaction really made Si Xiangyan dare not act rashly.

"Calm down? Si Xiangyan, how do you make me calm down? You know everything, you know Luo Qi lied to you, you know that he has other plans for approaching you, you know all the plots but don't tell me, you just want me to leave, no?"

"Weng Linran, is there any point in saying this now? I said long ago that we will never go back together." Hearing Weng Linran's questioning, Si Xiangyan felt a little sore in his heart.About the two of them, I was at fault, but why didn't Weng Linran be at fault first?It doesn't matter if you say she is stubborn or hard-hearted, after all, she still can't forget Weng Linran's deception to her.

"Yeah, I also know we can't go back. But whether it's before or after it happened, you never fully believed me, right? I have loved you for almost 20 years, and I have been looking for you , looking for you as my most important treasure. I finally found you, I was so happy that I couldn’t sleep every night, I only thought about you.”

"Seeing that you have a boyfriend, I told myself that I can wait until a suitable opportunity approaches you. Then God finally gave me this opportunity, and I was so happy that I was going crazy. I approached you with a purpose , but so what? Do you want me to erase all my past before you can be satisfied? "

"It's true that Cheng Lun is my father, but in his eyes, I'm just his pawn. He captured my mother and threatened me with her life to kill you. What can I do? You tell me what to do Do? Watch my biological mother die? If I really did that, what is the difference between me and a beast? Si Xiangyan, I am so tired, really tired. But all of you won’t let me take a break, Not even giving me room to breathe."

Weng Linran talked for a long time, but Si Xiangyan also kept listening without speaking.She admitted that she didn't know enough about Weng Linran, nor did she know what she was carrying.But what happened to 20 years?Have you met her before?And now, she is pointing a knife at herself, is she going to make a decision?

"We've met before? So, what do you want now?" Si Xiangyan replied in a low voice, the hand on Weng Linran's back slowly moved upwards, stroking her neck, but it was actually defensive.Seeing her small movements, Weng Linran's smile grew even wider.She looked at Si Xiangyan below her, at the knife in her hand and her slender neck, and with a slight force, a bloodstain appeared on that fair neck.

The blood flowed down Si Xiangyan's neck and onto the pillow. The scarlet color was beautiful and dazzling, like roses scattered on the bed, with a withered and broken beauty.Seeing that Si Xiangyan was stiff because of his actions, there was a little worry in his eyes.Weng Linran did not take away the knife, but bowed his head and kissed her, gently kissing her cool lips.

The long-lost kiss is still a familiar taste, but it has lost the enthusiasm of the past. Feeling Si Xiangyan's stiffness, Weng Linran smiled wryly, closed his eyes and devoted himself to this kiss, even if the taste gradually turned into a salty and bitter taste. The focus of the kiss.However, when he raised his eyes again, the person in front of his sight was already in tears, unable to piece together the original.

"My heart hurts very much. This knife is so sharp, a single stroke will leave a scar on your body." Weng Linran said, and gradually moved the kiss down, kissing the wound on Si Xiangyan's neck, wrapping her He licked the blood dry and sucked lightly.The sting made Si Xiangyan tremble slightly, but he didn't have any intention of resisting, he just let Weng Linran vent on himself.

"Does it hurt? Does it hurt? But, here, it hurts a lot more than yours." Weng Linran took Si Xiangyan's hand that was placed aside, and pressed it on his left chest. "Seeing you hurt, I am sadder than anyone else. I love you so much that I can't even care about myself. I never said that I love you as a joke, but you never seem to believe it."

"Do you think I will hurt you? Do you think I will really kill you? Si Xiangyan, let me tell you, if one day I have to choose, you will always be the one who makes the final decision. I just hurt You will blame yourself a little bit, but you are about to break my heart, but I have nothing to do with you. "

"Weng Linran...I'm sorry." Si Xiangyan has always felt that he is a cruel person, but at this moment, seeing Weng Linran's tears, he confirmed this idea even more.She was no longer afraid of the knife on her neck, but held it with her hand and took it from Weng Rinran's hand.The sharp blade cut through the palm of her hand, causing bursts of stinging pain, she got up from the bed nonchalantly, and hugged Weng Linran.

"Although there are still many things I want to say to you, you should really go now. It's not safe here. I will find someone to escort you out, send you to a safe place, and leave your mother's matter to me .”

"Do you still want me to go?"

"It's not that I want you to go, but that you have to go."

"But... where can I go? I have nowhere to go. I want to kill him, I must kill him." Suddenly, Weng Linran pushed Si Xiangyan away as if possessed, Go out the door.Si Xiangyan knew what she wanted to do, but had to stop her.As someone who has been with Luo Qi for a long time, she knows that this man is cautious and will not live alone in the Si family. Presumably the Si family should be surrounded by his people.And for the sake of future plans, I definitely can't have a showdown with Luo Qi at this time.

"Weng Linran, his people are here, you can't get rid of him at all. I will let Zhong Jinyu come over now, she will protect you and leave, and I will handle the rest." Si Xiangyan said, and hurriedly opened the The mobile phone sent a message to Zhong Jinyu, but Weng Linran still stood in the room without making any statement.

"Have you ever loved me? Or, in your heart, I'm the same as the men you've dated before, just a tool for you to pass the time?"

"Why do you ask that?" Hearing Weng Linran's question, Si Xiangyan's face darkened.She was right to be sorry for Weng Linran, but how could her feelings for her be fake?

"You always keep the things he gave you, and the photos of you together, don't you? If you really forgot about him, why do you keep these things? Why did I lose my temper the last time I touched them? Si Xiangyan, I've really had enough of this feeling, when will you be honest with me?"

"Weng Linran, you said that I was not honest enough, did you do the same request? The reason why I lost my temper with you is that you would rather investigate yourself than ask me directly. Those photos are just for me to remind you The proof that I don’t want to be deceived again, after I completely accept you, I have already burned it. But these words are no longer important now, the person who protects you has arrived, you can go.”

"I understand." After Weng Linran finished speaking, she turned the doorknob and was about to leave, but she turned back before the door was opened.Seeing that she took out the medicine box on the shelf, squatted in front of her, gently wiped the disinfectant on her wound, and then wrapped it carefully.Her side face was as serious as ever, and even her eyes were extremely focused.

Seeing that she finished treating the wound on her hand, she stood up and wiped the wound on her neck again.Si Xiangyan turned her head away a little sadly, she couldn't see Weng Linran's expression at the moment, and she was afraid that if she looked at it for a second longer, she would be soft-hearted and let her stay.However, if she was allowed to stay at this time, she would only suffer more harm.

After all the wounds were treated, Weng Linran didn't say anything, but quietly put away the medicine box, and then slowly left the room.Standing in front of the window, watching her get into the car with his subordinates, Si Xiangyan was relieved.

Sitting in the co-pilot's seat, Weng Linran was not surprised that the person who came was Zhong Jinyu, and she was not in the mood to care about these things.Before he left, the medicine he had given was fading, his body seemed to be getting heavier again, and the echo in his brain was gradually becoming clearer.In a daze, suddenly the car was hit by a huge impact. Before she could react, Zhong Jinyu beside her had already clutched her bleeding shoulder in pain and fell on the steering wheel.

All of a sudden, fierce gunshots rang out, and the members of the Si family were completely unprepared, and were completely wiped out by the sudden attack.The body was dragged out of the car and fell heavily on the ground. Weng Linran looked at Luo Qi who appeared in front of him, and touched his gun hidden behind his clothes.

"Miss Weng, it's a pity that your mission failed again. It was your last chance just now."