Beyond friendship is love

After a long time, An Shixiao tilted his head back, leaned on the sofa and said, "Do you know? That year, you and Ji Yiran played together in the piano room, and I heard it."

Shen Mingyan turned his head to look at An Shixiao in surprise, and when he saw An Shixiao looking at him, he turned his head away in embarrassment, and still didn't speak, wanting to hear what An Shixiao wanted to say next, at this moment, He can only choose to listen. In front of An Shixiao, he will always be the one who is at a loss. When one person has too much influence on another person, maybe it is really not a good thing.

"For so many years, I still remember clearly that day you hugged him and cried so miserably, heh, you who have never shown weakness in front of me, but you cried so hard in the arms of Ji Yiran who I have known for less than a month You didn't have any defenses at all, and you played that song at the orientation meeting, you had a crush on, heh, who do you have a crush on? Ji Yiran? That's what I thought at the time."

Speaking of this, perhaps recalling the bitter mood when he saw Shen Mingyan and Ji Yiran embracing each other, An Shixiao raised his right hand and covered his eyes, trying to hide the sadness in his eyes.

"Actually, I hated you a little bit at the beginning."

"What?" Hate him?Shen Mingyan looked at An Shixiao in surprise again, but this time, the other side covered his eyes and didn't look at him.What did he do to make An Shixiao say words like hate to describe his feelings towards him?

"Oh, maybe it's not hating you, even I don't understand what kind of mentality it is. I've been thinking, why would you rather love Ji Yiran who you just met not long after we've been together since childhood? Willing to love me. I want to separate you, thinking that introducing a woman to you will solve all problems. As long as you are not with Ji Yiran, you will still be me alone. But, you and I You quarreled and slapped me. You must not know it. At that time, I was really mad. If I hadn't been sane, I would have thought that I would take a knife to chop Ji Yiran. After so many years, I've been hating, why don't you love me?"

As he spoke, An Shixiao's voice was a little choked up, and this time, regardless of whether Shen Mingyan would resist or not, he hugged him directly and buried his face in his neck.

"I'm very dull, and I never understood what the anger in my heart is for that is driving me to the brink of death. I really want to see you, but every time I see you, when I think that there is someone more important than me in your heart, I I can’t wait to let the other party disappear into this world. I obviously want to treat you well, but when I think of you loving someone else, I can’t bear the anger. I thought it was because I hate you for liking men, but later I realized , It’s not that I hate you for liking a man, but that the man you like is not me. I realized that it’s called jealousy. I’m jealous that Ji Yiran is loved by you. Yanyan, you know for so many years, I asked What is your biggest problem?"

"What is it?" Shen Mingyan asked subconsciously following An Shixiao's words with a hoarse voice.

"Why isn't the person you love me?" An Shixiao hugged him even tighter, trying to get closer to Shen Mingyan's neck.

"You are a pig, which eye sees that I like Yiran, I am just friends with him." Shen Mingyan was so angry that he slapped An Shixiao on the back.This stupid man really pissed him off.

"Yes, I'm a pig, that's why I brought Xiaoyou to anger you. I was waiting for you the day I got engaged to her, but you didn't come. You forgot that you said you would be my partner, and I walked into the auditorium together. I kept asking myself that day, if you came to stop this engagement, what would I do? The first thought was that I would definitely call off this engagement, if you asked me to do it, I would Do it, but that day, all the people left, and you didn't come.

"I…"

Shen Mingyan wanted to say that because he heard that he was going to get engaged, he was overly sad, drunk to the point of alcohol poisoning, developed a high fever and turned into pneumonia, and was admitted to the hospital, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly couldn't speak.

All these years, what has he missed between him and him?And why let each other waste so many years of time?

"Yanyan, I know I'm an asshole, and I've been hurting you all these years, but I don't feel better. When you and Ji Yiran were talking and laughing together, you knew how much my heart hurts. The knife is piercing my heart, I am a person, how can I make others feel better when others hurt me. Heh, in the end, I am still stupid. If I knew you better, wouldn't we have to miss so many years? "

"Xiao...I..." Shen Mingyan didn't know what to say, since when was the person holding him so fragile since childhood?Having loved An Shixiao for so many years, he never had the slightest thought of blaming him. He also knew that love could not be forced. Falling in love with An Shixiao was his business, and An Shixiao was free to not love him. There was no rule. The person you love must love you.

I never loved without hope, and I didn't even dare to think that this person also loved him.Maybe last night was a little uncertain, but now Shen Mingyan can feel with certainty that An Shixiao really loves him.Not friendship, but love like him.

Slowly put the bracelet on An Shixiao's back, and then slowly tighten it, gently closed his eyes and leaned on An Shixiao's shoulder.

This person's embrace turned out to be so reassuring.

Sensing Shen Mingyan's compromise, An Shixiao's last reservation also burst.

Shen Mingyan has been his weakness since childhood, how could he think that he didn't love Shen Mingyan, how could he think that he loved others, how could he think that he could spend his life with other people?Without Shen Mingyan, what's the point of everything?

"Yanyan, I love you, I really love you, don't leave me, I really miss you, I can't find you, I can't find you anywhere, I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." An Shixiao was already a little incoherent, his emotions were no longer under control, he thought of what to say, and the only thing he said the most was sorry, he owed Shen Mingyan, and he wanted to spend his whole life to make up for the gap between them. He wants to enrich his time in the future, he only needs one chance, and only Shen Mingyan can give this chance.

He didn't ask for anything, he just hoped that he and Shen Mingyan could be together well, guard the love they finally resolved, raise Xiaocheng together, change from black hair to white hair, become old hunchback together, Tooth loss... this lifetime is enough.

"Am I naive, I love you, but I use Fang You to stimulate you." An Shixiao asked in a low voice, with rare embarrassment in his tone.

Shen Mingyan burst out laughing.

"It's quite childish."

An Shi Xiao let go of Shen Mingyan, looked at him face to face and said, "I haven't seen you smiling so happily for a long time."

Holding Shen Mingyan's face with both hands, he took a thorough look at the other person. He still had the same crooked eyes, slender eyelashes, and a straight nose bridge. He was even more attractive than his mature face. His eyes moved down slightly. It was Shen Mingyan's slightly red lips, and An Shixiao became a little obsessed remembering the taste of these lips once.

Shen Mingyan's head was fixed by An Shixiao, and he was a little embarrassed by the hot eyes of the other party. He wanted to lower his head but couldn't do it, so he could only indulge in An Shixiao's deep eyes, watching As the face of the other party got closer and closer, I felt An Shixiao's lips pressed against his, soft and cool.

The atmosphere slowly warmed up in the warmth, and the two kissed peacefully and affectionately for the first time. This kind of kiss was full of love, but not any other desire.He and his birth seemed to be for each other's existence.Life is incomplete without anyone.

An Shixiao pressed his forehead against Shen Mingyan's, and rubbed back and forth intimately, as if feeling unsatisfied, he hugged Shen Mingyan vigorously and put him on his lap.

"Xiao, let me go."

Shen Mingyan had a thin skin, a big man was hugged by another man, his whole face was burning red.An Shixiao sniggered maliciously, and said shamelessly, "No, I'm afraid you'll run away again."

This time, Shen Mingyan stopped struggling and let An Shixiao hold him like this. For the first time, he lowered his face and threw himself into An Shixiao's arms, wrapped his arms around An Shixiao's waist, and buried his face in his chest, feeling stuffy Said: "Xiao, you have to think clearly, you know that the love I want is very pure, I will not share you with others, if you really want to be with me, then you can only have me alone."

Judging from An Shixiao's various behaviors and words, he does not doubt that An Shixiao loves him now, but he has no confidence to let An Shixiao love him only. He knows better than anyone else that if it is not a love that will last forever, he would rather not have it. Although he once felt that it was worthwhile to fall in love with An Shixiao, but now he doesn't think so anymore. He is tired and really wants to find someone to have a good time with. Live, instead of endless pain like this.

An Shixiao naturally understood what Shen Mingyan meant, and when he thought of Shen Mingyan who loved him back then but wrote a love letter for him, he wanted to slap himself twice.There is no one in the world who is more stupid and asshole than him.What a fool he said, how could he think that after falling in love with him, he would fall in love with someone else.Maybe it's time to review myself, what has he brought to Shen Mingyan these years, such an outstanding person, but when facing his love, he has no confidence, and these are not all that he has given to Shen Mingyan. caused the damage.

"I know, I know, who else can make me so obsessed except you, you little fool."

Turning Shen Mingyan's face, let him face himself, and said with sincerity and determination in his eyes: "Yanyan, I swear, from now on, An Shixiao will only love Shen Mingyan alone, if you break this oath, God Hit..." Wu Lei boomed.

Before he finished speaking, Shen Mingyan covered his mouth with both hands.

"What nonsense are you talking about? Who told you to make such an oath." Although it was just a superstitious oath, Shen Mingyan didn't want to hear bad things about An Shixiao.

Pull Shen Mingyan's hand down and wrap it in his hands.

This idiot-like person really loves him badly. If he hurts him again in the future, he will really be inhuman.After finally finding Shen Mingyan, his heart was finally relieved.

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