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Since junior high school, Ye Mu has clearly realized that he is different from others.Boys who are in their ignorant prime years are fascinated by the opposite sex. They are eager to get closer, and their inner feelings prompt them to keep exploring.

But Ye Mu is on the contrary, lacks interest in girls, instead prefers to stay with boys, and has a better impression of boys than other girls.He often pays attention to boys with handsome appearance, and likes to observe the bravery of male students with strong body and blood in sports.

Later, he found out that he had a disease called homosexuality, which literally means liking boys.It was only later that he realized that homosexuality is not a disease, but innate, and a person's sexual orientation has been determined as soon as he is born.This somewhat comforted Ye Mu, but invisibly brought him more pressure.

Ye Mu's parents work in other places all the year round, and they have no time to care about their children's life and study. They only spend a few weeks a year by his side, let alone discovering any abnormalities in their children; In the north, communication mostly relies on one line and two cold machines.Ye Mu, who is used to lodging, can also take care of her studies and life by herself.

Relatively speaking, Ye Mu may be closer to his grandfather, the grizzled old man who lost his wife when he was young, and treated him like his own grandson, spending the unforgettable childhood with him.

Grandpa has been in poor health, suffering from hidden diseases, coughing all day long, especially during that time.It was a holiday that day, and he was still nervous about his studies, but he stayed at his grandfather's house temporarily as usual. His grandfather lay on the bed to recuperate, and the hired nanny took care of everything.That night, my grandfather held his hand and talked a lot, telling stories about him and his mother when he was a child.

Maybe he will never forget the last words before going to bed: "Ah Mu, when I grow up... Cough, you have to honor your mother and your father well, it's not easy for them, cough cough ...Busy with work all day long, in the future, you have to respect them and take good care of them..."

When Ye Mu closed the door of Grandpa's room, he had a vague feeling that this door would be closed forever.

The next day, my grandfather passed away and went to another world to find the wife he had guarded for more than twenty years.Ye Mu left early in the morning, and didn't notice anything unusual about his grandfather. He didn't receive the notice until the funeral was about to be held.

The funeral was very simple, and most of the people who came were older collateral relatives.

Watching Grandpa's body being cremated under his nose, Ye Mu's eyes were red and he was expressionless.The relatives on the side advised him to rest in the room.He didn't move, just asked, and the expression on his face became turbulent: "Why is Grandpa..., you don't tell me?"

The relative hesitated and said, "You... well, we didn't mean to hide it from you, isn't the exam coming soon?" Ye Mu didn't say anything, and finally was forced by several people to take him to rest.

Lie on the bed and hide under the blanket.

My parents didn't come to my grandfather's funeral. I heard that they are busy with work and are on a business trip abroad.It's money again!As the only daughter of the grandfather, the mother actually missed the funeral of the person who raised her because of her work. In vain, the grandfather still missed her until his death.

Thinking of the bits and pieces of myself and my grandfather, those memories seem to be liquefied into liquid, and an outlet is urgently needed.One drop, two drops, tears gushed out like ferocious beasts, and he burst into tears. For the first time, he cried so desperately, so heart-piercingly, and let go of the strength he pretended to be in front of others.One is because of the grandfather whose bones are still cold, and the other is because of such unfeeling parents.After crying, my voice became hoarse, my eyes were swollen, and I fell asleep with sobs.

The next day is the senior high school entrance examination.

As expected, he got the worst score in his study career. In this crucial competition that he had worked hard for nine years, he was defeated completely.If you don't meet the key points, you're not even going to enter ordinary high school.

Finally, perhaps out of conscience, his parents took him to the north, the city where they lived more often.

The woman said: "Let's go, Xiao Mu, and live with us from now on." Yes, it's just living, not living together.In a word, he was dug out from the city where he had lived since he was a child, and thrown into another, strange, cold metropolis.Using money and the accumulated relationships from dealing with various people in daily life, he bought a place for admission to a key local high school.

Although Ye Mu was reluctant, but also quite helpless, he could only accept it.Thus, he met Yan Feng, that big boy who always likes to have a hearty smile.

Entering high school, the study is still busy, in order to be assigned to a good class in the next semester of arts and sciences, everyone in the school is working hard.Ye Mu chose to live on campus, not because the school is far away, but because there is often no one at home. Ye's father and mother still stay abroad most of the time. Facing a house with only furniture, it is more convenient to live directly.

The best way for a person to escape from one thing is to get caught up in another.In Ye Mu's high school life, all that is left is to study, to keep learning, to contribute to her future.

Fortunately, Huang Tian paid off, holding the final exam report card, Ye Mu breathed a sigh of relief, and smiled from the bottom of his heart, as if the burden on his shoulders was a little lighter.

What followed was a summer vacation without heavy homework. Instead of completely relying on his parents' financial support, he found a summer job and worked in a milk tea shop.Coincidentally, another boy who was also a summer worker was actually a classmate in my class.

The man's name is Yan Feng. He looks sunny and has a cheerful personality. He looks like a big brother next door in appearance, but he is a bit ruffian in temperament. He is especially popular in the store.Perhaps because of his "former classmate" relationship, he also took extra care of Ye Mu.Ye Mu usually puts the most emphasis on studying, and doesn't have much contact with the classmates in the class.Putting aside studying now, it makes me a little uncomfortable to make a friend seriously.Faced with the sudden enthusiasm, he had no choice but to be indifferent to it.

"Ah Mu, don't make such a face, the boss, the kid should be frightened by you, come on, smile." Yan Feng pinched Ye Mu's face, and the latter hurriedly avoided.

"What...why are you making such a fuss, I just have to laugh." Ye Mu was extremely unnatural.As he spoke, he forcefully squeezed out an expression uglier than crying.Yan Feng held his forehead,

"Well, you should keep a straight face." The picture was so beautiful that Yan Feng covered his face and dared not look at it.Yan Feng looked frustrated, and the muscles on his face showed various strange posses.Ye Mu was amused by that funny expression, and the lesbian next to him laughed and said that Yan Feng was a living treasure.Seeing others laughing, Yan Feng "acted" harder, I don't know if it was for those girls or Ye Mu.

Although the relationship between the two of them is not very good friends, the feeling of someone caring really warmed Ye Mu's heart, and his attitude towards Yan Feng became softer.

The arrival of the new semester has added new impetus to Ye Mu's life, and everything is full of hope.His grades can be ranked among the top three in the same level, but it is a pity that he is still a little behind to enter the experimental class, which is the elite class in the school.Maybe it's fate, Yan Feng was also assigned to the same class.The two looked down and saw each other every day.

Yan Feng is a regular school student, but like Ye Mu, his home is far away from the school, and it takes more than half an hour to go back and forth, which is inconvenient. He also didn't choose to stay at home, after all, the conditions at home are better.He usually doesn't go home at noon and between afternoon and evening self-study, but stays at school with a few classmates and eats in the shops around the school.Sometimes he would call Ye Mu together, and he agreed without thinking too much.

Yan Feng's personality has always been pleasing, whether he is a boy or a girl, he is very happy.Although the grades are at the middle level in the class, but the popularity is among the top three, and there are only a few people in the new class who know each other. Yan Feng can get along with everyone in a few weeks, and even Ye Mu sometimes envies him communication skills.

Ye Mu, on the other hand, still maintains the habit of last semester, doing his own way, talking politely to others, and not joking, giving people a feeling of aloofness and aloofness.Rather helpless, under the guidance of the teacher's concept of "high IQ, EQ can't fall", he began to interact with others slowly, but most of the conversations were still about learning.In a sense, Yan Feng is the person with the best relationship, at least he is more willing to talk to him.

But no one is perfect, Yan Feng's popularity is good, but his grades may not be as good.Without the pressure of the placement test, his usual free time was spent playing ball and games with various classmates, and he began to pick up some bad habits.Nature doesn't work in the competitive high school world.

As soon as the results of the first monthly exam came out, Yan Feng plummeted to catch up to the bottom, while Ye Mu still ranked first.There are two extremes.

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